golden wind meets dew

"I know a secret." The sound of the rain came suddenly, and the woman's voice seemed to be buried in the background, and it didn't sound so clear, but Guan Jiang still heard it clearly. She said, "My son is... gay."

Previously, the woman had intermittently talked about the death of her adopted daughter, problems getting along with her son, feeling hopeless in life... and other bad things.But all problems are not as good as the current problem.

Generally speaking, this is a new type of question. Guan Jiang pretended to be consulting people for more than a year, but he hadn't encountered it before.He seemed to panic when he stepped on a slippery stone for the first time as a child.But in fact, there is nothing to panic, this is someone else's story.he thought.

Thinking about it this way really helped, and the position was immediately settled.He looked at the woman gently, and nodded lightly, "That is indeed a problem that is not easy to deal with."

"What do you want to do?" The woman raised her gaze and walked straight up to her, as if offended, "There is no need to deal with it, it's not a disease."

Is it?Guan Jiang replied in his heart, but naturally he didn't speak.He just gave the other party a tolerant and kind look on his face as usual.Someone once said that once his eyes relax and look at others, others will follow him to let go of their guard and be infected by him.With this skill, he has gained the trust of many people in this small town.

The woman's irritability of being offended really softened.

She sighed, lowered her eyes again so as not to meet Guan Jiang's gaze, and said to herself, "I'm sorry doctor, I didn't mean that, I didn't accuse you... I never quarrel, look at me, believe it? "

Guan Jiang said, "I believe."

The woman nodded, as if satisfied: "I never quarrel, but in the past year, I have often quarreled with my son. Every time I quarrel, I want to tell this secret, but I dare not, I am afraid... I am afraid What? I'm afraid, alas—I'm afraid that the air will freeze after I finish speaking, and it would be better to quarrel, doctor, don't you think?"

"If it's easier to quarrel, there is nothing to blame for choosing to quarrel." Guan Jiang said.

"Yes, I think so too." The woman stroked the hair beside her ear, and cast her eyes on the rain outside the window.

After a while, she started talking about another rain.

A night of rain wrapped up her son's secret, and it also became her own secret. Over the years, it made her breathless and helpless.When I opened my mouth, it was like a mountain rock loosened the soil and rolled down. When I mentioned the pain, I burst into tears and cursed.

But now, she has settled down and is determined to listen to advice and make changes in her life.

After looking at her son with red eyes for a short while, she turned her eyes away, wiped away the wetness from the corners of her eyes with her little finger, swallowed her throat and adjusted her voice so that her speaking speed was as unhurried as the steps going down the mountain, and her tone was calm and indifferent.

"I found out when you were in the third year of high school. You rented a house and lived outside alone. One Sunday, you ate at home, argued with me, and ran out before finishing the meal. Then it rained heavily, and It rained for a long time, and didn’t stop until eight or nine o’clock. At eight or nine o’clock, I was very worried, so I went to the school to look for you. If you were not in the classroom, I went to the house you rented to look for it... Do you remember the rain that day?”

It was still difficult to tell, so she took pains to describe unimportant things.The Chinese teacher always teaches the students, and the description of the environment brings out the events.The environment is well described, and readers will recall the whole story once mentioned.Fortunately, Du Jingzhou did remember that rainy night as she wished.

"Hmm." He replied softly.

Just two years ago, or three years ago, Du Jingzhou still felt awkward whenever he thought of that absurd and flustered night, and there was even a pain poking from the depths of the hallucination to the nerves, which was as clear as real.This is the shyness of young people towards the first night.

After that, there must always be enough experience or enough time to completely cover the embarrassment and discomfort stuck in the memory.But for Du Jingzhou, enough time has passed, so he is calm about the matter itself at the moment, it's just that Chen Wei asked, everything has a different meaning.

Therefore, he was still nervous, and waited for his mother's next sentence after a simple answer, as if waiting for a judgment.But Chen Wei didn't say a word, she just turned her head and glanced at him quickly.

This is enough.With such an exchange of eyes, they tacitly omitted the original process and details—he was experiencing the first night with someone, and his mother might have bumped into him, and learned everything from this.He thought he was flawless, and his mother guarded all the gaps for him, until now.

Well, once uncovered, the atmosphere can be really suffocating.

Du Jingzhou felt uncomfortable breathing, and Chen Wei couldn't feel much better either.So the two of them remained silent like this, walking down one after the other until they reached the outside of the cemetery.

They came to pay homage to Dai Zhiqiu, and it was Du Jingzhou who was so busy that he had to go back to work in the hospital after the sacrifice.It was a good farewell, but a secret was revealed, and the situation was different.Du Jingzhou stood beside the car, waiting for Chen Wei to speak.

Chen Wei was silent all the way, not knowing what to think, raised her head and said something that surprised him: "Your...boyfriend at that time, was that your classmate? Was it XXX or XX?"

"Ah?" Du Jingzhou was taken aback.

The two names Chen Wei mentioned were classmates with whom he had a good relationship at the time, and neither of them is married now, and they still visit their house occasionally, and usually hang shoulders with him—they are indeed ready-made suspects.

"No." Du Jingzhou pretended to be relaxed, and smiled a little from the corner of his eyes, and said, "They are just friends, and they don't know."

Chen Wei said "Oh", and then asked: "Who knows about that?" Don't mention that boyfriend.

The tired smile from the corners of Du Jingzhou's eyes disappeared, and he said softly, "In Rong'an City, Zhiqiu is the only one."

Chen Wei went "ah" mentally, and murmured, "Zhiqiu, yes."

When it comes to her adopted daughter, she still has melancholy, so let the topic go.He waved to his son, let him go to work, and walked slowly towards home.

Du Jingzhou watched for a moment, thoughtful, got in the car and didn't go directly to the hospital, but took a detour to Genzhuyuan Dental Clinic.

"Is Doctor Guan there?" Holding the car key in one hand, he only pushed the door a little, and saw a female nurse inside, not the one he knew.

The girl raised her head: "Yes, but he is making teeth upstairs. Do you have an appointment?"

Do teeth.Well, still a decent dentist.He wanted to laugh for no reason, and shook his head, "No, that's okay, I'm leaving." After a pause, he added, "Don't tell him, I've been here."

After speaking, let go of the door handle and leave.

The girl pouted, watching the guests get into the car outside the door, and drove away in a very chic manner.Only then curled the corner of his mouth, and muttered to himself in a low voice: "I didn't say I wanted to tell you the story."

"Tell me what?" Coincidentally, Guan Jiang came down from upstairs, took off his gloves, and they were still in the trash can beside her desk.The little nurse was taken aback, patted her heart in shock, and complained that he had no sound when walking.

Guan Jiang asked again: "Tell me, what are you telling me?"

The little nurse completely forgot what she said, and even Du Jingzhou's instructions, and said, "Just now a handsome guy asked if you were there."

Guan Jiang poured a glass of water and said with interest, "How handsome?"

"It's quite..." The little nurse came to her senses, smacked her lips, and frowned, "Boss, did you see it? He just drove away, is it someone you know?"

Guan Jiang giggled and went back to his boss seat without answering.Intentionally or not, the corner of his eyes glanced at the place where Du Jingzhou parked just now.He saw that the guests came and went in a hurry, as if they had no intention of staying.But if they happened to be here just now, they would definitely talk.

What will you say?Guan Jiang was a little curious, what was that Dr. Du trying to say when he came to him?

Du Jingzhou did not find Guan Jiang in the afternoon, but met him by chance at night.It's in the alley behind my high school alma mater.

There are many places in Rong'an City that bear his complicated feelings, this school and this alley are such places.He used to hate this school and this alley, but now he always hides here.

Especially after every emergency operation, only coming here to eat a plate of fried noodles can make him feel calm—no matter how many times he has to deal with life and death, he will still feel that the edge of his heart has been grazed by a sharp arrow, and his palpitations are hard to calm down .

The smell of snacks in the alley floated far away, faintly mixed with the smell of alcohol.He was thinking of adding a serving of green vegetables tonight, and when he walked to the door of the small shop where he often eats, he bumped into a figure head-on.Taking a closer look, it was Guan Jiang.

Why do they keep bumping into each other?He tilted his focus, thought.

"Oh, you?" He looked surprised, "Doctor Xiaoguan?"

Guan Jiang raised his face, but he almost didn't dare to recognize it.

This Guan Jiang is completely different from the dentist and psychological counselor in the dental clinic.He no longer has a warm smile like a spring breeze, nor does he see the well-trained tolerance and kindness in his eyes.Especially the tightly pursed lips made people feel that he was suppressing an active volcano.

It was a terrible and explosive breath, just like how he "felt" him that day.

Guan Jiang also recognized Du Jingzhou, and the corners of his mouth twitched into sharp corners, and he tried to be gentle: "Dr. Du, what a coincidence."

Du Jingzhou stepped back a bit: "Come and have a bowl of fried noodles."

"Exactly, me too." After Guan Jiang finished speaking, he sat down at the open-air table outside the door, and said loudly to the boss, "Boss, bring out my things."

The boss replied with a helpless voice: "I know!"

Guan Jiang rushed to Du Jingzhou and waved: "Together?"

This person just ate in the store, what's wrong?Du Jingzhou was curious, so he took a look into the store, and saw three or four young people staggering around a table.

"Walking around" is a realistic description.Some of them covered their stomachs, some hugged their knees, and some simply sat on the ground reaching their backs. There were scattered wine bottles on the table and the tables and chairs beside them were also messy.

Obviously, this is a scene of a small dogfight.

Du Jingzhou sighed "Oh", and sat down opposite Guan Jiang with half curiosity and half fear: "Did you fight with them?"

Guan Jiang said: "Children don't know how to grab an adult's table, teach them a lesson."

"Oh." Du Jingzhou replied inexplicably.

Guan Jiang didn't seem to be injured at all, except for his aura that was a bit scary, everything else was fine.The boss moved all the things he ordered outside in a short while, and Du Jingzhou also ordered by the way.Guan Jiang handed over the chopsticks, motioning to eat together.

"Actually, I think," Du Jingzhou said sincerely, holding his chopsticks, "compared with these 'kids', you haven't grown up much."