【Kaiyuan】Shewu Blurred

[It was only later that I realized that the most ignorant thing I ever did was to tell him that you should find someone more suitable. 】

For the first time, Wang Yuan lost his mind on stage.

He didn't even know what he said in the part of sending blessings to the audience, and he didn't hear what Wang Junkai said clearly.

There are no messy thoughts in his head, it's just that Wang Junkai's expression when he looked at him on the screen and the way he sang on the stage just now kept spinning, he knew that he was uncontrollably soft-hearted, he had to restrain himself from It's so darn soft.

Sure enough, music and stage are their lifeblood.

Tang Yu was right, if they had persisted a year ago, I don't know what would have ended up in the end, separated, at least it looks good now.

He didn't want to admit that Wang Junkai's decision at the time was right-could it really be impossible for two people to be together?

Unfortunately, this answer will never be confirmed.

When I came back to my senses, the clock struck midnight, golden papers were floating in the sky, and this year was another gorgeous start.

He quickly waved his hand, smiled and said Happy New Year to the audience.

There was also commotion on the stage, he was a little dazed, Wang Junkai was not there during the rehearsal, in fact they didn't rehearse anything, it was just New Year's greetings, but what about now?Want to interact?

He saw that Wang Junkai seemed to move this way a bit, and his heart skipped a beat, what should I do, what should I do?

Did Sister Wei Ru have any instructions?No, they didn't even know that Wang Junkai would come.

What are their settings now?No contact with each other after the dissolution?Or still a friend? ?

He glanced at Tang Yu as if begging for help, but he didn't expect to catch an expression that was looking forward to the show - such an unreliable friend dragged out and beheaded...

Now his mind is really in a mess, thinking of ghost questions like "Can couples still be friends after they break up" for no reason.

Wang Yuan, Wang Yuan, are you sick?

But in fact he thought too much.

Because at the next moment, I don't know who was eager to get ahead and played cards out of common sense, and suddenly took a few steps forward to shake hands with the fans in the front row.

The host was stunned for a moment, and quickly improvised to encourage the guests on stage to interact with the audience.

Wang Yuan subconsciously took a step forward, Tang Yu hurriedly pulled him secretly, and whispered: "Don't get too close! Be careful!"

He came back to his senses and took a look. Sure enough, crowds began to surge in the audience. The people in front of him and Tang Yu had already crowded into a pile. Naturally, Wang Junkai's side was not much better, and the fans' screams revealed Panic of being squeezed.

But Wang Junkai didn't foolishly run to shake hands, he made a gesture for taking pictures, and then started posing to flirt with fans.

The fans gave up reaching out for an instant and started searching for the camera phone.

Wang Yuan smiled inwardly, as expected he had matured a bit, and was different from before.

After thinking for a while, he reached out and hooked Tang Yu's neck, and raised his vulgar scissors.

"You did it on purpose." Tang Yu complained without showing any trace, but she was very active in cooperating.

Wang Yuan just laughed, and there were screams from the audience—he and Tang Yu were also formed as CPs because of "Northern Spring", and now in the same company, it is inevitable that there will be negative aspects of robbing resources and grabbing the position of the first brother. Take this opportunity It's also good to help some media slap in the face.

Just a smile on the face, but the real mood is hard to describe.

Wang Junkai matured, became more stable, and became more flirtatious. His pretended calmness seemed to have turned into real calmness. They all changed.

Does this also mean that the relationship between them has really changed?

What happened for a few minutes on stage was a lot of trouble off stage.

After changing his clothes, he was dragged to take a group photo to sign. It was almost one o'clock in the morning when Wang Yuan left the lounge.

The backstage corridor is very long, and the artists' names are pasted on the doors of the lounges on both sides, which have not been removed in time.

He walked all the way in silence, his eyes flicked over those names, and finally he couldn't help but stopped in front of a door.

"Wang Junkai" was posted on the door.

For many years, they have been moving around under the name of the group. Now at the same time and the same place, the names of the two people appear on two different doors. It feels really complicated.

In the past, that name didn’t seem to represent everything about us, but now it doesn’t seem to represent everything about me or you. If you had chosen to persevere, would we still have a chance to be written side by side?That's how we should be.

One step wrong, step by step wrong.

After stopping for only seven or eight seconds, he was about to lift his foot and continue walking, when the door suddenly opened.

He originally thought that Wang Junkai's schedule was so tight that the rehearsals were only held a moment before the opening, so he must have left by now.

He originally thought that Wang Junkai is so popular now, and there are many people around him waiting for him, opening the door is not a problem for him at all.

He originally thought that no matter how entangled the two were, the few minutes on stage would be enough to torture his heart, and God would let him go on New Year's Eve.

But what he thought didn't count.

Now that the door opened, Wang Junkai stood there and looked at him without blinking.

And he hadn't taken the step he should have taken when he wanted to leave—

What the hell is so good about the word "Wang Junkai" What the hell am I doing stopping here? ! !

silence.

It seemed a little awkward to be stared at by those eyes with surprise.

He hesitated for a while whether to say something, but the next moment he was dragged into the room.

There were also assistant bodyguards and make-up artists in the room. After Wang Junkai pulled people in, he turned his head to the door, and those people flashed out with a look of "I didn't see anything".

The little boy in the corridor hesitated for a while before the door closed, but the two people in the room stood quietly facing each other. There seemed to be something separating them, and others couldn't even muster up the courage to break in.

Wang Yuan tilted his head, his eyes didn't know where to look.

Like an ostrich burying his head in the sand or a turtle shrinking his head, he stubbornly wondered whether he should open the assistants outside the door, struggling not to face the situation in front of him.

Wang Junkai looked at his roving eyes and twisted fingers, and his pounding heart finally calmed down when he opened the door and saw someone pulled in with excitement.

"Wang Yuaner," couldn't help but raised his hand and rubbed his hair, ignoring that he might be angry, "Happy New Year."

The little guy grew taller, but he seemed to have lost weight again. He didn't feel angry when he touched his head, but he was still walking, wondering what he was thinking.

It has been more than a month since the last meeting. If he hadn't insisted on accepting this show, I don't know when we could meet.

Everything seems to be getting extra difficult.

But when he saw Wang Yuan playing the piano and singing quietly on the stage, he still felt that the decision a year ago and the suffering of the past year were worth it.

Tan Xianghui told him that Han Weiru was the most suitable choice for Wang Yuan, and it seems that he didn't lie to him.

After listening to the songs written by the children themselves so many times, they still love to listen to them, and they still feel fascinated after watching them so many times with a confident appearance when playing the piano.

He has always felt that Wang Yuan is like a beautiful galaxy, not the sun, the moon and the stars, but a whole galaxy, every place is shining brightly, at first glance it is intoxicating, but it makes people feel peaceful and serene, and he can't even bear to use his breath to startle .

How selfish it would be if only you could see it.

But just now when so many people crowded on the stage, when Wang Yuan and Tang Yu hooked each other up intimately, when countless people screamed at Wang Yuan, I really couldn't help but think this way.

He wanted to hug him, but when he raised his hand, Wang Yuan came back to his senses and took a step back: "Wang Junkai..."

Silence for a moment.

"Happy New Year." Seemingly not knowing what to say, Wang Yuan said with a sigh.

Such an attitude of resistance but not expressing made Wang Junkai feel anxious, a little afraid that Wang Yuan's heart was as cold as his appearance, and couldn't help asking: "Wang Yuaner, what happened at this time the year before last, do you still remember?"

At this time the year before last, he cheated Wang Yuan of his first kiss with a box of liqueur chocolates.

It was also his first kiss.

But when Wang Yuan heard this question, there was a look of being stabbed in his eyes, he raised his head and looked at him with a trace of anger: "Wang Junkai, what happened at this time last year, do you remember?"

His fingers tightened, as if they had been pricked.

At this time last year, he had just finished the announcement, and Wang Yuan was in Han Weiru's company, preparing for the upcoming art exam.

At that time, after the performance, he was holding his mobile phone in the background, but he didn't have the courage to say "Happy New Year" to Wang Yuan until the end. He comforted himself not to disturb the morale of the army, but he couldn't avoid the fact that he was a little cowardly.

This self-serving parting was a thorn, pierced deeply between him and Wang Yuan, and a slight touch would widen the surrounding cracks a bit.

Seeing Wang Junkai's expression of bewilderment and self-blame for a moment, Wang Yuan suddenly remembered what Tang Yu said——

"So if Wang Junkai saved you twice, shouldn't you also turn back?"

Does he still like this person?certainly.

But is he still angry?certainly.

And to be honest, the separation over the past year not only chilled his heart, but also chilled his mind, and he began to think about some very realistic issues.

For example, will this relationship bear fruit in the end?

That kind of result in a narrow sense.

There was a battle between heaven and man in his mind, and Wang Junkai's mobile phone on the table next to him suddenly rang.

Both of them turned their heads subconsciously——

"Tan Sisi".

The atmosphere suddenly became strange and dignified.

"Don't answer?" Wang Yuan stared at Wang Junkai's complex expression, his eyes turned cold.

"No more." Wang Junkai's answer was quick, but it didn't sound so firm.

"If you want to pick it up, pick it up quickly," Wang Yuan sneered suddenly, with a clear face, "Your Zhuo Wenjun is impatient to wait."

The daughter of the boss of the company, what a clichéd story, although he knew in his heart that Wang Junkai was not this kind of person, but he couldn't help but feel uncomfortable. I'm afraid that these two people will have more or less contact this year, and there are some gossips in the circle, He couldn't help but say something unpleasant.

Even if Wang Junkai couldn't understand what he meant for a while, he could tell that the kid was a little unhappy, but he saw some hope, so he turned the phone over and took it off, smiled: "Are you jealous? ?”

"I've never been jealous," Wang Yuan really didn't like his confident look, it seemed like it had always been like this, Wang Junkai always treated him with an involuntary strength, when he kissed him, when he confessed, and when he left, That's it... He really doesn't like this feeling, like being led by the nose, so his voice became colder and colder, "Wang Junkai, just because she revolves around you doesn't mean that I also revolve around you, I think she fine."

"What do you mean? Does she have anything to do with us?" Wang Junkai couldn't help frowning.

Wang Yuan still had a smile on his face: "It's not us, but you. Although it's none of my business, but Wang Junkai, to be honest, you should find someone more suitable for you, such as Tan Sisi."

After speaking, he turned around and walked towards the door, as if he was afraid of seeing Wang Junkai's expression in the next second.

After walking to the door, there was still no movement behind him, Wang Yuan hesitated for a moment, and put his hand on the doorknob.

"Wang Yuan'er, do you understand?" Wang Junkai finally said at that moment, "There is no one who is more suitable for me. I have met someone who is suitable for me in my life, and there will never be another one in the future."

The fingers holding the doorknob tightened: "Why do I feel...the one who doesn't understand is you?"

Wang Junkai was startled, and then slowly said: "If I explain what happened a year ago to you now, would you be willing to listen?"

"No need." Wang Yuan turned his back to him and shook his head, "I already knew what you were going to say. Besides, it's not important to me now."

"Whether you are angry or speak harshly," Wang Junkai said in a firm voice, "I will never give up."

Wang Yuan just didn't like his self-centered toughness: "I'm just like this, you can do whatever you want."

He walked to the parking lot in a trance, but unexpectedly saw Tang Yu leaning on the car door and still not leaving.

"Why are you still here?" Wang Yuan looked at the person who left earlier than him in a daze.

Tang Yu shrugged helplessly: "Your poor little assistant just called me for help, saying that you were hijacked by Wang Junkai to the lounge and he didn't know what to do."

"Huh?" Wang Yuan was speechless, "Tong Weijun's brain is getting bigger and bigger now, what kind of hijacking, but he said a few words... He doesn't know if you don't know, why did you turn back?"

"I'm waiting to see the show," Tang Yu said honestly after receiving Wang Yuan's eyes with a malicious look on his face, "Let me take a look, if you come out with Wang Junkai, I don't care about you, but if you If you come out alone, then I guess this New Year's Eve will be lonely and cold again, why don't we two single dogs get together and drink some wine to warm up."

"..." Wang Yuan stared at him for a while, and then said slowly, "Tang Yu, do you know that no matter how nice the words come out of your mouth, they are like hooligans."

Tang Yu thought about it: "Maybe this is also a kind of charm."

"...Go to hell." Wang Yuan scolded him, but he was grateful in his heart—to tell the truth, it is really not suitable for him to be alone now.

Wang Yuan usually drinks a lot. Tang Yu usually pays attention to maintenance. Finally, he only asked his assistant to buy some red wine and fruit. The two of them didn't run around, and returned to the company to occupy the lounge.

Before half a bottle of wine was available, Wang Yuan was completely red from the sockets of his eyes to the pinnae of his ears. Tang Yu didn't react at all, but just lazily nestled there, looked at him with a smile, and then stuttered a little: "Wang Xiaoyuan, be honest! Say, have you completely forgotten what I said again, and said a bunch of bad things to Wang Junkai."

Wang Yuan was a little dizzy, and he smiled foolishly—yes, the words Tang Yu said before were clearly still in his ears, but he still couldn't help but speak harshly to Wang Junkai, it was like this in the past years, When the two of them quarreled or got into trouble, it was obvious that he felt very uncomfortable, but he still insisted on it. Sometimes Wang Junkai coaxed once or twice, but it didn't work.

That's the case with trivial matters, not to mention that this matter has caused him to struggle for more than a year. "New and old hatred" are entangled together. To be honest, he can't control himself if he wants to restrain himself.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Tang Yu felt clear in her heart, and put down her glass: "I said why the relationship between you and Bei Jianing is getting better and better...the two are exactly the same!"

"Come on... What do you two think I don't know?" Wang Yuan looked contemptuous, "If you can't figure it out yourself, don't blackmail me by the way."

Tang Yu looked tired and disliked: "But seriously, is this kind of thing really so hard to forgive?"

"...I don't know," Wang Yuan lowered his head, "I can only say that even if it's out of good intentions, the feeling of being abandoned is really uncomfortable, and it made me feel very useless for a while."

"What do you think!" Tang Yu retorted without explanation, "Wang Xiaoyuan, look, you look good, sing well, act well, and have a good personality..."

Wang Yuan smiled: "I know...but he doesn't know, I believe in myself, but he doesn't believe in me...he makes decisions involuntarily, which makes me who have always believed in him lose confidence. "

"Not necessarily, I really don't think he doesn't believe you, maybe my position is a bit similar to his," Tang Yu shook her head, "But I have to remind you, there is another feeling that is also very uncomfortable, that is The feeling that no matter how hard you try, it’s useless, you can’t understand this truth—this is also my personal experience, and it’s just for reference.”

I don't know if it's really forbidden to talk nonsense on New Year's Eve. Wang Yuan felt that Tang Yu's later words were a bit eloquent.

Wang Junkai has actually been in touch with him since meeting at Bei Jianing last year—to be precise, unilateral contact. Although the New Year's Eve was not very happy, he still sent him New Year's greetings the next day.

But after a while, there was no news from him again, which made Wang Yuan, who was used to ignoring his messages every day, a little uncomfortable.

I feel a little angry in my heart, did this person do it on purpose?Retreat to advance?Playing hard to get? ?Give a sweet jujube another slap? ? ?

Or... is it really like what Tang Yu said, it's going to decline again and again?

I don't know who said "I won't give up" swearingly, as if affectionate and righteous, and now even the person is gone.

What the hell... no perseverance.

He said it didn't matter, but he couldn't avoid all kinds of concerns in his heart. After struggling for more than a week, Wang Yuan finally found a chance to distract him——

It's Chinese New Year, and he's going back to Chongqing.

But people are unlucky, it seems that drinking cold water will clog the teeth... After returning to Chongqing, Wang Yuan found that many things were different from what he imagined.

For example, since he hasn't been home for so long, his mother seemed to be a little excited on the first day, and then she was mysterious and didn't know what she was busy with all day long.

For example, he really wanted the food at home, but his mother was tinkering in the kitchen every day, and in the end she didn't do anything delicious for him.

For example... Well, there are too many for him to compare.

All in all, the atmosphere at home has always been weird.

But after all, she is her own mother, and after being pestered by her lovely son for two or three days, she finally couldn't help but hesitate to say: "You asked me...I didn't tell you."

"Hmm?" It was effective to show cuteness and coquettishness to her mother, "What's the matter?"

"Xiao Kai, he..." As soon as these three words came out, Wang Yuan's expression changed instantly.

When the group disbanded the year before last, he stayed at home for more than a week, and the first thing he said to his mother after returning to normal was: "Don't mention Wang Junkai to me again."

His expression at that time shocked his parents, and the entanglement not only tormented him but also tormented his whole family.

But after all, the relationship between the two families has been good for many years, and later the communication between the parents' generation was transferred to a place that he could not see.

Now that it's Chinese New Year, it's really strange that his mother suddenly mentioned Wang Junkai.

"...Why mention him all of a sudden?" Wang Yuan's expression darkened suddenly.

"Xiao Kai is in Chongqing," Yuan's mother sighed and insisted on saying, "Some time ago, she fell while filming Hanging Wia, and she is still recovering. She will be back after the Chinese New Year."

Wang Yuan was stunned for a moment, and glanced at the insulated lunch box his mother had been playing with lately but kept him from looking at it.

After a long time, he opened his mouth and said, "Where is my coat?"

When I came out of the house, I realized that it was snowing in Chongqing.

This seems to be the second snow since they were born.

It is very different from the snow in the north. It looks thin and white, and it melts instantly when it falls on the ground, and it cannot survive.

When it snowed for the first time in Chongqing, they were in Beijing and didn't catch up with the rare sight in decades.

But at that time, the two of them were in the middle of their hearts, and they just sighed a few words, and they forgot it after a while.

After a long time, when he saw snow falling in Beijing again, he suddenly felt some regret.

Sure enough, some things will become special only when they are watched with special people on special occasions.

I couldn't help but open the car window and reached out to touch the cool snowflakes.

The sudden snow seemed to comfort him after God abused him, and he couldn't bear it, so anxious that he wished to fly to Wang Junkai's house.

But the snowflakes came in through the car window, fell on his face, and melted, just like he was crying.

Before the car stopped downstairs at Wang Junkai's house, Wang Yuan opened the car door and jumped off——

Sure enough, the snow fell on the marble steps very slippery, and after struggling for half a second, he still fell to the ground.

But I didn't know what I was anxious about, so I got up and ran to the elevator.

Obviously Wang Junkai is at home, and no one can escape.

What is he anxious about?

Maybe it's just fear, the courage he mustered up because of worry and anxiety will be scattered by his terrible self-esteem in the next second, and he will never find it again.

After hurriedly knocking on the door and entering, Wang Junkai and his family all had shocked eyes.

The white and clean child was dressed beautifully, but it was a pity that he fell a little badly.

But Wang Yuan didn't dare to let himself feel this kind of embarrassment, he was afraid that he couldn't help but turn around and run away.

He greeted Kai's parents and mother incoherently, and then rushed towards Wang Junkai's room.

The people in the room were wearing soft sweaters, leaning on the bed, with one leg propped up by a pillow.

Rao is still holding the guitar in his arms, randomly playing unknown tunes.

The hair is obedient, the expression is calm, and a little lonely.

When Wang Yuan pushed the door and entered, he saw this kind of Wang Junkai.

But in the next second, this quiet handsome man had a startled expression, looked at him in a mess, and said incoherently: "Wang Yuan'er?! Why are you here? How did you make it like this? Did you fall down?"

Wang Yuan didn't answer his question, but just stared at him and asked him: "So you didn't intend to tell me that you were injured?!"

"I..." Wang Junkai was stunned for a moment, then lowered his voice to answer the irrelevant question, "I thought you didn't want to see me..."

"Yeah, I don't want to see you, but if you're injured, I'd still like to know." Wang Yuan felt that what he said didn't have any logic, but those words came out of his brain like this, which was beyond his control. "I'm different from you. I really gave my feelings in those years. It's not so easy to let go. I really still care about you. Unlike you, you can easily leave me cruelly."

Wang Junkai didn't speak, and looked at him fixedly, the sea in his eyes seemed a little rough.

It wasn't until Wang Yuan had the urge to turn around and run away again that he said, "Come here."

"What, what are you doing?" Wang Yuan was flustered by him, and he couldn't keep up with his train of thought.

"I want to hug you." Wang Junkai said bluntly.

Even though there was no mirror in front of him, Wang Yuan still felt his face blushing. He patted his messy clothes at a loss: "Wait, wait for me to clean myself..."

God, what the hell is he talking about? !

But Wang Junkai didn't smile or look away, he just said softly: "I can't wait that long."