Give the slag and accept the end

It was three years ago that I met Zhao Guo again.At that time, Su Ying had just graduated for half a year, started his own company, was too busy, accidentally fell ill, and was summoned by Su Guiying back to the county to recuperate for a period of time.It happened that Lu Yixiang got married and invited him to the wedding.

At the wedding that day, he saw Zhao Guo——

"Great talent Su, you're here. Welcome, sit here." Sun Hui greeted him and arranged a seat for Su Ying, who was one of the best men.

As the groom, Lu Yixiang is still preparing backstage.Because there are no parents, relatives are relatively bad, and there are not many people from the woman's family, so he had to invite some classmates and friends to help him officiate the wedding.

Su Ying also just came to join in the fun, but because he was a man of the year on campus, and because he was worth tens of millions of dollars in just four or five years, his reputation is still quite large.On behalf of the classmates present, he went up to make a speech, wished the couple well, and gave them a red envelope of 1 yuan.

Things at the banquet are nothing more than eating, drinking and bragging, more if you do well, less if you do poorly.

Su Ying has not slept well these years, so his temper is naturally not good, and he is becoming more and more silent.I don’t like to talk at the table, I drink when I want to drink, and I am an audience most of the time, I only occasionally smile politely when I hear my topic being mentioned, and then change the topic to others with a few casual sentences.

The wine was almost finished, and Su Ying didn't feel sleepy at all, but his mind became clearer - his insomnia could not be cured even by sleeping pills, let alone alcohol.The men at the same table were drunk, stepped on the chair and started punching. He got a headache from the noise and got up to go to the bathroom.

I didn't pay attention when I was walking and bumped into someone.

"Sorry." He apologized subconsciously, without looking carefully, and was about to go around, but was pulled back, and a girl's voice came from behind him.

"Su Yin."

He turned around and saw Qiao Xiaoai.

Beside Qiao Xiaoai, stood Zhao Guo.

After four years of not seeing each other, Zhao Guo has grown taller again, looking a head taller than him.His slightly long hair was combed back with hairspray, and he was wearing a well-fitting and meticulous suit. Compared with high school, his figure was much stronger.He was still handsome, energetic, and his face looked extremely healthy. His thin lips, which had been kissed countless times by him, were slightly pursed, and the corners of his mouth were raised, with a smile on his face.It's just that the smile only hangs on the mouth and doesn't enter the eyes.

I haven't seen him for a few years, even though I hear this person's voice every night, when I see him suddenly, it's still more strange than familiar.His mind was blank for a moment, and he forgot everything.He didn't say anything, but the person on the opposite side was like a piece of wood. In the end, it was Qiao Xiaoai who got out of the siege, and took the initiative to say hello: "Long time no see, Su Yin."

Su Ying looked at Zhao Guo, and after a while he found his voice: "Long time no see."

There were also people present who remembered the farce of "breaking up" when they graduated from high school. In order to avoid embarrassment, two people quickly came up to talk and invited Zhao Guo and Qiao Xiaoai to another table.

"I didn't come until it was over, I came too late, I should be punished! Let's go over and have a few drinks, let's go for a walk." Zhao Guoyang smiled and wanted to follow.

Qiao Xiaoai quickly grabbed him, and whispered: "Su Yin is still here."

Zhao Guo glanced at Su Ying and frowned, "What's wrong with him here? What does it have to do with me?"

After all, regardless of whether the surrounding atmosphere was embarrassing or not, she dragged Qiao Xiaoai to follow the people who greeted him with a smile on her face, and left Su Ying in place like a stranger who met by chance.Qiao Xiaoai, on the other hand, looked back at Su Ying two or three times when she was being dragged away, her face full of regret.

Su Ying didn't go to the bathroom anymore, returned to his seat, watched Zhao Guo clinking glasses at another table while drinking, was very upset, then watched Zhao Guo embrace Qiao Xiaoai, and kissed under the booing of everyone. touching her cheek, the anger rose to its peak almost instantly.He has always been moody and angry, but now he can't control it suddenly.

With a soft sound, he crushed the rim of the red wine glass.

There was a heart-rending pain in the palm of his hand, but he felt that the suppressed anger found an outlet, and under the cover of the pain, he calmed down a little.A piece of broken glass stuck into the palm of his hand, and after a while he felt the wetness of his palm.

The person next to him was drunk, and he had already blown away with others, so he didn't notice him here.He put down the cup, took a pack of tissues, took out two and squeezed them into his hands, then stood up and went to the bathroom.When passing by Zhao Guo's table, he walked straight over without looking sideways.

After entering the bathroom, he simply washed the blood from the palms of his hands, and washed out the larger glass slag with water. There were also a few slags embedded in the flesh that could not be removed after a long time. He ran out of patience and was ready to directly Go to the clinic to bandage.He felt that he was very irritable, and it was not good to just go out like this, so he took out a cigarette to smoke.

I can't die, because my hand hurts, the cigarette shook several times before I picked it up, and the lighter seemed to be against him on purpose, it ran out of gas, and it couldn't be fired three times in a row, and suddenly, the suppressed fire came up again up.

"Bang!" He smashed the lighter he bought for 1 yuan to the ground and hit the wall with his fist.

He closed his eyes and took seven or eight deep breaths in a row.

He knew he was angry, but he didn't know why he was angry.

Electrotherapy did not seem to have brought a devastating disaster to Zhao Guo. He looked very good, as energetic as a young tree, healthy and full of vitality; Zhao Guo was not as decadent and collapsed as he expected. Lost hope, but had his own girlfriend, his own life, smiling as happily as before, and there was no trace of haze on his handsome face.

It’s okay to disappear for four years without saying hello, as long as Zhao Guo is happy; it’s okay to appear after four years and pretend not to know each other, if this is what Zhao Guo wants, then it’s okay; it’s okay not to love him anymore, Zhao Guo is willing to love Love anyone, as long as he is happy, as long as he can get what he wants, it doesn't matter.

Zhao Guo's happiness is Su Ying's goal. No matter who gave this happiness, Su Ying doesn't care, as long as the final task can be completed.In this way, everything is fine and there is nothing to be angry about.

But... Su Ying leaned wearily on the sink, looking at his injured hand, suddenly a little dazed.

【So what if he is here? What does it have to do with me? 】

Is it okay?

If so, then what is the nightmare that he has been having every night for these years?Whose voices were those that tormented him every day?Was it all his imagination?

Every day in the past four years, there was not a day when he didn't think about Zhao Guo, and he never gave up the idea of ​​inquiring about Zhao Guo.But no matter how much he inquired, no one told him the news about Zhao Guo. Everyone said they didn't know. I know, they haven't lost contact, but everyone is hiding it from him. There is only one possibility, Zhao Guo let them hide it.

He wanted to laugh a little, what are you hiding from him?

He, Su Ying, came to this world for Zhao Guo, so of course he should surround Zhao Guo, give him a shoulder when he is sad, extend a hand when he needs it, and remove obstacles for him before he encounters difficulties .Let him live happily for ten years, then bury him and watch him go.

It doesn't matter whether you are happy or not, as long as Zhao Guo is happy, he will do it.So, what is Zhao Guo worried about?Did Zhao Guo think that he would hinder him from walking on the "right path"?

absurd.

Nothing to do with him?That being the case, he won't be in the way of people's eyes here.

Walking into the bathroom alone, Su Ying looked up and got up to leave.When he reached the door, he was called.

"Your lighter."

Su Ying paused for a few seconds, then turned around and took it: "Thank you."

Zhao Guo said: "No need."

After that, he turned around and went to the cubicle. It sounded like he took a pee, then he tidied up his clothes and walked out leisurely. He came to the sink and washed his hands carefully.He washed his hands for an exceptionally long time, and he washed them meticulously. He used three pumps of hand sanitizer.Humming Christmas songs while washing.

Today is Christmas Eve, and Lu Yixiang picked a good day.

Su Ying stood at the door watching him wash his hands with fascination.

When Zhao Guo lived with him in the past, he was a very sloppy person. He didn't wash his hands for meals, and he just flushed his hands after going to the toilet without using hand sanitizer.Aside from taking a shower diligently because I have to meet people when I go out, the socks and underwear are thrown directly into the washing machine. Sometimes he can't stand it anymore. After talking about Zhao Guo, this kid insists that his mother washes them at home. He never Never did these jobs.

Zhao Guo never does sanitation, does not wash clothes, and throws them to him to do, and he collapses on the sofa like an old man, holding up his mobile phone while cursing and playing.Occasionally, in order to please him, I wash one or two pieces, and even come to him to ask for a kiss and hug like an invitation to do great work, like a mentally handicapped child.

But look at Zhao Guo today, even the bow tie is neatly tied, the cuffs are neat, the clothes and trousers are ironed without any wrinkles, the leather shoes are shiny, and they have been washed three times by hand. Which family came from your noble son.

Who changed him?Qiao Xiaoai?or something else?

After Zhao Guo washed his hands, he took out two pieces of paper and folded them up to wipe his hands. While wiping, he said in a lazy tone, "What are you looking at, haven't you seen it?"

"You have changed a lot." Su Ying said.

Zhao Guo smiled: "Of course it has to change. It's been so many years, how can it still be the same as before." He said, squinting at Su Ying, "You have changed too."

"is it?"

"Ang." Zhao Guo threw the toilet paper into the trash can, walked up to Su Ying, leaned her head slightly towards him, and smiled viciously, "It's not as low as before, your clothes are worth some money. "

After finishing speaking, he stood up straight, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and looked over Su Ying's shoulders to the person behind him: "Lu Yixiang, what did you ask him to do? Are you trying to make me feel bad?"

As soon as Lu Yixiang came to the bathroom, he saw the scene he didn't want to see. He has been in the society for several years, and he is no longer the reckless and impulsive gangster he used to be. Seeing Su Ying's expression, he was a little embarrassed, and quickly pulled Zhao Guo: "You can do it. We are all classmates. He even lent me money. I owe him a favor. Why can't I invite you? Hurry up and drink, don't spoil the scenery here."

Zhao Guo was pushed twice by him, he pushed him furiously, and waved his hand away with the strength of alcohol, saying: "It's okay if you don't mention it, but I will talk about it if I mention it." He walked to Su Ying In front of him, he patted his shoulder, "Dude, are you developed now?"

Su Ying didn't know which play he was singing, so he didn't make a sound.

"Zhao Guo, you're almost done, hurry up, I'm getting married today, don't make trouble."

Zhao Guo smiled: "Don't worry, I won't make trouble." After comforting Lu Yixiang, he turned to Su Ying and said, "I just want to ask him, where did the ring I gave him four years ago go? .”

As soon as these words came out, both Lu Yixiang and Su Ying's expressions changed.

"What do you mean by that?" Lu Yixiang suddenly broke out in sweat.

Zhao Guo didn't notice his abnormality, and said to Su Ying: "It's nothing interesting, it's just paying off the debt, paying off the debt, I gave you a ring of 5 yuan at the beginning, but I regretted it after thinking about it. It's related, and it's not suitable for you to keep it, why don't you just return it to me, anyway, Mr. Su is very rich now, so he doesn't need the 5 yuan, right? Huh?"

Su Ying didn't see the ring at all, and the box was lost when he returned from the party that day.It wasn't thrown on the road, someone should have taken it, but this can't be found out, and there is no way to check it.

Considering Lu Yixiang's situation, Su Ying didn't want to quarrel with Zhao Guo, and said, "I can't find the ring, so I'll pay you 5 yuan, okay?"

"Can't find it?" Zhao Guo suddenly laughed, laughed a few times, and suddenly rushed forward and punched Su Ying, then two punches, three punches, "If you say you can't find it, you can't find it? That's my family heirloom." , if you lost it, it would be 5 yuan!"

It is impossible for Su Ying to let him fight and try to fight back, but because of the nightmares these years, his health is too poor. If there is not a ten-year mission deadline here, he knows that he cannot leave this world early, otherwise In his usual weak state, he always had the feeling that he would die suddenly at any time.Compared to Zhao Guo's physical strength, he couldn't beat him.

The resistance failed, and finally he was too lazy to resist, lying on the ground and letting him beat him.

Lu Yixiang on the side held on for a long time and couldn't get away. Seeing that Su Ying was beaten until his nose bleeds, he quickly shouted: "You have a fart ring in that box! Isn't it just a piece of torn paper!"

The fist that was about to fall stopped an inch above the bridge of Su Ying's nose.

"What did you say?" Zhao Guo asked.

Only then did Lu Yixiang realize what he had said, and his face turned pale in an instant: "I'm sorry, I..." In order not to continue to bear heavy debts, he chose to steal.

Lu Yixiang didn't finish speaking, but Zhao Guo already understood everything.

He turned his head to look at Su Ying whose face was covered with blood, subconsciously wiped him twice with his hands, but touched the other's face even more ferociously.He hurriedly got up, pulled a pile of papers from the sink, knelt down on the ground to wipe Su Ying's face, before the paper touched Su Ying, he was grabbed by his hand.

Su Ying said, "Enough."

The truth finally came to light, but nothing could go back.

Zhao Guo took Su Ying to the hospital, paid for the medical expenses, and bandaged the wound.I apologized politely to him, and said many times: "I'm sorry."

Su Ying said, "It's okay."

All this is clear to Zhao Guo, but to Su Ying, there is still a blank ignorance.He asked Zhao Guo: "What was written on that piece of paper?"

Zhao Guo didn't look at him, kept his head down, kept down.He didn't speak, and didn't show any expression.

The silence lasted for a long time, and Su Ying felt that Zhao Guo would not speak again. He looked at the darkening sky outside and the snow that fell at some point, and said to Zhao Guo, "It's snowing."

Zhao Guo raised his head and looked out of the white window: "I have been waiting for you in Dongmen Garden for a long time, but you didn't come. Later, my parents came and took me away, and took me to the electrotherapy facility."

There, he spent the most painful year of his life.

The effect of the treatment was very good. For a long time after he left the institution, he could not hear the word "Su Yin", otherwise he would suffer from conditioned stomach cramps, vomiting, and fear.After a long time, I didn't have a good impression of the word "Su Yin", and later, I became indifferent.

When he left that place with a few rags and stood outside the iron gate, hugged by his crying parents, but full of boredom in his heart, when his parents tentatively mentioned Su Yin in front of him frequently, But he didn't even bother to lift his eyelids, and when there was no disturbance in his heart...he knew that everything could not go back.

Everything in the past has become a faded photo for him, and the people and objects inside have become blurred.He couldn't remember what kind of emotion supported him back then, and made him shout "Su Yin I love you" without complaint even if he was shocked by the electric shock, let alone the "Su Yin I love you" day after day. In "Punishment", on which day, which minute, and which second, he knelt on the ground and cried out the word "I change" bitterly.

He didn't want to suffer anymore, so he chose to give up.

The memory is still there, and the person next to him is still there, but...he is no longer him.

"When Qiao Xiaoai and I get engaged, can I invite you?"

The man stood by the window and didn't respond immediately when he heard his words. He stretched out his fingers and drew a cute and vivid elk on the foggy window. One has long hair, one has short hair, and a heart is added in the middle of the villain's head.

He saw the man staring at the picture in silence for a long time, and finally erased it, then turned his head and smiled at him.

"Yes, I wish you happiness."