Si Nian brocade book

The room fell silent, Lu Jinshu had been gone for a long time.

Lu Sinian sat on the bed blankly, picked up the phone from the ground with blurry eyes, and found that it was past three o'clock in the middle of the night.

Lu Jinshu didn't remember anything he said to him, only that the lights above his head were dazzling, and he seemed to be crying.

Lu Sinian's ears are still ringing. The first time he fell in love with someone, he was deceived by the other person. He didn't expect it to be the same the second time.

Lu Sinian doesn't like recalling the past very much. For him, except for the little details, most of the memories of the past are gray. Why did he go to school from such a far away? I don't want to stay, it just so happens that he takes it all up.

Lu Sinian was discovered to be gay by his family when he was 15 years old. It should be an attribute brought out of his mother's womb. He didn't even notice it, and the relationship had already happened very quickly.

The day when the incident happened was July 27th, the second day of the summer vacation. Lu Sinian remembered very clearly that it was the first time he nervously brought the boy he liked home. His parents were not there that day, and they nestled openly in the living room. kissed on the sofa, and then moved all the way to the bedroom, maybe it was too hasty, or it was God's will, none of them locked the door.

The boy's passionate eyes are still vivid in his memory, but Lu Sinian thought about it countless times later, who did the other party think of him at that time?

The bedroom was dimly lit, and they tried their best to comfort each other. No one heard the slight knock of the door and the sudden light footsteps, until the glass cup broke suddenly, as if it suddenly broke everyone's dreams. The mother stood at the door, terrified. Covering his mouth, the lemon slices in the broken glass were still hanging on the rim of the glass. It was the water that Lu Sinian poured to the other party not long ago.

The boy on his body got up in a hurry, he quickly pulled up his pants, glanced at Lu Sinian in panic, and ran away in a hurry. They didn't actually do anything, they just kissed and comforted each other.

Looking at his mother, Lu Sinian suddenly felt that it was good if he saw it. It seemed easier to come out passively in such an embarrassing way than to say it himself.

Later stories were similar to most people's. He was cured, hired a psychological teacher, confiscated his mobile phone, deliberately got in touch with girls, and sat at the same table with girls... Lu Sinian didn't escape, and in the end What made him embarrassed was that when the news spread, the boy he once loved and cherished was the first to say disgusting words, and quickly made a girlfriend.

The place where he lived was a small third-tier city, and there were only so many people coming and going. The news spread faster than the virus, and everyone's malice was pouring down on Lu Sinian. He began to wonder if he was really sick?

The love when he was young was the longest. Even so, Lu Sinian still had hopes for that boy. He kindly thought about him, thinking that maybe he had some unavoidable reasons.

Until one day, Lu Sinian suddenly received a letter from the other party. The letter was a scarce thing, and it was heavy in his hand. The more he read it, the happier he became, and he secretly hid it in a book and took it home.

The other party asked him to meet him in the corridor toilet on the fourth floor during Thursday night class. He began to look forward to it from the day he received the letter, and looked forward to it until Thursday night. There is nothing wrong with it, and I don’t embarrass myself. I don’t care about what I said, so whether I like it or those I like, I can hide it from anyone.

He went to "Future" with such a mood. At that time, the school uniforms in the school were still blue and white, and the blue was a very deep blue. In the twilight, it was completely integrated with the unlit bathroom.

The door of the toilet was locked, and the other party pulled his sleeve and walked in. The door inside was also closed, and only the narrow space in the middle accommodated them. The other party touched his face in the dark, and hugged him in the dark. Lu Sinian kissed his ear lightly in his arms, Lu Sinian trembled nervously, he hugged the other person's back, just put his finger on it, the man suddenly pulled his hand and reached down, he flinched in surprise, the tip of his nose Another kiss fell.

Every kiss was like a reward, filling Lu Sinian's heart with nothingness, he was pulled down tremblingly by the other party, and rubbed against the fabric in the dark.

Lu Sinian's breathing was very hot and fast, and the other party took his hand and pressed it, while leaning into his ear to bewitch him, "Brother, help, okay?"

That was his senior, the person he felt very close to since he entered the school.

He froze slightly, but he didn't have time to think, the thing in his hand became more and more solid, the other party gently pressed his head down while coaxing, the soft hair passed through his hand, Lu Sinian squeezed Rubbing the corner of his clothes, he carefully discerned the other person's face.

He was very nervous, and his fingers became cold, but he still squatted down obediently and fell between the crotch. He raised his head and glanced at the other person. Even though he couldn't see anything, he somehow felt that the hope that he had been hiding in his heart was rekindled. There was a small flame, he rubbed his hands, and said in a muffled voice: "My hands are very cold, bear with it."

"Ah."

Male hormones began to spread on the tip of his nose, and the moment he reached out to pull down the opponent's pants, the person standing in front of him suddenly laughed, and then shouted into the darkness: "Fuck, I'm right!"

The bathroom light came on, Lu Sinian covered his eyes, and slowly saw the person in front of him clearly. It was the other party, but besides the other party, there were many people standing here. The door inside was opened, and they hid for a long time to watch the excitement. People came out laughing and laughing, both men and women. They looked down at Lu Sinian who was squatting in the middle, like looking at a dog in heat.

And the other dog who was in heat with him had already hugged his bitch and whispered, as if showing off how awesome he was just now.

Lu Sinian felt that he was deaf, otherwise why couldn't he hear the laughter and sarcasm?

He saw them take out red bills and stare at Lu Sinian as if they were betting on it, as if he was a commodity sold at a low price in the window, and everyone was rushing for it.

The light that day was as dazzling as it is now. Lu Sinian slammed someone's cup of hot water on the sink, under everyone's contemplative eyes. The bottle cap fell off, but it just hit the person. No hot water was spilled, his school uniform was thrown crookedly, and the moment he lowered his head, a black box fell from his cuff.

It was a watch. The other party told him a few days ago that he wanted to change a watch. He kept it in mind and stole the lucky money hidden in the closet to buy it for him.

Lu Sinian picked up the watch, took it out of the box, and flushed it down the toilet in front of everyone.

He was indeed deaf, because he couldn't even hear what he was saying.

The box was trampled to pieces, and the playful laughter gradually turned into exclamations, Lu Sinian felt like he was going crazy.

When he came out, his hair and body were wet. He went downstairs alone under the eyes of everyone. He ignored the embarrassment on his body and the cursing and mocking behind him. I couldn't help retching.

He will always remember the thing that hardened in his hand, and he will never forget how the dog put his arms around the girl's waist and touched her chest in a blink of an eye.

It rained heavily that night, Lu Sinian didn't bring anything, and went home wet.

The lights at home were off, and his parents didn't wait for him when they fell asleep, and they didn't have anything to eat. Ever since he was forced to come out of the closet, he had been in such a state of cold war. Even at parties, few people asked about him. Even if they asked, Maybe it's a comparison with their own children, which makes the parents even more embarrassed.

Later, Lu Sinian transferred to another school. In his new environment, he was taciturn. He didn't make friends with others, but he didn't refuse to contact them. He had only one thought in his body, which was to leave here.

He later learned that it was not a disease, but just a common orientation.

After the college entrance examination, Lu Sinian got a high score as he wished, and he applied for a school far away from home. Even though his relationship with his parents had eased at that time, he still insisted on going where he wanted to go.

Lu Sinian has changed a lot in these years. He occasionally goes home and is used to being alone. He has never been in a relationship again, he can't meet someone he likes, and he doesn't want to start in a hurry.

Lu Sinian's love requirements are very low, the only one is that the other party is not bisexual, but Lu Jinshu just took this one.

So sometimes people say that fate is wonderful, and it is probably here.

After [-]:[-] in the morning, not long after Lu Sinian woke up, he was in a very bad condition, his eyes were swollen like goldfish, and two black bags under his eyes almost fell on his chin. He didn't sleep for a few hours and cried for so long , Now my throat hurts and my body hurts, I don't have a comfortable place all over my body.

He was brushing his teeth with his toothbrush when the doorbell rang.

Lu Sinian was sluggish on the spot for more than 20 seconds before he spit out the saliva from his mouth and walked around to open the door.

The person at the door was Lu Jinshu, who was even more haggard than him, with bloodshot eyes and stubble sticking out. It looked like he hadn't slept all night.

Lu Jinshu didn't speak, but just passed the things in his hands to Lu Sinian, a steaming breakfast, and the big characters KFC on the bag were inexplicably funny, but Lu Sinian didn't pick it up, and the two of them just froze.

"Take it, don't you still have to go to the company? I bought milk, you can drink as much as you want, it's very cold today, eat something before leaving."

Lu Jinshu hesitated for a moment, but still refused to pick up the person, bent down and put the things on the carpet inside the door, and backed away.

Lu Sinian stared at the things on the ground, paused for a while to pick them up, and then turned his face to signal Lu Jinshu to come in.

For a moment, Lu Jinshu thought he was dazzled, and froze for a long time before rushing in in a hurry.

Lu Sinian put his things on the table and continued to clean up in the bathroom. When he came out, he found that Lu Jinshu was still sitting on the bed, and the food on the table hadn't been touched. He was dumbfounded.

Obviously it was breakfast for two, Lu Jinshu took out the contents one by one, turned around and glanced at the other party, and said the first sentence after the incident, "Do you want to wash first or eat first?"

Lu Jinshu looked at him motionless, as if he was about to cry.

Lu Sinian lowered his head first, without looking at him, "Then eat first, I'll leave after eating, you can sleep here for a while after washing up."

Lu Jinshu stayed outside the door all night, where could he eat at this moment, his stomach seemed to be twisted together, as if he was competing with someone.

It's a pity that Lu Sinian didn't pay attention to him. After breakfast, he changed his clothes and went out. He didn't talk to Lu Jinshu again until he left.

On the plane at [-]:[-] in the afternoon, when he returned at noon, Lu Jinshu had already woken up, but he was still very haggard, and his nose was sniffling, probably because he had caught a cold.

It was almost two o'clock, and time was running out. Lu Sinian packed his things and was about to leave. Lu Jinshu kept trying to talk to him, but he was overwhelmed by the other party's silence.

Finally, when Lu Sinian packed his schoolbag and was about to set off, the person sitting on the bed couldn't help but pulled his arm, "I'll go with you."

Lu Sinian had expected this way a long time ago. After all, people like Lu Jinshu just come and go when they say they come, don't they?He didn't refuse or object, he just avoided Lu Jinshu's hand and went downstairs quickly.

Lu Jinshu, who was behind him, followed him, coughing all the way, he was wearing thin clothes, except for a short down jacket on his upper body, it looked like he had nothing to keep out the cold.

The car Lu Sinian called arrived, he opened the door and glanced at Lu Jinshu whose face was flushed from cold, and said helplessly, "Sit in the front or the back?"

"...Later, let's go behind."

Then Lu Sinian also sat in the back.

In the end, Lu Jinshu didn't get on the same flight as Lu Sinian because he ran out of tickets.

It snowed on the night we went back. Lu Sinian came out of the airport and bought a bus ticket for a cheap price. After getting off the bus, he took a taxi back to school. After sleeping all the way, he is now awake, and all other feelings are gone. I just feel cold.

It was after seven o'clock when we got back to school. Lu Sinian ordered a takeaway, and the dormitory was empty as usual. He turned on the air conditioner, but felt really cold and ran to the radiator to cover himself.

Living in the dormitory is the most comfortable, even if it is cold to death every day, it is much better than outside.

Lu Sinian stayed on the seat for a while, took a shower and then went to bed. He really didn't sleep well these days, and fell asleep faintly after touching the pillow for a long time.

While dreaming, the bed was suddenly slapped a few times, and a gust of air-conditioning hit, and the roommate yelled at him while patting the snow on his body, "Did you ask the little boy from the previous elementary school, standing downstairs? How did you fall asleep? Forgot?"

Lu Sinian was still confused, and didn't realize which junior it was for a moment: "Student? Who?"

"It's just the one you were downstairs before, the one who gave you things, but it's tall, it's snowing outside, don't sleep and let people wait." The roommate took a few more shots with disgust before he was satisfied I went back to my place.

Lu Sinian is completely awake, Lu Jinshu?Why did he run over again?Don't you have class tomorrow?

It's not enough. Obviously, I can't control so much now. Lu Sinian looked at his phone, and the door will be locked in 46:4, and the message interface is clean. This guy, is he planning to act in an idol drama?

Lu Sinian quickly got off the bed, put on his clothes and shoes, and accepted teasing from his roommate while putting on his clothes, so he had no choice but to pray that the door would not be locked.

Fortunately, there were still 5 minutes to go downstairs, and the aunt on duty at the door happened to be away, otherwise it would take a long time to explain.

Lu Jinshu's body was covered with snow, and the first thing he saw when he saw Lu Sinian was to back away, wanting to run, but Lu Sinian didn't chase him and didn't make a sound, because he knew that the other party wouldn't run, so he came and stood here, didn't he? Waiting for yourself to come down?

The door is going to be locked, if you don't leave, you won't be able to get out of the school gate.

Lu Sinian walked in front, and Lu Jinshu followed him, taking a few steps to sniff.

The brother on duty at the door was also preparing to rest, and was handing over to another brother. Lu Sinian swiped his card and went straight to the pharmacy opposite after leaving the house. The room was well heated. He bought a few boxes of cold medicine and said nothing Send it to the hotel on the north side.

Fortunately, there was still a room, and Lu Sinian didn't put too much pretense on it, so he opened a standard room, which was regarded as a way to settle him down.

He was standing aside to boil water, the TV was buzzing, and Lu Jinshu behind him was coughing and sniffing, which made Lu Sinian a little irritable.

"Are there no classes tomorrow?" Lu Sinian put the water aside and took the medicine.

"Yes." The other party's voice became hoarse, and he stared at Lu Sinian eagerly.

"Why don't you go back?" He read the instructions carefully, and picked out the medicines one by one.

Lu Jinshu didn't speak any more, probably because he hadn't figured out how to answer Lu Sinian's question.

"Take the medicine, take the medicine and sleep, and go back to class early tomorrow morning." He was like a big parent who told his children, his tone was calm, there was no emotion, and no nostalgia.

"Senior, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you." Finally, Lu Jinshu finally said these words.

It's just that here in Lu Sinian's place, it doesn't really matter whether he has these words or not. He shook his head, blinking his eyes slowly, "It's okay, we have nothing to do with each other, right? friend."

"Senior...cough cough cough..."

"Drink the medicine and go to bed early, this is not your problem, it is my own problem."

Lu Sinian knew it all along, although Lu Jinshu didn't explain it in advance, didn't he ask?What's more, he was the only one who couldn't accept it.

"Don't think too much, it has nothing to do with you." He patted Lu Jinshu's shoulder, and finally brushed it away, as if silently brushing away their unbroken affection.