petition to god

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The evening sunset slanted into the classroom, staining Ran Yao's desk red, and when the bell rang for the end of class, he closed his notebook, put all the bits and pieces of the desktop into his schoolbag, turned his head quickly, opened his mouth, paused for a while, and sipped his mouth again. Pursing her lips, she lowered her eyelashes in frustration.

Nan Xi's seat was empty.

The long stairs went up one section after another, and the light through the window fell on the corners of each floor. Ran Yao stepped on them to step out of the teaching building and passed the school gate. The open space in front of the window was crowded with people. people.Curiously, he stood on tiptoe and looked over the crowd of people, and saw a photo of Nan Xi on the top of the red list that took up half a page, followed by a series of impressive achievements, "Municipal First Prize in Mathematics Contest", "Municipal First Prize in English Speech", "No. [-] in Monthly Examination Grade Grade" and so on.

Ran Yao unconsciously grabbed his schoolbag tightly, his clear eyes were hidden behind his slightly long bangs, he lowered his head, took two steps back, left the crowd, and walked back to the dormitory restlessly.

The steps up the stairs were soft, and her calves seemed to be filled with lead. Ran Yao took out the key, opened the door, covered it with her back, and tried to take two deep breaths.He opened his schoolbag, took out his homework, and carefully wrote and calculated on the test paper against the soft glow of the sky. There were more than twenty questions in total, and none of the more than a dozen answers were not smooth. His upper teeth bit his lower lip, and his nails were dead. He dug it into the palm of his hand desperately, pressed his forehead against the edge of the table, Ran Yao closed his eyes, and let go of the pen.

Nan Xi... is really outstanding.

When the moonlight outside the house replaced the sunset glow, and a soft light shone in front of the dormitory window, Nan Xi came back.The moment the door rang, Ran Yao, who was sitting on the bed, raised his head to look at him, and quickly looked away.

Nanxi's basketball jersey has a layer of dampness visible to the naked eye, and the beige skin that is exposed/exposed lightly emits heat. After exercising, the shortness of breath has not yet calmed down, the flush on the cheeks has not faded, and the room is dark , but Ran Yao could see clearly, he turned his head, Nan Xi's body had the hottest temperature in the whole summer, after watching for a long time, and staying together for a long time, it would be easy for the relationship between the two to deviate from the original track.

Panting, Nan Xi took off his shirt with one hand, threw it on the pillow, walked to the cabinet and took out the tub, and went into the bathroom wetly.After a few minutes, the sound of the water stopped, and he walked back to the bed with a damp body, wiped his hair twice, turned down the air conditioner, and lay down lazily on the bed.

In the room, there was only the slight sound of the air conditioner blowing the curtains. It was soft and quiet, and neither of the two wanted to speak first.Soon, Nan Xi fell asleep, and there was a more comfortable voice in Ran Yao's ear. He turned his head and looked at the opposite bed. Nan Xi's chest was rising and falling regularly, listening carefully, with a little A muffled, faint nasal sound.

He waited patiently for a while, then got out of bed, walked around the desk to Nan Xi's bed, squatted down, picked up his basketball shoes, followed by his basketball uniform, and put them into his washbasin.

In the confined space, the light above his head was dim, and his vision was not bright. Ran Yao occasionally dipped a little toothpaste on his toothbrush to carefully clean the mud marks on the soles of his shoes.Due to bending over for too long, he straightened up to take a breath, wiped the sweat from his forehead with his cuff, and continued to brush hard with his head down. It didn't take long, and a pair of pure white basketball shoes were as bright as new.

Next is the basketball uniform, squeeze some laundry detergent into it, rub every edge and crevice vigorously, back and forth, then change a new basin of water to rinse off the foam, wring it dry, then Ran Yao takes out the plastic hanger in the cabinet, Hang it up and hang it on your bed.

He carefully put the shoes outside the window sill. Once the summer wind blows, they will dry quickly, and Nan Xi can wear them to play golf tomorrow morning.

Ran Yao's gaze was always on the pair of basketball shoes, and he didn't realize that it was almost midnight. "Ran Yao", Nan Xi called him softly, Ran Yao turned her head when she heard the sound, looked at Nan Xi who was awake, smiled, walked to his side, and sat down.

Nan Xi's raised hand paused in the air, and rubbed the fine hair from the sideburns into his palm: "What's wrong with you recently?"

Ran Yao closed his eyes, his whole body's perception was concentrated on the piece of skin touched by Nan Xi, he shook his head: "It's nothing."

"Has your hair grown?" Nan Xi swept his bangs.

Ran Yao looked at him: "Well, I'll cut it when I have time."

Nan Xi smiled and said, "It's fine if you don't cut it, why don't you give it a try and just leave it like this?"

"Okay." Ran Yao responded, "As long as you like, you can do anything."

They used to be open-mouthed and talked about everything, but now, the conversation lasted no more than three or five sentences at most. Nan Xi didn't like this feeling. He began to be unable to see through Ran Yao. Or: "Is it, where am I not doing well enough?"

"No." Ran Yao leaned on his shoulder uncomfortably, and confessed to him lightly, "It's just, Nan Xi." He swallowed, "You don't belong to me anymore."

Like drowning, like weightlessness, like walking on ice that is about to shatter, Ran Yao felt a sense of powerlessness that was about to eat him away. Climb to walk, walk to run.Now I really tried my best, but I still couldn't catch up, and I watched the distance between them getting farther and farther.

"I'm sorry." Ran Yao supported his body with his arms, calmed his head, and admitted his fate, "I'm so useless."

When Nan Xi came back to his senses, there was a soft touch of smooth skin in the heart of his right hand, and Ran Yao's back was narrow and thin. He took advantage of the trend and gently covered one of the slightly raised butterfly bones.In the past, Ran Yao always cried loudly, all emotions could be vented in front of Nan Xi, Nan Xi said, "Look at me", Ran Yao raised his face obediently, but at this moment, there is no redness, no tears, One side of the cheek was illuminated by the moonlight, revealing a calm and restrained expression, a kind of sadness that Nan Xi had never seen before, forbearing but deadly.

Ran Yao slowly approached Nan Xi, so close that the scents of the two of them merged together, so close that the hot breath hit each other's face, so close that they could hug and kiss each other, the hand under the cloth suddenly pinched Ran Yao The back of Yao's neck ruthlessly stopped him in place.

The wind from the air conditioner blew the basketball jersey hanging on the bed, and the hanger bumped softly against the railing. Ran Yao asked with trembling shoulders, "If, we hadn't left Liangxian Village..."

Nan Xi grabbed Ran Yao's hand.

"I didn't meet grandma..."

"Didn't run away from the orphanage..."

Ran Yao sniffed: "If you hadn't taken me away, maybe I wouldn't be so sad."

He still couldn't hold back, and murmured in tears: "Nan Xi, I'm so narrow-minded, I'm the one who should be the most happy for you." At this moment, his weakness finally waited for a hug, Ran Yao Hugging Nan Xi desperately, "I'm sorry, Nan Xi, I'm sorry, please forgive me."

The hand on the back didn't stop, Nan Xi patiently coaxed Ran Yao to calm down, and wanted to say something a few times, but she just moved her Adam's apple with difficulty.After a long time, Ran Yao softly hid in his arms just like when she was a child, Nan Xi hugged him tightly, and her hoarse voice lingered in her ears: "From now on, don't think about getting angry with me again."

When did he fall asleep, Ran Yao couldn't remember, the early morning sun was strong and dazzling, he got up tiredly supporting the bed, stretched his arms to reach for the watch on the table.I was late, the first class was over halfway through, the quilt slipped from my back to Nan Xi's side, the man also woke up, his eyes opened and closed, after a long delay, he said softly to Ran Yao: "Good morning. "

"Good morning." Barefoot, Ran Yao hurriedly took the basketball shoes outside the window into the house, and wiped the dust on the shoes with a baby.

They dawdled until the fourth period of physical education class, and then joined other students in the class in the gymnasium.Just in time for the high school basketball team training, Nan Xi flexed his wrists, stretched his limbs, and danced to warm up his body. At the invitation of the captain, he quickly integrated into their team.

The referee stood on the center line and was about to blow the whistle to serve, Nan Xi raised his hand abruptly: "I'm sorry."

Looking around in the stands, she put her hands to her lips and said, "Ran Yao", Nan Xi called out the other party's name loudly.Ran Yao, who was sitting not far away, was stunned for a moment. He raised his head to meet countless pairs of eyes, and then returned to look for the source of the sound. He quickly ran down the stands, came to the first row, and sat quietly on the bench that Nan Xi pointed to him. seat.

On the court, Nan Xi was chatting and laughing with his trusted partners, and they cooperated tacitly. The players passed the ball to him one after another, and Nan Xi always lived up to expectations and scored dunks with ease.Ran Yao stared at Nan Xi's figure calmly, and it was expected that he would feel a dull pain in his heart. He lowered his head and rubbed his hands repeatedly, trying to relieve the inexplicable pressure and burden in his heart.

He knew very well that he didn't want to watch Nanxi play at all.

The captain suddenly yelled: "Nan Xi! Why are you distracted!"

Ran Yao raised his head in surprise, and the moment he met Nan Xi's gaze, the ball was cut off by someone else.

During the intermission, Nan Xi took the mineral water from the senior sister who was waiting under the basket, lifted up the corner of her clothes and wiped the sweat off her face. The air in front of Ran Yao smelled a little more of hormones, which belonged to The smell of Nanxi.The light at the feet was blocked by the shadows, Ran Yao raised his head, Nan Xi looked down, the unwiped sweat from his forehead slid down his cheeks, and dripped under the corner of his right eye.

Nan Xi handed him the water bottle: "Drink it up for me, I haven't drank much water all morning."

Just as Ran Yao was about to open his mouth, there was a wave of chattering behind him——

"Nan Xi and Ran Yao have a really good relationship."

"Of course the relationship between brothers is good."

"Hey? A real brother? But they don't look much alike, and why is there such a big gap between the two?"

With dry and peeling lips on the mouth of the bottle, Ran Yao's movements froze, and his ears itched. Nan Xi kneaded his earlobe and sat beside him, intentionally or unintentionally blocking those voices: "After class, let's go!" Accompany me back to the dormitory to take a shower, and then we will go to the cafeteria to eat."

After drinking the water, Ran Yao took a sip of the bottle reluctantly, took the bottle cap in Nan Xi's hand, and tightened it tightly, "I can go to the cafeteria to cook for you..."

"No need." Nan Xi's eyes were cool, and the corners of his eyes were curved with warmth, "Ran Yao, no matter what we do, we must be together."

Still not right, nothing at all.

Ran Yao looked blankly at Nan Xi who was walking through the crowd, he wanted him to be completely his own, but he didn't want him to work so hard and so tired.It can't be done, it can't be generous enough to allow other people to integrate into their world, to be precise, it dare not have a little slack and let others take advantage of it.

The relationship between each other is unresolved, the relationship that outsiders think is unclear, there is no way out, nothing will work, what Nan Xi wants, Ran Yao can't fulfill, what Ran Yao wants, Nan Xi is not willing to give in, conflicts , stalemate, her lonely shadow reflected on the bare floor, for a moment, Ran Yao thought, what kind of method can be used to fill Nan Xi's heart, no one can walk in again.

A whistle sounded and the audience ended. Nanxi was once again surrounded by everyone. Ran Yao stood outside the circle and applauded along with the students in the stands. The captain pampered Nanxi's face. He was still the first It was the first time I saw Nan Xi smiling so comfortably.

Ran Yao has been taken care of by Nanxi since he was a child. He is arrogant and unreasonable when he is unhappy, and does whatever he wants when he is happy. Nanxi tolerates all his shortcomings and guards his stumbled growth. What he can do for Nanxi now is to give up "exclusive enjoyment" " and "possession", why can't it be done, why is it so difficult to decide why it is not a contribution at all in the eyes of outsiders.

With a tingling pain between her brows, Ran Yao blinked, covered her forehead, and heard Nan Xi say to him, "What are you thinking? Let's go."

He hurriedly got up and followed him, stuck tightly behind him, lowered his head, stared at his dirty hands, didn't want to bear it anymore, so he quietly held his little finger, swung his arms, and shook them coquettishly.

Nan Xi let Ran Yao alone, unscrewed the cap of the bottle with one hand, threw it into the trash can, poured down a whole bottle of water in one go, and wiped her mouth happily.

Sparse light casts from the criss-crossing branches above the head. The temperature in Qingchuan County in late summer is refreshing, and the wind under the shadows is a little bit cool. A dark, delicate face.

It’s different, it’s different from when I was a child, it’s different from those boys who were sweating profusely on the court, it’s different from everyone who has met before, the temperature on the little finger is getting hotter and hotter, Nan Xi looks away and sighs He took a deep breath, pressed his right rib, and tried hard to suppress his fast heart rate.

The two walked straight along the boulevard, and when they passed the corner on the southwest side of the teaching building, Ran Yao saw two girls waiting in the blind spot of surveillance ahead of Nan Xi, the envelopes in their hands were painted with annoying colors , the shape is piercing, and even their existence is too much of an eyesore.Ran Yao's expression sank angrily, because they were brothers, and because Nan Xi didn't belong to him alone, so he gave others the opportunity to do whatever they wanted without any restraint.

He couldn't wait any longer.

Ran Yao suddenly pulled Nan Xi's hand, and stood in front of him with a smile. The sun was just right and the wind was clean. At this moment, all the worldly things, visions, rumors, and nonsense were not important or cared anymore, Ran Yao He clearly understood what he wanted, and he wanted to bet again, betting that Nanxi would forgive him, pamper him, tolerate him, protect him, bet that he would choose him, accept him, and fall in love with him.

"Nan Xi, I like you."

In the next second, Ran Yao stood on tiptoe, wrapped her arms around Nan Xi's neck, rubbed those two soft lips affectionately, and kissed them thinly.

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