Identity swap

Probably no one expected that when I came back here again, I would appear in such an image.

In fact, counting this time, this is only the second time for me to come to this happy community, and I haven't even stepped in the door.

Ji Jie had a cigarette in his mouth and put his arms around my waist, and I was lying on his shoulders weakly after the injection.

"Baby, do you know how I found this place?" Ji Jie asked me with great interest.

I shook my head.

He sneered and said, "Didn't you always like a little boy? I'll bring you back to meet him, and I'll make you give up by the way."

I smiled softly and said: "Then you will be disappointed, he doesn't have me in his heart, so I don't love him"

Ji Jie was angry, put his arms around my waist with some strength, and said, "Call me husband"

I softly called "husband" and smiled at him.

He stretched out his hand to wipe my tears, and said coldly, "How unwilling are you?"

If Ji Jie wants to come to Jiang Huaiyuan, he can do so.Maybe they will know that I am not Yang Zhao, and give up and let me go.

Already in mid-July, the summer night wind brings with it the sultry heat of the day, rolling up a fine rain in the southern cities.

Ji Jie held up a red umbrella, put his arm around me, and waited slowly under the dim streetlights.I don't know why he is paranoid, obviously just sending a photo to Jiang Huaiyuan's mobile phone is enough to explain the problem.

What's more, it is impossible for Jiang Huaiyuan to feel sad because of whose arms I am in. At most, he will feel sad for me, and maybe sympathize with my experience.

Ji Jie asked, "Is it cold?"

I said, "Let's go back"

He said wait.

Jiang Huaiyuan's car drove into the community at midnight and was blocked at the intersection by Ji Jie's car.I never knew that Jiang Huaiyuan would come home so late.

I saw Jiang Huaiyuan sitting in the driver's seat. He seemed to be a little dazed. He got out of the car and walked towards me quickly. Halfway through, he stopped when he saw Ji Jie.

There was no one on the co-pilot.

Ji Jie seemed to be very satisfied with Jiang Huaiyuan's reaction, and waved to him loudly, smiling openly: "Yo, Jiang Huaiyuan, right? Let's meet again."

Jiang Huaiyuan moved another two steps, and I saw that he was a little haggard, and I wondered if it was the result of his love with Yang Zhao.

There was no way to hide, I buried my face in Ji Jie's chest, not wanting to see him.Ji Jie stroked my hair and said softly: "Good boy"

Ji Jie likes to show off his things ostentatiously, and then take them back carefully. For example, now, after he kissed me, he glanced at Jiang Huaiyuan, and walked towards the car with his arms around me.

Jiang Huaiyuan rushed over, grabbed my hand, and said excitedly, "Lin Chen, why are you and Ji Jie together?"

Ji Jie looked at me in shock.

At this moment, I don’t want Ji Jie to know that I’m not Yang Zhao anymore. Although I want him to let me go, I’m already in a quagmire. There’s no need for him to become suspicious after he finds out and involve Yang Zhao. .

Yang Zhao is not a bad person. I can tell from his clear eyes that he needs love to support him.But Ji Jie is a little crazy, maybe he will do something crazy to Yang Zhao.

Ji Jie let me into the car, Jiang Huaiyuan looked at me sadly, he seemed to have a lot to say to me, but he never said a word, the same as Qin Huai's decadent expression leaning against the glass wall on the day of my graduation party, but now, He has nothing to rely on to support his waist.

As the car started, Jiang Huaiyuan slammed on the door frantically.Yang Zhao suddenly got out of Jiang Huaiyuan's back seat, wearing a coat, he didn't know whether he was looking at Jiang Huaiyuan or my car.

He ran over, pulled Jiang Huaiyuan, and shouted: "Brother Yuan, did you just say Ji Jie?"

Yang Zhao asked Jiang Huaiyuan paranoidly, his eyes kept searching the car with the black windshield mirror, and he ran so fast that he didn't have time to pick up his coat when he dropped it on the ground.

Jiang Huaiyuan pulled him back and said, "Xiao Zhao, why did you run out after falling asleep?"

The car was not driving fast, and I could hear their words clearly in the car.Such a gentle Jiang Huaiyuan can hurt me out of breath at any time.

Ji Jie saw Yang Zhao and signaled to stop, I pulled Ji Jie and urged him to leave quickly, but Ji Jie didn't listen.

He got out of the car, looked at me, and then at Yang Zhao, with too many complicated emotions in his eyes.Jiang Huaiyuan ran back to pick up the coat, shook the dust off it, and put it on Yang Zhao carefully.

Yang Zhao looked a little weak, and was taken aback when he saw Ji Jie.

I also came out with Ji Jie, standing in front of Ji Jie, for fear that he would do something excessive to Yang Zhao.Ji Jie raised his eyebrows, put his arms around me, and said with a smile: "Oh, it seems that I really caught my brother? Hey, Yang Zhao, why didn't you tell me that you and your brother look so similar, early If you know, I'll find your brother, save trouble."

But only when I stand so close can I clearly feel Ji Jie's trembling hands and pale face. He tried his best to be calm, but he was putting on an air in front of me.

Yang Zhao wanted to rush up, but was hugged by Jiang Huaiyuan again, struggling like a dying fish, shouting: "Ji Jie, how dare you! Let go of my brother... Brother, don't stay with him, you will die "

I don't know what kind of person Ji Jie is.It's just that I can't find a way back, I'm just an accessory now, leaving Ji Jie, I'd rather die than live.

Ji Jie hugged me tighter, rubbed my hair gently, as if in a dream, and muttered to himself: "Is it really Lin Chen?" He suddenly laughed and said, "It's better to be Lin Chen ...Yang Zhao, you have a man of your own now, and I have made a deal with your past."

Yang Zhao broke away from Jianghuaiyuan, and rushed towards us like crazy, he couldn't stand still, and almost fell off, Ji Jie loosened his arms, as if he wanted to take a step forward, or maybe it was my illusion, The next second continued to reach out to embrace me.Yang Zhao was lifted up by Jiang Huaiyuan, and shouted at Ji Jie with red eyes: "I will never end with you, if you don't let go of my brother, I will never end with you in this life"

Jiang Huaiyuan put his arms around Yang Zhao, frowned deeply, and kept looking at me. I buried my head in Ji Jie's chest and said, "Let's go, you've seen enough of the drama if you want to."

Ji Jie glanced at those two, held my hand and said, "Baby, give me a kiss"

The hand he held was too conspicuous, the ring on my ring finger was shining in the dark, Jiang Huaiyuan was startled, and said: "You and him...you..."

I smiled weakly, turned my face to the other side, and said to Ji Jie: "Forget it, I will kiss you again when I go back."

Ji Jie looked at the two, the corners of his mouth curled up intentionally or unintentionally.

The driver drove away slowly, and Yang Zhao ran behind, shouting, "Brother—"

I dare not look back.

Whether it's Yang Zhao or Jiang Huaiyuan, as long as they can be together well, why bother for me?I'm already like this, and it's too late to worry about it.

Ji Jie took me back to his home in City A. When he came back from the Xingfu District, he seemed a little tired and lay on the sofa with his arms around me.He said that he hadn't brought anyone back for a long time, and he brought Yang Zhao back last time.

I sat next to him and turned on the TV to watch.In the refrigerator was the watermelon bought by someone early in the morning, and I cut both sides, inserted a spoon, and handed him half of it.

He took two bites, put it on the tea table, stood up and looked at me.

I touched my face and found nothing dirty.He smiled and said, "I didn't think you were really his brother"

I said that there are many things in this world that you can't think of. For example, you wanted to kill me at that time, but now you can only be me.

——For another example, I used to feel ashamed of wearing a dirty white shirt, but now I have even forgotten what self-esteem is.

He reached out and rubbed my hair and asked, "Baby, do you hate me?"

My mouth was full of watermelons, and I mumbled, "Do you want to hear the truth, or do you want to hear a lie?"

Ji Jie said: "Tell the truth"

I said hate, wishing I could cut off his flesh piece by piece with a knife, if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be like this at all.

He raised his head, looked at the ceiling, and murmured: "Hate is what it is."

I also thought maybe I could forget Jiang Huaiyuan and accept Qin Huai.It seems unlikely now.

He is too nice, too kind, and abides by unnecessary rules and regulations. When I said that I want to sleep with him, he just said that he would not be with me until I completely forgot about him.I only played a few times at several international music festivals, and he sat down as my audience, that's all.

The one who shines on the stage, or plays the piano quietly in his piano room is the Lin Chen he knows.The current Lin Chen, just like the name, has been covered with dust.

He deserves better, but that's not me.I can't even control myself, and I don't even have the confidence to survive the next moment. Maybe one day, after I really can't bear this kind of life, I will die quietly.

I leaned on Ji Jie and said, let's do it.

He put his arms around my waist, stared at my face for a few minutes, and said: "Baby, let's go, if you are bored, find something else to do."

I said I just want to do it now.

Ji Jie got up and turned around, I ran behind him, begging him, he stopped and looked at me again, rubbed my hair and said: "Lin Chen, I don't want to do this to you now"

I reached out to unbutton him, and he stood motionless, sighing, and carried me back to his room.

I myself am amazed that my waist can be so soft, it's almost like there is no bone.

Ji Jie was extremely gentle with me, but I was tired of waiting and told him that I needed a hard bump that reminded me that I was alive.

Sometimes I would mistakenly think that he was tormenting and not me, I would lie on top of him and he would watch me and let me move.

After Ji Jie fell into a deep sleep on the bed, I listened to his breathing evenly, looked at the dark illusory ceiling, climbed out of bed barefoot, walked into his study, rummaged in his desk, and found out A pen, tore off a piece of paper in a notebook, and started writing a letter.

I haven't written a letter for a long time, and I forgot what letters I wrote. They were probably letters to my mother, and I never sent them.My stepmother has been telling me about my mother since I was a child. She doesn't talk much, but there are no bad words, so my stepmother is not a bad woman. I don't know how her illness is.

She always said that I look like my mother, and I would ask her where I look like, and she said I look like everything.

But I don't want to write to her, I don't have time to leave a letter for everyone.