What is it like to find someone for your ex?

"How do you know if you don't try?"

Evasion is an act of cowardice.

In the worst case, Xie Xu left him.

"I'm actually quite timid." Guan Qing said, "But I'm willing to... change for him."

Ye Zi looked at him quietly.

He felt a subtle depression, this was the first time he had tried so hard and induced it, but nothing could be done.

It was raining heavily, and the sound of the rain was very clear in the quiet space.

Ye Zi pursed his lips, as if he wanted to laugh, but his face was too pale:

"There are so many people in this world, he is not the only one who can accept you - he is not the best and most suitable one."

"Is it suitable... is it important?" Guan Qing remembered what Xie Qing said to Chris, he opened the umbrella, took a last look at Ye Zi, and said with a smile:

"But I feel lucky to fall in love with him like this."

Ye Zi looked at Guan Qing's side face, dazed and shocked.

The bird, which could not be trapped, flew up again.

The rain will wet its wings, and the wind will blow its feathers, but no storm can stop it.

Guan Qing and Xie Xu, they are both free birds, they... will embrace each other eventually.

The torrential rain caused many roads to be closed, Guan Qing took a small road, and the second-hand Honda slid on the road and drove forward.

A cordon has been pulled up ahead.At this time, it was completely useless to open an umbrella. Guan Qing stepped forward in the muddy water, and saw a few cars and many staff members wearing yellow overalls and black raincoats. There was even a group of armed policemen. A man was shouting loudly through a megaphone.

Guan Qing didn't bring a raincoat, and his whole body was soaked through.He walked up to the man and asked, "Master, is there something wrong ahead?"

The man ignored him.

Guan Qing raised his voice and asked again, his voice was almost hoarse, he patted the master's shoulder and stuffed half a pack of cigarettes in the past.The master glanced at him, didn't pick up the cigarette, and looked worried: "Who are you?! It's dangerous here, and we're busy. There's a car overturned in front, and we're searching for rescue."

Guan Qing's heart skipped a beat.

A car... overturned.

During this kind of mudslide disaster, if you still turn down from the mountain, the people on the top may be in danger.He wiped his face and asked, "Is there a tall man in that car, it's alpha..."

"How do I know?! Go, go, get out." The man waved impatiently.

Guan Qing's eye sockets instantly turned red.

He took two steps back and bent down to the master: "Master, my wife may be in that car, please, I, I..."

He couldn't go on.

The master stopped talking.

He was silent for a while, then lifted Guan Qing's shoulders, and said, "I understand your feelings, but I hope you will be mentally prepared."

Guan Qing bent over, unwilling to get up, his lips were tightly pressed, and the water on his face was not known whether it was rain or tears, and he trembled in the heavy rain.

At this time, someone shouted not far away: "Captain, I found someone. An alpha with a height of 1.8 meters, where are the family members? Are you here?"

The proportion of alpha and omega in the current population ratio is very small, and it is such a small place, if it is alpha, there is a high probability that it is Xie Xu.

Guan Qing suddenly stood up.

Surprise and excitement gradually gathered in his eyes, and his whole body glowed again in an instant: "Family, family is here, I—"

Until the man's next sentence came:

"The corpse is being carried here. Let the family members come and claim it!"

The surprise and excitement on Guan Qing's face remained where they were, and before it dissipated, his expression was blank for a moment.

He froze on the spot, and his brain thumped.

The sound of the rain in his ears also gradually faded away, including the comfort of others who came to help him and the loud yelling of the staff, he froze there, unconscious.

It seems that he can't understand people's words.

The visitor waved his hand in front of him, and asked impatiently, "Family? Come and find out, is it this?"

"I..." Guan Qing opened his mouth, and took two quick breaths as if he couldn't breathe normally.He didn't dare to lower his head, so he looked at the stretcher being carried in front of him out of the corner of his eye.

The corpse was covered with a white cloth and was tall.

Countless panic and painful emotions filled Guan Qing's eyes, and his whole body gradually trembled violently.He didn't look at the white cloth anymore, stared at the mud with his head down, and said in a low voice:

"not him."

He took two steps back, shook his head, forced a smile, and said as if talking to himself: "Hold, sorry, I remembered wrongly, he may not be here today, it must not be him."

How could his thank you be like this.

No sound, no noise.So lying there, not laughing, not making trouble, it's unbelievably obedient.It's almost like death--

He tried to pinch that word out of his mind, warning himself not to think about it.

"Yes," he nodded, and said to himself, "He, he likes to make trouble so much, just like a child, how could he lie obediently for so long."

He raised his head and said seriously to those people: "This is not my lover."

Those people looked at him very strangely.

— Sympathy, pity.

Guan Qing gradually became panicked and a little angry.He reluctantly bent the corner of his mouth and said, "Don't look at me like that, it's really not him."

The team leader came up and patted him on the shoulder. After a moment of silence, he said, "We understand, but...you think, if you don't recognize him, if he is still here, how sad it would be."

'What if' is still there?

"Who's gone?" Guan Qing smiled incredulously, looking at the group of people as if they were lunatics:

"He's been there all the time. We met yesterday, yesterday."

His eyes were red with anxiety, trying to prove something, he opened WeChat and showed them: "He sent me a message today. He can't..."

No one speaks.

Some left to find others.And the captain squatted down beside him, held up an umbrella, and said, "You... what did you do when you met last time?"

Guan Qing was silent for a while, then said, "Arguing."

He also broke up with Xie Xu.

He lowered his head, smiled self-deprecatingly, and said, "Yes, I was wrong. But, it can't... punish me like this?"

Perhaps he was possessed by ghosts.

Guan Qing promised Xie Xu, and he promised Xie Xu that he would believe in him and would not leave him, but he failed to do so.

He is willing to use the rest of his life and everything to make up for it.

But at least, give him a chance to make amends.

Don't go in such a hurry, don't...

Guan Qing buried her face in her palms, trembling and choking, said:

"Don't want me,"

He instantly understood Xie Xu's worry about gains and losses.

But where is Xie Xu...

He finally summoned up a little courage, looked at the stretcher, at the man lying quietly under the white cloth.His legs trembled so badly that he couldn't stand up. He walked over on his knees and whispered to the man:

"Thank you, get up."

His voice was low and soft, as if he was afraid of disturbing something: "When you get up, I will recognize you."

The corners of his mouth twisted, trying to force a smile, afraid of scaring Xie Xu, but in the end he couldn't do it.His eyes were filled with tenderness that was almost heartbreaking, and he whispered:

"Why are you so obedient now? You will be naughty and troublesome in the future, and I will never say anything about you again."

"Look at me."

"If you slow down, I won't want you anymore." Guan Qing paused, then smiled with red eyes:

"I'm talking nonsense."

"I won't leave again, I want all kinds of you."

There was gradually a commotion in the distance, and a group of people came running towards them carrying stretchers.

The captain patted him on the shoulder, stood up with a horn, and ordered order.Guan Qing wanted to stand up, but his legs were really weak.He propped his umbrella on the stretcher and sat numb in the rain.

He felt very light all over his body, as if he was about to float like this.

It hurts when you lose someone you love.

But at this moment he didn't feel any pain, maybe he didn't react, or maybe...

When the heart hurts a little, it hurts.But when the whole heart is taken out, it doesn't hurt anymore.

He lost Xie Xu, and even lost all his emotions, joy, pain, and cowardice, and he will never have them again.

"Wait a minute, don't worry." He whispered to the person lying quietly on the stretcher, "I'll take you home when I recover//strength, don't worry."

He took a breath, tried to smile and said, "We still have... a long time."

A lifetime is so long.

"You don't like me going to graduate school, so I won't. You don't like Ye Zi, I won't see him anymore."

"You like children, right? In the future, we will adopt a child and live in the countryside. It is best to be by the sea, far away from the mountains."

"Do you like boys or girls? You never told me before, and... you didn't propose marriage, and you didn't talk about our future. I—"

Guan Qing covered his face with his hands, but his voice was laughing:

"It's okay, if you don't talk about it, don't talk about it. Our future can be taken step by step, and we can see it step by step. A lifetime is not long, so I'm not in a hurry."

"Thank you, you..."

He tremblingly picked up a corner of the white cloth, and said, "Don't go in such a hurry. When you get there, wait for me for a while."

"I'm selfish. I've waited for you for so long. You should wait for me for a while. We can and will be together in the next life."

It is best to grow up together from an early age and go to junior high school, high school, and university together.

He had never seen Xie Xu when he was a child, so he really wanted to.

Next time, he will definitely accompany him from beginning to end, and walk through his life completely.

Guan Qing squatted on the ground, hugged her knees, and shrunk herself into a small ball.

"Hi, may I need help—"

Interjection//A voice comes in.

The voice was hoarse and low, and could not be heard clearly through the sound of rain.Guan Qing didn't eat, and after running around for so long, he was a little dizzy.

He followed the sound, and saw a flashlight breaking through the night and rain and hitting straight.

The two stared at each other through the overwhelming rain.

Guan Qing's Adam's apple slipped up and down, his expression was blank, and he heard his dry voice:

"Thank you...?"

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The author has something to say: [Small Theater]

Guan Qing: Husband, what should I do if I get a bento, woo woo woo.

Xie Xu: What should I do if my wife kneels and cries next to the strange male alpha, woo woo woo.

Thanks to 0.0 and Jiu Zinian for the mines, yum!

(Chapter 36 was spat out due to some accident...Chapter 36 has no content, no update today!! Loudly!! It's over after reading this, don't scroll down!! I love you)