【Leian】Love at first sight

When talking on the phone yesterday, An Mixiu thought that Guihu was joking, long-distance running in love is not easy, and after finally achieving a positive result, no matter what, he had to make the show bigger.But it wasn't until he walked into this unremarkable restaurant and followed the waiter's guidance to stand in front of a box that he remembered that Ghost Fox rarely joked.

Before opening the door, he was still hesitating how to greet someone he didn't know, but when the wooden door of the private room was pushed open, he found that there was no one else inside except the two protagonists of the wedding.

"I've never heard that there are only three people at a wedding." An Mixiu raised his eyebrows in surprise. He walked in step by step and saw clearly the two people sitting in the main seat.

Compared with high school, this pair has undoubtedly grown too much.Although it was just a word on the phone before, An Mixiu could guess what kind of life it was like by relying on his imagination.Ghost Fox still looked like an old god, squinting his eyes when he laughed, as if he was thinking of something in his heart.Lena on the side seemed to be changing even more. An Mixiu always remembered her cold gaze when looking at people, as if ice had been quenched; but now she was unconsciously soft, like ice melting into water.

"No way, after much deliberation, it seems that you are the only one who can witness for us." Ghost Fox said with a smile, he was playing with the teacup with both hands, and the ring on the ring finger of his left hand was shining brightly under the light.

As soon as these words come out, you can know that there must be thousands of stories in them.An Mixiu slowly pulled out the chair and sat down, inevitably a little nervous: "Let's just say it first, I've never been a wedding witness before."

"Pfft." Ghost Fox couldn't help covering his mouth and sneering, as if he was amused by An Mixiu's seriousness.He turned his head and told Lena to go downstairs to order food first, and when there were only the two of them left in the room, he restrained his smile a little.

"If I'm still in school, I should be in my third year like you by now." Ghost Fox touched the ring on his finger with a slightly disappointed tone.

"You... what happened to you and sister Lena after that?" An Mixiu asked after taking a sip of tea.

"Actually, it's nothing. At that time, she was asked to transfer schools after being brought home by her parents, and I was similar. The story behind it... It's all like a novel. I took her away."

"Pfft—elope?" An Mixiu was so frightened that he almost spit out a mouthful of tea.

"Yeah, you're so surprised." Ghost Fox quickly dodged back to avoid being sprayed all over his face.He smiled and took out a piece of paper and handed it over, and continued: "I and her family didn't support it, and then I got crazy at the time, and finally did it. Although I had a little savings at the time, it was not a long-term solution. , Anyway, I definitely can't study in college, and then I took her to other cities to make a living. After that, I slowly saved money to live, anyway, I don't have to worry about doing business with my head, but recently I thought After so many years, it’s almost time to decide that it’s time to get married.”

"But the two of us don't have the approval of our parents, and we don't have many friends. After thinking about it, I think of you. And I always feel that I have always regretted not going to college. I am actually quite conceited. I think I am very smart. At the beginning, I was not very smooth in doing business with people. I looked down on those philistine businessmen, and people looked down on me as a kid. But it got better later. But because I have always wanted to make up for this regret, so recently I plan to report An adult university, get a diploma to comfort yourself."

These words became more and more, and finally spread out in front of An Mixiu like pouring beans.He thought, maybe this person really doesn't have any friends, otherwise he wouldn't erupt in one breath after suppressing it for so long.These sentences are short, and most of them are just skipped in a hurry, but they can't easily erase the hardships of working alone for so many years.An Mixiu was driven by empathy, and wanted to open his mouth to comfort him, but when the words came to his lips, he felt that he didn't need any more words besides listening.

Just because this person is a ghost fox, this girl is Lena.Now that he has spoken, it means that those painful and difficult days in the past are over.This isn't a complaint, it's just a rant about the past.

When Ghost Fox talked about the experience of these years, he changed the topic to another place.He talked about family.

"It was only when I decided to take Lena away that I realized how important the original family is. Do you think your parents would keep you when you were about to leave?"

An Mixiu nodded without thinking.

Ghost Fox sighed, and silently sipped his tea, "My parents don't know how, and so does Lena's. Sometimes I wonder if it's because of these two parents that the troubles have come to this point. I said that if you take this step, you are not my son anymore. My mother was crying there. As far as I can remember, she seemed to be doing nothing but crying. The original family has a great influence on children. Occasionally I see me I can think of my father if I am conceited and playful. Both Lena and I belong to the type of family members who don’t care, but our family is free-range, and she is miserable, and she is beaten, so she has always been silent and doesn’t like to talk. .”

"I feel that Senior Lena is much better now." An Mixiu recalled the appearance of the girl when she first entered the door. "I still remember when we first met, Senior Sister seemed to only have eyes for you. Now she pays attention to others a little bit."

"So maybe this experience sounds rough, but I don't feel regretful, and I never do anything regretful." Ghost Fox shrugged, his tone as always swearing.His appearance can easily remind An Mixiu of the short debate match in high school, he was very high-spirited and eloquent at that time, and he was also very happy, these have never been changed by the erosion of time.

"Tell me about you, I think you have a lot of stories to tell."

"I..." An Mixiu laughed dumbfounded, and took a sip of tea like a ghost fox, "I don't know how to say it, it's not complicated if it's complicated, and it's not simple if it's simple."

"It's still about Thunder Lion?"

"Yes." An Mixiu sighed, "I thought I gave up, you know, after telling a lie a thousand times, you will believe it yourself. It's a coincidence, although I think it's really bad luck, he He came to live with me again, in short... Hey, now he knows that I had a crush on him before, and then he confessed to me, but I rejected it. "

"I think your story sounds more like a novel than mine, with twists and turns." Guihu raised his eyebrows, "So what's the situation now? To be honest, I don't think Lei Shi is the kind of person who gives up lightly. , Similarly, I don't think you will give up hard-heartedly."

"He did not give up. He was the one who sent me here today, and he said he wanted to chase me on the way. But myself... Actually, I really planned to give up." An Mixiu unconsciously cast his gaze out of the window, It was facing the gate of the hotel, and the silver-gray car that Lei Shi was in was parked there, "Of course, it doesn't mean that I don't like him anymore. I still... still like him very much, and I like him more every day than yesterday. But I don't want to be with him. Leishi's character is one aspect, and my own situation is another aspect. I asked him when did you start to like me, and he said it was borrowed During that time. It is true that the degree of liking a person cannot be measured by time, but I don’t know how long this liking can last for him. Maybe I know him too well, as many people say , it’s best not to fall in love with someone you know too well, because you can almost predict what his next move will be.”

"On the other hand, it's my mother, my family, and his family. Although I haven't seen Leishi's parents for a long time, I always knew that his mother wanted her son to be very happy. The success is great. I don't want homosexuality to become a stain in his life. Although this group is gradually accepting this group in this society, there are still very few people who will admit that they are gay. And my mother... She is just a very ordinary mother, just like most mothers in the world, she only hopes that her children will have a perfect family, and she can help take care of grandchildren when they get old. But it is precisely because of this that I have never dared to tell She and I may not be able to fulfill her small and ordinary wish. She may not blame me, my family can accept me, but I can't imagine that when my parents chat with others, everyone is talking about their children, Children's marriage and so on, and my parents can't say anything."

"It's not their fault...it's just my own fault."

It doesn't know when it started to rain outside the window, and the weather in midsummer is always as unpredictable as people's moods.It's rare for An Mixiu to say so much, as if digging out his own heart, shaking off all the little secrets buried inside.It was the first time he had said this to others, these secret, unspeakable words.At first, he felt uncomfortable because of what he said, but soon the relief after the release of depression relieved him a lot.

"Actually, I don't think I can give you any substantial help. After all, I'm not you, and it's hard for me to understand the worries about my family." Ghost Fox drank the tea in the cup in one go, and got up to help himself And An Mixiu went back to the top, "But there is one thing, I said it before I left high school, and I still want to say it to you now."

"An Mixiu, in my eyes, you will always be the sun that radiates light and heat. Even though the sky is cloudy now and the dark clouds cover you, I still believe that you will be able to break through the barriers and continue to shine in the near future. Your There is nothing wrong with worrying, but there is one thing, have you talked about this with Lei Shi? I am not saying you go to be with him, but that you might as well tell him everything you think and worry about, and then you can do it according to His answers act."

"How many people can you like for so long in a lifetime? I think it's quite normal not to let go. It's really brave to let go."

Ghost Fox stopped talking after he finished talking, he consciously stopped talking, and a smart person like An Mixiu didn't need any more nonsense.It just so happened that Lena also brought up the ordered menu, and the three of them chatted and laughed, but they didn't linger on these tangled topics any longer.

But since it's a wedding, you still have to put on a show.An Mixiu imitated the witnesses and said the wedding vows decently, but because of his unskilled business, he made two mistakes during the period, which caused laughter in the audience.An Mixiu poured some wine for the two of them. Although they had already exchanged rings and so on, it was the first time they drank a glass of wine.

It was raining continuously outside the window, and in the cramped private room, An Mixiu was the only one who witnessed the ceremony of the couple.He used to think that the wedding must be grand and grand, but for the first time in his life, he actually felt that it was not bad for the three of them to spend their time eating and drinking.

"Thank you very much today." Guihu supported Lena who was drowsy, and said to An Mixiu: "Now, you should do what you want to do."

The rain was not heavy, and when An Mixiu knocked on the window glass of Leishi, it was basically the size of drizzle.In fact, the window was not closed at all, and Leishi was smoking in the driver's seat.But it seems easier to do something like knock on the glass than to open your mouth.

Lei Shi quickly unlocked the door, and An Mixiu quickly sat in.Although Leishi has been opening the windows to ventilate, but there is still a faint smell of smoke lingering in the car, An Mixiu looked down at the ashtray of the car, and there were no less than ten cigarette butts piled there.

"Sorry." Seeing An Mixiu's actions, Lei Shi spoke first.He extinguished his half-smoked cigarette, and said apologetically, "I'm a little annoyed, so I smoked more."

"It's okay, I understand." An Mixiu was really not used to meeting such a polite Lei Shi all of a sudden.He hastily took off the suit jacket with water droplets on his body, and loosened the tie around his neck.Although Ghost Fox has already mentioned some points before, it is really difficult to actually implement them.

For a while, An Mixiu didn't speak, and Lei Shi was also silent.He didn't seem to be half-planning to drive away, but just looked ahead quietly, and he still smelled of nicotine.

Just after this eerie silence lasted for a few minutes, the two of them suddenly spoke at the same time.

"I……"

"you--"

The two people who spoke in unison were taken aback at the same time, looked at each other, and then gave in almost simultaneously.

"You talk first."

"what do you want to say?"

Seeing the embarrassing atmosphere, Lei Shi stopped being polite, turned around directly, and stared at An Mixiu with deep eyes: "Have you considered what I said before?"

"Before... what did you say?"

"I said I like you and I want to chase you. No, I'm chasing you now."

An Mixiu couldn't hide under the scorching gaze, his face began to heat up uncontrollably.Lei Shi's expression is too serious, his eyes are too serious, everything he shows now is too confusing.If this was seven years ago, An Mixiu thought, if he had received this sentence seven years ago, how happy he would be.I'm afraid I wake up laughing if I'm not dreaming.

But this was not seven years ago, and he was not the hot-blooded boy he used to be.They have all grown up.

An Mixiu took a deep breath, raised his head and tried to meet Lei Shi's eyes, "Someone told me that I should tell you clearly. I think what he said was right. I was too reckless before. I admit that I like You've been there for a long time, and you won't be able to quit for a while. But I don't want to be with you, not shy, not hypocritical, I'm just stating the fact."

"Why do you like it but don't want to be together?" Lei Shi opened his eyes slightly, his tone full of puzzlement.

"This is probably the difference between the two of us. You think that as long as you like it, it's enough, but I don't think it's enough. Have you thought about your family? Have you thought about my family? Have you thought about our future? You Have you ever thought about what I will do when your passionate impulse fades?" It was obviously a gentle tone, but each question became more aggressive.

When An Mixiu's last question came to an end, Lei Shi opened his mouth sullenly almost instantly: "Yes, I didn't think as much as you did, and I have nothing but blood in my head! But what do you mean by that last sentence? Do you think I was just impulsive?!"

"Can you prove it?" Facing Lei Shi's anger, An Mixiu remained calm, "What you did before made me unable to trust you, so now? Can I trust you just by opening your mouth?" ?”

"It's you who didn't give me a chance! It's you who said it dead at the very beginning!" Lei Shi scratched his hair irritably, his whole body was like a raging lion, "You are like a coward now—"

"Is there something wrong with my cowardice—?!"

The two glared at each other at the same time, they read too much in each other's eyes.In the narrow compartment, a loud roar pushed the atmosphere to the critical point of tension again.They seemed to be unable to understand each other's stubbornness and ideas, but quickly regained their sense in heavy breathing.there is something.Something pulls everything back together just before it's about to collapse.

An Mixiu knew what it was.It is a love that is heavy and cannot be forgotten after many years.

"We all take a step back. Now, it's useless to continue arguing like this." An Mixiu rubbed his brows and leaned on the back of the chair tiredly, "I admit what you said, I'm a coward. When it comes to liking you, I'm more timid than anyone."

"...I'm sorry." After a while, Lei Shi's muffled voice came from the driver's seat.He bent one leg and hugged it, his chin rested on his knee, and his head hung down in a lonely way.

Seeing how pitiful he was being abandoned, An Mixiu wanted to laugh again.He spread his hands and rubbed his face vigorously.At this time, the rain outside the window had completely stopped, and the night was like a piece of soft silk, with nothing but long black.But An Mixiu knew that there was a moon hidden behind this sky, no matter how cloudy the clouds were, the full moon was always hanging here and shining quietly.

He knew the idea was crazy, reasonable but still crazy.There is too much missing between him and Leishi, lack of running-in, lack of time, lack of enough affection, lack of too much.But as long as he thinks that it is Leishi—that is the person he has liked since he was a child, he feels that his whole body is full of strength, and the future seems to be bright.

It's a bet.He bet his feelings, his time, his money, all of him.Once he fails, he will have nothing.A new life may be ushered in, but it is destined to be a world without thunder lions.

"I'll give you a chance to prove yourself." An Mixiu took a deep breath and said slowly, "This is not dating, I'm not really ready to be with you yet. But you're right, I should Give you a chance. So prove to me, prove that you are not impulsive, but really like me."

Yes.He still lied.Standing outside that line is less polite than being a friend.He wants to cross that line even more, to hold hands, to hug, to kiss, his favorite person.

TBC.