I wish it was just for you

Xiang Yunyang also came back from this illness, and I was still two days before his return. I invited the cleaning lady to clean up with me, change clean sheets, pillowcases and quilt covers, and also purchased vegetables and meat to store in the refrigerator. Packed to the brim and picked him up at the airport.

When he walked out with his luggage, we looked at each other from a long distance, I grinned, and he also squeezed out a smile, and it was only nine months, the same scene, but the picture had two styles.

He came over and took my hand while pushing the suitcase with the other.

Instead of going back to the apartment to cook, we ate out and he ate very little and talked very little.After a simple meal, he wanted to take me home, but I refused, because he was exhausted all the way, and I said I would take a taxi back, but he didn't argue with me, he only left after I got in the car.

As soon as the car started, I sat in the back seat and couldn't help crying. For the first time, I had the idea of ​​breaking up.

Because it was really hard work, I thought there might be a turnaround when he came back, just like when we met during the Spring Festival, but I couldn't see much love from the way he looked at me.

The car didn't drive very far, so I asked the driver to pull over, got out of the car and walked along the side of the road. I knew it was far away from home, and I didn't even know if the road I was walking was in the direction of home. I just wanted to keep going. , It seems that after walking like this, the depression in my heart can disappear.

The truth is, it can't.

I still can't let go of him.

After more than half a month, I got off the morning shift to buy some ingredients and went to Xiang Yunyang's apartment. We made an appointment to have dinner together today.As soon as the door of the apartment was opened, a middle-aged woman with a very elegant posture was sitting in the living room.

——Are you Zixi?She saw me standing by the door in a daze, and greeted me with a smile.

—Yes, hello.I made a 15° bow to her.

—— Come in quickly, I am Xiang Yunyang's mother, I often hear him talking about you.As she spoke, she took the shopping bag from one of my hands.

We put the ingredients in the kitchen, and she led me to the living room to sit down and talk to me warmly.

- We've always wanted to see you.Say kindly to mom.

——I lost my courtesy.I feel a little embarrassed.

——Yangyang is not good, and it’s not your fault.

Thinking about the current situation between me and Xiang Yunyang, I couldn't help but smile wryly.

——Yunyang didn't tell me that you were coming over today, otherwise I would have bought more vegetables.I said it a little nervously.

——He didn't know that I would come today to make a surprise inspection, so that he could see his real life situation, and see if he was lucky enough to meet you. It seems that luck is not bad.Said happily to my mother.

——It was my luck that I was able to meet my aunt.

——You can talk, Auntie likes you so much.

I smile.

——Actually, I came today mainly to bring him the relics of Grandma Yangyang.

I was taken aback, grandma's relic?

--how?you do not know?I was a little surprised to see my mother.

——When did it happen?

——At the beginning of last month, a few days ago was the 49th, we sorted out her belongings, including a letter to Yangyang, and a scarf that my grandmother woven for him. I think he would like to see it earlier, It was sent over.

I recalled that time happened to be when I was sick, and he called with a very quiet background, asking me if I was feeling better, and I guessed who might have told him, but in retrospect, his voice at that time was calm It was scary, but I didn't ask any more questions, I suddenly blamed myself, maybe he needed my comfort at that time.

——My condolences.

--Thanks.The old man died naturally, and he passed away peacefully. It was a happy funeral. We have lived to this age, and many things have been overlooked, but Yang Yang is still young after all, and it is still a big blow to him.

——I once heard Yun Yang talk about the interesting story of living with his grandmother when he was a child. Grandma is a very lovely person.

——Yeah, Yang Yang has lived with her grandmother since she was a child, and the relationship between the two is very good.When grandma was dying, she kept nagging to see him, and finally he rushed back, and grandma closed her eyes only when she saw him.

——Their relationship is really deep.

——Let's cook. I delayed you by dragging you to talk. As compensation, I help cook a few dishes.

——It's okay, auntie, sit down, I can cook very quickly.I got up.

—Let me help, or I'll be bored sitting still.

——Well, that troubles you.

We were talking while cooking in the kitchen. Mom was very talkative, and it was a pleasure chatting with her.Not long after, Xiang Yunyang came back.

He came to the kitchen and scared his mother by deliberately hiding behind the kitchen door. His undecided appearance made his mother laugh out loud, as if he was amused by his son's expression. The feeling is exactly the same.Xiang Yunyang was not angry, saying that she was naive.

We entrusted Xiang's mother with blessings to eat dinner happily. After dinner, Xiang's mother gave him the items left by grandma to Xiang Yunyang and then went back to the hotel, saying that it was still early and there was no need to send them to Yunyang. She still didn't forget to wink at me and let me enjoy the world between the two of you. My heart is both sad and sweet, with mixed feelings.

After Xiang's mother left, we stood next to each other by the pool and began to wash the dishes. The pool was not big, so we had frequent skin-to-skin contact. Xiang Yunyang brought up the topic and talked with me, but it was quite harmonious.

Then, as before, watch a movie and send me home.

I started to master his schedule again, meet him frequently, do what he would do when we met before, develop new activities, act in groups with friends, arrange short trips with him, summon up the courage to touch him, kiss him, try Trying to restore our relationship, he responded to my kiss, but he didn't have the same enthusiasm and passion as before.

I know he's trying too hard, but we can't go back.

Winter is coming, but there is much more rain than in previous years, and there is a little more humidity in the cold. A colleague from the guest room department is resigning and getting married. It coincides with her birthday. Several of our good colleagues celebrate her birthday and see her off .

After a good meal, everyone booked a new booth at MIDIKTV. I haven't been there since Xiang Yunyang's birthday last time. I thought it had disappeared for many years, but unexpectedly it is still standing.It's just that it's not what it used to be. Except for the name, everything else is completely different. The biggest change is the Qing Bar that was opened on the side of the hall.

When I came out of the private room, everyone except me was already drunk, I hired a taxi to send them away, then walked into the long-awaited Qing Bar, sat down at the bar, and ordered a glass of gin and tonic .

I actually prefer a mojito, but the bartender told me there was no mint.No wonder business is deserted, I thought.But I happen to like its desertedness, whether it is Mojito or Gin and Tonic, anyway, it is all the same when it reaches the stomach.

The wine was placed in front of me, and I sipped it in small sips. Time seemed to have passed for a long time, and the glass gradually bottomed out. I wanted another glass, and I sipped it in small sips.

There is jazz music in the bar, Xiang Yunyang likes it.