What is it like to find someone for your ex?

"By the way, you fainted last night... due to severe anemia. How could you be severely anemic?"

Just as Guan Qing was about to speak, she saw the little nurse who came to change the medicine bottle peeking at Xie Xu with a blushing face. She also took out her mobile phone and quietly switched it to camera mode.Guan Qing quickly stopped her.

Xie Xu saw this with his eyes, and smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled. With his index finger between his lips, he gave a 'shh' to the little nurse and said:

"Pretend you didn't see me, okay?"

The little nurse blushed, clutching her heart as if she was sick, and pushed the cart away.

The room became quiet again.

Guan Qing was still very tired, the kind of tiredness of the rest of his life after a catastrophe.The thing that had been worrying for so long didn't happen—as long as Xie Xu said it, he would believe it.

He believed that Xie Xu didn't like Jiang Lu.

Obviously just slept for so long, just woke up but felt sleepy again.He closed his eyes and fell asleep for a while, and when he opened them again, he saw Xie Xu looking at him, his eyes were deep and soft, reflecting the clear sky outside the window.

Seeing him open his eyes, Xie Xu was taken aback, his expression froze quickly, and he looked away.

Guan Qing: "..."

"Xie Xu...uh, Mr. Xie," Guan Qing thought for a while, "Don't you have to work?"

Xie Xu looked away and replied, "No."

A look that doesn't want to say more.

Guan Qing didn't want to ask anymore, he closed his eyes when he saw that Xie Xu didn't want to talk to him.

Xie Xu stared at Guan Qing's reflection in the window for a while, and saw that he seemed to be asleep, so he quietly turned his eyes and looked at Guan Qing.

There is no mirror, but he also knows that his expression must be silly.

Like a smirking rich man lying next to gold and silver treasures.

Unexpectedly, Guan Qing suddenly opened his eyes and asked him with a suppressed smile:

"Why are you looking at me?"

Because you look good.

Of course Xie Xu couldn't say that. He thought for a while and said:

"Why don't I look anywhere else, just stare at you? It must be your reason, you should reflect on it."

It's so beautiful, you have to reflect on it.

While full of hooliganism, there is also a bit like a grade director who criticizes girls' makeup in high school.

Guan Qing: "...Okay."

Seeing that the time was almost up, Xie Xu went out and brought in a few lunch boxes and said:

"It's almost there, take a rest after lunch, and I'll take you home to sleep."

Guan Qing just drank half a bowl of porridge and was a little full. He said to Xie Xu: "You don't have to take care of me, I can do it myself."

Moreover, Xie Xu's face was very pale, and he didn't necessarily feel comfortable.

Rather than watching him busy here, he would rather thank Xu to go home and lie down.

Xie Xu said with a blank face: "I'm afraid you may have something wrong."

This says...

Guan Qing looked at the light spots cast by the sun on the floor, and even had a slight tinnitus.

Xie Xu continued: "—then who can I ask for so much deposit?"

He didn't go to see Guan Qing, but his ears were a little red.

Guan Qing: "..."

Guan Qing: "You can ask my mother, my bank card is directly linked to her."

Xie Xu handed him the spoon and chopsticks, and opened the lunch boxes one by one. His good temper towards the little nurse disappeared, and he said angrily, "Don't talk nonsense, eat."

There are not many dishes, but the presentation feels good.

Guan Qing took a sip.

Xie Xu looked at his expression and tried to pretend to be casual and asked: "How does it taste?"

Seeing his expression, Guan Qing knew that Xie Xu cooked the food himself, and it was very likely that he borrowed the hospital kitchen and cooked it in a hurry—he must have never tasted the dishes he made himself.Guan Qing tried hard to swallow the indescribable thing, and said with a smile: "Not bad."

Xie Xu tasted it dubiously, and soon his face turned blue. He took all the vegetables in Guan Qing's hand, covered them, and put them in the garbage bag as if to throw them away.

"Don't throw it away! I think it's delicious! Really!" Guan Qing was in a hurry, trying to sit up while leaning on the edge of the bed.

Xie Xu quickly threw away the lunch box and came back to help him, but Guan Qing pushed him away with trembling hands.

Xie Xu was taken aback, and tried to explain: "That food is not for people to eat, I asked Xiao Zhang to pack Jiang Yunxuan's food."

From his point of view, Guan Qing was against the light, his eyes were a little red, he quickly pulled the cup up to cover his face, and curled up into a ball.

"what happened to you?"

Xie Xu was a little at a loss, and stood aside like a child who had done something wrong.

Guan Qing shook his head, until Xiao Zhang brought the food, Xie Xu called him to get up to eat, he also shook his head and said he was not hungry.

A gesture of resistance.

Guan Qing was very sad, even he himself was surprised that he would be so sad because of this incident.

He really wants to eat, thank you for cooking.

Xie Xu didn't cook a few meals. Occasionally, at his request, he took a shovel twice and cooked a meal from start to finish by himself, almost never once.

Those few dishes that were not delicious were of great significance to Guan Qing, and he cherished them very much.

Xie Xu's first cooking was for him, how could he be unhappy.

And in this way, does his weight in Xie Xu's life become a little heavier?

At least he is someone who 'has eaten the meals Xie Xu made himself'.

If nothing else works, it is good enough to let the name of Guan Qing deepen in Xie Xu's mind in this way.

He also felt naive, as if he was playing a game to collect cards. Obviously these cards, such as "eat Xie Xu's cooking", "chatting with Xie Xu until three o'clock in the middle of the night", were all so insignificant, but he never tired of it .

Even regard them as the highest achievements in life.

This kind of thing, Xie Xu can't understand.

He wore the watch that Xie Xu gave him for six years. Later, when he was on a business trip, he was lost by a friend. He blocked all the contact information of the other party and cut off contact.

At that time, in the middle of the night, he searched for the lost ditch all night with a flashlight, but he couldn't find it.

He still remembers the feeling of almost despair standing in the water.

After the business trip, when he got home, the only thing he wanted to do was to cry in Xie Xu's arms, but Xie Xu was not there.

He opened the movie played by Xie Xu, and in the opening monologue of the leading actor, he said to the computer screen:

——"Sorry, I lost the watch you gave me."

Xie Xu's words were low and deep: "In my life, there have been springs, autumns and summers."

—— "I didn't mean it... That friend has broken up."

Almost in a breath, Xie Xu's final words dissipated in the gradually louder wind: "Now there is only winter left."

--"I am very depressed."

He covered his eyes and looked at Xie Xu on the screen, as if he didn't know how to vent his excessive pain, so he could only say over and over again: "I'm very sad."

And Xie Xu on the screen smiled softly and apologetically at him.

Xie Xu drove his SUV, wearing sunglasses and a hat, fully armed, and drove out of the hospital parking lot like a thief.

Guan Qing only took a few mouthfuls for lunch, and when Xie Xu's face was about to drop, he managed to take two mouthfuls.He really has no appetite.

The relationship between the two seems to have fallen back to its original state after a short recovery.

When getting off the car, Xie Xu sent him downstairs, hesitated for a while, and didn't ask the phrase 'don't invite me to sit up'.He looked at Guan Qing, as if... he didn't really think that he was still in front of him.

Guan Qing was about to say goodbye when he suddenly remembered something and asked him, "How much is my medical bill?"

Xie Xu: "No need."

"Don't say no, let me ask you," Guan Qing asked while taking out her mobile phone, "What's the relationship between us?"

Xie Xu said 'couple relationship', and finally stopped the car: "Employment relationship."

"So, will the employer pay the employee's medical expenses?" Guan Qing asked patiently.

Xie Xu was helpless: "Just treat it as the insurance that the employer buys for you, okay?"

"It's not a work-related injury." Guan Qing disagreed, "Don't you say so?"

"Okay," Xie Xu said, "you have medical insurance, a total of ninety."

"..."

Guan Qing looked at WeChat, and an acquaintance in the hospital replied to him: "Including one day's hospitalization fee, the total is [-]."

A good one is 90 yuan.

He transferred Xie Xu 2000 yuan on WeChat and said, "Medical expenses and Didi taxi fare are all for you."

Xie Xu didn't want to accept it, but looking at Guan Qing's eyes, it seemed that if he didn't accept it, he would cut off contact, so he had to accept it.

Guan Qing breathed a sigh of relief.

Children from poorer families are more sensitive to money.

They grew up immersed in the suspicious eyes of the people around them since they were young. When something was lost in the town, the first thing that was suspected was their own home. He had been pointed at by others and scolded by others.

As if being poor is a sin.

And this charge is punishable by life imprisonment.Even when he grows up, no one doubts him anymore, and those probing sights, ridicule and doubts, and voices of discussion still remain in his mind.The pair of dark eyes behind him never disappeared.

I used to be with Xie Xu, and Xie Xu directly handed over all the bank cards to him. He didn't want to spend Xie Xu's money, so he helped him buy financial management, and paid for all the household expenses by himself.

But Xie Xu spends money and is extravagant, asking him for it at every turn.He originally wanted to take the postgraduate entrance examination of psychology, his mother asked for money, and he needed to take care of the family here, but he was really short of money, so he joined the matchmaking business by mistake under the introduction of a friend.

Guan Qing arrived home, opened the window, and saw Xie Xu still downstairs.He opened the car window and sat smoking for a while.He even wore sunglasses and looked in Guan Qing's direction.

The two looked at each other at a distance of tens of meters.

Xie Xu paused, then put his two fingers together in front of his eyebrows, and saluted him far away.It seemed that he was still holding a cigarette and pulling the corners of his lips, and gave a smirk.

"..."

Guan Qing slammed the window shut.

...Oops, I feel so handsome.

A few days later, Xie Xu forced Guan Qing to come out for dinner again on the grounds of the overlord clause.

Guan Qing was really helpless, but he didn't know how to refuse.He thought, since Xie Xu didn't fall in love with Jiang Lu, since...

Can't think about it any further.

The food is home-made, and there are few people, so it is naturally very expensive.

After drinking and eating, Xie Xu twitched the corners of his mouth and said, "Let's go, I'll take you home."

"No need," Guan Qing said hastily, "I came here by car."

Xie Xu smiled.

Guan Qing didn't know why, so Xie Xu pointed to the glass on the table. Guan Qing drank more than half of the drink and said, "I forgot to mention just now, the alcohol content of this drink is not low."

Guan Qing: "..."

"Xiao Zhang," Xie Xu turned around and asked, "How is the drunk driving investigation done in S City recently?"

Xiao Zhang lowered his head and said conscientiously: "Recently, our city has stepped up the investigation of drunk driving. The number of inspectors in various places has increased, and the punishment has been increased. If the circumstances are serious, the driver's license may even be revoked. Our goal is to prevent anyone from drinking and driving. a life..."

Xie Xu made a 'stop' gesture and said, "That's enough." Then he turned his head to Guan Qing, twitching the corners of his mouth, "How is it? Let me see, it was past eight o'clock when you came, and it's ten o'clock now. Less... hey, Xiao Zhang."

Xiao Zhang winked, and immediately sang with him, saying: "The old city where Mr. Guan lives is not directly connected to the subway. The nearest train leaves at 09:30, and it takes about an hour and a half by taxi."

Guan Qing: "..."

Xie Xu turned the car keys in one hand, put the other in his pocket, looked down at Guan Qing, and asked in a low voice, "How is it, Mr. Guan?...May I call Didi for you?"

Guan Qing could only nod and said, "Okay, thank you."

Xie Xu turned on the phone, pressed it, and showed Guan Qing a certain interface—his online car-hailing driver qualification, and he officially started working today.

Guan Qing: "..." It's really hard for you.

Xie Xu: "I received the passenger with the tail number 1588, the destination is the Bauhinia Garden in the old town, the estimated time—"

Guan Qing was a little helpless for a while: "It's almost done, you, just forget about being messy at home, but when you come out—"

He was stunned after speaking.

The way he and Xie Xu get along these days is still the same.He couldn't figure out how Xie Xu felt about him, so he could only be cautious, walking on thin ice, not daring to speak intimately, trying to grasp the scale with the client.

Is it because the recent atmosphere of getting along is too relaxed, he even forgot...they have broken up for a long time

Xie Xu also stopped and stopped talking.He looked at Guan Qing, and at that moment, certain emotions gathered and surged in his eyes.

It was like walking alone in a world of ice and snow, when suddenly a basin of water poured down from the sky.

He was ready to be iced from head to sole, but unexpectedly it turned out to be a basin of hot water.

And at that moment, there was no time for surprise.

He opened his mouth, the corners of his lips raised and lowered, he didn't know whether he wanted to laugh or cry.

"Sorry." Unexpectedly, Guan Qing lowered his head and said first, "I overstepped."

I dare not look at Xie Xu's expression.

He obviously didn't want this, and said the same thing in the same tone as before, as if to win sympathy.

It seems that if you remind Xie Xu of the past...you will fall in love with him again.

He knew it was impossible.But just letting Xie Xu know that he once had such thoughts made him extremely uncomfortable.

Obviously it hurts enough, obviously all his fatal wounds have been pinched, obviously he has lost almost nothing.

He doesn't want any more.

Xie Xu didn't speak for a long time.

After a while, he took a deep breath and said, "It's okay, let's go."

He tried his best to suppress the trembling of the tail.

It turned out that the basin of water was still ice.It turned out that it was very hot and very cold, and it felt the same in the first second.

It turned out that he was being passionate again.