petition to god

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Spreading out the suitcase, Ran Yao took out the clothes from the two closets, put them on the bed, and folded them neatly.

The study materials for the whole year of the third year of junior high school were piled up on the desktop. Nan Xi tied them tightly with plastic ropes and carried them outside the dormitory door, waiting for the dormitory teacher to collect them.

The high school entrance examination ended at the beginning of the midsummer of the second year. Nan Xi stood outside the door and watched Ran Yao squatting on the ground to pack the boxes. The clothes of the two of them were huddled together, and the box was full.

Nan Xi went into the bathroom and changed into a suit borrowed from her classmates, a regular white shirt, black jacket, straight-leg pants, and a pair of polished leather shoes.Today is the graduation ceremony for junior high school graduates. Nan Xi, as a student representative, needs to wear formal attire to give a speech in accordance with the requirements of the class teacher.

The clothes and shoes fit fairly well, and the sleeves were a little longer. Nan Xi rolled up a part of his sleeve, walked back to the house to get his tie, raised his eyes casually, and met Ran Yao's gaze.

Even if they live under the same roof, it has been too long since they have looked at each other like this.When Nan Xi saw Ran Yao's face, there was a slight wave in his heart, like a soft brush brushing inadvertently. He didn't know what to say, so he took out his speech and sat back on the bed to recite it for the last time, but he hadn't started yet. , I heard Ran Yao's voice first: "Brother, congratulations."

It's hard to say what kind of reaction I felt when I heard this "brother", it was quite complicated, there was relief and relaxation, but also a little bit of loss and frustration. He hooked the tie on the pillow cover with his index finger, and was about to get up, but was blocked by Ran Yao.

Ran Yao's smile was very weak, and the corners of his mouth were raised very shallowly. He reached out to him and said, "Give it to me."

Nan Xi passed the tie knowingly, Ran Yao sat on the wooden chair and leaned forward, first wrapped it around his neck, tied the Windsor knot skillfully, then got closer, and carefully tucked the tie into the shirt Under the collar, neatly organized.

Nan Xi was a little surprised that Ran Yao knew how to tie a bow tie: "When did you learn it?"

Ran Yao smiled at him gently: "I heard that you want to wear formal clothes, so I went online and tried to learn. If you don't play well, don't be disgusted."

The tone is calm, but there is a sense of alienation. This is the first time they have faced each other and candidly met each other after they each experienced the autumn, winter and spring of the third year of junior high school. And considerate.

Nan Xi didn't breathe a sigh of relief because of this, Ran Yao changed into his school uniform and planned to leave first, but Nan Xi called him: "Ran Yao, let's go together."

There was a faint light and shadow on the quiet boulevard, and the two walked slowly side by side. The gentle wind blew Nan Xi's tie, and he turned his head, only to find that Ran Yao's hair hadn't grown any more, and had always been in the same shape. Same length as when I was a kid.

"As soon as the graduation ceremony is over, let's go home." Nan Xi said.

Ran Yao didn't look at him, and kept counting the number of sycamore trees planted on both sides of the road, and there were nineteen: "Okay."

The auditorium of Qinghe No. [-] Middle School was brightly lit, and a banner with white characters on a red background was pulled up above the stage. Nan Xi and Ran Yao separated, walked to the first row, sat in the middle seat, and buttoned up his suit jacket.

His thumb rubbed back and forth on the sandy white paper, and the surrounding noise gradually weakened in his ears. It was time for him to take the stage, and the grade leader was calling his name.Nan Xi got up, walked to the center of the stage from the side, came to the microphone, glanced at Ran Yao first, and then memorized the speech script that he had already learned by heart.

Ran Yao was always staring at Nan Xi, who was shining brightly under the spotlight, and sometimes his gaze was glued to him. After a long time, Ran Yao silently left his seat, walked around to the back row, and disappeared at the entrance on the east side of the auditorium.

When he looked up again, Ran Yao's seat was empty, Nan Xi stuttered, and unconsciously sped up his speech. After reciting the manuscript, he met the applause, and he found a reason and quickly ran away from the auditorium.

Back in the dormitory, Ran Yao locked the door, threw the key on the table, and sat on Nan Xi's bed.He stepped on the wooden chair in front of him with bare feet, bent his knees, and looked out of the bright window with his arms on his pillow. The sky was bright.

Soon I will be able to return to Liangxian Village, back to the wooden house in the countryside, Ran Yao misses the rush mats that were burned by the sun, the crowded mattresses, and the wind chimes tied under the eaves, "Dingling ——", clear and sweet, like what Nan Xi said in his ear, "I will let you live in a dream from now on".

His bangs were wet with tears. Ran Yao hugged his knees and tilted to the right, lying on Nanxi's pillow. He cried, crying that he was worthless, and stretched out his hand to draw on the wall, outlining Nanxi's facial features Outline.

He fell into a brief dream, with Nan Xi's smell and temperature on his body. It was when they were in the orphanage, and they slept together in the moonlight. It was the night before running away, and they sucked endless kisses on Nan Xi's face. , is hiding in a stone cave, cuddling close to each other for warmth...

The sound of frogs in the rice fields, the red dragonflies flying low among the reeds, Ran Yao dazedly opened his eyes, touched his burning heart, raised his body slightly, tied the elastic band around his hips, clenched his back teeth, Stretched into the thin quilt covering the lower abdomen.

His face was messed up, he couldn't tell whether it was sweat or tears, there was a fishy smell in the air, his fingers were sticky, his eyes were distracted, Ran Yao tightly grasped Nan Xi's quilt, as if holding his hand, longing for him to move Continue to let yourself live the dream.

Nan Xi struggled to climb up the stairs, and his body obviously felt powerless. He stood in front of the dormitory door. Since there was no one in the corridor, the doors and windows were closed, and the silence was almost audible. The moment he touched the handle, he knew clearly He heard Ran Yao tremblingly murmur nostalgicly from between his teeth: "Hmm... Nanxi..."

He let go of his hand suddenly, his head sank, his eyes wide open, and his Adam's apple slid twice on his neck with difficulty.The body is hot, not related to the heat of summer, and the restless internal organs are all swollen.He stood by the door, slowly walked to the window at the end of the corridor, pushed it open, let the hot and humid wind pour into his body, and washed away the feeling that it was almost too full and overflowing.

He didn't go to see Ran Yao, didn't contact him, didn't associate with him, because he was afraid that he would lose control.Nan Xi leaned lightly on the dusty window sill, turned sideways, and looked as far away as possible.

Maintaining a relationship is also a kind of escape. When you get more, you no longer have nothing, and people become more hesitant and indecisive. Nan Xi smiled, why did he feel more and more that his life is not as good as Ran Yao.

In the gap between his wild thoughts, he heard the sound of unlocking the lock, but the door didn't open, and Ran Yao didn't come out either.Nan Xi stood up straight, patted the ashes on his trousers, walked back, held the handle, and pushed open the door. Ran Yao put his schoolbag on his back as if nothing had happened, put his hands on the trolley of the suitcase, and looked towards Nan Xi.

Nan Xi pursed her lips and asked, "Is it packed?"

Ran Yao nodded, the skin at the corners of his eyes was still flushed red: "Okay, we can go now."

They got on the bus at the bus stop outside Qinghe No. [-] Middle School, and then changed to a tram.Entering the air-conditioned compartment, the two of them sat in the same row, leaning against the window, clutching their schoolbags tightly, with their school uniform jacket covering the back of their hands, turning their heads to look at the scenery outside the window.

The train pulled out of the platform and ran smoothly on the track. The scenery outside gradually changed from the noisy and lively suburbs to the continuous mountains and terraced fields. Ran Yao fell asleep with his head on the window. Maybe his posture was not very comfortable. He frowned and pursed his lips.

Nan Xi's finger touched Ran Yao's fingertip intentionally or unintentionally, but there was no response.He quietly looked at the sleeping person beside him, and because the other person tilted his head, the white and slender neck was completely exposed in Nan Xi's field of vision, his face was thin and his lips were red, and the heart-wrenching murmur entered again. Ears, Nan Xi couldn't help thinking, what kind of expression would appear on Ran Yao's face at that time, and what kind of posture would be in the whole person, he was too familiar with everything about Ran Yao, but the voice at that time, at that time His expression was an unknown and an abyss to Nan Xi.

To sink into darkness or to return to sunlight.

Nan Xi raised his head, he was about to enter the tunnel ahead, the black spot outside the car window went from far to near, in an instant, the surrounding light suddenly disappeared, Nan Xi's body shook regularly with the moving train, he could not see the exit. In the gap, he suddenly raised his hand, pinched Ran Yao's chin, searched for his lips, found it, and kissed him lightly.

Nan Xi hasn't made a decision yet, but he is not in a hurry, he is still young and still has a long time to think about it.

However, at least for now, he has to give his most authentic response to Ran Yao's kiss, that sincerity.

The scenery of my hometown is still the same. After leaving the station, within two steps, I will be filled with hearing and smell by the singing of birds and flowers around me.The dirt road in the field was full of dense hosta flowers, a vast expanse of whiteness, Ran Yao squatted down and picked up one, and gave it to Nan Xi.

"Red dragonfly in the sunset, please tell me, when I met you when I was a child, when was it? I picked up a small basket and came to the mountain, came to the mulberry field, picked mulberries and put them in the small basket. Is it a dream shadow? Red dragonfly in the sunset, where are you? Resting on the tip of the bamboo pole, it is the red dragonfly..."

Ran Yao was always surrounded by Nan Xi's field of vision. After walking the road home, he saw Ran Yao excitedly clutching his schoolbag, climbing up the dirt slope, stepping over the holly bushes, running past the boxwood trees, and towards the girl waiting in front of the wooden house. Grandma opened her arms and threw herself into her arms fiercely.

Nan Xi followed closely behind, hugged grandma's thin body, and smelled the scent on her that made him feel at ease.

Grandma walked into the kitchen slowly, stood her crutches in front of the stove, held the bowl and chopsticks, and divided the freshly boiled tofu soup between the two children with trembling hands.Nan Xi took the bowl and chopsticks, helped her to sit down, Ran Yao took grandma's hand, and smiled at her while eating, feeling warm in her stomach.

"Have you lost weight?" Grandma squeezed Ran Yao's bony fingers.

"Yeah." Ran Yao narrowed his eyes, "Thinking of you, you've lost weight, thinking about family meals every day, and I'm going to make up for it these few days."

Nan Xi tidied up the work in the kitchen, Ran Yao sent grandma back to the room to rest, closed the door, he dragged the suitcase into the bedroom, hung up the clothes with hangers, took off a quilt, and spread it out on the rush mat.

The summer night in Liangxian Village came slowly, and the ground in front of the wooden house was still covered with a layer of warm apricot red. Ran Yao clapped his hands, changed into a loose pajamas, sat down by the door, leaned his head on the wooden door, Watching the sun sinking in the mountains.

Nan Xi walked back to the bedroom and saw such a scene.The door of the house is half opened, and outside is the quiet evening of Liangxian Village. You can see the golden wheat waves nearby, and you can also overlook the lush mountains in the distance. Eyelashes cast a small shadow in the sun, and there are some colorful and fragmented lights in the clear eyes.

A cluster of flames ignited on the apex of her heart, and a mass of delicate longing burned out warmly. Nan Xi realized that she was still in love after all. Love keeps urging the body and mind, and she can't restrain herself from getting closer to Ran Yao.

In the cozy hut, there are old times, and a simple youthful love is brewing.

Nan Xi sighed: "Ran Yao."

Ran Yao straightened her lips, but did not respond.

Nan Xi smiled and said, "If you don't come again, I'll sleep alone."

Before he could finish speaking, a heavy object hit him in his arms, and Ran Yao knocked Nan Xi down, putting his hands on his side.Nan Xi lay on his back and met Ran Yao's eyes. He frowned and pressed his right rib: "It hurts me so hard."

"Pa-ta", tears dripped into Nan Xi's eyes, Ran Yao became blurred and couldn't see clearly, Nan Xi hurriedly raised his hand, hugged him to his chest, and coaxed him patiently.

Ran Yao burst into tears in his arms——

"I won't follow you anymore, I'll wait for you to come back at home, okay?"

"When you buy a big house, I will live with grandma, okay? Huh."

"I'm really sorry for always causing you trouble, woo woo, can I stop crying..."

Nan Xixiao's chest trembled, lovingly rubbing Ran Yao's hair, pulled the quilt, and wrapped them tightly.

In the summer, cover with a thick pad, and within a few minutes, the back is full of hot sweat.The pajamas were too thin, and they were stuck too close together. The soft place suddenly became hard. Ran Yao twisted her waist wetly, trying to avoid it, but was caught by Nan Xi again.

"So red?" Nan Xi hugged Ran Yao's body tightly to prevent him from escaping again.

"You don't..." Ran Yao covered her mouth shyly, "You are so hot."

Nan Xi's breathing gradually became even, and he said tiredly, "I'm a little tired, can you sleep with me?"

"Yeah." Ran Yao hurriedly responded, clutching the corner of Nan Xi's clothes, "Then... good night?"

There was an extra kiss on the forehead, Nan Xi closed her eyes, and rubbed Ran Yao's earlobe: "Good night."

three o'clock in the morning—

Nan Xi felt as if his body was on fire, there was a fine pain in the bones, his knees were limp, and his chest was not as heavy as when he fell asleep.His clothes were soaked and he was sweating profusely. He opened his eyes weakly, and the center of his eyebrows and temples throbbed with pain. After a while, he heard Ran Yao's voice clearly.

"Nan Xi! Wake up! Nan Xi!" Ran Yao shouted anxiously, shaking his shoulder.

With water and pills on hand, Nan Xi realized that he must have a fever, he blinked blankly, and the first thing he saw clearly was a photo placed on the small table behind Ran Yao.

That was the first photo of them together.

The author has something to say: Thanks for reading.

The memory ends.