【Kaiyuan】Shewu Blurred

[Don't rely on me to understand you, just keep silent when you should say you like it. 】

How does it feel to hide one of your deepest secrets?

It's like stepping on a tightrope in the dark night, if one step is careless, you will die in hell.

What is it like to have the deepest relationship?

It's like lying in the clouds and basking in the sun, warm and soft, addicted and unable to extricate yourself.

But if one day, this feeling becomes that secret, what should we do?

"Do you still remember that we were in Taiwan last summer, and I told you that the company is going to launch a new group?"

Miss Ren's question seemed to go back to a long time ago, Wang Yuan thought for half a minute before he was not sure: "Remember..."

"Then do you still remember, I always told you two, don't always show the good relationship in front of others?"

"I remember..." This Wang Yuan really remembered clearly, "But why did you say this all of a sudden?"

"Because a lot of things started in the summer of the previous year. In fact, they had already shown their signs earlier. I don't know whether to thank you two for being strong or to say that you are ignorant. In short, you are just rushing to get into the trap. "Miss Xiaoren lowered her voice, adding some pressure to these words out of thin air.

Wang Yuan smiled: "So what? It's not a day or two since we were excluded, and later we went our separate ways."

"But what if the reason is unacceptable to the general public?"

Wang Yuan was stunned for a moment, then suddenly smiled: "How is it possible, the matter of chasing after wind and shadow..."

"You told me to be suspicious, but at that time you two knew what happened to you, right?" Sister Xiaoren suddenly smiled as she spoke, "It's actually quite interesting to say, and I often can't help but guess that you two are enlightened. What? Are you still ignorant?"

When this matter was mentioned suddenly, Wang Yuan couldn't help but his face became hot: "What are you talking about, Miss Ren..."

"But, this kind of thing can't be accepted by everyone, can it?" Xiao Ren suddenly restrained her smile, "Especially the three of us are already close, if there is another layer of special relationship between you and Xiao Kai, Some people must be jumping in a hurry, of course not just jumping in a hurry, this matter itself is a problem, do you understand?"

Of course, Wang Yuan understands, it's not that he hasn't thought about these issues, it's just that things like feelings don't disappear out of thin air because of obstacles: "Things without evidence... To be honest, even if they used this as the last year Speaking of things, Wang Junkai and I don't recognize each other, so what can they do?"

"Do you think someone is really stupid enough to attack both of you at the same time? Such a one-on-two thing doesn't work even if you think about it? You don't remember what happened before you released your first single? Then there was another time, you Don’t remember?” Xiao Ren didn’t want to explain the ugly facts too clearly, “How could it be a coincidence that so many things came together last year? Can’t you figure it out now?”

People always see what they want to see, but the truth is often hidden in most of what they ignore.

It's not that Wang Yuan hasn't thought about it all the time, he just doesn't want to think about certain aspects.

It is Mr. Lu Xun's style not to be afraid to judge others with the worst malice, not his.

But the vague meaning of Miss Ren's words was clear, and he couldn't help but think about it.

A layer of cold sweat broke out on his back——

The incident caused by fans in the early years is still vivid in my memory, and the incident three years ago is still fresh in my memory, but the year before last, I actually planned to do it again with Wang Junkai?

The organs are exhausted, step by step.

First, he discredited him for having an improper relationship with his fans, then implied that he was close to high-level officials to compete for resources, and then put a big hat on him for using his intimate relationship to win over Wang Junkai and squeeze out his teammates. I am afraid that his own fans will also be shaken.

From the very beginning, he was the one being targeted.

Destroying one opponent, stepping on another and climbing up a section, the abacus is really good.

Thinking back at that time, the company didn't have any intention of managing them, and desperately took a few events to make money, and then ran to plan a new combination-this was undoubtedly the last cash before opening a new path.

I'm afraid that only he and Wang Junkai were kept in the dark... No, that's not right.

In fact, he was the only one kept in the dark, and if Wang Junkai hadn't left first, waiting for him would probably be an unforgettable nightmare.

"Sorry, Yuanyuan... At that time, we also felt that some of the company's decisions were very strange," Miss Ren's apology was very sincere, "But you also know that people are no longer the same people as before, and it is nothing to hide it from us. Difficult."

Wang Yuan gave a noncommittal "hmm": "It's okay, it's all in the past, and everything is fine now."

"Yeah, you are all fine now," Xiao Ren smiled, "Actually, when Xiao Kai started filming "Moss", Tan Xianghui had already offered an olive branch, and he ignored it all the time. The matter is settled, although it made you very angry, but it is also a very smart way."

Looking down at the receipt in his hand, thinking of the ring that fell into Houhai in a perfect parabola, Wang Yuan felt a sharp pain in his heart, and murmured in a low voice: "How smart is he..."

How smart is Wang Junkai, Wang Junkai understands him.

If, if Wang Junkai didn't choose to leave at that time, but stuck with him, what would happen later?

Wang Yuan didn't even need to imagine himself in that scene to infer the decision he would make at that time——

He would break up with Wang Junkai, and then stay away from him, leaving the relationship between the two of them completely clean.

Even if he couldn't argue with his own words, he would not let Wang Junkai fall into the quagmire with him.

And at that time, they just collided with each other with their passion and irresistible temperament. If this relationship is really in danger of being made public, are they really ready?

Certainly not.

At that age, and with such identities, the two of them had no choice but to deny this relationship, and it was almost impossible to get together again after this time.

They will have to personally obliterate what they hold dear.

He wanted this ending, and Wang Junkai at the time naturally wanted it too.

So that guy who was always upright chose curve to save the country for the first time, intending to separate from him in the name of work, but bought a ring to confirm the relationship between the two.

It's a pity that the guy was really an idiot, and he had a good idea, and the execution didn't do anything good except make him angry for more than a year.

But even if the plan is not implemented smoothly, these are still places where Wang Junkai is more mature than him-take a step back, lower his head once, and protect what is more important to him, instead of sticking his neck and stubbornly getting scarred.

Now, after more than a year, he is standing in this place that he loves and hates again, and Wang Yuan can still feel the feeling of returning here in the early morning of his birthday.

Dark, cold, restless.

His heart was convulsing and hurting, his nasal cavity was sore, and his whole body was wet and cold like being soaked in ice water.

At that time, would Wang Junkai, who told him cruelly to leave, feel less pain?

He suddenly remembered that autumn when the two of them slept together, Wang Junkai said to him: "Wang Yuan'er, let's go, go to Northern Europe, Iceland, wherever we want, just the two of us, okay?"

At that time, he thought it was Wang Junkai's occasional stupidity, but he didn't know that it was the first reaction of that guy when he was at a loss: he wanted to take him away, run far away, and run to a place where he would not be hurt or separated .

He suddenly remembered that Wang Junkai always sounded very tired when he was on the phone during that time, and he didn't answer well when he asked what was wrong, and always told him it was okay.

At that time, if he brought out his childhood obsession and black belly, and asked what happened, would the two of them be able to reach a tacit understanding or discuss a better way?

He suddenly remembered that on the night of his birthday, Wang Junkai interrupted those disputes and entanglements, insisted on taking out a gift and said happy birthday to him abruptly.

At that time, he threw the gift away in a hurry, but he didn't know that that fool really planned to use a deal to protect the relationship between the two of them, and really planned to give him a promise of peace of mind.

In fact, that fool once tried falsely and falsely, once expressed it vaguely, and even accidentally revealed his entanglement.

That idiot made up his mind to leave mainly to avoid him getting hurt, but he also thought of the best way he could think of, so that the two of them would not accidentally get separated like that.

And not long ago, he actually asked him to find a more suitable person.

That person once struggled, felt uncomfortable, made a choice, endured it, but he made up his mind not to mention it to him, which made him feel angry and hurt now, and he didn't know what to do.

Wang Junkai, are you stupid?Why are you so stupid?

Most people can always meet someone who loves themselves or someone they love, or they are lucky enough to fall in love with someone in three lives.

It's just that no matter how much you love, it takes a lot of time to get to know each other. In the process, there are countless people who are lost and separated.

However, he has someone who can love each other and understand him well enough to carefully correct the trajectory of their lives.

This person is Wang Junkai, such a Wang Junkai, so he doesn't know whether he should feel sad or happy.

The horror of reality mixed with Wang Junkai's gentleness, colliding with every sense of Wang Yuan.

When he finally settled down with Tang Yu and noticed Wang Junkai's uneasiness and fear, he suddenly realized that he really didn't seem to give this person a sense of security.

He always said he wanted to be Brother Yuan, but he didn't really take the initiative or do anything forcefully, he was just accepting Wang Junkai's favor.

When we were together at the beginning, he didn't say that he liked it.

When he was about to express his heart, the two separated again.

God always seems to like to play this kind of joke with him, and such important things are always unspeakable jokes.

How can it be possible to be led by the nose by that bad old man?Then what kind of Brother Yuan is he?

So he stood on tiptoe and said to Wang Junkai:

"One last time, thank you for never really thinking about leaving me."

Wang Junkai, who was kissed on the corner of his mouth, didn't really appreciate the sweetness and bitterness, he was still in a daze.

In fact, he was the only one who felt Tang Yu's pain at close range.

When Wang Yuan told him that Bei Jianing actually wanted to know Tang Yu's news through them, he once envied these two people.

Like him and Wang Yuan, they grew up together, walked a long way together, and fell in love with each other.

The important thing is that there is no obstacle between Tang Yu and Bei Jianing like he and Wang Yuan.

principled obstacles.

When he and Wang Yuan hadn't been in contact for a year, Tang Yu was in love with Bei Jianing, which made him even more envious and jealous.

Just like he believed that he and Wang Yuan would be together in the end no matter what, he subconsciously thought that Tang Yu and Bei Jianing would also be noisy like this, and finally they would be together well.

He never thought that these two people would be separated.

He didn't expect it to be this way.

When Tang Yu was lying on the roof panting in pain, his eyes couldn't help falling on Wang Yuan.

At that moment he felt for the first time that he regretted——

How difficult it is to meet this person, like this person, and like each other with this person.

Life is full of variables, and this circle is even more deformed and cruel. If you are not careful, you will just pass by.

Even if the original letting go was full of involuntary and helpless, it really cannot be easily forgiven.

There is no need for Wang Yuan to tell him that he will not forgive, if he loses Wang Yuan because of this, even he himself will not be able to forgive himself.

So when he realized what Wang Yuan said and did, Wang Junkai's first reaction was no response——

He stared at Wang Yuan's face for a long time, wondering if he was dreaming or hallucinating just now.

It's just that Wang Yuan didn't know the regret and entanglement in his heart, and he blushed uncontrollably in his eyes. Many things he had thought up on the road in the afternoon were evaporated in the gradually rising body temperature, and disappeared without a trace.

"Look... what are you looking at?!" Wang Yuan tried hard to keep his face sullen.

"Ah...I..." Wang Junkai quickly looked away, but within a second he couldn't help but look back, and after being glared at by Wang Yuan, he moved away again, back and forth, over and over again.

Finally, Wang Yuan couldn't bear it anymore: "Wang Junkai, if you have time to do eye exercises, how about calling Bei Jianing?"

"Ah, oh... what about you?" Wang Junkai quickly took out his mobile phone.

Wang Yuan turned and walked out: "I'm not worried about Tang Yu, go talk to him."

"But..." Wang Junkai was stunned for a moment, and wanted to say something, but it couldn't stop Wang Yuan from taking care of his friends.

The fact that he didn't say anything doesn't mean that Wang Yuan didn't understand, he smiled embarrassedly: "I'll be back in a while."

After we met again, I really didn’t see Wang Yuan smile very much. That smile and the touch of the corners of his lips being lightly touched were spinning in Wang Junkai’s head, so that the moment the phone was connected, he blurted out: "Wang Yuan seems to be kissing you." hit me."

"Huh?" Bei Jianing was in the midst of being bombarded by the media and fans, and he was speechless when he heard such a line, "Wang Junkai! That's why you called me in the middle of the night?"

Only then did Wang Junkai come to his senses: "I'm sorry, sorry, I didn't mean this. How are you? Are you okay?"

"...It's okay," Bei Jianing seemed to sigh, "It's the same old style anyway, the company's PR side is busy, I'm okay, I'm used to it."

Wang Junkai nodded: "This kind of thing is temporary, and it's over when it's over, and you just took this opportunity to take a break."

"I know...are you...with Tang Yu?" Bei Jianing hesitated for a moment before asking.

"We were together just now, and now Wang Yuan is going to see him."

"It's good that someone is with him." Bei Jianing said softly.

The other party's voice was too low, and Wang Junkai didn't know how to comfort him. After holding back for a long time, he finally squeezed out a sentence: "It's okay, you can meet Tang Yu after the limelight, and just talk about it. Tang Yu is not... ..."

"There's no need for that," Bei Jianing suddenly interrupted him, "It's no longer possible for me to be with him."

"Why are you so discouraged..."

"I'm not discouraged," Bei Jianing seemed to smile, "Wang Junkai, I'm not being unspoken or misunderstood, I'm really dating that person."

Wang Junkai was taken aback for a moment, thinking he heard it wrong: "Acquaintance...? Why? Don't you like Tang Yu?"

"I liked Tang Yu...but he and I really don't fit together," Bei Jianing said softly, "He can't give what I want."

"You like him, and he likes you too. What doesn't he have? What can't he give you?" Tang Yu's pain was still vivid just now, and Wang Junkai couldn't help feeling a little anxious.

"Liking is not enough just to talk about it," Bei Jianing said calmly, "He can't give me a sense of security that we can really be together."

"He always says he likes me, buys me this and that, and comes to see me when he is free, but he never asks me what I need. People who talk about their liking like this are actually very fond of people. Do you know that you are tired? You have to pay to accept this kind of liking, do you know that?"

"I also understand that most of the time he is for the good of both of us, but his self-assertion always makes me feel that I am excluded from this relationship, and I have never had a real sense of being with him."

"Maybe some people just like it, but it's not suitable to be together."

Are people who like each other suitable for being together?

Perhaps it was really too similar, Wang Junkai couldn't help thinking that he was also making the most important decision on his own, giving Wang Yuan what he thought he needed.

He also never asked Wang Yuan what he wanted or what he wanted.

When the New Year was backstage, Wang Yuan also told him to find the right person.

Is it true that most of the mistakes in this world are routines, the mistakes made by predecessors and others will always be repeated by others.

Maybe the reality is so awkward, guarding or owning, let people choose one of the two, so as to test everyone's yardstick for measuring feelings.

I can't find a suitable way to like, and sometimes it's even worse than not liking.

Tang Yu, who was lying on the sofa in the lounge, seemed to have regained his composure, but his face was still pale, looking a bit miserable.

Wang Yuan walked over to observe his condition, thought that he had fallen asleep, and wanted to turn around and leave.

Unexpectedly, before he took two steps, he was startled: "Wang Yuaner."

"What's wrong?" Wang Yuan turned around.

Tang Yu cleared her throat: "Bei Jianing...how is she?"

"I don't know yet. I asked Junkai Wang to call her. They have filmed together and are more familiar than me."

"Hmm..." Tang Yu nodded, "Wang Xiaoyuan, do you still remember the line from "Northern Spring"?"

Wang Yuan was stunned for a moment, and quickly realized: "It's what your mother said..."

"At your age, no one will have someone else's life." Tang Yu blurted out, "That's it... I didn't think so at the time, but I didn't expect it to be like this... because you are still immature, because you are still young. Growing up, so once you don't match up at a certain point, it will be difficult to meet again... Maybe the person who grows up first should always know what he wants first."

Confused by this sudden sentence, Wang Yuan didn't quite remember how he comforted Tang Yu afterwards.

The person who grows up first will know what he wants first?

So... what about him and Wang Junkai?

More than a year ago, Wang Junkai guarded his unknown reason, but what about the future?

If I keep being self-willed, naive, and self-centered like this, will Wang Junkai really get bored, tired, and bored one day, and leave him and take a step forward?

It's not just about work...Wang Junkai also has uneasiness, fear, lack of confidence and cautiousness in his relationship. If he can't give comfort and share, how can he be qualified to stand by Wang Junkai's side?

Emotional matters have never been settled by whoever leads them. If two people cannot grow together, share all the joys and sorrows, and bear the gains and losses together, then they will never reach the result.

Back in the room just now, Wang Yuan saw Wang Junkai standing by the window with his elbows propped on the window sill, wondering what he was thinking.

After hesitating for a moment, he walked over gently, unexpectedly, Wang Junkai turned his head when he was still one step away.

"Heard footsteps?" Wang Yuan was a little regretful that the scaring purpose was not achieved.

"No, I smell it." Wang Junkai looked at him a little funny, but his eyes were quiet, "the smell of banana milk."

Wang Yuan rolled his eyes at him, then returned to seriousness: "I'm sorry."

"Why do you have to apologize?" Wang Junkai originally wanted to tell him about Bei Jianing, but was taken aback by the sudden words.

"This..." Wang Yuan took out the receipt from his pocket, but didn't mention anything else, "I lost it on my birthday, I'm sorry, I didn't expect..."

Wang Junkai was startled, looked at the guilty and annoyed expression of the kid in front of him, and frantically flipped through his wallet: "No, it doesn't matter, the one you lost is actually an empty box..."

"Huh?" Wang Yuan was taken aback for a moment, and the emotions that had been brewing for a long time just disappeared. Seeing that this man took out two rings from the interlayer of the wallet, and pulled out a very familiar bracelet along with it, he felt a little Dumbfounded, "Why are you here, it's not because of me..."

"Hehehe...Because I thought you must be very angry, don't you like to throw things around when you are angry, although you usually like to throw things..."

"Wang Junkai! You are looking for death!" Wang Yuan committed violence without hesitation, kicking his calf, and suddenly remembered that he sprained his foot not long ago, so he hurried to rub it again.

Wang Junkai held him back with a smirk, and hurriedly stuffed the ring into his hand: "Wang Yuan, I didn't tell you at that time..."

"What the hell! You go away!" In the dark lounge, the ring that was taken out from the middle of the wallet still hasn't been put on for him? ?Is there anything worse than this? !

Wang Yuan never believed that one day such a thing would happen to him.

Wang Junkai also suddenly realized that he seemed to be talking to himself, and quickly said: "Ah... no, you haven't forgiven me..."

"Wang Junkai," Wang Yuan interrupted his incoherent speech, "Can you listen to me?"

"Huh? Good! Say it!" Wang Junkai said that he is the most obedient boyfriend.

Finally feeling a little bit in control of the initiative, Wang Yuan felt much better: "Do you know that on my birthday, I had something very important to tell you."

"what……"

"I was going to confess to you."

"what?!!"

"But you disrupted all my plans, so now you are not allowed to give me the ring, and you are not allowed to say anything, this is punishment," Wang Yuan didn't mean to joke with him, "and today's state is too bad, So when the time is right, let me talk about it, okay?"

"Not good." Wang Junkai refused without thinking.

"why?"

"Because the first confession is..."

"Wang Junkai, you can take the dog with you!"

Wang Yuan thinks he is a romantic person.

He has always thought that romance is Fiji's beaches, open-air restaurants, champagne-colored roses and tender words.

I just didn't expect that romance can also be a Beijing office building, a dark room, a ring hidden in the middle of a wallet, and childish bickering.

When the night falls, not only the stars are shining, this special romantic moment is worth a mediocre life.

It seems that he really likes romance.