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Shu Yi's crying collapsed to the point where he couldn't hide it. Not only sister Shu who was outside the door heard it, but also many colleagues in the office, who looked this way curiously.

Sister Shu saw her younger brother sitting on the sofa through the blurry glass door, shrunk his shoulders and bowed his head as if he had suffered a great grievance, crying so hard that he was dying.

On the opposite side, Zhao Yan lowered his body and stared at him, with a look of interrogation, which immediately made her furious.

Sister Shu pushed open the glass door, stepped on her high-heeled shoes, walked in aggressively, and grabbed Shu Yi: "Let's go!"

Shu Yi's face was full of tears, he kept sobbing, and his legs were a little weak. Sister Shu exerted strength and pulled him up abruptly, and said to Zhao Yan with a stern look: "Mr. I’ve caused you a lot of trouble, I’m sorry! But it’s okay! Blame him for being blind and begging for nothing to fall in love with you. He wasted all these years of youth, but now he’s about to resign, just because he’s coming You say goodbye, as for making trouble like this!"

"He just likes you, what did he do wrong! You want to speak so badly at each other? Do you have to curse and cry before you leave!"

Zhao Yan was beaten up by Sister Shu rushing in, knowing that she had misunderstood, but at this moment Zhao Yan was also very tired, opened his mouth, did not explain, just lowered his head, and sighed long.

Sister Shu gave him a cold look, then turned her head and dragged the crying Shu Yi out.

The vice president of the company didn't expect these two to make such a fuss before they left. Seeing that Sister Shu's complexion was not good, he hurriedly sent them out with a smile.

Sister Shu's face was ashen all the way, her hand was so strong, Shu Yi was hurt by her arm, crying and trying to break free, but her sister turned her head and stared at her immediately, and reprimanded: "What! You still want to go back?"

The driver hurriedly opened the car door, sister Shu pressed Shu Yi's head and stuffed him into the car, then got in herself, and closed the car door with a 'bang': "Go home!"

After the car started, Sister Shu looked at the company building that was getting farther and farther away, she let out a sigh of relief, turned her head and saw that Shu Yi was still sobbing, her eyes turned into red rabbit eyes from crying, then she slowed down and said: "What's wrong? Did he really scold you?"

After she calmed down, she felt something was wrong.

She was stimulated by the way Shu Yi was crying at that time, thinking about her brother's unrequited love that was so humble to the bone all these years, she only cared about protecting his shortcomings when she got hot.

But after thinking about it, Zhao Yan is a calm and even indifferent person. He has been pestered by Shu Yi for so many years and has not lost his temper. How can we meet again in the future?

Sure enough, Shu Yi choked and shook his head, trying desperately to wipe away his tears with a tissue.

Sister Shu was puzzled: "Then why are you crying?"

As soon as she asked this, Shu Yi thought of what Zhao Yan said just now, and immediately burst into tears: "I... I'm an idiot!"

Sister Shu: "..."

She remembered that not long ago, she rushed over after hearing Shu Yi yell.

"Why are you scolding yourself so much? What? You found out that you gave your love to the wrong person?"

While crying, Shu Yi desperately shook his head.

Sister Shu doesn't understand anymore.

Shu Yi was speechless after that, hugged the pillow in the car and began to cry indulgently. Sister Shu has a hot temper and didn't know how to coax her. Seeing her brother's hysterical appearance, she felt that it was okay to cry. He just silently accompanied him by the side.

When he got home, Shu Yi's eyes were so swollen that he couldn't open them.

Shu's father and Shu's mother were taken aback when they saw this, but when they asked Shu Yi, Shu Yi didn't say anything. Once they asked Zhao Yan, Shu Yi would just cry and scold him.

At first, everyone thought that Zhao Yan did something to make Shu Yi realize that he had made a wrong payment with his heart. He had been blind all these years, but Shu Yi's attitude didn't seem like it. When his family members said bad things about Zhao Yan, he would desperately Shake your head.

In the end, there was no choice but to let him go back to his room to sort out his emotions.

Shu Yi cried until his voice became hoarse. After returning to the room, he was exhausted and couldn't cry anymore, so he hugged the quilt and sobbed uncontrollably for a while, and gradually fell asleep.

His mind was messed up, and his dreams were messed up.

For a while, I dreamed that when I secretly went to see Zhao Yan, I was frightened when the security guard shone a flashlight on my eyes.

For a while, I dreamed that at the company reception, I mustered up the courage to strike up a conversation with Zhao Yan, but was warned by the other party's indifferent eyes that I dare not go forward.

When talking with Zhao Yan during the day, he vaguely remembered the sporadic and broken words, as if they were suddenly turned up to the maximum volume, lingering in his mind, shaking his heart and soul.

When you love someone in your heart...

I had some thoughts that I shouldn't have...

The person I adore with all my heart...

I have since lost news of him...

In the dream, he seemed to be squatting outside a somewhat familiar door in a trance, looking at Zhao Yan inside the door holding an ugly ceramic figure in his hand, his eyes were as gentle as water.

He said softly, I don't know if there will be a chance to see you in this life.

……

When Shu Yi woke up again, his eyes were so swollen that he couldn't open them at all.

His aunt brought him an ice pack from the refrigerator, and he held the ice pack, nestled on the sofa and silently applied it to his eyes.

His parents and sister had gone out to run errands, and he was alone in the living room.

Auntie went to cook him a bowl of noodles and brought it over, and asked him softly, "Is it better?"

Shu Yi shook his head and said, "I'm so dizzy."

He was also very hoarse.

The aunt sighed: "You silly child, when you cry, you cry like a fool. You can't cry desperately. You have to rest when you cry. Otherwise, your eyes will be swollen, your throat will hurt, and you will feel dizzy. Be careful no matter how sad you are." Body."

Shu Yi shook his head again: "No, I'm not sad."

Auntie was puzzled: "It's not sad, why cry then."

Shu Yi thought for a while: "At first...it was quite sad, but now it's not sad."

The aunt was relieved: "That's it, this is great, just think about it, there is nothing hard to overcome in this world."

Shu Yi hurriedly explained: "No, it's not because I want to think about it...it's..."

He opened his mouth, not knowing how to explain his mood.

sad?

No.

regret?I really regret it. I can’t think about it. If I think about it a little more, he wants to jump off the stairs now. Why was he so stupid back then? It is not possible to miss so many years with Zhao Yan.

But if he regretted being embarrassed, he was not willing to jump off the building.

Because Zhao Yan said he likes him.

Shu Yi held up the ice pack and thought for a long time.

Zhao Yan said he likes him!

Zhao Yan should still like him now, otherwise he wouldn't say it at this time. If he doesn't like him, even if he just found the note, he should let him go calmly, and meet again after a few years. speak out.

So he is really not sad.

If you talk about how wronged you are, before today, Shu Yi can write a book about the wronged you have suffered from Zhao Yan. Anyway, he is hypocritical, Zhao Yan ignores him once, and he can list one.

But now, his grievances suddenly disappeared.

Thinking of Zhao Yan's indifference to the present self, just to be loyal to the former self, he only felt regret, and felt that the former self was a hypocritical idiot.

According to Zhao Yan, even if he had the audacity to open the mailbox again after those few days, the lives of the two of them might be completely different.

But now it doesn't make any sense to go back to what happened in the past.

So the crying that broke out in the office was just crying, he didn't know why he was crying, he just wanted to cry, but he didn't feel pain for himself.

If it hurts, it's because of Zhao Yan.

He remembered that when Zhao Yan raised his head from the computer desk after he went in, the corners of his eyes were so red that he could not tolerate it, and he felt heartache.

These years, Zhao Yan has always been insulated from Taohua. He is so good, and there is never a shortage of Yingying Yanyan who is close to him, but he has always been alone.

Even in that half-true dream, he was so lonely that it made people feel distressed.

Shu Yi has been rejected by him countless times, and once secretly wondered if he had a white moonlight that he couldn't ask for, which tormented him day and night.

Even for a period of time, I feel refreshed with a dark mind, I can't get you, and you can't get the person you like!snort!

But he never calculated that Bai Yueguang was himself.

You can't get what you ask for, and it's you who can't get what you ask for.

Shu Yi leaned weakly on the sofa, and softly uttered two words: "Stupid..."

At any rate, he still knows who he likes. Every day at work, when he looks up, he can see the back of his sweetheart.

What about Zhao Yan?

He has nothing.

When exchanging emails, because of excessive low self-esteem, Shu Yi concealed himself too closely. Later, when he pursued Zhao Yan again, because of Zhao Yan's extremely indifferent attitude, he could only keep silent and dare not bring up the past, for fear of being pulled out by Zhao Yan and laughed at.

So until yesterday, Zhao Yan didn't even know what the person he liked looked like or what his name was, and he survived these years like an ascetic monk.

In a trance, Shu Yi thought of Zhao Yan in his dream who had taken over his mother's cell phone. He was planning to go on a blind date, and was planning to let go of this person who had never heard from him.

Just at this time, the ceramic figurine shattered.

……

Shu Yi felt that his eyes were much more comfortable, so he got up and threw the ice pack that was about to melt into the refrigerator.

He doesn't know what to do now.

To apologize to Zhao Yan?

He didn't have the guts, he was afraid that he would cry uncontrollably again when he saw Zhao Yan again.

If he asked the two of them to calm down for a while, he was afraid that Zhao Yan would calm down too much all of a sudden, and if he gave up completely, he would be finished.

Shu Yi fiddled with his phone, his mind was extremely chaotic, and he watched until night.

He deleted, deleted, edited and typed a lot of words in Zhao Yan's dialog box on WeChat, but he didn't dare to send a single word. He has been unable to figure out Zhao Yan's thoughts, and he is completely unable to guess what Zhao Yan's state of mind is now.

Maybe it was because I hated him so much that I wasted all my years of affection, which had already faded away, but now, after this incident, it directly changed from love to hate.

Thinking of this, Shu Yi held the phone in his hand, and began to flinch in a wild way of thinking.

Just as he was hesitating, a caller ID popped up on the phone interface that had been hanging on WeChat.

Shu Yi was taken aback, and hurriedly held it in front of him to have a look.

It was Zhao Yan who called.

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