i might like my brother

"Okay, we're here." Li Jinzhi stabilized his mind and hung up the call with Li Tunan.

Knelt down, supported Li Chibin and asked him, "Are you okay?"

Li Chibin nodded, his bangs were already soaked, and the dark blue scarf was stained with thin sweat and tears. Li Jinzhi took off his scarf and pulled him away.

After Li Chibin calmed down, he stopped crying, only sobbing intermittently.In the corridor, Li Tunan sat slumped on a bench outside the hospital, with Lu Sha's bag on his lap, counting Lu Sha's beauty cards.

For a moment, Li Chibin felt that his father was old.He just sat there quietly, thinking that Lu Sha was already on her way home to cook, or that she was too late to go to work, or that she was chatting with her friends in the beauty salon—he thought about everything, don't want anything.

Lu Sha is lying in the house now, and she hasn't gone anywhere.But no one had the courage to open that door.

"What did the doctor say?" Although Li Jinzhi couldn't bear to interrupt Li Tunan, he didn't want him to remain depressed like this.

"Your mother...tonight at most." Li Tunan choked up a bit: "Go and see her."

Li Tunan was still asking the doctor about the CT results at the door. In fact, it was useless to ask now. Unless a miracle happened, Lu Sha's brain would not be able to last tonight at most given the area of ​​the shadowed lump in Lu Sha's brain.

Li Tunan has been thinking about it, saying that Lu Sha always likes to go out and hang out, and her driving skills are poor, and she has to pick up and drop off by herself every day to and from get off work, and told her countless times not to drive on the road by herself...

The doctor nodded appropriately, knowing that the family members needed to vent at the moment, so he comforted the family members' emotions in a formal manner.

Li Chibin took a deep breath, filling his mouth with the smell of disinfectant.Sitting gently on the edge of the bed, it seemed that Lu Sha had just fallen asleep, and he was afraid of waking her up.

Li Chibin really felt the fragility of life after Lu Sha left that night. Li Chibin knew that there has never been any miracle. And natural.

Li Jinzhi had never cried in front of him, but Li Chibin could gently and clearly see Li Jinzhi's eyes were dry and red, and he seemed more serious than usual.Li Chibin was no longer in the mood to make fun of him.

At Lu Sha's funeral, Li Chibin was wearing a black suit and wanted to give Li Tunan a cigarette, but before the cigarette arrived, Li Jinzhi slapped him on the back of his hand.

"You go inside." Li Jinzhi arranged Li Chibin properly, and followed Li Tunan with a paralyzed face to deal with the guests outside.

Some people come to condolences, some sympathize, some regret, and some mourn.Li Chibin was sitting in the room, holding his head down on a dark brown cello. His hands could barely hold the bow, and his pitch slipped a series of times. He simply threw the bow out. The blackness poured down like a waterfall, and he was almost fainted. After touching his face, he found that the tears on his face had dried up.

This autumn, Lu Sha's death was not earth-shattering, and even passed away quietly, but it was like a moat piercing deep into the heart of the earth.The past and the present are two halves.

That night Li Tunan was exhausted, but he cheered up and asked his two sons to go out for a meal together.

"From now on, our little princess is gone, and only us stinky men are left," Li Tunan raised his glass:

"Here's to the fact that no one will tell me to drink red wine again."

"Cheers to the fact that no one makes me work so hard to carry her bags again."

"Here's to no one pulling my ear again."

Seeing that Li Chibin and Li Jinzhi have not moved for a long time, Li Tunan was not angry, and finished his speech:

"Cheers to my little princess."

After a long time, Li Chibin picked up the cup and drank it down, listening to Li Tunan talking nonsense to Li Jinzhi: "Your mother is most worried about you. Your mother said before leaving that you should study hard. Live up to your talent and love your body."

Then she muttered to Li Chibin: "Your mother told you to drink milk to grow your body, listen to the adults, don't always be a child, I hope you will be safe."

Li Chibin knew that Lu Sha didn't say anything.

--

The night was like water, flowing down so silently, Li Jinzhi carried the drunk and unconscious Li Tunan back to his room, and acquiesced in Li Chibin pulling him back to his room.

Li Chibin nestled in Li Jinzhi's shoulder, neither crying nor fussing, and kissed Li Jinzhi's neck repeatedly.

"elder brother."

Li Chibin called Li Jinzhi and kissed Li Jinzhi's chin, put his hands on the back of Li Jinzhi's neck and looked at him softly, accidentally bumping into Li Jinzhi's deep gaze.

Li Chibin kissed Li Jinzhi's eyelids, felt Li Jinzhi's eyelashes tremble slightly, and scratched his chin itchy: "Brother, let's do it."

Li Jinzhi pulled down Li Chibin's arm, bowed his head slightly, and could smell the strong aroma of wine and salty tears on Li Chibin's lips. Li Jinzhi looked directly at him, but did not see Li Chibin. There was the slightest desire in Chi Bin's eyes.

"Pain can't solve the problem." Li Jinzhi said bluntly, and helped Li Chibin take off his white sweater, revealing a clean and clean back, and then stuffed him under the quilt, and adjusted the air conditioner to a position where the warm air could blow to Li Chibin.

"Go to sleep, I'm here." Li Jinzhi turned his head and turned off the dim light by the bed, unbuttoned his shirt and hugged Li Chibin naked.

Li Chibin always believes that temperature is the best medicine.

--

"Are you awake?" Li Tunan, with a cigarette in his mouth, cut a tomato in a strange way, the juice flowed sideways, and the flesh splattered. It was like a scene of dismemberment.Seeing Li Jinzhi coming out of Li Chibin's room, he didn't say anything.

"Come and help your father with breakfast."

Li Tunan had nothing to do with the tomato that had lost his ideal, so he simply crushed the cigarette, and went to watch Li Jinzhi cook while eating the tomato.

At any rate, Li Jinzhi saw that Li Tunan wanted to make noodle soup, so he obediently lowered his head and cooked the noodles and chopped vegetables.

After a while, most of Li Tunan's tomatoes had been wiped out, and he suddenly said:

"Be careful yourself."

"No need." Li Jinzhi seemed to know what Li Tunan was talking about, so he refuted without thinking.

"I'm talking about yourself! Why does your mother favor you and you don't know?" Li Tunan stuffed a tomato into his mouth, and said falteringly: "Can you take care of yourself? I really don't want adults to worry .”

Li Jinzhi didn't say anything more, picked the lettuce and put it into the pot, covered it and cooked it.

It was past ten o'clock when Li Chibin got up in a daze, and Li Jinzhi reheated the noodles for him.

--

When Li Chibin returned to school, his mood had basically calmed down, and his eyes had subsided. He Jia tactfully did not ask Li Chibin any questions, but just drew a flip animation for him in the book. See the little stickman shooting hearts.

"When you were not around, I missed you every day, so I drew this picture for you and gave it to you." He Jia approached Li Chibin to please him.

"Damn it, this is my math book!" Li Chibin scolded angrily, rolled up the book and hit He Jia on the head.

Winter has come and the heating has not been provided. It is the time when the classrooms are wrapped in cotton jackets to keep each other warm. Since Li Jinzhi transferred to another school, especially since the third year of high school, no one gave Li Chibin daily supplies.

On the other hand, Sun Fan didn't shy away from Li Chibin at noon, and came to chat with him directly. Although Li Chibin had reservations about what He Jia said that day, Sun Fan always kept a certain distance, and reservedly did not touch the minefield. Li Chibin doesn't mind chatting as a friend.

"Are there any activities in the club tonight?"

Sun Fan was not that cold, he only wore a thin sweater over his school uniform, unlike Li Chibin, who was also wrapped in a thick gray coat, making Li Chibin's face small and fair.

Li Chibin is not very keen on community activities. At the beginning, the senior sisters and seniors in the school's public welfare club were too enthusiastic and he was too embarrassed to refuse, so he followed into the club. Occasionally, there was an event, and he realized that he had been absent for a while, so he was naturally embarrassed. Promised to follow at night.

"When? Where?" Li Chibin rubbed his hands, feeling a little cold.

"After school, the city library discusses the flow of funds raised since the beginning of school."

"Oh." Li Chibin was so cold that he wanted to sneeze a bit, he rang the bell as soon as he retracted his hands into his sleeves, the lunch break was over, and people came in one after another.

"Then I'll go first and call tonight." Sun Fan was stunned for a moment, then took out the warm baby from his jacket pocket and gave it to Li Chibin: "Goodbye."

Sun Fan went out through the front door without waiting for Li Chibin to speak, just as He Jia came back from the playground, saw a baby warmer thrown on Li Chibin's table and asked, "Hey, did your brother give it to you?"

"Here you are." Li Chibin didn't bother to explain to He Jia, lying on the table.

Sun Fan saw He Jia stuffing the warm baby into his desk outside the window, curled his lips and raised his eyebrows and smiled, and went back to work without saying anything.

"Brothers, do you want to go to the bathroom together?" He Jia asked suddenly, pulling on Li Chibin's sleeve in a sudden urgency.

"Class is coming soon, I have to go by myself." Li Chibin shook off He Jia's hand: "Don't disturb my study."

--

It was getting dark early, and it was already night when Li Chibin left school after class. He sent text messages to Li Jinzhi and Li Tunan, wrapped his scarf around, and took the bus to the city library.

The city goes to bed earlier and earlier, the confusing and illusory colorful neon on the bus is the night light before going to bed, and the tires rub against the edge of the night, like a damp and expired matchstick, which cannot wipe a single spark.Looking up is a cobalt blue sky, a few shining stars pierced through thousands of miles of clouds, poking their heads out from the layers of haze to meet Li Chibin's gaze.

Li Chibin immediately thought of Li Jinzhi, who was also like a star buried in the fog and clouds. Only after passing through mountains, rivers, lakes and seas, and clumps of shadows can he see his clear and peaceful brilliance.