I wish it was just for you

After another drink, I picked up my phone and sent a message to Xiang Yunyang: Xiang Yunyang, I'm drunk, and I'm on MIDIKTV.After I posted it, I couldn't help laughing. In order not to affect others by laughing out loud, I held back my laughter and started shaking. The more I wanted to laugh, the more I shook, and I couldn't stop.

Do drunk people say they are drunk?Also, can the person who can at least send messages be a drunk person?But I'm sure that Xiang Yunyang will definitely come, he dotes on me as usual, everything is fine, he just doesn't love me anymore.

Probably because I was laughing too crazy, my stomach was churning, I hurried to find the bathroom.The one who vomited in the front was probably forced out by laughter, and the one who vomited in the back was probably made by the toilet.I don't like dirty places, but I vomited into the toilet bowl, pouring out the food I had for dinner, the beer I drank in the box, and the gin and tonic I had just eaten.

It stinks.

After washing my hands, I took some water and rinsed my mouth. I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes blurred, my eyes and face red from vomiting, and I took out the oil-absorbing paper to absorb the excess oil on my face, and dusted it with loose powder. , put on lipstick, packed up the cosmetics, took out a couple of deodorant candies, and tousled her hair.

That's it.

Back at the bar, I paid for the drink and sat down for a while. The bartender poured me a glass of warm water.

Xiang Yunyang has arrived.

When I went outside, I found that it had just rained, and the road surface was wet. In some places, there was water in the depressions, which showed that it was still raining heavily.Xiang Yunyang put his arms around my shoulders, but it was more like supporting me to walk. In fact, his movement was unnecessary. I could walk well, but I was a little staggered.

As soon as I stepped out of the gate, the cool air after the rain rushed towards my face, the smell of soil and grass was so good, I felt happy, and the alcohol seemed to have faded a bit.I broke away from Xiang Yunyang's hand, saying that I wanted to walk around, and I didn't care whether he wanted to or not, so I took unsteady steps.He didn't say anything, just followed behind me.

After walking for a long time, I found a park in the middle of the street. After the cold weather, there were no people staying in the park. It was quiet and very cold in the middle of the night.I walked around the walking path. It must have been built for a long time, and the walking path was a bit slippery. I could feel that Xiang Yunyang was approaching me, but he didn't come forward to help me.

Tired from walking, I found a seat in the pavilion and sat down. Xiang Yunyang also followed into the pavilion and sat down beside me.

——It’s rare to see such a rainy winter.I said.

--Um.It just rained heavily, don't you feel cold?

I was about to say it wasn't cold, but I sneezed when I opened my mouth. Xiang Yunyang took off his coat and wanted to put it on for me, so I stood up and avoided it.

——Xiang Yunyang, why do you still treat me so well if you don't love me?

He was silent.

I turned my back and cried uncontrollably.

The disequilibrium between us caused me so much pain, he didn’t love me when I was still deeply in love with him, it’s like two people running, starting from the same starting point, he ran fast, reached the finish line first, eloquently I left the runway quickly, but I was still struggling on the runway. I was so tired that I couldn't breathe, and my internal organs were so painful that tears fell straight away, and I couldn't relieve the pain.

He still put his coat on for me and hugged me from behind, resting his chin lightly on the top of my head, which he used to do to me.Often in winter, when we are outside, he is afraid that I will be cold, so he always hugs me like this, and wraps me together in his overcoat. Most of the time, I will turn around and face him, and bury my head in his chest, He would jokingly call me like an ostrich.

His coat and arms are so, so warm, and he smells nice of woodsy perfume, but I can't do that anymore.

——It’s too cold here, let’s go back first, okay?His slightly trembling voice came from above his head.

— But I have something to say.

——Go back and say, we have one night, you speak slowly, and I will listen.

As he spoke, he took my hand and walked towards Qing Bar, where his car was parked.

As soon as he entered the apartment, Xiang Yunyang turned on the air conditioner, and the warm air slipped out from the air conditioner, making him drowsy for no reason.I took off his coat and mine, and hung them on the sofa, one large and one small, and they looked quite right.

——Xiang Yunyang.I call him.

—Well, I am here.He was standing right next to me.

——Xiang Yunyang.I called him again.

—Well, I am here.He took the trouble to answer me.

I turned to him and tiptoed to kiss him, little by little, with all my tenderness.

——I kiss you now, will you still be moved?I stopped, grabbed his arm and asked him.

He didn't answer me.I let him go, walked to the bay window by the window and sat down, this place used to be where I sat while reading, Xiang Yunyang would sit on the sofa not far away to read or do other things, we just like this Take an afternoon.In winter like now, Xiang Yunyang would also go to the bay window to read books and bask in the sun. Sometimes we would hug each other and take a nap when we got sleepy from the heat.

Speaking of which, there are too many memories we have in common in this room.The furniture purchased together, cooking and kissing in the kitchen, eating and joking in the restaurant, watching movies and hugging in the living room, making out and sleeping in the room, are almost everywhere.

--let's break up.I opened my mouth, my throat a little dry.

He sat down on the sofa, the light in the room was dim, and I couldn't see his expression clearly.However, I felt much more comfortable when I said it. I don’t know if it was because of the wind or crying. The alcohol has gradually disappeared. What's going on.

I have to get my words out before the wine is over. Now that I have decided tonight, I can't change my mind and lose the chain. After much deliberation, let me put it down, even if I want to be a drunk woman, I must be a beautiful and exquisite drunk woman.

No one knows myself better than me. As soon as the day breaks and the wine fades away, as long as there is still a little room for turning around, I will firmly grasp it. If there is no way to make him fall in love with me again, then I will trap him by my side together pain.It's not that I'm too confident in myself, but that he won't take the initiative to abandon my attributes for me to see through and make full use of.

It was alcohol that aroused my conscience and freed me from the demons in my heart, the demons that dragged Xiang Yunyang down.

We just sat each other like this, and when it was almost dawn, he came over and sat opposite me, leaning against the wall, looking at me, his eyes were bloodshot.

I also looked at him.I can't see the expression on my face, but I try to be as decent, beautiful, and dignified as possible.