tempting

The heavy rain came, and the traffic in the city center was blocked. It took Cheng Zhiya almost twice as long to get to Su Tang's house. When he arrived, he found that the key was still inserted in the keyhole. In recent days, Su Tang was ill and confused, and he did this kind of foolishness a lot. thing.

Cheng Zhiya opened the door suspiciously and walked in. The umbrella leaned against the shoe cabinet and dripped vigorously, and the lights in the room were not turned on.

The faint voice of the conversation was faint, Cheng Zhiya approached the source of the sound, and heard the singing through the door.

"Wow, grandma, your high pitch, sweet mid pitch, and low pitch are amazing. I want to turn around for you."

There were bursts of laughter, mixed with a boy's voice: "Cousin, I also play the guitar for Harmony, why don't you praise me?"

"All right, all good, okay, you are a great college student now."

"That's for sure, your alumni."

Grandma asked, "Tangtang, are you in good shape?"

"Well, much better."

"Have your parents been looking for you recently?"

"Yes, I have."

"You're talking nonsense with your eyes open. I mentioned you the day before yesterday, but you're still the same, and your son doesn't even recognize you."

"Hee hee, it's okay, as long as grandma recognizes me."

"Hey, your parents have children, and your father has grown old recently. They don't care about you when they have their own family. They don't even ask you. It's really cruel. It's been so many years..."

"Okay, okay, it's not a matter of a day or two, it's okay," Su Tang said with a smile in his voice, trying to comfort his grandma, "It's good if you love me, they have someone who is willing and obedient." It's pretty good, kid, isn't it?"

"Nonsense, you can't allow yourself to hide and be unhappy. You used to like this the most. Did Ya accompany you recently?"

"Yes, let's go on a date with him later."

Cheng Zhiya adjusted his mood, cleared his throat, opened the door and entered the room.Sensing the movement, Su Tang suddenly turned his head, wrapped in a white air conditioner and sat cross-legged on the bed, his eyes were wide open, with red eye sockets, like a frightened little rabbit.

He was on a video call with his grandmother, when Cheng Zhiya broke into the camera, his grandmother laughed: "Zhiya is here."

Cheng Zhiya smiled, sat down beside Su Tang, hugged his shoulders naturally, and called grandma.

Su Tang's expression was fixed on his face, and he could vaguely smell the rain on Cheng Zhiya's body through the quilt, which was moist and warm.

After chatting for a few words, grandma hung up on the grounds that it would not hinder their date.

As soon as the video chat was over, Su Tang immediately distanced himself from him, and hurriedly explained: "I'm sorry, I lied when I asked you to catch me again. I didn't tell my grandma that we broke up. In the past, we either broke up or played around. Not sure, my grandma always nagged and advised me to find a good boy, if we break up so soon this time, she must be worried again. Don't worry, I will tell her that we broke up peacefully after a while."

Cheng Zhiya was still struggling with what he had just overheard, the dry heat in his palms suddenly receded, and he felt a little at a loss. He took some time to sort out his emotions: "I brought dinner, and I'll warm it up for you."

Su Tang said hello and followed him to the living room.

These few days Cheng Zhiya insisted on delivering soup and porridge to his door, he didn't say the reason, and Su Tang didn't ask either.

When eating, Su Tang set the tableware, Cheng Zhiya scooped up the porridge and soup, and Su Tang said thank you before starting to drink.The way the two get along these days is basically like this. They don't talk much, and they have to thank you politely for handing something. They are more general and sensible than when they first met. It was also a spectacle.

After being entangled for several years, it was nothing more than congeniality, harmony, passion, mutual trust, hesitation, shrinking, tearing and worrying, and they hadn't survived until they saw each other and hated each other, and then fell in love with each other again to spend the rest of their lives against their natural weakness of liking novelty, a relationship suddenly came to an end But it stopped, and now it seems to be back to the original point.

Saying no regrets would be a lie.During the days of reunion, Cheng Zhiya's heart will still beat violently for the long-lost skin contact with Su Tang, and he can still see stars in his eyes.If you ask him now who he most wants to spend his life with, after a long time of deliberation, only Su Tang comes to mind.

But if they are really together again, can they be honest with each other?Even if they can be innocent, can they still love as before?

He didn't have the confidence to give an affirmative answer. When it comes to love, you can't answer all the questions with a "want" and a momentary heartbeat.

After the meal, the torrential rain was still raging, and some of the main roads in the urban area were heavily flooded, trapping Cheng Zhiya here.

Seeing that he was worried, Su Tang stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows for a long time, and asked, "Hurrying back?"

Cheng Zhiya withdrew his staring gaze: "I don't know if the protection of the vegetable field is enough, and Sugar didn't feed it."

As soon as he heard the vegetable field, Su Tang's eyes lit up but he avoided mentioning it, and asked again: "Sugar?"

"I adopted a golden retriever at my brother's house, and it's half a year old."

Su Tang groaned, and smiled lightly: "The name sounds nice. When I was a child, I raised a golden retriever at my grandmother's house, also named Sugar."

Cheng Zhiya said, "I know, you mentioned it."

Su Tang nodded, did not continue the topic, and turned to the room.He stretched himself, turned on the stereo to play Finale (tangoapasionado) in a loop, cast a glance at Cheng Zhiya, and stretched out his right hand: "Grandma said, dance and sing a song when it rains, and the rain will stop soon. Try it all." .”

Cheng Zhiya saw that the corners of his mouth were raised into a familiar arc, and he was talking and laughing like before, his heart moved, and he walked over with his limbs in disobedience, and put his arms around his waist.The physical sensations can’t lie, the touch of each other is still warm and close, time goes back, and the sweet moment of love is on the top.

The atmosphere was just right, but Su Tang suddenly said, "You eavesdropped again, didn't you?"

Cheng Zhiya was so confused by this question that he almost stepped on Su Tang's bare feet, and gave a guilty hum.

"Don't feel sorry for me. It's not a day or two since I've been like them." Su Tang held Cheng Zhiya's hand tightly and continued to guide his dance steps. I'm used to the feeling of disappointing expectations, and it's not surprising that I like a man and get rejected later.

It is said that what I could not get from my parents when I was a child will become an important proposition for that person to build a relationship in the future, so whether I am in love with Shen Ling or you, I probably want to find that feeling of being needed and accepted, even a little bit , I will try my best to keep it.

I can't tell you my selfishness, jealousy, awkwardness, restlessness, possessiveness, these are too heavy and ugly, and they will scare you.

But this is not a reason to lie and hurt you, I am telling you this now to let you know that what I have said and done to you are not all false..."

Cheng Zhiya opened his lips to speak, but Su Tang pinned him down with his fingers, and stopped him in an almost begging tone, "Listen to me first, okay, just this time."

"The relationship with Shen Ling almost destroyed my imagination of love. It took me a long time to meet you and get back the feeling of wanting to love someone," Su Tang tilted his head and leaned against Cheng Zhi On the shoulders of the shoulders, the voice was forbearing, "I don't know how long it will be, whether I can meet another person like you, so I just want to catch you, monopolize you, and even dominate you, and I desperately want to confirm that you are me. Yes. In the end, I love you beyond the bounds, hurt you, and make myself hateful."

He snorted, "It's fine if I run away, I finally don't have to worry about you leaving, and I don't have to ask myself repeatedly whether I have you or not."

Cheng Zhiya's chest was choked, and he grabbed Su Tang's arm, trying to see his expression at the moment.

"Don't move," Su Tang hurriedly grabbed his shoulder blades, refusing to let go, "Just hold him for a while longer."

The voice is getting weaker, as if saying to yourself, "I will let go after a while."

Feeling the temperature on his shoulders, Cheng Zhiya didn't speak any more, the tide of thoughts mixed with him didn't know how many times came, but he was tired and didn't bother to struggle anymore, he just closed his eyes and immersed himself in it, his brain was empty, just According to the feeling of the moment, he hugged Su Tang naturally.

It was raining heavily outside the window, and the bamboo lampshade in the room revealed a dim yellow light. The two hugged each other and continued to dance. During the cycle of Finale (tangoapasionado), countless fragments of their love and parting seemed to pass by. , A sense of illusion like a world away.

Suddenly, he couldn't remember why he and Su Tang separated, why they became like this.

The sound of rain outside the window gradually died down.

Su Tang was the first to let go of his hands, wiped his face, and resumed his usual tone: "The rain is about to stop, you should go."

Cheng Zhiya just opened his eyes and bumped into Su Tang's eyes as deep as the night, and was in a daze. The territory named "Su Tang" in his heart was now thousands of miles away from glaciers and magma was gushing out. The words were stuck in his throat, and he couldn't confide them until he left Sutang's small apartment.

The author says:

Finale (tangoapasionado) is taken from the movie "Happy Together".