hold you in my arms tonight

When I officially signed a company to become an artist, I hadn’t graduated yet. That company was a new company named Qingyan. The conditions it offered me were so good that I suspected it was a lie. .

I have always known that An Xiaoqian likes Xie Yuan, and once wanted to match her up, but gradually, I gradually confirmed another assumption in my mind.That is, Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun are a couple.

It was a flash of thought in my high school, and I didn't continue to think about it, but after several years, I basically made up my mind.

I can't hide the fact that I like someone.

I sympathize with An Xiaoqian in my heart, it's not good to like someone but Xie Yuan.It is estimated that An Xiaoqian also sympathizes with me. It is not good to like someone, but to like Gu Baiyang who does not like me.

At that time, I felt that Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun were really lucky. The person they liked happened to like me, so how lucky they are.

I called Gu Baiyang many times one after another, but nothing happened.There was no other way, I asked Xie Yuan on the sidelines, but still got nothing.

In my senior year, I put some pride and dignity in my pocket and got on the plane to City A again.

I sent Gu Baiyang a message, but he didn’t reply, so I had to go to the Polytechnic University by myself with my luggage, wearing a mask and hat and guarding the men’s dormitory downstairs of the Polytechnic University.

I can be regarded as a female star anyway, if this appearance is photographed by the media, I really can't afford to be shameless.

At that time, I was wearing a lot of luggage, and I also brought my household registration book. I thought that only Gu Baiyang would show up, so I immediately dragged him to get the certificate, and then temporarily stayed in City A, treating it as a honeymoon.

But after waiting all night, Gu Baiyang never showed up.

At dawn, I finally received a call from Gu Baiyang.

He said: "Meng Yan, don't come here again. I'm troubled by you."

I held back my stupefaction but didn't cry, I asked him: "Gu Baiyang, do you really think I'm shameless?"

There was a long silence.

"Gu Baiyang, I like you."

I heard a rapid coughing sound, which made my throat hurt.After a long time, I heard Gu Baiyang say: "I'm sorry, I don't like you."

At this moment, I almost suspect that the Gu Baiyang I have known in the past few years is a fake, or that the person on the other end of the phone is not Gu Baiyang at all.

He said: "Meng Yan, I don't like you, you are a very good girl, you deserve the best in the world."

"Gu Baiyang, I don't want to listen to you anymore..."

He continued: "From now on, you have to be happy. If you are unhappy... just... think about me. "

Tears came down, and I said angrily, "Why do I miss you!"

"yes……"

Before the voice finished, the phone was hung up.

I felt as if I had lost something important, and when I called again, the phone was turned off.

This is the last time I talked to Gu Baiyang.

I went back to the imperial capital in a daze, I didn't have the mood to work every day, and my life was muddled.

Until one day, Liang Shaoting stood in front of me.

He said he needed a good marriage to keep his family quiet, and he needed a married person to run the company, and I was the best candidate.In order to show sincerity, there is also an agreement to protect my rights and interests.

At that time, I was overwhelmed by Gu Baiyang's anger and agreed.

I couldn't get in touch with Gu Baiyang, so I asked Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun to pass it on.I asked them to tell Gu Baiyang that if he regretted it, as long as he appeared at my engagement ceremony, I would go with him regardless.

However, from the beginning to the end of the engagement ceremony, he never showed up.

I felt so tired, physically and mentally tired, when the engagement ceremony was over and I was going back to Yun District, the person passed out before getting in the car.

When I woke up, it was already late at night, and I was in my room with Liang Shaoting sitting beside the bed.

Surrounded by low air pressure, he asked me: "Do you like that person named Gu Baiyang that much?"

I didn't know what to say for a moment.

Liang Shaoting rubbed my forehead and said, "Yanyan, everything is the best arrangement. You will understand later."

I don't understand what the best arrangement is, I only know that I probably won't get Gu Baiyang in this lifetime.

Still later, I got married step by step.

The marriage with Liang Shaoting means that we each get what we need, he achieved his goal, although I didn't get what I wanted, but I have already resigned to my fate.Maybe it's fine to keep such a marriage in name all my life.

Fast forward to the end of [-], Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun failed to come out, and Xie Yuan went abroad.

Mr. Xie and Jiang Xun have an inexplicable bet for five years, and Jiang Xun will wait for Xie Yuan in China for five years.I actually envy him, at least waiting can be expected.

What I fear most is the hopeless waiting.

I never saw Gu Baiyang again.

That phone number was never called again.

I also don't plan to stalk and stalk, my heart is not made of iron, since love is hopeless, dignity and pride should be picked up.

During the years I waited with Jiang Xun, my life was neither good nor bad. My husband in name, Liang Shaoting, was busy with work, and I was happy to have a leisure time.

I always feel that I guard the love between Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun and remember my first love that has not had time to start.

I said to Jiang Xun: "You and Xie Yuan must be together, if you are not together, I will not believe in love."

How lucky you must be to be close to the person you like, and how lucky you must be to be close to that heart.

I don't seem to be lucky.

Five years later, Xie Yuan came back, he came to me first, and said he wanted to surprise Jiang Xun.I was so happy that people who didn't know thought it was my boyfriend who had returned to China.

In that square, Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun hugged each other tightly, and I circled around them in particular, I was so moved.

I finally remembered that I was still a female artist, and I started working again after the year. I ran commercial performances all over the country, and I was so busy that I never touched the ground.

Liang Shaoting doesn't know if it's really free or just a coincidence, we can meet each other in every city.He is always taciturn, but his powerful aura is hard to ignore, and he can be seen as soon as he turns his head.

I laughed and joked: "Brother Shaoting, you don't like me that much, do you?"

He froze, shook his head quickly, nodded again, and shook his head again.

I thought it was very funny, so I said to him: "Don't take it seriously, brother Shaoting, I know myself, how could you have a crush on me?"

Liang Shaoting kept a cold face and said nothing.

In May of [-], I won the first valuable Best Actress Award in my life for a movie adapted from real events.The award was presented to me by Liang Shaoting, the producer who attended the event.

Because they are husband and wife, it became a good story for a while.

My mind was actually very messy. I thought about the time when I was at the same table with Gu Baiyang many years ago. I joked that if I won an award in dancing in the future, I would definitely give him the first trophy.

Later, I stopped dancing.

Couldn't give it to him either.

After all, there are still regrets.

Like someone so much, but the final outcome is so irrelevant.

Everything about you has nothing to do with him.

You don't know anything about him.

I only found out about An Xiaoqian's pregnancy and Xie Yuan Jiang Xun's breakup later, so I can't express any opinions, the only thing I can do is accompany Jiang Xun through the difficult time.

If possible, I hope more than anyone else that Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun can grow old together.

When I accompanied Jiang Xun back to Liucheng, I also had a lot of feelings in my heart. If I didn't meet Gu Baiyang in Liucheng and didn't know the feeling of love, can I also not know the feeling of sorrow now?

The sunshine in Liucheng is as bright as ever, and there are thousands of white clouds floating in the sky. Jiang Xun and I have our own thoughts, and we often sit by the artificial lake for a whole day.

"Meng Xiaoyan, you want to be happy!"

"Jiang Xiaoxun, you too."

I received a call from the crew in advance and was urged to go back to filming.

The person who came to pick me up was Liang Shaoting. He rarely cared about my affairs, but every time he came out of the airport, he could see his car.

Years are like a day.

When I returned to the film crew, I talked with Jiang Xun on the phone, but later realized that Jiang Xun had lost contact.A few days later, when I heard about Jiang Xun, it was the news of his death.

It turns out that a farewell to Liucheng is a farewell forever.

In the disaster of Minchuan, countless people became a number without warmth in the news, including Jiang Xun.

I am so sad, the only thing I can do for him is to donate money to this devastated city.I donated 1000 million to express my heart, and later learned that Xie Yuan donated all his private property.

I couldn't hold back my tears, because I knew what kind of money Xie Yuan donated. He was donating the rest of his life.

I remember I once asked Xie Yuan why he and Jiang Xun always called each other by first name and last name, obviously the two closest people.

At that time, Xie Yuan said that when they called out the complete name, those two words would burn in their hearts, as if they had obtained all of that person.

Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun, they are everything to each other.

The disaster in Minchuan directly took away many lives, and also indirectly ruined the lives of countless people.

It turns out that there is no going back.