tempting

Cheng Zhiya felt that he must have been in a deep dream and went crazy, so he wanted to go to the bar to ask Eden about Su Tang.

As Shen Ling said, Eden has a tight mouth, but he is unwilling to say anything when he knows what he knows, and he doesn't look good towards him.

Cheng Zhiya waited there until closing time before agreeing to move. For three consecutive days, Eden had no choice but to let go: "What can he do if he knows where to go."

He didn't answer the question, but asked again where Su Tang was going.

The implication is that I only care about this, if you don't answer today, I will continue to come tomorrow.

"He went to Africa, and he is the special writer named Tang Su in the magazine," Eden said angrily after a long while, "He told me not to tell anyone, especially Shen Ling, but I didn't emphasize you. Maybe I think you won't find him. "

Cheng Zhiya remembered Su Tang borrowing the line from "Suzhou River" to ask that plausible question, his expression changed slightly.

He answered "yes" to that question, but Su Tang laughed and said he was lying.

He said: "Many people will choose to wait for the next love instead of continuing this love story, because the cost of waiting, finding and repairing is too high, it is better to find a new one and reshape it."

Now it seems that Su Tang really did what he said, not only leaving this room, leaving him, even leaving the continent where he is.

It was decisive enough for Su Tang to give up a relationship that he claimed had been a painstaking effort so easily.

Thinking of this, Cheng Zhiya suddenly smiled, and murmured, "He's probably looking for another love too."

Eden sneered, looked at him with almost pity eyes, and asked, "Do you love him or not?"

Cheng Zhiya didn't say a word, it doesn't matter if he loves her or not.

"Then you don't understand. He has grown up so much, so he only talked about you and Shen Ling. There was an interval of five or six years. Do you know why?" Eden didn't want him to be able to answer, and said without hesitation, "Because you are all too f*ckingly sad and kidney-damaging, and he is the kind of person who is very serious and hard-working about feelings. Once he finds out, he will be desperate and infatuated. It will take several years to recover after talking about it."

As he spoke, he remembered some past events, and continued after a while of silence, "When he first came to work in the bar, he actually didn't like this kind of feasting and feasting atmosphere, and his personality was not as awkward as it is now, much more cute and straightforward. People are very resistant to touch and strike up a conversation, but they still insist on it. I asked him why, and he said that he especially wanted to know if it would make him happier, because his ex was having sex all day long, enjoying his exclusive love on the other hand Looking for excitement in others again, he can do what his ex can do. This kind of self-destructive revenge is quite naive, isn't it?"

Regardless of whether Cheng Zhiya would answer or not, Eden continued: "Later, when he really became a master of love like his predecessor, you suddenly appeared and immediately turned him back to the young man who came to the bar in the first place. His ability has come short. I think, you must be his magic mirror, and there is always a way to make him show his real body."

"He's still like a silly boy who just started talking to me all day," Eden imitated Su Tang's usual smiling expression and looked at Cheng Zhiya. "It turns out that when you like someone, sometimes a moment is enough. I'm always in love with you." Waiting for that moment, waiting for you to appear."

Cheng Zhiya's heart was hit in an instant, and he seemed to be able to see Su Tang's expression when he said this. He must have raised his head slightly, with a smile on his mouth and soft eyes.

He once asked Su Tang why he liked him.How did Su Tang answer at the time? He said: "The first time I saw you at the bar, I just wanted to sleep with you, but later when we couldn't stop laughing at each other about hiccups at the convenience store, I I suddenly changed my mind, I kind of want to have a relationship with you. Well, I don’t really want to, but really want to.”

Su Tang stretched out his arms lazily, and Cheng Zhiya threw himself into his arms, and heard his voice echoing in his chest: "I thought it was dopamine, and the feeling would disappear soon, but after that Constantly getting close to you, there are countless moments to help me review the initial feeling, which makes me like you more and more, and I don’t want to leave you more and more.”

"No, not just like, I love you."

Su Tang quickly corrected his statement.

Cheng Zhiya's heart was pounding, he was ashamed to say it at the time, Su Tang also had countless moments that he couldn't put it down more and more.

Like this moment, and every moment in the future when I think of this moment.

"It's better to separate the two broads. You don't come to inquire about Su Tang's news in the future."

Eden's words brought Cheng Zhiya back from his fluttering thoughts.

Cheng Zhiya's expression was tense, he tried his best to suppress the churning emotions in his heart, and said hoarsely, "But he lied to me, we shouldn't be like this."

"Yeah, not only him, but I was also an accomplice, not only didn't stop him, but also helped," Eden rarely refuted him, with a sad expression on his face. I thought, you were the most innocent one who was kept secret from the beginning to the end. You had to force it, but in the end no one got happiness."

*

After returning from the bar, Cheng Zhiya was in a daze for a while.

Su Tang may have automatically cleared it long ago, but he has not deleted it with one click.

Nostalgia always comes, and after a long time, Cheng Zhiya has nothing to do.

After all, he was not as free and firm as he imagined, and he underestimated the weight of Su Tang and this relationship in his heart.

If you can't stop it, you can only learn to be alone with this kind of longing that comes and goes without a trace. You can set as many servings of tableware as you like, and eat two meals if you cook too much. Su Tang stayed well, and even hugged him if he wanted to, anyway, he would wake up sooner or later.

Anyway, sooner or later, I will no longer miss him, no longer love him.

After the pain caused by the lies faded away, there were some moments when Su Tang suddenly drilled into the mind of the process, and those beautiful past moments made him suddenly feel that their love was not just a mirage, passing by in the wind , still left a real heartbeat.

Su Tang has indeed been with him for many years. Occasionally, when he is shy, he bows his head and smiles and his eyes are always focused. Those sweets may not be all fake, because no one is willing to accompany another person to play such a scene for free. Playing thankless love scenes, hurting a face and hurting the body.

If not driven by love.

It's just that this kind of love is distorted and daunting.

The one who gives distorted love must first distort himself.

When Su Tang was playing tricks and scheming, would he also feel uneasy, painful and entangled?

Thinking of this, he even began to justify Su Tang's fault and selfishness.

*

After staying in Africa for more than a year, and another year of midsummer, Su Tang went to Europe to visit friends studying abroad before returning to China, and through introductions, he met several Chinese artists who were active in the local area.One of them, a young painter named Zhao Shuying, had a very happy chat with him, and soon developed from an interview relationship to a very good personal friendship. Tang only took it as a joke.

After returning to China for a while, he was suddenly called to drink coffee by Zhao Shuying. As soon as he entered the door, he noticed a fair-skinned and well-behaved boy who looked like a high school student sitting beside her. The boy looked at him timidly and said nothing.

Zhao Shuying took the initiative to introduce that this is her younger brother Xu Yunan.

Su Tang immediately understood that it was not just talking, but he really wanted to introduce someone to him.

Under Zhao Shuying's efforts to match them up, they met several times one after another, nothing more than watching movies, listening to concerts and chatting. Except for intimate contact, they almost did almost everything a couple should do. The relationship has always been close Neither salty nor bland, the reason is not that he is not hardworking enough, but that the other party is determined not to join the show.

When dating, Xu Yun'an is always casual and deliberately uses politeness to create a sense of distance. Occasionally, when he looks at him, he suddenly becomes dazed, as if looking through him and thinking about someone else.

Sure enough, some news came out of Zhao Shuying's mouth, it seems that he has been entangled with his ex recently, and his ex seems to be a music maker.

Su Tang laughed, it turned out that he really had the face of his predecessor.

But he wasn't too angry, he didn't dislike the fact that he was traveling with Xu Yun'an, he just wanted to make one more interesting friend, and he didn't make too much pressure on the future direction of the relationship.The other party is indifferent and silent, and he is also innocent and good at painting, which is what he should look like most in his memory.

On the first day of the opening of the gallery's new art exhibition, Su Tang asked Xu Yun'an to go to see it. The exhibitions this time were all recent works of emerging artists.He lacked interest, walked all the way along the gallery, glanced at each painting before giving up, did not keep pace with Xu Yunan, and soon lost him.

Until a familiar ink painting stopped his footsteps and took away his heartbeat for a few seconds.

"Cheng Zhiya's gift to my love Su Tang on August [-]th" occupied his entire field of vision, and a few strokes made him see a pair of gentle black eyes.

That person is not very good at talking, but he always likes to stare at him for a long time. Many words that cannot be said are conveyed through his eyes. Every time he turns around, he can see his own shadow in his eyes.

Clear, true and timeless.

Just think about it, and my heart will still be pounding.

He tried his best to restrain the waves in his heart, so that Xu Yun'an didn't see the clue.After sending people home, he hurried back before the gallery closed, and when he reached the door, he went in smoothly.

At that time, the gallery was about to be cleared, and the audience was sporadic, but in front of the landscape painting, a tall figure stood quietly.

Sure enough, Cheng Zhiya likes to go to the art exhibition at the end of the first day when his works are exhibited. This habit has not changed for many years, and he always remembers it.

When approaching, Su Tang slowed down his pace and walked over step by step, the sound from the wooden floor was a little louder against the silence around him.

Seemingly noticing the sound of footsteps, Cheng Zhiya glanced at Su Tang and froze.

He felt that he must have hallucinations, otherwise how could he see Su Tang.

Just when he didn't know how many times he thought of Su Tang naturally, and a flower blossomed in his heart.

Darker, thinner, and much shorter hair.

Cheng Zhiya was a little out of his wits, and all he had in his mind was this little thought.

The author says:

Xu Yun'an, who went through the motions, and his ex who was engaged in music have their stories. For details, see the previous article "Aftershocks of the Tenth Level".The two articles have nothing to do with each other, but Xu Yunan and Su Tang can be regarded as assisting each other.