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Nan Xi froze in place, mechanically raised her hands, not knowing where to place them.He didn't respond to Ran Yao's kiss, nor did he hug him, but looking from behind, it looked like a couple hugging each other lightly.

Ran Yao raised his drooping eyelids slightly, and looked at the two girls behind Nan Xi with indifference and determination.He separated from Nan Xi before he could move, grabbed his collar, and panted slowly.

"You..." Nan Xi was stunned, but he didn't feel too surprised. He had expected that there would be such a day, and Ran Yao would make such a move, but when this expectation happened, the subtle impact still made him feel a little embarrassed. Parry.

Ran Yao adjusted his expression, pulled his fine sideburns behind his ears, and said with a smile, "Let's continue walking."

Back in the dormitory, Nan Xi walked into the bathroom, and the narrow wooden door was locked with a "click". Ran Yao, who was sitting outside, didn't hear the sound of undressing and water running soon.

Feelings of bewilderment and uneasiness came out of his heart belatedly, he knew he had lost his composure, so he raised his feet to step on the edge of Nan Xi's bed, hugged his knees, and stared at the shutter on the wooden door that was always dark.

It took a long time before the light penetrated from the bathroom to the outside, accompanied by a clearly visible white mist, which gradually occupied a small field of vision.

Nan Xi sank his head, standing under the shower, feeling the rapid flow of the water column.He leaned on the wall, let the momentum hit the back of his neck continuously, and felt the changes in his heart belatedly. After a while, he felt the heat of the water on his body.

Ran Yao went crazy, this was his first reaction when faced with that unexpected kiss, followed by being caught off guard, hesitant and confused, as well as comfortable and hard to extricate himself like an electric current flowing.

They are too close, Nan Xi thought, so that he has been paralyzing himself with the "brother" relationship in the user account, confusing others, and using this layer of false family affection to have an affair with Ran Yao that has long crossed the line, and even has an unethical relationship / ambiguous behavior.Ran Yao believes that this kind of relationship will become an insurmountable gap between the two with time, but Nan Xi relies on it, as if putting on a decent coat for him, and being able to openly communicate with him. Ran Yao gets close.

Seniors and seniors are keen to introduce girlfriends to him. After getting along with these people for a long time, Nan Xi knows that there is a "normal" love relationship in the eyes of outsiders, and it has become the vast majority of them. , strengths, in order to get more people's attention.

So he told Ran Yao that he wanted to go to a big city, buy a big house, and bring his grandma to live with him. Compared to his own vanity, these were actually secondary, but they were just for wanting to be in front of Ran Yao. An excuse to cover up that you have "changed".

That kiss was Ran Yao's invitation, and Nan Xi felt that he had to respond. He didn't want to disappoint Ran Yao, but he knew that even if the past results were ambiguous, Ran Yao would not leave him.

It's really greedy.Nan Xi splashed a handful of hot water on her face, her forehead was pushed back, her eyes became deeper and softer in the misty water vapor.

When he walked out of the bathroom, Ran Yao passed him by and went in to wash his hands.The airtight space is full of Nanxi's smell, strong and confusing, and Ran Yao is deeply wrapped in them, tightly wrapped by them, and he doesn't want to leave, in fact, he is delaying the time to face Nanxi.

The sky outside the window was gray and the last rainstorm in late summer was brewing. The lights in the room were not turned on. Nan Xi dried the wet towel on the railing after drying his hair.

When Ran Yao came out, thunder came from far and near, and there was an ear-splitting bang, the dark clouds completely covered the light, the heavy rain poured down in an instant, and there was a "click, click, click" sound on the glass. He walked up to Nan Xi and sat down , leaning on his shoulder.

Nan Xi rubbed his hair: "Have you finished your homework?"

"No, it's too difficult." Ran Yao closed her eyes.

"I'll teach you." Nan Xi took the test paper on the table and asked, "Which question can't you?"

Ran Yao obsessively sniffed the lemon fragrance on Nan Xi's body, and pointed casually in the dark: "This way."

Nan Xi finished the calculation formula with the faint light, and smiled at Ran Yao: "Go and turn on the light."

Turning on the light, all the secret emotions are no longer concealed, Ran Yao shook his head, and sent himself into his arms while refusing.

Nan Xi sighed inaudibly, put down the pen and paper, lay down on the bed, and grabbed the quilt: "Are you sleepy?"

"Yeah." Ran Yao kicked off his shoes, put the cold soles of his feet on Nan Xi's calf, and hugged him, "Let's go to sleep."

I didn't eat, dragged my overtired body after exercising, the alarm rang but couldn't wake up the two people who were together, Qinghe No. [-] Middle School only had a two-hour lunch break, missed classes in the morning, and Again and again, before the two of them rushed to the door of the class in a panic, Nan Xi was called to the office by the head teacher to criticize severely.

For the sixth time, Ran Yao turned his head absent-mindedly, and saw Nan Xi returning to his seat from the back door, took out the test paper from the table hole, quickly entered the study state, and began to write hard.But not long after, two familiar figures passed by the glass window of the back door, and Ran Yao recognized them as Nan Xi's captain and senior sister.

Nan Xi took a peek at the teacher on the podium, found a gap, and quickly slipped out through the back door.

What Ran Yao didn't expect was that Nan Xi didn't return to class until the afternoon classes were all over.

All the day students have left the classroom. Qinghe No. [-] Middle School does not have a rigid rule that the dormitory students must study by themselves in the evening, so once the evening is over, the teaching building is always too quiet.

With his hands in his pockets, Nan Xi walked down the dark corridor, melting into the dark night.He stood outside his class door for a while, then used the spare key held by the class leader to unscrew the door, and locked it immediately after entering.

He sat back in his seat, kicked his legs forward vigorously, pulled the chair back a certain distance, arched his back, rested his elbows on his knees, and stared blankly at a void.

The content of the captain's conversation with him was constantly playing back in his ears.

"Because it's you, the gossip is stronger, so the posts on the forum will be pushed to the most prominent position quickly."

"Although it is empty talk and there is no evidence, as long as you give them a gimmick and space to imagine, and your actions give them traces to follow, these idlers can fabricate countless lace news for you. "

"I have already contacted the relevant person in charge of the school's network department to delete the post, but it is too popular. We can't prevent those who follow the post and prevent them from making new moves. I will pay more attention to it."

Nan Xi covered his ears, feeling that he couldn't breathe. He tried to rub his hands to warm them up, but failed, so he pulled up the zipper, covered half of his face, and leaned back on the chair.

"Nan Xi, tell me." The captain stood in front of the fence on the roof of the teaching building, and looked at him from the corner of his eyes. The expression on his face couldn't tell whether it was understanding or disappointment, or something in between, "You What is the relationship with Ran Yao, are you really 'brothers'?"

The refreshing wind after the rain was blowing slowly beside Nan Xi. He walked to the captain's side with weak steps, and firmly grasped the railing, hoping to get a little bit of peace of mind from it: "No." He suddenly Paused, as if hesitating, struggling, or vacillating, "Ran Yao... likes me."

The captain smiled amiably, took out a cigarette pack from his pocket, took out one with his lips, tilted his head and lit the fire, and slowly exhaled a wisp of blue-gray smoke.

Nan Xi pondered whether he should say the following words, closed his eyes, his mind was full of Ran Yao's exquisite and beautiful face, so he opened his mouth subconsciously: "I also like..."

"Nan Xi." The captain interrupted him.

Nan Xi turned his head dully, wondering if it was his own illusion, he found that the captain's eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of dust, even though the fiery red light was reflected in his eyes, there was a dead silence inside.

The changing sky made the silence between them longer. Nan Xi's mind was in a mess. He didn't have a mobile phone, so he didn't know what the online discussions would turn into and how he and Ran Yao would be characterized. When he was helpless, hesitant, and in pain, the captain suddenly said: "I am the same as you."

The air pressure was rattling the ear canal, Nan Xi almost thought that he had heard it wrong, or that he had misunderstood it, but when he reacted suddenly and looked at the captain in surprise, the captain lightly dropped the soot, and the corner of his eye The smile is still obvious: "However, I chose your senior sister."

"Some words can be thought about countless times in your heart, but when you say them, the meaning will be different, whether it is to others or to yourself." The captain opened his arms, stretched, turned and rushed to wait at the entrance of the rooftop. The girl waved her hand, and then said to Nan Xi, "I have also been in a dilemma on the cliff, whether to sink into the darkness or choose to return to the sun, it is often just a thought, this kind of thing will not leave you There is room for regret and redemption."

The captain naturally put his arms on Nan Xi's shoulders, drew closer to him, and thumped his head: "I admit that I am a weak person, and I admire those who dare to live out their own self, but your senior sister said, Who can say that someone who can give up and sacrifice himself for the 'big picture' is not brave?"

"I won't interfere too much and guide you to make choices. I just don't want to see you get hurt because of this." The captain left this sentence, let go of Nan Xi, took a last look at the faintly bright skyline, and walked towards the straight line with a smile. Beside the girl who was waiting for him to go back.

There was a very soft chime of clock ticking in the classroom, Nan Xi looked back, it was exactly nine o'clock.He turned his back to get the schoolbag hanging on the seat, and found nothing, and Ran Yao had already taken it back to the dormitory for him.

After walking alone through the muddy tree-lined road from the teaching building to the dormitory with the moonlight on his back, Nan Xi stepped up the stairs and opened the door. Ran Yao was lying on his bed, seemingly asleep.Nan Xi knew that no matter how lightly she moved, she would still wake up Ran Yao. If he didn't come back, it would be impossible for Ran Yao to sleep peacefully by herself.

He washed his face casually, but didn't wipe it, and the dripping short sleeves were all stained with water.Nan Xi made a decision for a long time, then sat on Ran Yao's bed, took off her shoes, and lay down flat, without any sleepiness.

Ran Yao opened his eyes in the dark, and called softly, "Nan Xi", the room was quiet, and no sound could be heard.A heart was tightly ravaged by Nan Xi's silence and indifference back and forth, Ran Yao raised her hand to cover her eyes, no need to ask why Nan Xi had disappeared for so long, and the heat on her lips that hadn't dissipated really The kiss that really offered her all her heart finally got a response.

During the long night, the two sleep in each other's bed. A new day begins. Nan Xi gets up early and stays late, the first to enter the class, and the first to leave. The classroom and the court are on the same line, occasionally with classmates, or with members of the basketball team. We went to the cafeteria to eat together, and always came back by the time the dormitory turned off the lights. When we entered the door, we went to the bathroom, and when we came out, we lay down on the bed, hugging the pillow and urging ourselves to fall asleep as soon as possible.

Time passed quickly in weeks, and what surprised Nan Xi was that Ran Yao never called his name again, but kept adorning him far behind him. They weren't together, but they weren't really apart either.

One day in late autumn, after the last basketball game in the gymnasium, Nan Xi put away his water bottle, picked up his schoolbag, and unconsciously glanced at the seat in the shadow of the last row of stands. Zipper, wrap the scarf round and round around the neck.

The captain patted him on the shoulder and raised his chin in Ran Yao's direction. Nan Xi shook his head, made up his mind, and left the stadium with them.

Ran Yao looked at Nan Xi's receding back and smiled absentmindedly. He sat quietly in his seat for a while, then slowly got up and walked down the stands.

He lifted his bangs that were too long, wiped the corners of his eyes, thinking, it's better to cut his hair, Nan Xi won't care.Walking out of the gymnasium, facing the cold wind head-on, Ran Yao wrapped up her school uniform jacket tightly, mocking herself twice in her heart, she still lost the bet on her feelings in the end.

But he was not angry at Nan Xi at all, he seemed unable to learn to really be angry with this person, compared to hiding alone and being sad, Nan Xi could make a choice that was beneficial to him, Ran Yao would be happy.

The slender fingers were retracted into the cuffs. It was cold, and Nanxi was not around. It seemed that it took a lot of effort to survive the winter in Qinghe County by himself.

Ran Yao walked under the low street lamp in front of the dormitory building, looked up at the room that had been lit not long ago, sniffed, and thought bitterly, Nan Xi didn't blame herself for that kiss, probably it was his last kiss. Be gentle.

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