ninety-nine twelve

In class the next day, Zhang Tianle passed a note from behind, which read in crooked characters: My dad found out.

I didn't understand what he was talking about for a while, and I suddenly understood after drawing two question marks on the note. I crossed out the question mark and replied "miserable". After sending it back to Zhang Tianle, I didn't send it again.

He brought up this matter again during the break and asked me, "Aren't you surprised?"

"Nothing to be surprised about, sooner or later."

Zhang Tianle nodded and said, "I originally wanted to take the initiative to tell him after a while, so as not to make him so angry."

Hearing what he said, I raised my eyebrows, looked at him intentionally, and joked, "What are you going to do?"

"What can I do, let's do it this way, he has found out, I should train, he will not really lock me at home and not let me go..." Zhang Tianle's eyes suddenly lit up when he said this , patted my arm and said: "Hey Ayu Ayu, I will give you my key card and password for a few days. If my dad really locks me up, you will come to rescue me in time!"

"Pull it down, what kind of plot is this?"

"Then the ending is that I won the championship in one fell swoop, came back triumphantly, got good test scores, and was admitted by many universities, and thus reached the pinnacle of my life."

I laughed while listening to his description, daydreams are full of lies, but Zhang Tianle is real.

I used to worry a little bit about what Zhang Tianle would do when his parents had to know about his participation in the competition. I was most afraid that he would be negative and return to the original point after going through a circle, or he would head-on with his parents and end up on both sides all sad.

I was actually a little surprised, not because his father suddenly found out about the game, but because he was in the same state as usual today, and he didn't seem to be affected at all.

"My dad just thinks that I'm not doing my job properly, but I don't really only focus on running. I also know when to study and when to take exams, but I have to arrange the time. I really concentrate on the days of the exam. Exam, then you can concentrate on training now after the exam, right?"

Once this kind of training to prepare for the game is stopped, even if it is only for one day, it will have a great impact on the effect of subsequent training. Their test timeline is extended, and it took Zhang Tianle more than two weeks intermittently to finish the test. Slow down. After he came back, in order to return to the previous training level as soon as possible, he added extra weight to all the items. During the hottest lunch break, he also used it to do waist, abdomen and arm coordination training and breathing training. Will God reward me? I don't know, but his father can't say that he doesn't work hard just because he is dissatisfied with the field he is working on. It doesn't make sense.

"And I really think I'm okay in the exam. There will always be three or four grades, no matter how bad it is, it won't be lower than the third grade."

Zhang Tianle is now more confident than I imagined, at least more confident than when I first came into contact with him last year.This may be the speed at which a seventeen or eighteen-year-old person can grow. Zhang Tianle can't feel the change, but in my opinion, he has made great progress. In all aspects, his confidence has always been given to himself. Others Can't help.

Zhang Tianle stretched his waist, raised his head and let out a long breath, "Forget it, now as long as I think that it will be over after June, I feel hopeful. Whatever he does, good or bad, come quickly, I going on honeymoon..."

"What?" Zhang Tianle's words behind him became softer and softer. I heard it, but I didn't seem to hear it clearly.

He lowered his head heavily, then raised his head to look at me, with a sullen face and no expression, but his ears were a little red, "It's nothing."

Spring is sleepy and autumn is exhausted, and my eyelids are always fighting in class.I struggled through the second half of the morning, and hid in the corner at the back of the classroom during my lunch break. I moved a few empty stools and put them together, intending to make do with lying down and squinting for a while.

Zhang Tianle didn't have the habit of taking a nap. During this time, others were practicing on the playground and would come back after the lunch break.

The stool is so hard that I feel uncomfortable no matter how I lie on it. I have to change my position after a while. It is not as comfortable as lying on the table.I put my arms over my eyes to block the light, and when I was drowsy, someone reached out and gently supported the back of my head, and then I lay down as if I was pillowing on that person's lap. I moved my arms and opened my eyes in a daze He squinted his eyes and looked up, it was Zhang Tianle who had returned.

Most of the students who stayed in school for lunch break got down to rest. In the classroom, the sound of needles dropping should be heard. I stopped in time when I was about to ask. Zhang Tianle held a book in his hand and opened it just to cover it Part of the light, he looked down at me, his other hand loosely wrapped around my head, and said silently: "Go to sleep."

I turned my face away, buried it in his palm, and fell asleep in the next second.

The bell rang at the end of the lunch break and I woke up suddenly. Zhang Tianle still maintained his posture. I was still lying on his lap, but my consciousness had not returned to my head. I just felt that I was forced to wake up after sleeping for a minute. , So I closed my eyes again and waited for the ringtone to end, wanting to go back to sleep again.

At this time, my nose suddenly felt cold, as if I had been thrown a keychain.Zhang Tianle hit something on my face. After thinking about it for a while, I slowly reached out to touch it. I touched a ring and put it on the tip of my nose.

I opened my eyes and looked, only to realize it was a ring.

I held it up to my eyes and turned it around. It is a basic ring without any pattern. The outer ring is frosted and the inner ring is smooth, silver, and simple.

Zhang Tianle's voice came from above: "Why are you so calm?"

As soon as I moved the ring away, I met the gaze of the person on the top, and realized belatedly, "Ah... yours."

Zhang Tianle moved his legs, and my head bobbed according to his movements. There were many people in the classroom who were unwilling to wake up like me. It was still quiet at this moment. Zhang Tianle lowered his voice and said: "What Mine, you want to piss me off, yours, for you!"

"Oh...is it expensive?"

"It's cheap, it's cheap." After all, Zhang Tianle probably saw that I didn't move, so he took the ring, grabbed my hand and tried it one by one, the ring stuck on the knuckle of the middle finger of my left hand. It couldn't be put on anymore, and it was a little loose on the ring finger, but it could be worn on the index finger, "Fuck, is it too big or too small? What does it matter if it is worn on the index finger. "

I raised my palms and looked at the backs of my hands. After a long time, I finally came to a conclusion: "It's small, it's good if you can wear it on your thumb, pull your fingers." In his clothes, he continued to be confused.

Later, Zhang Tianle gave up his old strength and pulled out my hand again, took off the ring, and pulled out the Avalokitesvara I was wearing around my neck. In short, by the time of class, the ring had been hung on the same root as Avalokitesvara. On the red string, sticking it to my heart produced a reaction, secretly heating up.

I pulled out the red rope quietly, with very small movements, and my shoulders shrank involuntarily, as if I was doing something shady and bad, for fear that Zhang Tianle would find out the trajectory of my arms from behind.

The rope was long enough, and the pendant just fell below the level of the desk. I stood up the textbook in front of me, picked up the pendant and lifted it to the desk.

Avalokitesvara is still the same Avalokitesvara, the skin is still warm just after leaving, and the metal ring on the side smashed crookedly on Avalokitesvara's head, and it feels warm to the touch.The silver ring completely destroyed the balance between the blue-white jade and the red lanyard. It felt like a rebellious collision. I felt that it was not right for a while, so I pushed the ring away with my thumb and put half of it on the first finger. On the joint, hold Guanyin in your hand, and align the edge of the Guanyin image with the lines in your palm, as if you want to embed it in the palm lines with a little force.

In my impression, things like rings are props that are only used when getting married, but now getting married is as far away as life, old age, sickness and death to me. I can't think of what kind of scene I will give a Girls give rings, if I am ten years older, maybe I can understand the romance and touch, whether it comes from the marriage or the ring itself.

I stroked the metal ring on my thumb in circles, never thinking that I would one day receive a ring from a boy.

I don't know what kind of feedback Zhang Tianle hopes to get from me. If I were a girl, it would be best if I could cry with joy first. Man, I can't say anything else in my heart except "fuck me".

Zhang Tianle gave me a ring, fuck me.

I took off the ring and stuffed it back into my clothes together with Guanyin. I raised my head and stared at the blackboard intently, but I didn't have the heart to attend class at all.

I am a very optimistic person, really, for example, I believe in the love that Zhang Tianle said, and I also think that he and I should be able to be together in a romantic relationship for a period of time, at least until the college entrance examination, maybe this summer vacation , if you are lucky, nothing will happen when you go to university. It is said that the future will be long, but who knows when it will be the head.

I know that there are too many variables, and many things cannot be thought about. People can only be optimistic if they rely on what they can grasp and touch right now, so I don't like to think about the future.

At that time, Zhang Tianle told me about applying for a Japanese visa, talking endlessly about his itinerary and arrangements, taking my time into consideration, and making many assumptions and plans. That was the first time I felt optimistic about us.

I always feel that the college entrance examination and the competition will be a turning point for us, not for me and him, but for us.Now we are limited by these two monotonous things, and we each bear the pressure. On the road where countless people are working together, we happened to meet, so we just let the flow accompany each other for a while, which is also considered a journey. pastime.After the college entrance examination is over and the game is over, the pattern of life has just begun, and everything will be different again, and the kind of person you like will also be different.

I mean, he doesn't have to be tied to me anymore.

In fact, to put it bluntly, it was his own game, and it was enough to share with me whether it was honor or loss. Besides, it was only a few days before and after the college entrance examination. Even if there were variables, it would not be so fast.At that time, I was lucky to hear Zhang Tianle say that we could go somewhere in Japan after the game. For the first time, I felt optimistic that maybe I could stay with him longer.

Optimism and pessimism always complement each other, so the ring on my chest now is the second time.

After evening self-study and school, I accompanied Zhang Tianle to the subway station, chatting nonsense along the way, but no one mentioned the ring.

He said: "If you are sleepy at noon, go home and sleep. You don't have to accompany me at school."

"Who is here to accompany you." I put my hands in my trouser pockets, and said something else: "Did I tell you, I'm actually very pessimistic."

"I don't know how to fall in love with a man, everything is too clueless, Tianle, I really like you, but I can't handle it well, you know, I think it's very good now, I really want to In my third year of high school, there is still one month left before my college entrance examination and your competition will be over, but other things don’t know when it will end, other things.”

"I used to hear from a friend in junior high school that he said it was impossible for him to face only one person all his life. It was too boring. I agreed with it at the time, but now I think that if he only faces one person all his life, it's actually pretty good."

"To be honest, it doesn't seem like it was before when I secretly liked you. Back then, you are down-to-earth. It's strange to me."

"I have to muddle along with everything. I thought I was so cool, and living in the present is not what I said, but in fact, I am afraid that when I think about it later, I understand the gap you said at that time. I understand it too well. What is the most important thing?" Fatal? The gap is the deadliest, the miss is the deadliest, and unintentional insertion is the deadliest."

"That is, you know, assuming this is a process of consumption, the total amount of feelings is so much, the more you consume, the happier you will be, but I have to think in advance what to do when I run out, but you... let me not know Is the total amount going up, or is it just being consumed faster."

"Happiness makes people dizzy, but I don't want to get carried away. The former is of course the best. If it's the latter, I don't want to fall too badly."

"Hey, forget it, I don't want to talk about it, it's hypocritical for the two men to talk too much."

Zhang Tianle didn't say much along the way, just listened to my nagging, I was a little embarrassed, patted him at the entrance of the subway station, and said: "I won't accompany you down, go back, let's go."

Zhang Tianle took advantage of the situation and grabbed my arm, looked at me silently, and said after a while: "Do you always leave yourself so many retreats?"

I opened my mouth, but I couldn't give an answer. It didn't make sense for me to bring my negativity to him, so I patted my chest and said, "Thank you, Ring." The voice of the last two words was swallowed by me When he came back, Zhang Tianle only saw the shape of his mouth, and the mouth was wrong. I hope he doesn't mind.

Zhang Tianle paused, and said: "Fool." After he finished speaking, he lowered his head to one side, smiled silently, with a rather helpless expression, then reached out to put his hand on my neck, leaned over and kissed me.

I saw his eyes closed, and his lips stayed on my mouth for two or three seconds, and then retreated to a distance of a fist, and instead held my head with both hands, he looked at me and said: "I am the first time Give someone a ring, I bought it in a small shop, I have no money, so you can use it first, when I have money later, I will give you the best, do you hear me?"

After Zhang Tianle finished speaking, he turned around and left, and when he was about to step into the escalator, he turned to me and shouted: "I will definitely have money!"

When he slowly descended from the escalator and disappeared, I was still standing there and staring at the front. The pedestrians around had already changed one after another, and no one cast strange eyes anymore.

All the thrilling moments, Zhang Tianle can always end stupidly, but I know I like all his looks.Just like I have no time for accidents, embarrassment, emotion, and sorrow and joy, I know that nothing will change first for me. I have to be the most optimistic pessimist to be worthy of my boy.

Kissing in public at the subway entrance during the peak hours of evening self-study and school is well known, but this is the first time I have experienced it.Some rumors about me and Zhang Tianle began to circulate in the school the next day. When it reached me, the version was not too outrageous. At the same time, there was a photo, the resolution was not too high, and it was obviously taken by someone secretly.

It is said that this photo is from the sophomore year of high school. I can’t tell when it was taken. It should be when it was still cold. Zhang Tianle and I were on the playground, and a bunch of people crowded around the basketball court to watch the game. Zhang Tianle His hands were on my waist, he turned his head to talk to me, very close, he looked like he was smiling, his mouth was almost close to my ear.

I showed the photo to Zhang Tianle, he raised his eyebrows and commented mischievously: "I'm so obvious."

So next, he and I began to realize tacitly and slowly that we couldn't be so unscrupulously intimate in school.

But only two days later, it rained one day, the exercises between classes were cancelled, and the students stayed in the teaching building to move around freely. Someone in the class brought a basketball, and a group of men gathered at the back of the classroom to play ball. There were only a few pictures in the back row Stools, in fact, the intimacy between boys is as long as there is no ghost in their hearts, how close they are, how close they are, at a glance, there are so many people sitting on one lap, Zhang Tianle also let me sit on his lap, the old class suddenly came in halfway, A group of us immediately collected the ball and dispersed, especially I had a ghost in my heart, and stood up suddenly, Zhang Tianle's hand slipped from my clothes, and he also stood up slowly.

In the past, when I sat on his lap, Zhang Tianle would put his hands into my clothes when he wanted to make trouble, but he just put his hands on my waist and did nothing.

I'm not sure if this process was a coincidence or not, and it happened that it all fell into the eyes of the old class. She reprimanded everyone, took a look at me, and then went to the front of the classroom to inspect other students.

After school at noon, the old class came to the class in person and called me to the office.

Most of the teachers in the office had gone to eat after get off work, and there were only a few two or three people left. The old class called me to him, and even asked me to move a chair to sit in a solemn manner, which meant that we wanted to have a long talk.

She first asked me in circles if I was under a lot of pressure to review recently, and told me not to be distracted on the final sprint for the college entrance examination, and finally asked the main question: "You and Zhang Tianle have been on good terms lately?"

I nodded slowly, and said "um", not knowing whether I should explain more.

"You are all in the rebellious period of adolescence. Of course, you are curious about the relationship between men and women. It is natural to have ignorant feelings, but in school, at this stage, the distance between classmates must be maintained. Whether it is a male student or a female student, or a female student and a female student, or a male student and a male student, you must keep it right."

"Teacher, Zhang Tianle and I are good friends. We knew each other before, so..."

"A good friend is a good friend, and a good friend can't be too good." Old Ban looked at me through the lens, "You are not stupid, even the teacher knows about it."

I was speechless, and I finally understood. It turned out that the old class didn't come to inspect the recess in the morning, but she came to inspect me and Zhang Tianle.

"Study is boring and stressful, but who doesn't come here like this? Look at the classmates in the class. They are all sprinting for the college entrance examination. Does anyone put their minds on messy things? You should also reflect on it, Zhang Tianle. Don’t take the college entrance examination, don’t you also don’t take the college entrance examination? If he wants to make trouble, you can play with him, and you are wasting your own time.”

"He didn't..."

"Do you want to change seats?"

I looked up and shook my head hastily, "I don't want to."

The old class sighed, "Tell me the truth, what's going on between you and Zhang Tianle?"

"...I am good friends with him."

"Wu Haoyu, I hope you don't get confused or confused at this time, put your mind on the review, concentrate on it, everyone has good friends, every stage has good friends at every stage, friends can bring you positive influence Yes, not to lead you astray."

I nodded mechanically, and my mind was in a mess for a moment. This was a situation I never expected, and there was no set of backup arguments that could be used at this moment.

"Teacher, have you finished talking?" Zhang Tianle's voice suddenly came from behind, and then he swaggered into the office.

The old class suddenly became strict, and angrily said to Zhang Tianle: "How can you go directly to the teacher's office without reporting!"

"Isn't it off work now?" He came to the old class and stood still for a second, then took my hand and turned around, "I'm hungry, let's eat."

"Stop! Come back! Come back to me, you two—"

The old class's angry voice was thrown farther and farther behind us, Zhang Tianle turned back and shouted to her while running: "Teacher, we are now out of school too——"

He dragged me down the stairs and jumped down three steps in one step, as if he was running away from the non-existent pursuers, and he had the illusion of elopement.

One point flustered, very happy.

After running downstairs, Zhang Tianle jumped back to the flat ground first, turned around and smiled at me, it was so beautiful.

"Let them all know, it's best for the whole school to know, I'm not afraid of anything, I just like you."