Totem

In fact, Wang Maoyun doesn't know how to pursue a person, and her previous practical experience has all failed.But she thinks it doesn't matter, everything starts from scratch, the world she can display is so vast.The only thing that makes her feel uneasy is that she doesn't know whether Cao Mingzi's preferences are the same now as they were three years ago.She herself has changed, let alone Cao Mingzi?

So she started simple, sending flowers first.For her, fresh cut flowers are certainly not an expensive gift in terms of unit price, and it is not too troublesome to give new ones once they wither, which is better than a new idea that was forgotten at the time.But the intention couldn't be more obvious.Wang Maoyun was apprehensive at first, but later she still wanted to pursue more than anything else. Just as she was known for her bravery in the workplace, she was known for her willful pursuit of Cao Mingzi.The first bouquet is not roses, but roses, which Cao Mingzi likes.She sent it, Cao Mingzi accepted it, and she asked the florist to leave the card; so Cao Mingzi sent it on WeChat, smiled, and she smiled too.So the flowers on Cao Mingzi's desk or at home have never been cut off.

Besides, Wang Maoyun certainly remembered the Lane Crawford window.After the beginning of spring, she found an opportunity to invite Cao Mingzi over for dinner.Go shopping after dinner.Then stop by Lane Crawford.

"It was here at the time..." she sighed.

"Yes."

"It seems to have changed."

"Of course. The seasons have changed."

"Which one do you like?"

Before Cao Mingzi could answer, she continued, "Let's go in and have a look." Then she dragged Cao Mingzi in.Cao Mingzi smiled as he walked, "I'm not stupid, don't buy me clothes."

She was perfunctory and took Cao Mingzi in.Give her one piece at a time, telling Cao Mingzi one by one that this looks good and that looks good too, let Cao Mingzi try it.She has a good eye and picks well, but Cao Mingzi couldn't hold back, she praised it when she tried it out, and finally let her see which outfit Cao Mingzi likes best - when Cao Mingzi changed clothes and came out, it was too late to say no , already paid, just waiting for the package.

Cao Mingzi smiled, feeling a little helpless and enjoying himself.

Walking out of the store, she said, "You're not stupid. But why not me?" Then she turned to Cao Mingzi and smiled, "I like you to be happy."

I like to see you happy, I am happy when you are happy.Building one's own happiness on the happiness of others is both noble and useless, bitter and joyful.

Then there's the fragrance.Then there is beauty.Then there are packages.What's interesting is that the Cao Mingzi she gave her liked without exception, and hit the bull's-eye without exception.This kind of thing turned out to be Wang Maoyun's greatest joy outside of work.So she intensified her efforts and started thinking about jewelry.At this point, Cao Mingzi took the initiative to stop her - as if to give her and himself a step up.

Cao Mingzi said, "Farewell, when the time comes, I will have something that my boss doesn't have. It's not suitable."

Wang Maoyun said: "Since when did this kind of culture become popular in your place? Why don't you learn this if you have been in China for a few years?"

Cao Mingzi said with a smile on the other end of the phone: "The place of registration remains the same, but the people will change. Do as the Romans do."

Wang Maoyun had no choice but to stop.Cao Mingzi said again, you have given me too much.Wang Maoyun just laughed and didn't know how to answer. She thought about it a bit, so she said perfunctorily, "Please do me well" and "Then invite me to dinner another day."

The steps are set up, let's go up.

Wang Maoyun sometimes feels that he has climbed a path on the Great Wall along the way.It's funny to say that in all these years in Beijing, I have only been to the Great Wall once, and I went with the big boss who came from afar.It's as if the actual marvel of masonry just exists, exists enough, and doesn't need to be witnessed.But she has climbed the Great Wall of life, and she has been on it.The base was built by her, and the steps were built and laid down one by one by Cao Mingzi.Although Cao Mingzi did not say how to walk, she would walk however.But did she just stand there?

The world is not what you want to go, you can definitely go that way.totally not.Sometimes it's just being pushed around.When standing under the beacon tower, knowing that it will be very happy to go up to light the beacon fire, how much perseverance do you need to control yourself not to go up?When standing on the beacon tower and being scorched by the flames, how much patience do you have to control yourself?How ruthless is it to do all this?

I can be cruel to myself, but it's hard for me to be cruel to others, especially the ones I love.

However, when the fire broke out, the defenders and the siege army fought fiercely. The city that the two sides fought for changed hands several times, but it did not survive;One day, even the singing will disappear completely, and the wind from the sea will blow, gradually erasing the remains of this city.

Cao Mingzi followed suit and invited her to dinner.That restaurant had just opened in Beijing at the time, and it has been thriving for a long time—whether it is popularity, price or taste.But Wang Maoyun never visited again.When I still want to go, I don’t have time; when I have time, I don’t want to go anymore.

"You are from the south, I'll still treat you to some southern dishes." After taking a seat, Cao Mingzi said.

Wang Maoyun smiled and said, "I'm still a southerner? I'm more of a Beijinger, what do you think?"

Cao Mingzi "regrets his slip of the tongue" and is no longer polite: "Yes, yes, who loves to have a belly explosion every day when they are in school? Otherwise, let's go out here, take a taxi and eat it. If you still dislike it, let's grill the meat." go."

Wang Maoyun hurriedly stopped, saying that this place is very good—"How can I eat you if I don't come here?"——If I go to a place that is either old Beijing or Old Beijing, do I still have plans for tonight? up?Besides, both of them dressed up seriously, and went to eat roasted meat in brocade clothes?That might as well be a lord.

The two ate and chatted with sweet-scented osmanthus flower carvings.Cao Mingzi inquired about many rumors that Wang Maoyun could only hear inside the company, carefully avoiding commercial secrets, Wang Maoyun couldn't help being a little moved.She kind of wanted to say that you don't have to do this, you don't have to protect me, I can protect you.

It is happy to be protected by others, and it is also very happy to protect others. This may be the beginning of love.

As they talked, they inevitably talked about various news about the earthquake. "Suddenly it will disappear, life is so fragile." Wang Maoyun said.Cao Mingzi nodded, shook his head again, and sighed: "When I was young, our family lived in a large courtyard with many families. Several of our children played very well, and there was a boy, one of whom we all called brother, It is a child head. There is a big road near the compound, and one end of the big road leads to the factory. At first, the factory had no workers to open, and there were no cars on the main road. Dark, we were playing in the yard, some people suggested that the yard is not fun, should we go out, some said yes, some said what to do outside when it was raining, everyone argued. This brother, at that time, was very Let me tell you that I went out to have a look, and then ran out. As soon as I got out, I was hit by a truck and killed."

Wang Maoyun saw that Cao Mingzi seemed to have a desolate look—she couldn't see Cao Mingzi like this the most—stretched out his hand to hold Cao Mingzi's hand.Cao Mingzi glanced at her with a smile and did not resist.

"The children never played together again. They probably felt that they would be sorry for that brother. So a group of childhood playmates broke up. A few years ago, when you were away, I went home during the Chinese New Year and returned to the university when I had time. I went to the hospital and met a few of them. After talking about their respective experiences over the years, I found out—”

"In fact, everyone is the same, each has its own advantages and disadvantages?"

Cao Mingzi smiled wryly and shook his head, "No, everyone has their own good and bad, and each has their own sorrows and joys, and they can't understand and share each other. We thought we did this for something, to commemorate, for someone, In fact, no one can do it. We are just torturing ourselves. We feel sad because of the earthquake and want to empathize with the victims, but maybe we can’t at all, we just think we can, because we also want to be understood. Ugh.”

Wang Maoyun couldn't bear to see Cao Mingzi look sad, and complained that he had said something bad but brought up human tragedies. He held Cao Mingzi's hand tightly and said, "Do you know that sea otter is an animal?" With a gentle and curious look, he beckoned her to continue.Every time he receives such gazes, Wang Maoyun can't help but soften his voice: "Sea otters, as the name suggests, live on the sea. They eat in the sea and sleep on the sea. There are waves on the sea. In order to prevent each other from being washed away by the waves , when sea otters sleep, they will hold hands.

"I knew that I was an orphan since I was a child, and my adoptive mother never hid it from me, so I accepted very early that 'I have no relatives in this world'; my adoptive mother passed away very peacefully, and the relationship between us was not strong. : So when I saw the tragedy in the disaster area, I thought it was difficult for me to understand the feelings of my parents and relatives being crushed under the rubble. But I can feel the sadness. I can’t feel that if something like that happened to me I can feel the pain in my own mood, the pain of 'a person lost their loved one in an instant', because I am also concerned about it. People are not isolated individuals, and it is difficult to understand another person. No one is a roundworm living in each other's stomach, but people are connected and support each other, even if they can share a little bit and understand a little bit, it is good."

Cao Mingzi's eyes lit up a little, as if thanking Wang Maoyun for finding such a long paragraph to comfort her.Who knew where Wang Mao Yunxing came from, so he simply took the opportunity and continued: "I hope I can understand you more, give you more understanding, make you happier, more happiness, I hope—" After a pause, Wang Vast Cloud still couldn't find the right words, let alone control the intensity of the words, "I hope I can always be the sea otter holding your hand by your side, is that okay?"

As he spoke, he lightly shook Cao Mingzi's hand.

Cao Mingzi smiled happily, and the candlelight in the restaurant reflected in her eyes, making her pupils brighter.

She loosened her hand slightly first, and then clasped Wang Maoyun's five fingers.The sound of other people's clinking cups became the background.

The next morning, when Wang Maoyun opened her eyes, Cao Mingzi smiled at her. At six o'clock in the morning, the sky was bright, and both of them were woken up by the biological clock. "I thought you would have to wait a long time before saying what you said yesterday," Cao Mingzi said.Wang Maoyun smiled, feeling sweet and guilty at the same time, leaning up to touch Cao Mingzi's forehead: "That's also because, it's you."

Because it's you, it's so fast.Sometimes she said so.

Because it is you, so very slow.Sometimes she said so.

Because some things need to be enjoyed, and some need to be cherished.Fast can be repeated many times, slow can be carefully prepared to the best.

Unfortunately, the speed was changed later.

In July, the two lived together.Wang Maoyun originally intended to live with Cao Mingzi so that he could be close to Cao Mingzi's work—it doesn't matter if she travels through the city by herself.But Cao Mingzi refused and chose to move to Wang Maoyun.Because Wang Maoyun's residence is more suitable for two people to live.Spacious and quiet, the distance to go to work is second.Wang Maoyun decided to buy a car.But this matter was postponed a little bit, because August is coming soon, and there will be more people in Beijing. She easily persuaded Cao Mingzi, and the two went to Europe for vacation before the opening of the Olympics.

Maybe Cao Mingzi yearned for Shanda, but she didn't. What she was willing to accept were two people who were quiet and isolated from the world.Even under the watchful eyes of everyone, it is necessary to naturally form an atmosphere that surrounds two people and only sees you and me in each other's eyes.

That year they didn't just fly by, they thoroughly enjoyed themselves in Rome and Paris.

Then they came back, and Wang Maoyun quickly bought a car to take Cao Mingzi to and from get off work every day.Looking back now, in Wang Maoyun's memory, that period of time was surrounded by endless bouquets of flowers, endless traffic, and endless radiant nights.She has obtained beauty, she wants to protect this beauty, and she wants to let the whole world know this beauty.Cao Mingzi's love, the envy of those involved and those who have nothing to do with her, her thriving career - even a financial crisis is not scary, she thought with great enthusiasm that this was her chance to soar into the sky.

In fact, she really likes to chat with Cao Mingzi in the car, chatting about what the two of them have experienced throughout the day.But gradually, she was still on the phone in the car.The two blocked the road together.

Fortunately, it was two people together.

Why are two people together.

"How was your day?"

"……very happy."