tempting

The four eyes met, Su Tang showed a decent smile, and was the first to say hello: "Long time no see, I didn't expect to see you here."

Cheng Zhiya hid the fluctuations in his heart very well, just nodded, and followed up with a "Long time no see", and asked after a while: "When did you come back? Wasn't it in Africa before?"

Su Tang showed a slightly surprised look: "You know? Have you looked for me?"

Only then did Cheng Zhiya realize that he had talked too much, and turned his head away: "I heard it by accident."

"Oh, that's it, I came back half a month ago." Su Tang didn't ask any more questions, looked at the landscape painting in a blink of an eye, and said quietly, "Today I came to the art exhibition with a friend. I met a new painter friend in England. Introduce your own junior to me, and say you want to match us up."

Cheng Zhiya's expression was not disturbed, but from Su Tang, he could see that his jaw was tense, and he gritted his teeth before replying: "Oh, is that so?"

"Do you think I'm lying to you again? Don't worry, it's true this time. I won't repeat the same trick on the same person. I really want to have a good time with him, although the other party seems to be a bit forgetful about the old relationship," Su Tang smiled softly, and looked at Cheng Zhiya who had come over, "And today is not a coincidence, I came here on purpose. You like to come to see your works at the end of the first day of the exhibition. I still remember."

Cheng Zhiya didn't expect Su Tang to be so frank and straightforward, and was a little at a loss for a while: "Then, you, why did you come?"

"I have something to tell you. If I don't say it now, I think it will be difficult to have a chance in the future." Su Tang lowered his head and collected his thoughts for a while before continuing, "I think you are right, seeing the truth in a relationship It is very important to be honest with each other, what maintains love is not concealment, blindly doing what you like, and moral kidnapping, the love I gave you is after all a mirage built on lies, and it will fall apart if it can't stand the wind."

Su Tang's tone was slow, and he looked down at his empty hands, "For love, I once lost and suppressed myself, and forgot my original intention. When I first loved you, I just wanted you to look at me more , stay with me for a quarter of an hour, and then I had a hug and a kiss, and I hoped to live my whole life, but the result was that the more greedy I was, the more unsatisfied I was, and the more I got, the more restless I was."

"So," Su Tang raised his eyes and smiled comfortably at Cheng Zhiya, "I want to thank you for loving me and waking me up. Those few months were really a good dream."

There was a buzzing in Cheng Zhiya's ears, he stood there in a daze, not knowing how to respond.

He should smile the most and shake hands with Su Tang in a friendly way, saying goodbye is also a friend, and his heart is as calm as water.

But when the two were about to bid farewell on the street, when Su Tang shook his hand and said similar words, he did not receive the relief and relief he expected.

"I saw your new art exhibition abroad. It's very interesting. I look forward to your next art exhibition."

"Ah."

"This time I will stay in the city for a while, and come out to chat when I have time."

"Ok."

Su Tang nodded to him with a smile, turned and left, leaving Cheng Zhiya who was insincere in his place.

Cheng Zhiya silently looked at Su Tang's back, feeling a dull pain in his chest.He didn't know what it was like when Su Tang left his house alone more than a year ago, how Su Tang felt, whether he shed tears, and whether he looked back frequently, because that day he deliberately locked himself in the studio and drew the curtains to isolate the outside world.

But now, he finally made up for the feeling he couldn't bear to experience when they broke up more than a year ago.

*

On the eve of the opening of the art exhibition, Cheng Zhiya was anxious.

He chose to exhibit that landscape painting on a whim. He couldn't say why, and he was afraid that Su Tang would see it and he might not see it.

When he really met Su Tang, the other party didn't ask him this question, and he took the initiative to confess his mental journey for the past year, and moved forward after everything was over.

But Cheng Zhiya couldn't move forward, instead he was in a daze. Why did Su Tang make a mistake on him, but now he wants him to watch Su Tang correct this mistake in another relationship?

With all these messy things in Cheng Zhiya's mind, he glanced at the passing vehicles while waiting for the traffic lights, thinking, it's not the first time he knows that feelings are annoying things, just like broken arrows left in his body , After losing, it is always belated and continues to bring pain, and we can only wait for the moment when we suddenly don't love in the passing away and tossing and turning.

But, can you really wait for the moment when you suddenly don't love Su Tang?

He was thinking wildly, and unknowingly drove to the gate of the community where Su Tang used to live.

This morning he visited his master Yang Qingce. The sweet-scented osmanthus wine brewed by the old man is very fragrant, but because he has no drinking friends to share with him, he thought of Su Tang, who had talked about wine culture with him, and packed a porcelain jar for Cheng Zhiya took it to Su Tang on the way.

Cheng Zhiya's first reaction was to evade: "No, he's busy."

Yang Qingce probably knew that Cheng Zhiya and Su Tang got together and separated, but didn't know the details: "You don't want to go, do you?"

Cheng Zhiya stirred the sunspots in the chess box, and said absently: "It's always bad to disturb others."

Yang Qingce glanced at him meaningfully: "I don't think so. Maybe they will wait for you to disturb. Over the past year, Su Tang has called from time to time to say hello and asked about your recent situation."

Cheng Zhiya sat aside and didn't speak, he just raised his hand and rubbed his forehead, and finally accepted the old man's "express delivery".

Holding a jug of wine, he pressed the elevator button, and his heartbeat increased as the number displayed increased.

Before he came, he called and sent text messages without waiting for a reply, but now he rang the doorbell for a while and no one answered the door.

Probably it was a waste of time to come here, and I wondered if I was too anxious, so I went straight here after having lunch at the old man's house.

Cheng Zhiya turned around and walked a few steps when the door suddenly opened.

Su Tang was obviously taken aback when he saw him, and his voice was hoarse: "Mr. Yang mentioned to me that he would bring me wine, but I didn't expect it to be you, and it arrived so soon."

Cheng Zhiya didn't answer, what he was concerned about was the unusual flush on Su Tang's face, and the fact that he was wrapped in a quilt in this summer.

Su Tang noticed that he was putting on an intimidating and fierce look again, and smiled contemptuously, his tone as lively as possible: "I'm a little tired recently, take a break."

Cheng Zhiya obviously didn't believe Su Tang's nonsense, he stepped forward to touch Su Tang's forehead in two steps, it was very hot.

"have you seen a doctor?"

"Small things, you don't need to look at them."

"Have you taken your temperature?"

"It's 40.2°C. I just took antipyretics."

"Is a high fever a trivial matter?"

"I tried pneumonia before and burned it for almost four days. It's fine."

Cheng Zhiya was speechless, with a sullen face, he bypassed Su Tang and went directly into the house to put down the jar of wine, found the medical records in the TV cabinet, took the key of the shoe cabinet by the way, pulled Su Tang's wrist and walked away, all the way It's all low pressure.

He was probably angry, Su Tang didn't say a word, just followed in the car honestly and dutifully, and went to the hospital to see a doctor.

Cheng Zhiya's face turned darker when he heard that Su Tang had a high fever for almost three days.

The two sat side by side in the infusion room, silent.During this period, Su Tang couldn't bear it any longer. He fell asleep and woke up again. Then he called an interviewee and made an appointment for the day after tomorrow.

Cheng Zhiya handed a cup of warm water to his mouth, and glanced at him coldly: "Every day is full of opportunities."

Seeing his angry appearance, Su Tang wanted to laugh, but felt that the moment was inappropriate, so he obediently took the water and drank it to the bottom.

After finishing drinking, he glanced at Cheng Zhiya again, pinched the paper cup, and whispered, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

Cheng Zhiya turned his head to look at him. From his perspective, he could see Su Tang's twisted hair and a tall and beautiful nose. His heart trembled, and his eyes seemed to be burned, and he immediately looked away.

After a long time, he replied, "When my dad got sick, he also had a high fever and then it disappeared. I think you know it."

These words came out of nowhere, but Su Tang heard a hint of showing weakness and alleviating the embarrassing atmosphere. Cheng Zhiya was explaining his out-of-bounds behavior quite tactfully.

He said in a low voice, "I won't disappear suddenly."

Cheng Zhiya leaned on the back of the chair, looked up at the ceiling, and sighed: "Anyone may disappear suddenly. For every person who goes out in the morning, who can guarantee that he will arrive home safely at night."

He is particularly concerned about life and death. The sudden illness and death of his father had a great impact on him, and it also made him understand that if people really say they are gone, they will be gone, and the only way to cherish the present is.So when he heard that Su Tang also had a high fever, he didn't care about maintaining a sense of propriety and distance, and dragged him to the hospital to calm down after confirming that the condition was not serious, even though Su Tang had used his soft-heartedness to control him .

Su Tang put his hand on Cheng Zhiya's, patted it, and then quickly moved it away. It seemed that it was just a comfort from an ordinary friend.

Cheng Zhiya looked at him and found that the drip was gone, so he went to ask the nurse to pull out the needle.

The two did not continue the heavy topic, Cheng Zhiya sent him back to the apartment and went to the kitchen to make porridge for him.

He opened the refrigerator and found a pile of instant food. He found it just now when he entered the house, and the apartment returned to the chaotic state when he first met Su Tang. The cleanest bed in the room, Su Tang's favorite bookshelf, and the least-visited kitchen.

Without him, Su Tang is living this kind of life...

Cheng Zhiya's brows haven't loosened since he entered the room.

Su Tang is very good at observing words and expressions, and when he saw him like this, he explained in a joking tone: "This is how I write manuscripts, and I don't like to be tidy on weekdays, so it's not because of you that I am willing to degenerate, or deliberately acting to make you soft-hearted. Don't look at this mess, if you want to find something, I can find it very quickly..."

"I know!"

Cheng Zhiya interrupted him with a raised voice, and he didn't know where he got angry.

He hates Su Tang's eagerness to explain, and even more hates him who subconsciously softens his heart, mother-in-law, it's too embarrassing.

"Well, that's good," Su Tang stuck out his tongue, lowered his head and blew on the dried scallop porridge Cheng Zhiya cooked for him, and said vaguely, "I'm afraid you misunderstood..."

Cheng Zhiya was packing the medicine according to the number of times, his hands trembled when he heard this, and he pressed it with the other hand.

After a while of silence, he pretended to be nonchalant and mentioned: "That object of your affection...he should come to see you."

Su Tanghun continued to drink the porridge nonchalantly, with a vague mouth: "Ah, he got back with his ex and is doing well."

Cheng Zhiya didn't meet his eyes, "Then you..."

"Forget it, it's not that I can't find it." Su Tang smiled, and then put forward his theory again, "It's like a few red beans in a basket of mung beans. When you sieve them, you can always touch another one." Red beans. It’s better to follow the fate, feelings can’t be forced, can’t you?”

Cheng Zhiya didn't answer his words, the more enlightened Su Tang was, the emptier he felt like after a storm had passed.But he restrained himself very well on the surface, and distributed the medicine with a sullen face. In the end, he watched Su Tang take the medicine after drinking the porridge and his body temperature dropped below 38°C before leaving.

Su Tang insisted on sending him downstairs, and Cheng Zhiya saw him wrapped into a rice dumpling from the rear mirror of the car, with only a pair of eyes exposed all over his body, his eyes were glued to Cheng Zhiya's side and never moved away.Obviously a bit ridiculously bloated, but unexpectedly lonely and desolate.

In the past, in order to win his affection, Su Tang pretended to be drunk and weak, but now something happened, but he tried his best to say that he was fine, and said "thank you" and "it's troublesome" to him throughout the whole process, for fear that he owed him something or Let him misunderstand what.

Another example, when they broke up, they simply left, and when they met again, they behaved very decently and indifferently, but asked him about his recent situation behind his back.

Cheng Zhiya is not an elm-headed man, he understands the reason, although it took him some time to understand it and is willing to believe it.

In the past, he wanted Su Tang, and Su Tang took the opportunity to catch him desperately.

Now that he wants to leave Su Tang, Su Tang deliberately keeps a distance.

What Su Tang does depends on Cheng Zhiya's wishes.

And no matter what he did, why he did it, never changed.