[Xunsi]May Be a Dream

"Asuka?!" Shinji slowly straightened up.

The sapphire blue pupils turned slowly, meeting those eyes that burst out with surprise.

The girl on the bed bumped and sat up from the bed like a robot that was almost scrapped, and with difficulty directed her disobedient fingers to fasten the buttons. She seemed so exhausted that she would fall down in the next second and never wake up.

"Stop yelling in my ears." Suppressing the labor pains, trying to open her throat, Asuka looked at Shinji with gloomy eyes and cursed.

Shinji paused, lowered his head, and said cautiously, "I'm sorry..."

"That's it again! I don't care about you, so I don't worry about it." Asuka looked at Shinji disdainfully, and said with disdain: "I was quite bold before, and I could do any disgusting things. I usually pretended to be an autistic child. , I really have you." The faint anger in the eyes wanted to burn this cowardly person in front of him to ashes piece by piece.

"Yeah, we just don't care about each other, it doesn't matter if we die, no one cares anyway! Right?!" His whole body was trembling, and the indescribable emotion in his heart led him to shout.

"That's just you!"

With a sharp gasp, Shinji was speechless, the anger filling his chest was suppressed abruptly, and his voice became much softer: "I just want to live like this, live like this, that's all."

"Get out..." Asuka gave Shinji a deep gouging look, her face twisted, and said, "As expected, you are very different from me! Get out."

"When we met for the first time, you drove the No. [-] machine and quickly wiped out the apostles. I was thinking how powerful this person is, but I was always ridiculed and hated by you. I couldn't refute it because I really Nothing can compare to you. But I really hate you. Later, I learned about you from Ms. Misato, and watched you lose in actual combat bit by bit, bit by bit. I was also in great pain until I was completely injured. It turned out that the Asuka who was once considered very powerful, the Asuka who liked EVA very much, the very strong Asuka, and the Asuka who often attracted other people's attention would be easily broken. She did not As strong as I imagined, she is also very similar to me, and everyone is very similar. She is going around in circles from beginning to end, and she is trapped in a whirlpool, and she can't get out. It makes me like it and hate it The slightly scared Asuka is no longer by my side." The boy said calmly.

In the numb and pale ward, only the images and numbers on the instruments were beating, as if they would all melt here.

"It's like being dead."

Asuka saw Shinji's lips move.

She parted her lips tremblingly, and sneered: "Is it called living like you? Who wants you to like it, who wants you to hate it!" Shinji's collar yelled "Look at me, look at me".

Something gathered in the eye socket like a tide.

"I know we're not going to 'really like' each other, so...so...it doesn't matter. That day, I just wanted Asuka to look at me and at least talk to me like I do now."

"You're a real idiot."

"It doesn't matter if it's disgusting, it doesn't matter if you hate it, it doesn't matter if you use it, whatever it is, it's enough to see Ayanami and you alive." Kaoru handed it to him and taught him the proof of Kaoru's existence, even if that person is no longer alive. It doesn't exist, but it has been engraved in his heart.

"Let's get out!" Pointing at the door with dripping fingers, Asuka lowered her head and refused to look at Shinji.

"I'm very cunning, I don't understand anything, but I do everything. I'm sorry, Asuka, I'm sorry, I did that kind of thing."

"Go!" Asuka yelled desperately, teardrops dripping on the bandages that bound her arms and quickly smudged: "I know, I know! Can you walk, bastard! Why worry, Ben Miss is very good, don't worry about it! Don't be hypocritical." She almost wanted to pull out all the needles and cables, push the boy out by herself, and even kicked forward with her bare legs.

Step by step, he slowly backed out of the bright ward, and Shinji stared at Asuka intently, until he closed the door, and his gaze never moved away. Back in the dark corridor, his eyes could only absorb the light through a small piece of glass on the door. The light in the ward.

He lowered his eyes, pressed his forehead against the door, and whispered: "Asuka, live, you have to live." To live, this concept became blurred again after Kaoru disappeared, and he just followed his only instinct.

Like the fights and fights in school before, it doesn't matter even if there are bumps and bumps, and it doesn't matter if Asuka really gets better.

Crack, the power tripped, and the only light disappeared.

On the forehead, the cold touch of the glass disappeared, and he stretched his hand forward but found nothing.

There was another "pop", and he immediately closed his eyes.

Hee hee ha ha ha ha ha ha ha, hee hee...

Children's laughter.

Trembling unconsciously, he put down the hand that covered his eyes, and found that his jaw was also trembling, and he widened his eyes wide, carving the scene in front of him into his soul.

The quadrangular pyramid buildings cover the orange rays of the setting sun, and the exaggerated red warning lights are on inexplicably. In the small park, children are busy building their "castles" around the sand pool.

On the swing rack, the three empty swings swayed and swayed in different rhythms.

Squeak, squeak, squeak.

The swings were swaying, accompanied by the joyous shrill laughter of children.