Identity swap

I was wearing a light coat, went out and got on the elevator.

Summer is an amorous season, there is always a lot of rain, sometimes it is raining, and it is always not happy enough. It is best to blow a typhoon and clean up the world. No matter whether it will become a mess afterwards, it is heroic enough , so that the roots are not cut off, causing people to suspect that the weather also loves "cutting and messing up".

What a boring season.Whether it's the sweltering wind or the continuous rain.

I don't know now, what else can support me to continue walking, maybe there was before, I always want to see them, all the people I love.

Ji Jie fulfilled all my expectations at once.

When I was writing the letter, I was always a little sad, and many words were stuck in my heart. The whole letter had no logic at all. If outsiders saw it, they might think that I was crazy.

I pierced a small hole in the letter paper, and I wore the cherry blossom pendant Jiang Huaiyuan gave me. It was actually a string of bells. Jiang Huaiyuan wanted to hang it on my phone. I want to return it to him now.

There is a thick fence wall on the roof, but it is wide enough that I can even stand up and take a few steps back to jump back. It is not difficult to climb up, but it is somewhat difficult to walk back.

The feet were swaying, and it was too dark to see if there was anyone underneath.If I accidentally hit another person, then my crime will be serious.

I want to wait for Ji Jie to wake up and come up to me, then I will give him the letter.But in fact, I don't necessarily have to ask Ji Jie to hand it over for me. If you jump down from here, someone will naturally find that I have a letter in my hand.

Both Ji Jie and Jiang Huaiyuan loved me as Yang Zhaolai, and then suddenly discovered that I was not Yang Zhao. The only difference between them was that one gave up on me, while the other still held me in his hands. Between possession and possession, I just chose the opposite direction.

I sat on the cold concrete wall, imagining the scene where I would lie on another concrete floor the next moment.

I don't know if they will be scared when they see me.

I have nothing to lose, no matter what I loved or what I didn't have time to love, I don't even have the courage to face reality.

Taking out my phone, I looked at the only number left in the blacklist.I have always kept Jiang Huaiyuan in the blacklist interception, and I have repeatedly pulled Qin Huai into the blacklist, pulled it in and pulled it out, for fun.

When I raised the ring on my hand in front of so many people, I originally wanted him to give up on me, but now I feel a little regretful, I have done so decisively, and I want to leave such a letter to Jiang Huaiyuan, I don’t know Huai What will Yuan think of me.

Swipe to call the phone, wanting to hang up, but just reached out there and was answered.In such a dark night, at four or five o'clock in the morning, he can still answer the phone so quickly, I don't know if he has slept all night.

His voice was a little lazy, as if he hadn't woken up yet, and he called me softly: "Lin Chen"

The long wind pierces the ears, and the whistling wind makes people's eyes hurt.

Jiang Huaiyuan was silent for a while, and said, "Are you really planning to just follow him?"

Tears run down my cheeks and I say "yes"

He said, "Lin Chen, come back."

I bit my wrist to keep from crying, I didn't want him to hear that I was abnormal.

I said I was going to hang up.

He shouted loudly: "Lin..."

The word "dust" was hung up by me, leaving an empty "beep——" sound.

After hanging up the phone, I sat on the top of the building and thought for a long time, so long that I didn't even realize that the sky had slowly brightened up.

I remembered what he said to me in Japan. He whispered in my ear when he was lying next to me. He wanted to watch the rising sun, the forest, the sea and snow, or the lonely smoke in the desert. He always liked the majestic atmosphere and Spring is in full bloom and likes to be alive, but I don't have much chance to walk with him again.

I sat on the top of the building looking at the red sun, and slowly climbed up from the ground level. The sadness hidden in the tear glands surged, and I was so stuffy that I couldn't breathe.

Panting, Ji Jie rushed up, knocked open the door, and was at a loss when he saw me.I stood firm and stood up along the fence. The rising sun elongated my shadow and just covered him.

With red eyes, he said: "Lin Chen, yesterday...you asked for it yesterday, I said I don't want to have sex with you, you know"

I held the letter in my hand, looked at the increasingly dazzling sunlight, and said calmly that I knew

He took two steps forward, stretched out his hand slightly as if trying to pull me, looked at me and then took two steps back: "Then... can you come down first?"

I said I don't really want to go down.

He was silent for a while, and in the gentle breeze, I could hear his flustered breathing.I just can't quite understand what's the point of tying someone who doesn't love me at all. On second thought, maybe because I'm in his interests, he has to find another one after he dies, which would be more troublesome.

He took a deep breath, with a hoarse voice, and said, "Lin Chen, don't jump, I'm going up now, and I won't persuade you to come down... I'll keep you at a safe distance...I won't persuade you, and I won't let you down." get down"

I stared at him like a patient, turned around me, climbed up the fence ten meters away from me from a place ten meters away from me, and stood side by side with me.

There was fine sweat on his forehead, his lips were tightly pressed, and I could see his nervousness.

He stretched out his hand towards me, moved his lips lightly, and said, "Lin Chen, I'm coming up."

I looked at him for a while, and behind him was the endless sky, the red clouds, like the scenery at dusk, today is a rare good weather.

I squatted down slowly, took a few steps forward, and jumped back to the floor along the railing: "It's boring... I won't jump anymore"

Ji Jie came back to his senses and jumped down too. I just took two steps when he rushed up and hugged me tightly, exhaling on my neck, calling my name in a low voice, the frequency of his chest beating wildly One after another.

He's probably crazy.

On weekdays, he would only call me "Baby". It is estimated that anyone who can climb into his bed will end up with such a title.

I lived at Ji Jie's house for a few days, and I was not very energetic.After seeing Jiang Huaiyuan's side, whether I was awake or asleep, whether I was awake or unconscious, I always lay in bed.

I increased the dosage of the injection because I was getting less and less courageous to face the reality and wanted to die, but after trying it once, I also didn’t have the courage to commit suicide, so I just dragged on.

Ji Jie followed me inseparably for a few days like a sick man. He didn’t listen to me saying that it’s not that easy to die. He insisted on following me. He asked me what I wanted, and said he was sorry for me before, and he would give me everything I said. do it.

I don't know if the "before" he mentioned was the time when I got into a car accident, or the time when he mistook me for Yang Zhao, but it seems that there is no difference in essence.

Jiang Huaiyuan's name has always remained in my blacklist, and I would take a look at it occasionally, and when I read too much, I got bored and threw it aside.

Ji Jie began to treat me like Lin Chen, and he didn't know if it was because he really cared or because he made up for it on purpose, and he never asked me to sleep with me again.

When he still thought I was Yang Zhao, I could still understand why he loved me, but he knew I wasn't, so he paid more attention to it. I couldn't figure out why he loved me.

Ji Jie said: "How should I put it? Some crimes were committed by myself. I want to make up for it. I don't know if it's too late."

I smiled, closed my eyes and meditated.

If he didn't treat me as Yang Zhao from the beginning and inject me with drugs, it wouldn't be impossible to make me love him, but I'm now in a coma for longer than awake, except waiting for the poison to swallow me bit by bit For the rest of my life, I don't know what else I can do.

When I am sober enough, I occasionally think about Jianghuaiyuan or Qinhuai, but I don't want to answer their calls.

One day Ji Jie quietly looked at the dense needle holes on my arm, was silent for a long time, and said: "Baby, quit it."

I said I don't want to quit.

He said: "You must quit. From today onwards, I will not beat you. If you can bear it, you must endure it. If you can't bear it, you must endure it."

I yelled that you just killed me like this.

He threw me a sharp fruit knife, I picked it up with both hands and wiped it on my neck, he rushed over frantically and snatched the fruit knife away, hugged me so scared that my whole body trembled, and shouted loudly: "Are you crazy? ?”

He panted heavily, and after calming down for a long time, he said to me in a gentle voice, "Baby, just bear with it."

I said I don't want to, the process is too painful.

Ji Jie never forced me to do anything, only this time, he made up his mind to force me.

There is a thick pillar in the gym with an iron chain around it. It was newly prepared for me. I was so panicked that I lay on top of him and said to him coquettishly, "I can do whatever you want with me." , don't punish me."

Ji Jie buried his face in my neck and said softly: "Baby, quit it."

I have never been able to resist him, and my hands and feet are chained, which are heavy and make muffled sounds when I move them.He sat next to me, looked at me calmly, and said, "I'll accompany you"

In fact, iron chains can't lock a addicted drug addict at all. They can only let the iron chains be deeply strangled into my body, and let the blood flow down the bloody and bloody body, ten fingers frantically scratching at the shackles , I feel nothing at all, only the blood and blood make people crazy.

It's not that he didn't beg him, it's just that he was gagged like he was caught the first day. Even though his eyes were bloodshot, Ji Jie just closed the door and went out quietly.

When I woke up, I was lying on the bed with bandages on my hands, feet and head. Ji Jie was lying beside me. Seeing me wake up, he said softly, "Are you awake?"

His voice was like an old dry bell, his eyes were bloodshot, and there were five bloodstains on his back from my scratching.I looked at the time, only three hours had passed, and turned my face to the side.

I know he ended up putting the needles on me, otherwise I couldn't be just like this.The reason why I was still lying beside me after the injection was because when I was too crazy to control myself, I needed more crazy sexual desires to calm down.

Ji Jie said that he wanted to make up for his mistakes, but perhaps, some mistakes will be engraved in his bones, and he will never get rid of them for a lifetime.