Give the slag and accept the end

On the first day of the wedding, Zhao Guo and Qiao Xiaoai broke up, which was proposed by Qiao Xiaoai.They had made an appointment to have a meal, watch a movie, and then go home early to prepare for the wedding the next day, but Qiao Xiaoai let him go.

Qiao Xiaoai called him and said, "I'm at the airport and I'm about to board the plane."

"Where are you going?"

"travel."

"We're getting married tomorrow..."

"No more." Qiao Xiaoai said, "The necklace and ring you gave me before, I put it in the mouth of your blue and black windbreaker. I put all the bank cards, door keys, and real estate certificates in one bag. On the bedside in the bedroom, you pick it up yourself, I took the pocket money you gave me, as my salary for being a shield for you for so long..."

Zhao Guo clenched his hands: "Xiao Ai, come back."

Qiao Xiaoai said, "No, I won't go back."

"why?"

"I told you back then that I love you without asking for anything in return. I was actually lying to you. No one would give love without asking for anything in return."

"I will give you whatever you want in return."

What if I want you to love me?

Qiao Xiaoai stood under the boarding ladder at the airport, looked at the crowd climbing up the ladder, and smiled slightly.The still pretty face is no longer as ignorant and brave as before. Everyone has changed, and so has she.

She recalled the days she spent with Zhao Guo over the years, remembered Zhao Guo crying and muttering his name in his sleep, and softly called out to the phone: "Zhao Guo."

Zhao Guo: "Well, tell me."

The plane soared in the sky, making a rumbling sound.The flight attendant had already started urging her to get on the plane, and she smiled apologetically and climbed up the ladder.The other end of the phone was quietly waiting for her, just like she used to quietly wait for the person on the other side to love her.

At the gate of the plane, she turned around, facing a certain direction of the city.

"Little Love?"

"Ah."

"What do you want to say?"

The setting sun is about to fall, and the sky is full of red clouds.The cool wind blows gently on her cheeks, reminding her of the scene when she happened to meet Zhao Guo in the sandpit of the school's back playground six years ago when she went back to her alma mater in high school.

It is also such a dusk and sunset time, the students are at home on vacation, and there is no one on the playground.Zhao Guo was the only one standing by the bunker in a thin sweater coat, staring blankly at something, as if remembering something.

She was overjoyed at the time, there was no news of Zhao Guo for a whole year, but when she saw someone at this time, her heart almost flew up.The cool wind blew, as if it had added wings to her. As soon as her heart moved, she took a step, like a cheerful bird flying to the south she wanted.She opened her mouth, wanting to shout loudly, shout out all the thoughts in her heart.

"Zhao..."

After a few dozen meters, she stopped, her voice stuck in her throat.

She saw that the teenager she liked suddenly raised his arms to cover his eyes, his shoulders shrugged - he was crying, and he seemed very sad.She had never seen a boy cry like this, the tears seemed to be wiped away, but he didn't make a sound, as if it was hard to endure.

She wouldn't be surprised if it was someone else, but that person was Zhao Guo.

Zhao Guo, that Zhao Guo who used to be so arrogant in the No. [-] Middle School, that Zhao Guo who was openly rebellious, dared to laugh and dare to get angry, and couldn't be seen by anyone, that Zhao Guo who could do everything in her heart and was not afraid of anything Zhao Guo.

He was crying.

It should be said that the lawless guy actually cried.

The air that day seemed to be stained with salty sadness, and the trees shook loudly, drowning the faint cry in the wind.At that time, although she didn't know why Zhao Guo was crying, she didn't go over to disturb him anymore, she just stood there and watched quietly, leaning against the tree, looking at the sky, feeling inexplicably melancholy.

It was only later that she knew what was hidden behind that cry - it was a boy's forbidden love that he couldn't express, the painful groan of a son who was burdened with family expectations, and his love for the superficially tough The deep disgust and self-blame of the cowardly and incompetent self.

"Although you don't admit it, I know that you still love Su Yin."

Half an hour before the wedding—

"Say it again?" Father Zhao's face was livid.

Zhao Guo said, "I won't marry Qiao Xiaoai anymore."

"Snapped!"

Almost as soon as the words fell, Father Zhao slapped Zhao Guo hard on the face.His eyes were scarlet red and his expression was ferocious.Pointing at Zhao Guo, he paused word by word: "Yu, no, get, you."

Zhao Guo turned around indifferently: "Qiao Xiaoai is already abroad now, there is nothing you can do if you disagree, we broke up yesterday."

"Who mentioned it?"

"I."

As soon as Zhao Guo finished speaking, Father Zhao kicked him in the stomach, kicking him a meter or two away.That kick was not light. After Zhao Guo fell to the ground, he curled up like a boiled shrimp, clutching his stomach and unable to move for a long time.

Father Zhao looked at Zhao Guo condescendingly, walked over and gave him another kick, then the second kick, and the third kick, the movements were sharp and ruthless, like kicking a sandbag.At this time, Zhao Guo had already been kicked silently, but Zhao's father stretched his legs back again, ready to attack again.

Mother Zhao on the side was terrified, and after a few seconds of reaction, she screamed, ran over to hug Father Zhao, and hissed, "You're crazy!"

After Zhao's mother stopped him, she quickly squatted down and hugged Zhao Guo's upper body. Looking at her son's sore lips, her heart almost stopped beating. ,son?"

"He's not dead, let him go."

Zhao's mother said angrily with tears in her eyes: "Let him go and you're going to beat him again. Are you going to kill him? No matter what, he's your son!"

"My son?" Zhao's father said, "I don't have this kind of son who only tortures people. If I knew he was still like this today, I should have let him die in the rehab center in the first place, so as not to embarrass me living in the world. .”

Hearing this, Zhao's mother showed an unbelievable expression on her face: "What are you talking about, Zhao Yong, are you talking like a father? Huh? Let him die in the rehab center?"

Her voice trembled, and tears came down all at once.When she received a call from the rehab center saying that Zhao Guo committed suicide by poking an artery with a pencil, she was almost scared out of her wits, and when she saw Zhao Guo with an oxygen tube stuck in her nose, she burst into tears on the spot.She regrets so much.

This woman from the countryside never imagined that the child she had doted on since she was pregnant in October would one day lie on the hospital bed in such a state. She collapsed at that time and scolded the experts.

"Didn't you say there would be no danger? What's going on! Why did my son become like this!"

The expert said: "This is indeed caused by our negligence, but in fact there is nothing serious. The wound that the pencil can cause is very small. He is just pretending to be sick here. We have a way to prevent him from doing this again. dangerous behavior."

"What way?" Father Zhao asked.

"Electric shock is still used. As long as the punishment is sufficient and he knows the pain, he will not do this kind of behavior again."

The son had just woken up, and his body was extremely weak. She thought that father Zhao would never agree to such a crazy method, but she didn't expect this man who had lived with her for many years to show an unexpected side. He just looked at him coldly. Glancing at Zhao Guo, he said to the electrotherapist standing beside him, "Then do this."

She was forcibly pulled out by security guards and locked the door.She leaned over the barred window to watch, and saw that her son, especially on the hospital bed, was carried to the electrotherapy room, his limbs were tied to the bed, and braces were put on to prevent his teeth from being bitten, followed by electric shocks.

"Are you still committing suicide?" the director of electrotherapy asked gently, while sticking the electrified patch on his temple.

Then there was a scream, Zhao Guo shouted: "Yes!"

"Answer again." The patch was pasted on the forehead again.

"Ah, yes, yes! I want to die! If you have the guts, kill me!"

"Oh, so brave, let's do it again."

"Ahhhh!"

"Are you going to kill yourself?"

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

"Are you going to kill yourself?"

Zhao Guo cried and screamed, struggled, and Zhao's father went up to hold him down.

The questioning continued: "Do you want to commit suicide?"

Zhao's mother was watching outside, her heart hurt like a knife. She left after sending Zhao Guo in. Only Zhao's father was with her, so she didn't see the actual operation process of electrotherapy with her own eyes.But now that she saw it with her own eyes, she could feel the pain her son suffered just by looking at it.

She shook her head and wept weakly: "Don't shock him anymore, don't shock him again, son, my son."

This process lasted about two hours.During these two hours, her son was like a carp that had been thrown to the ground. At first he would struggle to stand up and scream, but gradually he would not.He was thrown to his death, lying still, motionless, but the electric shocks continued.

"Are you going to kill yourself?"

"Do not."

"The answer is not complete." Powered up again.

"I won't commit suicide anymore." After the pain passed, Zhao Guo said with tears.

"Is it the truth? Did you lie?"

"It's the truth, not a lie." Zhao Guo opened his eyes and wept silently, shaking his head obediently.

Since then, he really hasn't committed suicide again.

Because the director of electrotherapy said that Zhao Guo's condition was serious, and what other people could solve in three months, it would take half a year for him.Zhao's father agreed, saying that half a year would be half a year until he was cured.

Later, half a year was extended to a year.

During this year, Zhao Guo changed a lot.So old that every time I go to visit, I feel that my son has changed: he is filial, considerate, polite, and well-behaved. There are no more leftovers for meals.

Most importantly, when they mentioned the "Su Yin", he no longer reacted.

"Are you still gay?" Father Zhao asked.

"Inappropriate." Zhao Guo replied.

The son gave the standard answer, but what Zhao's mother heard was: I dare not be the one.

Over the years, every time she looked at the well-behaved and sensible Zhao Guo, she wondered, is the child in front of her who never quarrels with her and obeys her is still her son?

As the most stubborn person he has ever been treated and the model with the best treatment effect, Zhao Guo was invited back to the electrotherapy withdrawal center to tell his mental journey and feelings.There were many parents who came to consult under the stage, while Zhao Guo stood on the stage and gave a speech with gratitude.

"Without the director, I would not be where I am today. Now I am no longer gay, no longer mentally ill. I have become a normal person, an ordinary person who will not be pointed at and called a pervert when walking on the street. I Thank you very much..."

At that time, Mother Zhao was also in the audience.For some reason, she suddenly burst into tears when she saw her son on the stage, who was radiant and thankful.

I couldn't stop crying, and my heart was extremely sad.

The people around thought she was weeping for the end of all hardships and joy, and clapped their hands and said "Congratulations", but no one knew what she was really crying about.

On the day Zhao Guo and Qiao Xiaoai set their wedding date, he came to chat with her for the first time.

He asked her: "Mom, are you satisfied with me?"

"Satisfied." She didn't know why her son asked this suddenly, but she still gave the standard answer. When the words fell, she saw her son's eyes turned red for a moment, thinking that she had said something wrong, and quickly added: "Very satisfied, Son, you're fine, really fine."

After she finished speaking, Zhao Guo smiled and shed tears: "Really, that's great, as long as you are satisfied, Mom."

The moment she saw her son smiling and crying, she suddenly understood why she was crying in the audience that day.She was crying - she had lost her son forever.

"Son, I'm sorry."

She dragged Zhao's father back and let Zhao Guo go.