hold you in my arms tonight

When I heard the news of Xie Yuan's death, I was standing on the balcony of Liang's house and heard Liang Shaoting in the bedroom calling.

The weather was so cold that my bones ached and my hands were cold. Liang Shaoting put a cup of hot tea in my palm to warm my hands.

He said: "Xie Yuan... committed suicide in a hotel in Chong'an City."

Probably I had expected it long ago, I just calmed down after being absent-minded for a moment, and my heart was more lost.It was a sad mood, and everything was helpless.

That gentle Xie Yuan finally cut his own artery in a strange hotel in Chong'an.He and Jiang Xun met in Liucheng, fell in love with each other in the imperial capital, and finally returned to Chong'an. The love between the three cities was tossed back and forth, and in the end, everything returned to ashes and ashes to ashes.

I was so overwhelmed that I could only sigh.

Liang Shaoting said: "Yan Yan, I will accompany you."

I have the urge to cry, my two best friends when I was young, so good Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun, why didn't they have a good death?

In fact, Jiang Xun should be lucky.There is such a person who will accompany you side by side in the world, accompany you to see through the scenery of the journey, and give you the most pious preference. Even if it is Huangquan Road, he will walk with you without hesitation.

The Xie family did not bring Xie Yuan's body back to the imperial capital, but buried it in a re-burial and held a funeral.

There is Jiang Xun's hometown.

This is my second time in Chong'an.The first time I came here was for filming, to take a scene of a waterfall.At that time, I didn't expect that the second time I came here would be to attend my best friend's funeral.

Xie's family arranged a joint burial, Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun were buried together, the two names next to each other on the tombstone is probably the only evidence of their love.

I suddenly remembered the story of Boya and Ziqi in the junior high school textbook, the story of throwing the piano to thank a bosom friend.It turns out that both confidantes and lovers are sacrificed with the most cherished things. Yu Boya used the qin, and Xie Yuan used his life.

The book says that the extreme of wisdom will be hurt, and the deep love will not last.

I looked at the gray and white photo on the tombstone, my eyes were dry, but there were no tears anymore.

At the funeral, the person who cried the most was a child. It was the boy Xie Yuan brought to Xie's house. It was called Xie Nan. It was said that Jiang Xun had saved the child with his life.

In the crying of children, I felt my heart was a little numb.

I stood in front of the tombs of Xie Yuan and Jiang Xun, looked at their cold names, and saw our high school years through the black tombstone.

Only now did I suddenly understand that life has its ups and downs, and I swam to the other side inadvertently. When I looked back, I realized that the long river of time had secretly taken away many things.

My most cherished friend, my favorite teenager, turned around and found that they were all gone.

At the end of the funeral, the child named Xie Nan kissed the tombstone with tears in his eyes, and said in a childish voice, "Teacher, goodbye."

I said silently in my heart, goodbye, Xie Yuan, Jiang Xun.

You are in another world, from now on, you will never let go of each other's hands again.

I only heard later that the Xie family adopted Xie Nan, not under Xie Yuan's name, but under Xie Huaisheng's name.That child became the third young master of the Xie family.

I also heard that Xie Huaisheng did his best to Xie Nan and raised him like his own son, with more care than Xie Yuan and Xie Qing.He may have lived most of his life, and it is only now that he begins to learn to be a qualified father.

That bully Xie Qing had an extra younger brother, but he received a lot of attention. He was suppressed by Xie Yuan for too long, and suddenly became an older brother, but he seemed extremely serious and foolish.

As for the Xie family, I gradually paid less attention to it.

As for An Xiaoqian, she left the country shortly after Xie Yuan's death, and we lost contact with each other, and we haven't seen each other much since then.

She is also, how sad, she has never been loved throughout her life.

I always think of myself easily at such times, and I can only smile wryly, as if I am also very sad, the person I love, I don’t know where he is now.

The person I love the most can't grow old with me after all.

It will be sad and regret for life.

Maybe, on a rainy afternoon many years later, there was a round table in the corner of the wall full of creepers. Let it go.

Let go of those lost.I also let go of those who can't come back.

Finally, with a faint smile, he said, Gu Baiyang, I forgive you, forgive you for not loving me.

Let go of the past, let it all go.

On the plane back to the imperial capital, I sat side by side with Liang Shaoting, I was in a daze, and when I came back to my senses, I didn't know when he put a cup of hot water in my hand.

I was grateful and said thank you to him.

Liang Shaoting looked away and didn't say anything else.

In November [-], I was invited to participate in an actor cross-border singing competition. The first song in the preliminary competition was "Star" which I sang when I first debuted.

The results of this competition will not be announced until next week, and there will be an interview after the show.

The reporter asked: "Ms. Meng Yan, is there any difference in your mood after singing this song "Star" after so many years?"

I said: "Times have changed, things are not people."

The reporter asked again: "What about that friend you said back then that had stars in his eyes?"

I tried my best to recall, only to remember what I said in that interview many years ago.When I finally remembered, the sadness in my heart became more intense.

I smiled lightly, with lonely eyes, and said, "He... the stars in his eyes have fallen."

The reporter wanted to continue asking questions, so I smiled politely and motioned for my manager to come and deal with it.

Later, all the stars in Xie Yuan's eyes fell, because he accompanied the person he loved the most, and died in the beautiful but lonely city of Chong'an.

After people lose a lot of people and things, they always become very nostalgic. Even when I stand in front of the camera, I often think of those friends who have left.

Doesn't help and doesn't make any sense.

After the event was over, I changed my clothes and left the TV station through the staff passage with my assistant. As soon as I came out, I saw Liang Shaoting's car.

In the early autumn season, Liang Shaoting wore a thin camel-colored windbreaker, leaned against the car quietly, stood and waited, and held a rose in his hand.

Looking forward to him, I was a little lost for a while.

Liang Shaoting approached me with a rare faint smile on his expressionless face.

He didn't give me the rose, as if he didn't have any in his hand, he just took off his trench coat and put it on me.

He said: "Yanyan, it's getting cold, remember to add clothes."

I couldn't laugh or cry, nodded and said, "Well, it's cold, add clothes."

The autumn wind blows and the leaves fall.

It's cold, add clothes.

The author has something to say: This is the end of "Holding You Into My Arms Tonight". I would like to thank the few readers and friends who have been with me all the time. I met here because of my interests and hobbies, and I have also become friends with many people who have never met before.I didn't leave a message at the end of each chapter, because I didn't want to disturb the experience of friends who read the article. In fact, I also want to ask for attention, leave a message and support.All friends are welcome to go to my Weibo to hook up with me, see the introduction of the novel on Weibo.