【Leian】Love at first sight

This is what Camille saw when he got home.

Even though it was the time when the sun was at its peak at noon, when the door was opened, the whole house was completely dark.Frowning, he put on his slippers and groped into the living room step by step.After getting closer, I discovered that the reason was that the balcony and the windows everywhere were covered by thick curtains. Occasionally, light seeped through the gaps, but it only made the space look more cramped.

He hung his bag on the back of the dining table chair, frowned and walked to the balcony, and suddenly opened the curtains - but in the next second he heard a low moan from the sofa behind him.

"...Brother?" Camille raised her eyebrows in surprise, looking at the person curled up on the sofa.Because of the darkness just now and Lei Shi's silence all along, he even thought that his elder brother was still sleeping on the bed.

Camille slowly leaned over, as keen as him, and quickly discovered something was wrong with Leishi.Like a photophobic vampire, the person on the sofa showed a dejected look in the bright room.Lei Shi was lying face inward, and Camille couldn't see his expression clearly, but even though there was only a crooked back, he could still know Lei Shi's unusual gloom at this time.

"Did mom find you?" Camille stood by the sofa and asked in a low voice.He didn't know what happened to his elder brother, so that the person who has always been careless and heartless would choose to pull on all the shelters when the sun is the best, and let himself fall in the endless darkness.

Lei Shi didn't respond at first, and after a while he nodded, but quickly shook his head again.

Camille was very helpless, so she had to ask another question: "Did Dad call you?"

This time Leishi reacted quickly, shaking his head in denial.

"Okay, one last question, do you want to eat?"

"……want."

Camille didn't ask the reason directly, but asked a compromise question. Sure enough, Leishi responded this time.He muffled a short response, then turned over slowly, revealing a more sad face than Camille could have imagined.He slowly sat upright from the sofa, his every move was stooped like an old man.The hair became messy due to leaning on it for too long, but Lei Shi had long since lost the interest in taking care of it, and let them pile up on his head like a bird's nest.

Camille has never seen such a big brother since she grew up.The despondency all over his body was almost thickened into substance, and it shrouded his whole body like a cloud of dark clouds.Something big must have happened this time, Camille thought.Big enough to overturn all possible expressions of joy.

"It seems that there is no food at home, order takeaway?" Camille said thoughtfully.

But Lei Shi didn't respond this time as if he was dumb.He bowed his head like a flower blooming on the floor.The hands hanging on the sofa were clenched and loosened for a while, as if they had experienced a violent struggle in this silence, and then gave up, and hung down again powerlessly.

Just when Camille thought that this situation would last for more than ten minutes, the person who had been bowing his head in thought suddenly spoke again, but as soon as he made a sound, the hoarse voice made Camille's eyelids twitch in fright.

"I confessed to An Mixiu."

Camille didn't expect to hear these words after waiting for a long time, and his always bright brain froze for a moment.Although there are too many things to ask, in order to take care of the elder brother's emotions, Camille restrained his untimely curiosity and said softly, "And then?"

"...I don't know he used to, he used to like me so much. So when I saw that diary, I was really happy...I think I like him too, and he likes me too. We can be together. But I didn't expect him to say he doesn't like me anymore..."

"I was angry at first, ha, it might be difficult to understand, or I'm just a jerk, but I was really angry at first. But then I calmed down and felt that the fire was inexplicable. He didn't like me. What's angry? That's his decision, so I—"

"So you're going to give up, brother?" Camille frowned, looking at the man in front of him who was showing weakness and complaining about his failed relationship like bitter water.Although he was not at the scene, but from the narration in this few words, the scene must be a little more pleasant than Ling Chi's.From the overjoyed feeling that they could be together, to the shock and anger of being poured cold water, to the slumped depression right now.He looked at the big brother in front of him.Watching his most characteristic high-spiritedness gradually be removed from his bones, Camille was so uncomfortable that he wished to do it himself.

But he can't.So he won't let those things disappear from Lei Shi's body.

"Brother, do you think you did something wrong? You think it's hard and pitiful to be in love with An Ge for seven years, so you are wrong if you didn't respond to him?" Camille's tone was as cold as ever, but at this time it was more serious than any previous one. Hastily at a time, even a little reproachful.He swore that he would never use such a disrespectful tone again, but just this time—just this time, no matter what, he could not let his beloved relative sink into the abyss alone.

"I don't think so, brother. Brother An didn't say it himself, and you don't know. It's his business that he likes you. You have no obligation to like him. There is nothing to blame yourself. If everyone who likes you You have to respond to people, and it seems like a fairy tale when you think about it.”

"I know, I know..." Lei Shi couldn't help leaning back on the sofa cushion, at this moment his whole face finally showed.Obviously, the expression was calm within a controllable range, but just the sadness and struggle in those eyes made Camille so sad that he couldn't breathe. "You didn't see his expression at the time, and he tore up that diary. I don't even know how I left his house later. This time I can feel how he feels for so many years-it's really too much." It hurts."

"But the brother An I know, and the elder brother I know." Camila paused, looking at Lei Shi with firm eyes, "The two of you I know are not the kind of people who give up easily. If the elder brother thinks you If you really like it, then you should go after it! I don’t think my eldest brother will let go directly because of other people’s rejection. What’s more, Brother An—I think he must still have feelings for you, Otherwise, he wouldn't have taken you in at that time, and you wouldn't have lived in peace for such a long time."

Camille looked at the silent person in front of him, and slowly sat down beside him.He stretched out his hand and squeezed his elder brother's palm. It was very cold there, but he believed that he could warm it up.

"Perhaps brother, you have to prepare him a bit. Brother An has been waiting for this sentence for too long, he may have been scared, already—although I don't think he has changed his mind, but—but if you are really at this time If you give up, won't it make your liking seem insincere?"

The last sentence was like a powerful injection, which instantly made Lei Shi sit upright from the sofa.

His expression was very tangled, and the muscles on his face were trembling accordingly, as if he was making an extremely difficult decision, and his fingers kept pinching the space between his brows.It's really hard.Regain that love in the ashes of self-esteem and pride that were shot down, and even after that, there may be more, more unimaginable mountains and dangers.But as long as he thinks of An Mixiu, when he thinks of those eyes that are clearer than lake water staring at him for so long, he feels infinite power flowing through his limbs.

yes.Since An Mixiu can persist, why can't he?Since An Mixiu feels tired, let him rest there for a while, and he will run the whole course on his behalf until the finish line.

Lei Shi clenched his fists and stood up from the sofa on his knees.The layer of obscurity gradually faded from his sight, and soon Camille was pleasantly surprised to find that the familiar and confident light was shining in a pair of purple eyes again.

"I've never realized that you are so eloquent." Lei Shi glanced at Camille who was sitting on the sofa, saw the joy in the other's eyes, and smiled unconsciously, "Little boring gourd actually understands so well. "

"I just know big brother better." Camille blinked, pretending to be cute.

"But you're right, I'm not that easy to defeat." Lei Shi took a long breath, took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and prepared to make a call, "I'll ask Palos to borrow his broken car later, you Just order me some takeaway to fill my stomach."

"But brother, I remember you haven't driven a car since you got your driver's license, right?"

"...you order takeaway!"

When the alarm clock set on the mobile phone rang at the right time, An Mixiu opened his sleepless eyes, turned over from the bed and sat up.He turned on his phone, it was already three o'clock in the afternoon, and he should be ready to go out after a while.

He walked into the bathroom with heavy steps. The result of a sleepless night was that there was a young man with a pale face like a ghost standing in the mirror.An Mixiu rubbed the sore corners of his eyes, turned on the faucet and washed his face with cold water desperately several times, but his cheeks were not stained with blood.In the end, he turned off the faucet as if giving up on himself, wiped his face with a towel, opened the door and walked out.

The excuse he made for Lei Shi yesterday was very bad, and the faces of both of them were very stiff, anyone with a discerning eye could see that there was something wrong.But the mother didn't ask much, she always seemed to be so considerate, but the more she was like this, the more guilt An Mixiu felt.

He has been trying his best to be a filial son, but he has made the most disappointing choice on the most principled issue.

The suit chosen yesterday has been ironed by her mother and hung on the bed, An Mixiu moved to it step by step, raised her hand to caress the smooth fabric of the dress, but her thoughts inevitably fell into yesterday's chaos.

It's hard to imagine it all ending like this.From the first time I saw the falling out, it lasted for more than ten years, but finally ushered in the end in this small room.He knew that Lei Shi must be mad. Although the WeChat contacts were not deleted, it must not be far from being blocked.An Mixiu knew that he had such a temper, so he chose to use the most tragic way to put an end to his most unforgettable love.But that's okay, it's all over.For the rest, it just takes time to heal.

An Mixiu slowly took off the suits from the hanger, and he carefully dressed them one by one, staring intently at himself in the floor-to-ceiling mirror with an indifferent face.When the last tie was tied, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, opened the door and walked out.

"Hey, baby, are you ready? Lei Shi just came, so hurry up and go."

An Mixiu froze, looking at the man sitting on the sofa in disbelief.His blood froze for a moment, and then continued to flow sluggishly under the call of Mama An.

Why is he still here?Didn't they fall out? !

Countless questions kept appearing in his mind like blowing bubbles, but while he was in a daze, Lei Shi had already stood up from the sofa.He still looked the same as before, if he insisted, his hair was a little messed up, as if he forgot to take care of it after a long sleep.But these are not the main points, An Mixiu looked at the figure of that person walking in front of him little by little with a blank face.

"You...how did you come?" An Mixiu tried hard to find his voice, but still couldn't help trembling.

In contrast, Lei Shi seemed much calmer. He took a deep look at An Mixiu, who was stiff all over, but quickly smiled, and turned his face to Mother An, "We must drink at the wedding, and I happened to pick it up, so Auntie is also at ease."

"Do not--"

"With Lei Shi following me, I feel much more at ease. This little guy always gets drunk with an honest face, especially when he gets mixed up and his stomach hurts. Lei Shi, remember to watch him more."

Now that he couldn't say the words of refusal, An Mixiu was pushed to the porch to change his shoes step by step with a stiff face, and when he put on his shoes, behind him was a smiling mother, and in front of him was Lei Shi who was in full swing.An Mixiu rubbed his temples with a headache, and said goodbye to his mother.

But when he got into the car, An Mixiu quickly let go of his previous gentleness, and said to Leishi who was wearing his seat belt with a cold face: "Put me down at the intersection ahead, and I will take a taxi by myself."

Lei Shi didn't seem to have heard his words, and continued to put on his seat belt on his own. After fastening it, he calmly turned on the handbrake and drove the car.

"Did you hear me say—"

"I only know that Auntie wants me to pick you up, that's all." Lei Shi looked ahead intently, and responded slowly.

"Isn't that why you appeared in my house out of nowhere! Lei Shi, I made it clear yesterday that there is no possibility for the two of us, so is it okay to stay away from each other?!"

"No."

"You—!" An Mixiu was so angry that he raised his hand and was about to unbuckle his seat belt.But he was quickly held down by Lei Shi's hand, which was so hot that he couldn't help shivering.

"It's also possible that I didn't speak clearly, An Mixiu." Lei Shi maintained the posture of holding the steering wheel with one hand and the person in the passenger seat with the other hand, "I said I like you, so I'm chasing you now."

The car stopped because of the red light ahead, Lei Shi turned his head and looked at An Mixiu who was fidgeting in the co-pilot.

Despite the poor hairstyle, this face is still unmistakably handsome.What's more, An Mixiu knew very well that this was the face he had loved for so many years, and Lei Shi just looked at him intently and motionlessly, and he would nod in obsession in agreement.

But no.An Mixiu squeezed his palm firmly, he is as timid as a snail now, a light touch can make him shrink back into his shell in shock.He can no longer stand another seven years, no amount of worry and fear, no amount of joy and sorrow.He could no longer bear the pain of being rejected a second time.

Just when An Mixiu was about to speak, Lei Shi quickly withdrew his gaze, and by the way, also withdrew his hand.He continued to drive steadily during the green light, and the two of them did not speak in a tacit understanding.

The destination was an inconspicuous small hotel, Lei Shi didn't express any opinion on the fact that this place was a wedding venue, he just searched for a parking space silently and parked the car.

An Mixiu swallowed, he hesitated to speak and glanced at Lei Shi, but quickly turned his head and opened the car door and walked out.He didn't walk fast, so naturally he didn't miss the words of the person behind him.

Lei Shi said, "I'll wait for you here."

TBC.