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Zhiqiu Diary [-]

Sunny August 3th

I found that Jing Zhou was smoking.

It's strange that Du Jingzhou also smokes.He is different from me, he is a really good boy, he is the little pride of Teacher Chen, and also the pride of the whole grade and the whole school.I also saw him carrying the national flag and leading everyone to a flag-raising ceremony in the morning, and I saw him smoking a cigarette on the steps in the sand of the stadium at noon.

He was alone and I guess he was in a bad mood.

I went to him to get lunch money. In the morning, Mrs. Chen said that our lunch money was together this week, because she didn't have any change, so it was all given to Du Jingzhou.

I am not from their family, he is not happy, I am a little embarrassed.

I didn't want to mess with him, so I left without asking him for money in the end.

Supplementary diary: Du Jingzhou came to our class to look for me in the afternoon, and gave me my part of the meal money.

He took out all the money, and I could see that it was short of a pack of cigarettes.He bought cigarettes to break up the money.He didn't eat lunch either.I didn't want to ask about him, but I couldn't help asking if he hadn't eaten lunch.

He said: Yes.

I was a little happy, and asked him if he wanted to eat fried noodles after school, and he agreed.

I ate chow mein with him for the first time.

Sunny September 3

Du Jingzhou also smoked today.

I went to the stadium specifically to find him, just by chance.It actually hit him.I almost wanted to talk to him, to tell him, "Hey, I know everything".In this way, maybe we can become allies.

Ever since Mr. Chen adopted me, he has been nice to me, but only polite.I don't know if he hates me or not.But I know now that I don't want him to hate me.It would be even better if he liked me a little bit.

I want to be an ally with him.As an ally, he can not be a child and a good student in front of me, and I can also let him know that I am not as obedient and harmless as I seem, and I am also quite wonderful.

But when his friend came, I didn't go there.

His friend is weird, I don't know what to say, anyway, I don't think he is a good person.

cloudy on October 3

He was cut off by his friend today too, it's so annoying.

Sunny September 3

I almost suspected that I fell in love with Du Jingzhou, because I paid too much attention to him.

Of course, many people are paying attention to him.But I didn't pay attention to him before, maybe it was deliberate, or maybe it was instinctive resistance.But no matter what, I don't gather around and imagine him all day like Zhao Jiahui and the others.They are still speaking ill of me behind my back, because I am now Du Jingzhou's sister in name.I know everything.

Besides, I don't want to like Du Jingzhou.

Sunny September 3

Well, it's good to like Du Jingzhou.Anyway, so many people like him.

I've been secretly getting to know him the last few days.

Although I live in his house, I haven't seen him much since he moved to live alone near the school.At most, I can see him from a distance in school, and I don't know him better than others.

He has a lot of gossip, I didn't know it before.

September 3th light rain

I haven't written a diary for many days, and my mood is very chaotic these days, I don't know how to say it.

Recently I also went to the stadium to peek at him.I just discovered that he would sit there for a while during his lunch break almost every day, and he didn't smoke every time.I guess he was led to smoke by his friend.I'm not guessing out of thin air, it's because the pack of cigarettes ended up in that friend's pocket.

Du Jingzhou smoked a total of three times.

I just said that friend is not a good person.How could Du Jingzhou be friends with that kind of person.

October 3 heavy rain

I'm going to despise myself.Because I actually joined Zhao Jiahui and the others today, imagining Du Jingzhou together.

oh~~~

Sunny September 3

I heard bad things about Du Jingzhou.

And it's very, very, very ugly! !Hard to hear I want to rip their mouths out! ! !

But I was also very surprised, it turns out that he is not only a good student who is praised by all the teachers, a handsome guy who is secretly loved by female classmates, but also a lot of people hate him.

Supplementary diary: People who hate him must be jealous of him!

cloudy on October 3

I couldn't help but pursue the bad words I heard yesterday.

I went to the school's post bar for the first time and found a lot of posts about him.There's a lot of those bad things in there too.

These idiots, who are ugly, have poor grades, and are covered in sweat, just say that there is something wrong with Du Jingzhou's cleanliness and handsomeness. (Blotted out), it even becomes a crime for not falling in love!are you crazy!Brain flooded!

I can't remember the weather on March 3

I found many of the posts that said he was anonymous.

(obliterated), let me know who made the post, I will scold him to death.No, I also posted about him.To be more ugly!Even worse!Who can't make up stories, I'm much better than him!

I'm furious!

October 4 heavy rain

I haven't written a diary for many days because my mood is very complicated.For so many days, I have been comforting myself... If possible, I would rather not find out... It is best to erase everything from the discovery of him smoking last month.

So annoying.I thought I'd calmed down, but now I'm still pissed off.

Supplementary diary: It is now two o'clock in the middle of the night, and I feel much better.At least it's not as annoying as it was during the day, but it's really hard.But it's been so many days, and I have sorted out my mentality many times.

Time to write it down.

I may have discovered another big secret of Du Jingzhou.Unlike the gossip about him, I believe my observations are correct.Those who are jealous of him say that he doesn't like girls (black out), and that he looks like a girl himself.When I watched it a while ago, I was very angry, but now I think it is ridiculous.

There is also a bit sour.

But anyway, I don't have to pay attention to these disgusting words.

I thought about it these few days, even if he really doesn't like girls, it's no big deal.He doesn't like girls, I should be happier.In this way, it is impossible for people like Zhao Jiahui and the others to catch up with him.

What makes me sad and angry now is that he actually likes his friend.

Why is he so stupid? That person is obviously not a good person!

He is such a smart person, why didn't he see that this friend had ulterior motives?I just peeked at them a few times to see... Should I talk to him?Would he be willing to have his secret discovered by me?

Perhaps, I can find a roundabout way to remind him.

cloudy on October 4

Today there are only Du Jingzhou and I at home. He is in the room and I am in the living room.

The monthly exam is coming up next week, and I can't concentrate on studying.

In the past few days, I feel that I am going crazy. I always pay attention to their class and him during morning exercises.He didn't pay attention to me at all, because he only paid attention to his friend.

I saw it yesterday morning, his friend hooked his shoulders with his front feet, and spoke ill of him behind his back.I'm furious!But the angrier I got, the more I didn't know how to tell that idiot Du Jingzhou.

Tell him, he will be sad, right?

I don't know how to face his sadness.At least, wait until the monthly exam is over.

Sunny September 4

I bought milk tea for Du Jingzhou, but he gave it to his friend.

I (smudged out)!

Supplementary diary: Is he an idiot?Stupid, just let him be sad to death in the future!

Sunny September 4

Yesterday was angry talk.Hurry up and take the exam, and I'll tell him when it's over.

I still need to find evidence that short-term pain is worse than long-term pain.

Sunny September 4

It's too bold for Du Jingzhou to actually smoke at home.

I found it in the bathroom. He didn't even dispose of the cigarette butts, and threw them directly in the trash can by the sink.Mr. Chen has to clean up that trash can every day.Fortunately, when I saw it, I wrapped it in a napkin and hid it.

Supplementary diary: He didn't mean to let Mr. Chen find out, did he?

This question came to my mind when I was in class in the afternoon.Du Jingzhou is usually very obedient to Teacher Chen, but how can a child really obey an adult from the heart.Even if I am not from their family, sometimes I can't wait to contradict Mr. Chen.

That kind of mood is very strange, I just hope that the worst side of myself will be seen by adults.

Maybe it's the so-called rebellion.

I also really want to know how they will react if they know about my bad intentions.

Du Jingzhou, it's the same, right?

Sunny September 4

Du Jingzhou is going to participate in the competition after the exam, I don't know if I should tell him.

If it affects his preparation mood, am I not guilty?

Forget it, just wait.

Anyway, they don't seem to be that close recently. I haven't seen that friend go to the stadium for several days. Yesterday, the day before yesterday, and the day before yesterday, he stayed there alone in a daze.I almost, really almost, passed.

But in fact, this distance is quite good, I don't think there is any need to get any closer.

cloudy on October 4

I heard Du Jingzhou's friend speak ill of him behind his back.

It's the same as the post on the post.Dirty words.I just want to pour water on him and greet all his ancestors. (Obliterate) Yes, when Du Jingzhou finishes the competition, I will tell him everything!

Rain on January 4

Today is Saturday, Du Jingzhou didn't go home, but he usually does.

I kind of want to go to school and find him.

Supplementary diary: Fortunately, I went to find him.Not to school, but to the small house he rented.

He drank, and he didn't answer the door I knocked on for a long time.Later, I was in a hurry, and he finally came to open the door, reeking of alcohol.I went in and saw there were beer bottles and soju bottles.Not only did he drink, but he drank indiscriminately.

I helped him clean up the trash, and he fell asleep on the table.

In the middle, Teacher Chen called me and asked if I had seen him. I didn't know what to think, and lied to Teacher Chen.I said I saw it, and I was studying in the classroom.And said I asked him a question.

Actually shit, I waited until he woke up.

After waking up, he was much more sober.I poured him water and wanted to ask him what was wrong.But he didn't seem to want to say anything to me, asked me if I was hungry, and then took me to eat fried noodles.He invited me.

He pleases me!

I guess they don't want me to complain.This is a small feature I just discovered. He doesn't tell people what he wants, but benefits others.Well, since I lied, of course I will help him to the end.

Later he really went to the classroom, and I also went to the classroom.I really want to ask him if the drinking has something to do with his friends.It's a pity that he hesitated for too long, he hesitated until the next opportunity passed, and he went to their building.

Forget it, I'll always have a chance to ask.

I now feel that as long as it makes him happy, I am willing to do anything.

I'm crazy.