golden wind meets dew

"Huh!" Guan Jiang opened the door of the clinic to pour water, and a person came in unexpectedly, almost bumping into him.

The rain and fog in Rong'an City were too thick.Guan Jiang thought.If it wasn't for the rain and fog covering the glass door, he wouldn't be unable to see such a big man clearly.The man was bending over to apologize to him for his recklessness, and even the voice in his throat seemed to be filled with wet rain, and it sounded unclear.The man apologized and raised his head. Guan Jiang saw his face and let out another "huh".

"Hi, I'm here to pick up my mother." The other party's hand holding the umbrella was pulled back, as if this would save a little bit of embarrassing rain in the room. "My mother's name is Chen Wei. She came here for treatment two hours ago."

"Oh." Guan Jiang looked away.Otherwise, this gaze will stay on that face for too long. "She is resting inside, and she will go back when the rain stops. Why don't you sit for a while and wait a moment—give me the umbrella."

"Thank you." He handed over the umbrella.

Guan Jiang put away his umbrella and knocked on the nurse's desk near the water dispenser.The nurse hurriedly got up and poured water for the guest.Disposable cups were delivered to the guests, and after a few greetings, the clinic returned to silence, only the sound of rain outside.Guan Jiang sat behind his seat, staring at the door in a daze.

"Doctor Guan, you don't seem to be used to the weather here?" The guest came to his table, holding a disposable cup in his hand.

Guan Jiang looked up at him with a smile on his face: "It's okay, why do you say that?"

The other party raised his finger and pointed to his own brow: "Frowning, it looks like he is worried about the weather - this is the case here, when the rainy season comes, it rains almost every day, I have a colleague who is from the north, look Show your face when it rains.

Guan Jiang pursed the corners of his lips: "It's not that annoying, it's just uncomfortable."

When he said this, he looked into the other person's eyes, looking directly.This will make people appear magnanimous.Suddenly, a flash of light flashed in his mind, and he asked expectantly, "Are you a doctor too?"

The other party was obviously taken aback: "What did my mother say?"

Guan Jiang shook his head: "No, it's just my intuition. I won't tell you anything about what your mother and I talked about."

"That's so unfair." The other party looked regretful, "My mother said that she wanted to talk to a psychological counselor, and she found your dental clinic. I hope that you, a part-time psychologist, can be more accommodating than outside institutions. , I asked her a lot about what she said... Otherwise, you would have learned all my secrets from her mouth, but I still don't know what I have revealed."

For a mother, children are indispensable to chatting about.Guan Jiang admitted that he was right.

From just now to now, they had known each other for only 10 minutes, but he already knew a lot about this person in the previous chat with Chen Wei.The middle-aged woman who had finally plucked up the courage to chat with a "psychological counselor" suddenly became emotional after an hour of awkward confiding, crying and lying on the sofa, almost cursing and cursing in the second half, And self-blame, and then fell asleep from exhaustion.

Therefore, from Chen Wei's mouth, he has already spelled out a fairly specific image - a young, unlucky man with good looks and a career, who is about to enter the best stage of marriage and family in his life, but suddenly loses his girlfriend.

"However, it's not that you can't communicate with all the content. At least, you don't look as unlucky as your mother said." Guan Jiang said slightly jokingly, retracting the magnanimous gaze he had made, and holding a pen in his hand , rotated twice, and said, "I think you will get the happiness you want."

There was no response to these words, the door of the lounge opened, and Chen Wei walked out.

She had already tidied up her appearance, and she was no longer the same as the one who broke down and cried.She is the best Chinese teacher in Rong'an Middle School, and she is also well-known in this small town. She is a knowledgeable single mother who trains her children to be high-achieving students in prestigious schools. She must be gentle and demure, generous and decent in front of others.If she wanted to be embarrassed, she would only give a glimpse of some completely irrelevant but logical people.Such as a psychologist.

"How is the fee calculated?" The guest asked Guan Jiang, turned on his mobile phone, and prepared to scan the code.

Chen Wei patted her son's wrist lightly, lowered her eyes and shook her head: "I'll do it myself."

Guan Jiang continued: "I'm an amateur, just chatting, the fee is not expensive, just listen to your mother."

"Thank you." The guest took back the mobile phone kindly.

Chen Wei had already opened the door and went out. It was really a worthless rain that came and went in a hurry. Just now, it was splashing and fogging everywhere, but now it stopped, and the air brought in a cool breeze.The guest took the umbrella from the nurse and looked at Guan Jiang again.

"I'm a doctor. I'm in the Department of Surgery of the No. [-] Hospital in the city." As if expressing his gratitude, he said, "My name is Du Jingzhou. Although I don't wish you to find me if you have anything to do, you can still come to me if you have anything to do."

In Du Jingzhou's eyes, Guan Jiang was not a qualified psychological counselor.In other words, compared with what he "thought", it didn't look like the same thing.

He had heard about him for a long time, that Rong'an City is so small, there are some special people and things, and they will always be passed on.He heard that he was the illegitimate son of the famous Dentist Guan in Genzhuyuan. Dentist Guan had a romantic life, his wife and daughter separated, and after his death, he had only one illegitimate son to attend the funeral.Later, the illegitimate child stayed to inherit the dental clinic, and gradually began to provide psychological counseling for others.

"There is a psychological counselor in Genzhuyuan Dental Clinic." Du Jingzhou first learned about this from Dai Zhiqiu.

The dentist Xiaoguan used to give advice to a girl who had had her teeth cleaned in the past and was reluctant to come back from the big city. After talking too much, she said that she had a professional certificate as a psychological counselor... I don’t know if it was a joke. , It’s still the truth, anyway, it spread, so more and more people use dental care to chat, and this sideline job is even more popular than dental care.

Du Jingzhou listened to Dai Zhiqiu's description, "It has a pair of particularly charming eyes, always smiling, and it makes people feel at ease when looking at it." He went to see it himself, and felt that the man was not so reassuring.

I didn't see it with a smile, but I frowned so much that I was worried, yes.Therefore, where there is a gentle and kind person with fiery sparks in his heart, that is the truth.

However, after all, he is not a serious psychological counselor, so it would be nice to be able to chat with others and comfort them.Du Jingzhou thought so.His eyes fell on Chen Wei's back.He could see that his mother's mood was much more relaxed than usual.For this, he credited Guan Jiang for now.

When the mother and son came to Dai Zhiqiu's tomb, Du Jingzhou put the flowers in his arms in front of the tombstone, bowed and stood quietly for a while.Then took two steps back and said softly, "Mom, I'll wait for you outside."

"Don't you have anything to say to Zhiqiu?" Chen Wei asked absently without looking at him.

Du Jingzhou faltered and said nothing, Chen Wei waved her hand, "Don't talk about your atheism, you just don't know the truth in your heart."This is a complaint, but it is better than the previous complaints.Du Jingzhou didn't argue, and left silently, watching Chen Wei squatting down from a distance, as if he was going to express his heart in front of the grave.

It has been a year since Dai Zhiqiu passed away, and he was wronged because of a car accident.

Chen Wei blamed Du Jingzhou for quarreling with Dai Zhiqiu that day. "If she hadn't quarreled with you, she was in a bad mood, so could she not have paid attention to the car?" These were the words he heard the most in the past year.

Dai Zhiqiu is a student of Chen Wei. She lives in a village below Rong'an City. Her parents are both disabled. After completing the nine-year compulsory education, she almost dropped out of school. It was Chen Wei who helped her.The Dai family asked her to recognize Chen Wei as her adoptive mother, so after high school, she often lived in their house.Because of this, he and Dai Zhiqiu grew up together. Chen Wei had always wanted them to be together, and Dai Zhiqiu was also very willing. It seemed logical, but unfortunately, he had no intention of it.

Chen Wei repeated this sentence all year long, to him, it could not be said that he was unwilling.But he couldn't argue.After listening too much, I can't help but ask myself if the guilt is really inevitable.I can't help but assume that if there was no showdown with Dai Zhiqiu that day...

Although in the road surveillance filming, Dai Zhiqiu was obviously trying to save the life of a passing child, so he didn't have time to escape.At the corner intersection, several cars collided to varying degrees, and the scene was so chaotic that if you didn't pay attention, you couldn't find her dying beside the green belt.The ambulance took her to the hospital, and at a glance, he knew it was impossible to recover.

He couldn't perform the operation, and watched from the side, watching her never wake up again.

It was one of the toughest days of his life.But looking back on the first anniversary today, everything was so blurry that it was unreal. He couldn't even remember whether it was raining or sunny that day. When he came back to his senses, Chen Wei was already standing in front of him.

"Let's go home." Chen Wei said.

He raised his eyelids, stretched out his hand to help Chen Wei's arm, and suddenly found that his right hand was numb, and his five fingers were cold as if the blood was stagnant.He couldn't think of a physical reason for a while—there was no pressure on the blood vessel, and there was no old problem, so where did it come from.

"Last time, I told Dr. Xiao Guan." Chen Wei said suddenly on the way down the mountain.

Before he confide anything, Du Jingzhou immediately understood.In fact, he could guess what his mother was going to talk to a psychological counselor, but he always felt nervous when he heard her talk about it.

"Yeah." He nodded, lowered his head and stared at the road half a meter away from his feet, his heart was pounding, and then heard Chen Wei continue to say, "Doctor Xiaoguan advised me to try to get through the disaster with you. But I I think this is not your disaster."

"No..." He subconsciously denied it, but raised his head to meet Chen Wei's gaze.

Calm, penetrating, sympathetic, and a little incomprehensible, like hatred in my heart.He couldn't speak, as if there was a lump in his throat.Chen Wei didn't want to include him in his battle line, he understood.

But Chen Wei said again: "However, it's useless for me to hate you. I don't really want you to pay Zhiqiu's life. You are my son, and of course I also hope that you can be happy and live happily. I just hate me Own."

The heart is cut like a knife.Du Jingzhou tightly pursed the corners of his lips, to prevent his breath from revealing the hotness and pain in his heart.Waiting for Chen Wei's judgment.Then, he saw tears welling up in Chen Wei's eyes, and what was inside was blurred by these tears.

Chen Wei choked with sobs, and asked word by word: "Why can't you like women? You are like this, what should you do in this place..."

This time, it was a bolt from the blue.

Du Jingzhou never knew, not at all, that Chen Wei's understanding of him had reached this level.