[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

Squeak, squeak, squeak.

If you sit on a swing, you can see the swaying sky.

Children are simply having fun, and laughing together doesn't make them partners.

Happiness, in fact, is just a narrow emotion. A bunch of individuals with narrow emotions pile up the illusion of happiness.

"It's time, mom told me to go home!"

"Yes, Mom is waiting. Let's play next time!" The children around the sand pile were like wind-up dolls. When the clockwork stopped, all the joy disappeared without a trace.

The "dolls" were still rushing to the gate of the park with unsatisfactory laughter.

The child stood alone in front of the "castle" and lowered his head lonely.

Shinji stood stiffly behind the child.

"It's fine if it's broken." The castle instantly disappeared and turned back into a mess.

Under the silent sunset, he was repeating the curse he had made when he was a child.

No one will notice whether he is happy or not, even himself, he doesn't know the answer.

Are you having fun?

do you have a mother

Why don't you go home?

It's going to be dark.

"do not know."

My dear, Shinji will leave it to you.

Shinji...

Shinji...

Shinji...

Shinji...

Stop calling him.

This is the tomb of EVA. The so-called gods are only man-made. However, this is the last weapon of human beings.Don't humans always refer to miraculous hopes as gods?

EVA's cockpit is the seat of the soul.

Your mother had an accident while experimenting with Unit [-].

I hope to give this child the hope of seeing humanity.

"What kind of hope is this... Unit [-], Unit [-], what the hell is it!" Shinji covered his ears and yelled in a broken voice.

The child was sobbing softly in front of the sand, and he seemed to have forgotten how to cry.

"EVA or something, apostle or something, NERV or something, sure enough, it's so strange." He closed his eyes suddenly, ignoring the pain in his hair roots with his hands, and put his small head into the narrow space of his arms. Feel safe and warm?

The swing continued to sway erratically, and the little weeping continued.

"Survive?" The girl's question was as emotionless as if she was reading directly from a book.

His hesitant eyes slowly moved to the swing. Ayanami in a blue school uniform was sitting on the swing, with her feet touching the ground, shaking the swing back and forth.

The girl was watching him: "Live, why?"

"How does it feel to live?" She continued to ask.

Shinji was in a daze, mechanically scratching his hair and shaking his head: "I don't know. I don't know! I just want to, I just want to..." Just live.

But will he still find someone who needs him?

Can you still find to fill the fragile fragments in your heart?

Even if it doesn't matter whether you need it or not, it's still scary to be alone, scary!

If he was alone from the beginning to the end, maybe he could still support it, but now, no one is there, and he can disappear at any time like chalk writing.

Ayanami, Asuka, Miss Misato, everyone is like this, they will leave inadvertently.

"I'm here, Shinji-kun."

The familiar voice made Shinji gasp.

There was the sound of tripping again, the park, the children, the pyramid, and the setting sun disappeared.

Instead, the ultimate dogma.

Terminal Dogma

The spear of Longinus was still stabbed obliquely in the chest of Lilith, a white giant who was nailed to the blood-red cross with tentacles and a mask on her face. The liquid soaked through her calves was bottomless, and LCL lost its previous orange-yellow color. , a dark pool.

The white-haired boy stood in front of the white giant, his bright and confident smile was too dazzling.

"Shinji-kun." The boy called out again.

Shinji stretched out his hands in disbelief, walking towards Nagisa Kaoru step by step with difficulty.

"Kun, Kaoru..." His eyes greedily caught the young man's smile, and the moment his palm touched Nagisa Kaoru's cheeks, his heart seemed to burst open and merge with his flesh and blood.

The inability to think, the inability to convey one's emotions to the other, is neither ecstasy nor sadness.

"Kunu..." Shinji recited the name over and over again as if he wanted to engrave the name in his heart, this was instinctive.

The boy smiled at him and cast a loving look at him.

Holding Nagisa Kaoru's soft cheeks, he wanted to close his eyes and cover the other's light-colored lips with his lips.

Temperature, no temperature.

"It's here, why did I forget?" Slowly retreating, Shinji looked at Kaoru Nagisa who was still smiling and laughed at himself tremblingly.

"Xun, you're already dead!" The piercing cry had no echo in the dark final dogma.

Dead, シ, the last の dead.

Kaoru Nagisa's body turned into an LCL from the neck, and fell like raindrops on the mirror-like calm LCL lake, creating waves of water.

Pa la pa la, pa la pa la.

The white-haired boy with only his head intact still smiled at Shinji.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...' holding Kaoru's head in his arms, Shinji knelt down on the LCL, crying out in despair.

"Let's come together!" The voices of the boy and the girl sounded in my ears at the same time.

Shinji sobbed and looked up.

Ayanami and Nagisa Kaoru stood under Lilith's cross, smiling at him, and stretched out a hand representing redemption to him.

"Don't..." Holding the wreck in his arms tightly, Shinji trembled all over, shaking his head and whispering.

The mask of the white giant fell off with a bang, the spear of Longinus left the giant's chest automatically, and the huge hands avoided the puncture of the red spikes like sticky liquid, and the giant's upper body crashed down.

From the drooping head, white hairs of the same skin color continued to protrude, short hair like Ayanami.

"don't want……"

The giant immediately raised his head, and wrapped his hands around Shinji's side, his bloody mouth cracked into a smile.

"Ayanami?" He couldn't be sure that the giant in front of him was Ayanami.

Ayanami and Nagisa Kaoru were still standing between the giants, smiling, and stretched out their hands.

Countless half-body Ayanami exploded from the giant's left eyeball, and Ayanami who couldn't get rid of the giant rushed to stretch out their hands to Shinji, the sound of laughter and countless smiles flocked to him, as if he was going to be sucked into it .

"come together!"

Three voices were overlapping, and he couldn't escape.