be your cat

The next morning, Shu Yi followed her sister to the company for handover.

Originally, according to the company's regulations, one had to apply for resignation one month in advance, but considering Shu Yi's special status, his work was almost arranged after he was hospitalized, so the company specially opened a green channel to directly resign for Shu Yi.

Seeing Shu Yi dejectedly going to his station to pack his things, Sister Shu also sighed for her younger brother.

It's really hard but the pain of unrequited love.

The personnel department acted swiftly, and within a short while, the resignation procedures were completed. Shu Yi held the cardboard box and lingered at the door for a long time, before pushing the cardboard box towards her sister.

Shu Yi: "I thought about it, let's say goodbye to him."

Everyone in their department knew that he was here to handle the resignation, including Zhao Yan, but he didn't show up this morning.

Sister Shu looked at him hopelessly.

Shu Yi broke the pot and said, "Anyway, anyway, after this departure, there won't be many chances to see each other again, so it's just...so good to get together?"

Sister Shu raised her eyebrows: "Hey, are you planning to get together and leave?"

Shu Yi: "..."

Shu Yi: "I'll just talk casually."

He rubbed the corner of his clothes with his fingers cautiously, and mustered up the courage to walk towards Zhao Yan's office.

Zhao Yan is a high-level manager and has his own independent office. When Shu Yi came to the door, he heard the continuous tapping of keyboards inside the door.

Shu Yi couldn't help comforting himself, Zhao Yan must be busy, he has no sense of time when working, no wonder he didn't come out to take a look after he left the job.

Shu Yi stretched out his hand, hesitated for a moment, and then knocked on the door.

The sound of the keyboard inside the door stopped abruptly, and then Zhao Yan's quiet voice was heard: "Please come in."

Shu Yi pushed open the door.

Zhao Yan was sitting behind the desk, with a cold handsome face, a suit and leather shoes, a straight back, a pair of cold silver-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, a pair of narrow and beautiful eyes looking at him through the lens, the fundus of his eyes was pitch black, There is still a little bit of bloodshot faintly.

For some reason, Shu Yi vaguely felt that Zhao Yan looked at him with unfriendly eyes.

Shu Yi swallowed nervously, closed the door and walked in, said with some embarrassment: "Well, I, I have completed the resignation procedures."

Zhao Yan stared at him for a moment, and responded lightly: "Yes."

Shu Yi was a little embarrassed by his cold expression: "Ah, I am, just to tell you."

Zhao Yan asked coldly: "Is it necessary?"

Shu Yi: "..."

Shu Yi was immediately ashamed. He had planned to say goodbye to the two of them politely, but he never thought that Zhao Yan would ask himself so bluntly.

You are leaving, do you need to tell me?

Are we familiar?

I can't wait for you to go.

Shu Yi kept blinking his eyes because of panic, he lowered his head, took a deep breath, and tried his best to control his emotions: "I think it's necessary, after all... After all, we've known each other for so long, no matter what Whether we get along happily or not, it is also fate to know each other, in the future...you probably won't want to see me again, so I still..."

Zhao Yan's gaze was still cold, and he suddenly interrupted Shu Yi: "Do you still think that this relationship should start well and end well?"

Shu Yi didn't expect him to know his reason for coming, he was taken aback for a moment, then nodded.

Zhao Yan pursed his thin lips and looked at him coldly.

Shu Yi was flustered and didn't understand why Zhao Yan looked so unfriendly today. In the past, even if he was impatient with his entanglement, he would not look directly at him with such cold eyes.

Did I inadvertently do something wrong?

Nope!

He has been lying in the hospital these days!Can Zhao Yan be provoked even while lying down?

Just when his eyeballs were spinning around and he was confused, Zhao Yan suddenly stood up.

He was a head taller than Shu Yi, and when he got up together, he felt a sense of oppression, and Shu Yi immediately became more nervous.

Zhao Yan stretched his long legs, bypassed the desk, came to Shu Yi, paused, and lowered his voice slightly: "Can I ask you something?"

Shu Yi looked at him puzzled.

Zhao Yan reached out his hand and took out a yellowed note from his pocket, and slowly opened it to Shu Yi's eyes.

Zhao Yan said slowly: "Is this note yours?"

Shu Yi was confused by this sudden note. He stared straight at the two extremely distant confession written on the note. After a long time, he nodded blankly: "Yes..."

Isn't this the confession letter I wrote to Zhao Yan when I was in college? At that time, I was still literary and artistic and dragged out two ancient words.

But...why...ask this all of a sudden?

At this moment, Zhao Yan's expression was extremely complicated, but fortunately, he restrained himself in time and returned to a calm expression.

He gestured to the sofa behind Shu Yi: "Please sit down."

Shu Yi moved over with stiff limbs, sat down obediently, raised his head and looked at Zhao Yan with a bewildered expression.

Zhao Yan sat down on the sofa opposite him and said, "Mind if I take your time and tell you something about the past?"

Shu Yi shook his head.

His thoughts were frozen by the old note he dug out from his memory, and he couldn't figure out the situation at all.

Zhao Yan pursed his lips, his eyes flickered, as if he was brewing something, he was silent for a while, and opened his mouth slowly.

"When I was in college, I had a period of time, and my life was very unsatisfactory."

"It has nothing to do with money. At that time, I was young and energetic, and I didn't know the heights of the heavens and the earth. I probably lacked family affection and sense of identity. I wanted to get rid of the shackles imposed by the family and achieve a career on my own. But at that time, I was too weak to break free and resist. .”

"In addition to a lot of school work, I think too much, and I am almost depressed."

"Then, perhaps in the grace of God, I met a pen pal through the mail, and we emailed each other for two years."

Shu Yi stared blankly at him, his pupils gradually dilated.

Zhao Yan also looked back at him without hesitation: "This man is very simple, very kind, as clean as a washed mirror, and he doesn't care about my identity, skin, and those messy attachments in his words. Yes, all I want others to see."

"A real, authentic me."

"I am very grateful to him. During that time, he has been with me by email, encouraged me, patiently explained me, and guided my emotions back to the right track."

"I used to think how lucky I am to have such a friend who can make friends with me in this life."

"Fortunately, I even had some thoughts that I shouldn't have, but these thoughts were too aggressive. I was afraid of offending him, so I didn't show it. I just thought about meeting him first."

"At least thank him in person."

Listening and listening, Shu Yi's eyes began to dodge.

Why did he feel that Zhao Yan was talking about himself...

Are you that good?

Aren't their emails full of gossip all the time?Only a few times in the middle, he really admired and admired Zhao Yan's success, so he praised his male god incoherently, and he was afraid that he would be too excited and make the male god feel that he was too superficial. This...

Does that count as encouragement?

Zhao Yan still looked at him very seriously, but the content of the topic made Shu Yi more and more uneasy.

"I asked him to meet, and he agreed, but due to some accidents, on the way to meet..."

Shu Yi's face turned 'shua' red.

On the way to the meeting, he was scared away by the security guards, there was nothing he could do, he was still secretly in love with Zhao Yan at that time, and when meeting in private, he always felt guilty.

"later……"

Zhao Yan's eyes drooped slightly, and his voice gradually lowered: "Later, I received a birthday present from him, which was a small ceramic figure shaped like me..."

"I cherish it, keep it spotless, and put it where I often see it."

"The most precious thing."

"But that person, after giving away this small ceramic figurine, suddenly disappeared..."

"I have since lost news of him."

Zhao Yan raised his eyes slightly, looked at Shu Yi, and paused every word: "I have never figured out why..."

Zhao Yan almost gritted his teeth: "Why did he suddenly disappear?"

Shu Yi seemed to understand something in the confusion of thoughts, but he seemed to be even more confused, his mind was muddled, and he felt his heart beating faster and faster, and his butt felt like he was sitting on pins and needles.

"Until yesterday..."

"My cat accidentally smashed the hollow ceramic figurine, and I finally discovered that there was a note in that figurine."

"One, it was given to me by someone I adore, but because it was stuffed too deep, I wiped it all these years, but I still haven't found it... a confession note."

Shu Yi: "..."

Shu Yi was completely dumbfounded.

Zhao Yan closed his lips and stopped talking.

He's done.

Shu Yi: "..."

Shu Yi: "..."

Shu Yi was so angry, his eyes were full of disbelief: "I...I thought...you didn't reply to my email that day...you rejected me..."

Zhao Yan said slowly: "I was very busy those few days and didn't take care of it. When I had time to send you an email, you hadn't responded at all."

Shu Yi's eyes were filled with shock and shame. In those days, he evaded himself and lost all his account numbers. After a short while, he forgot the full name of his account, and he couldn't log in any more...

Shu Yi: "I..."

Shu Yi's eyes turned red unconsciously, his thoughts skipped a bit, and he couldn't understand: "Just, even if I don't respond, after graduation, I, I've been chasing you for so long, why don't you respond? , I haven’t changed, you liked me back then, why now—”

Zhao Yan's eyes were bloodshot: "When you love someone in your heart, can you still accept another person?"

With tears in his eyes, Shu Yi was speechless.

Zhao Yan's tone was rarely trembling ups and downs: "Even if you give me the slightest hint!"

"Did no one tell you that the confession should be said in person!!!"

Zhao Yan almost roared: "You stuff it into ceramics! It's still so deep! You stuff it into your head!!!"

……

Sister Shu waited at the front desk of the company for a long time, but her younger brother did not come out. She wondered if it had been too long, so she took a few steps towards Zhao Yan's office tentatively, wanting to ask what was going on.

As a result, as soon as he arrived at the door of the office, he suddenly heard an extremely tragic cry erupting from inside.

"I- I'm a big idiot!!!!!!!!!"

Shu Yi suddenly collapsed, and after losing his mind, he hugged his head and cried loudly.

Zhao Yan, who was facing him, also closed his eyes fiercely, took deep breaths, and tried to calm himself down.

In fact, when he saw this note yesterday, he was on the verge of collapse and stayed up all night.

surprise?

Absolutely not! ! !

I feel suffocated when I think about it for a while, what the hell have I been doing all these years!

When I was thinking about it day and night, I couldn't find any clues, and I was about to let go of this person, but now I suddenly told him that this person is by my side, and I have been chasing him for several years! ! !

What an idiot I am! ! ! ! !

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