golden wind meets dew

Zhiqiu Diary II

Sunny September 5

In a sense, Du Jingzhou and I have become allies with me.

Because I know his deepest secret.He also knew that I knew his secret.We're tacit.

It happened yesterday afternoon.

When he came back from participating in competitions in other places, Mr. Chen asked me to pick him up at the train station, so I went.Turns out his friend was faster than me.When I arrived, they had joined, but they were arguing, too focused to notice my presence.

He was carrying a schoolbag and a bag, which may have contained gifts for Mr. Chen and me.His friend kept chasing after him to explain something, but he ignored him.They went on like this until they reached the bus stop outside the train station.

Du Jingzhou is so fierce.

He yelled "Get out" at the end, and his friend was startled by him.Then the bus came and he jumped on it.At that time, I didn't know what to think, and I hurried into the car.His friend didn't come up.

It took me a long time before I dared to move to Du Jingzhou's side.

He was a little surprised to see me.

We spoke four sentences.

He said: Are you here to pick me up?

I say yes.

After a while, he said again: Let's go home and finish dinner.

I said: OK.

I think I shouldn't need to tell him that his friend spoke ill of him behind his back.He should also understand that I have understood.Because he looked at me for a while before entering the house, as if he had something to say, but he didn't say anything in the end.

Don't say it, don't say it, just understand it.

I want him to be happy.

October 5 heavy rain

Today is not the 15th, this is a supplementary diary.

I looked at the diary last time, and I said at the end that I hope he is happy.From then until now, I don't know if he is happy or not, anyway, I feel very uncomfortable.Especially the day I made it up.

The 15th, I will probably never forget that day.

It rained very heavily that day, and it started to fall in the afternoon.Du Jingzhou came back to eat, and he kept checking his phone to reply messages during the meal.He has never been like this before, and I saw Teacher Chen was very dissatisfied.

But he will have an exam soon, and Teacher Chen doesn't want to criticize him.

Now our whole family regards him as the most important thing, and try our best to make him happy.Only he himself always makes himself unhappy.

The thing about him and his friend... It can be regarded as a broken relationship, right?I find it kind of disgusting to say that though, because his friend is so disgusting.When I see that person at school now, I can't help imagining the scene of his being thrown into a catastrophe.

Far away.I seem to avoid positive records whenever something important happens to me.

Even if this record is only seen by myself.

Here's the thing.

Du Jingzhou went out immediately after dinner, I always have a bad feeling.Then I found a reason and went out.I think I know roughly where he's going: the alley behind the school.

I went straight over there to look for him, and sure enough I saw him.

He sat at a table with two people I didn't know in the restaurant where I ate fried noodles before.They ordered a lot of things, and wine.I don't know how long they've been drinking.It was raining heavily, so I hid in the milk tea shop opposite that shop and drank milk tea all the time.

Until it got dark, the rain did not stop completely.

In the end, Du Jingzhou was helped away by one of them.I quickly follow out.

I heard the stranger say, are you going back to school?You can't go back to school like this.

I couldn't hear Du Jingzhou's answer.

Then the stranger said, that's where you live.

They really went back to Du Jingzhou's rental house.

I thought of many reasons behind them, so I knocked on the door naturally.It was already eight o'clock at that time, the school was already in the evening, and I hadn't gone yet, so I was actually very impatient.So I finally thought, let's call him to read in the evening together, it shouldn't be obtrusive.

But when I knocked on the door, I heard it.

Sunny September 5

I haven't finished writing yesterday's supplementary diary.

It feels weird to write this kind of thing in my own notebook.I don't mean to discriminate, I have been thinking about my mood for so many days.Sometimes it feels wrong to be so repulsive.But there is no way to eliminate this exclusion.

Not even writing it down.

And it's not just my troubles.

I was frightened that day, and before I had time to run, Teacher Chen came.I hurried to the stairs on the upper floor.Teacher Chen also heard it.She was much calmer than me and stood there for a long time before leaving.

I see Teacher Chen every day these days, and I also feel weird. I want to communicate with her several times.

Now I'm an ally with her, but she doesn't know it.

I dare not let her know.

Forget it, let's each keep their own secrets.

cloudy on October 5

Having said that, why should I be so distressed.

What does Du Jingzhou actually have to do with me?I didn't have a crush on him, and I wasn't his own sister.

After all, I am an outsider.

cloudy on October 5

It turned out that the person who brought Du Jingzhou back to the rental house was not from our school.

Even Du Jingzhou himself didn't know him!

This is too funny...

He called someone else, but the number left by someone else was empty.

cloudy on October 5

I laughed so hard, he called the empty number again today.

Sunny September 5

Maybe he fell in love with her, but he kept calling even though he knew it was an empty number.

cloudy on October 6

Two days ago, the school set up the examination room and had a holiday.I went back to my home, and when I came back, I saw that Du Jingzhou was not reviewing properly, and there were many messy drawings on the draft paper on the living room table.

It's all individual parts, eyes, hands, mouth, whatever.

I suddenly felt that he was also very miserable.

If he had been a girl, this must have been a one-night stand and dumped story.

Supplementary diary: When clearing the table at night, I found that Du Jingzhou had written a sentence on a piece of draft paper.

"Anyway, I finally know myself."

I can't explain why, but when I saw this sentence, my heart skipped a beat.

I feel as if I can understand how he feels when he writes this sentence.Definitely not sad.It should be... suddenly enlightened.Although he must be terribly disappointed and sad, he still gained one important thing.

Myself, I also want to know how I am.

It is enviable luck that he can know himself.

Sunny September 6

I secretly put away the draft paper.

Coincidentally, this notebook is used up, and it can be coded and returned together with it.

By the way, Du Jingzhou is in a good mood, so he probably didn't fail the exam.

Teacher Chen is also in a good mood, and the atmosphere at home seems to have improved.She started to focus on me now, and asked Du Jingzhou to sort out all her notes for me.Du Jingzhou also agreed.

In fact, they are really nice people.

Hope they are happy.