I'm still doing fine

During a rainstorm, in the wide rear compartment of the white Wrangler, the gray smoke gradually dispersed, alleviating an awkward and delicate confrontation.

Si Jian opened his mouth slowly, talking in the sound of rain hitting the car window.

That was a confession he couldn't even tell his parents.

He bluntly said that his grades were getting worse and worse and felt that he was looked down upon by others. He bluntly said that he was unwilling to study so he was even less motivated. He bluntly said that his new goals in life were hit so he began to question himself...

"I know it's funny. I chose the wrong one. I took a gangster as a role model. You can laugh if you want." Si Jian laughed at himself and ended, "That's right, don't tell my mom, she still expects me Being able to sit in the office and enjoy the blessings, even a waste like me... I don't want to disappoint my mother."

He didn't hear the expected sneer, and when he turned his head to look hesitantly, Li Jian nestled into the seat, and with a casual and comfortable posture, he stretched out his hand to scratch Las Jian's head casually, and sighed for a long time, "You grow up gone."

Si Jian didn't understand much at that time, he just swayed along with Li Jian's movements.

"There is no right or wrong." Li Jian extinguished the cigarette butt and threw it into the can next to the stall, "The things you used to like now embarrass you, it's not that you like it wrong, it's just that you grow up, don't doubt yourself. "

"Also, I forgot to mention it. Just listen to other people's perspectives and opinions. After all, you are the one who lives." Before getting out of the car that day, Li Jian turned around and added as if he had only just remembered. , "But you must remember my sentence. The school is still a school. If you want to live well, you must study hard."

"Oh, it doesn't hurt to talk while standing." Si Jian followed behind him, holding his schoolbag to cover his head, and ran into the corridor a few steps, a little unconvinced, "Didn't you just not go to school for a long time?"

"Me?" Li Jian shook his head, as if a little helpless, he said, "My life is not good."

The long sigh spread out, lighting up the dim night lights on the next floor.

At that time Si Jian was just startled, not knowing the deep meaning behind this sentence, he said good night to Li Jian, and when he turned and opened the door of his house, he was thinking.

Growing up... I probably really grew up.

What I hated in the past, such as preaching, could make him and his mother feel angry and refused to eat, and could make him and the teacher refuse to go to class, but now that the words came out of Li Jian's mouth, he actually felt that there was some truth in spite of his anger.

A heart that was well comforted fell steadily on Li Jian from that day on.

Zhang Xiaoying was the first to notice that something was wrong with her son, she just sneaked through Si Jian's diary, and found no suspicious girls, plus a few times Da Kao Sijian's ranking has risen steadily, and even handed over the tight MP4 that was precious before. Let her take care of it, she thought about it carefully, and finally didn't take care of it any more.

It also failed to prevent Si Jian from sinking into another pit that was inaccessible in time.

Si Jian began to care about everything related to Li Jian, and he couldn't help it. He was so smart, so he understood it not long after.

He saw through himself, hesitated and was at a loss for the first time, and even bumped into a strange woman to visit Li Jian's mother for the only time, and felt a little guilty and uneasy for no reason.

Si Jian suppressed himself with untrained restraint, hid his desire to be close, but couldn't control his desire to look at him privately, so he gradually saw through Li Jian, and realized that under such flamboyant and ruthless eyebrows, there was actually He is a resolute and gentle soul, and this person is not what he appears to be.

When Si Jian was young, he had many far-fetched fantasies. Seeing the sharp scar on Li Jian's eyebrows, touching the rough calluses of this man's palm, he thought that this must be a medal left by a fierce fight. After all, there is such a mighty Physique and momentum are like a child holding a shotgun in his arms, and his passionate charge will always be difficult to control.

I never thought that Li Jian would draw the mark between his eyebrows with his fingertips and explain lazily, "I wanted to pee when I was running a long distance, and I stopped to go into the bushes on the side of the road to solve it. It’s really good luck not to hook off the eyeball.”

He turned his palms over and looked at the white and raised calluses, and looked at Si Jian again, "This is the price of not studying hard. You can only do some physical work to support your family."

Even when Si Jian patted his forearm like clocking in and asked how to train such muscles, Li Jian laughed out loud with a cigarette in his mouth, and the eye circles he had just spit out were sucked into his mouth again, like a novice Coughing from being choked by myself, "You don't need to practice, you're born with it. How do you say that, I'm born to be useful."

At that time, Si Jian stretched out his hand and patted his back, curled his mouth to express his disdain, "Yo, you're not illiterate now, you can recite poems?"

Li Jian's eyes paused, his smile subsided, and his eyes fell to the distant void, "You don't know, there are many things that illiterates understand."

When Si Jian touched the bumper of the Wrangler reluctantly, he felt that this steel body like a dormant beast must be the mount that Li Jian brought back the goods after crossing mountains and rivers. Prohibited profiteering goods that test the law.

It may be core wheel parts smuggled into the country, a magazine with a sexy cover, or a mountain of unannounced smartphones...

But he didn't expect that all the conjectures were all false.

Wranglers do go on wild roads, but it is not a place with such outstanding scenery, but a hideous country road that is slippery and difficult to walk when it rains. It is often necessary to pay farmers to drive tractors to pull them.

Li Jian came back after ten and a half months, pushed open the muddy car door and got down to stand still, opened the trunk to show him, it was full of sponge samples with ugly shapes and indeterminate colors.

He kicked the tire, and the dry mud fell on the ground like rain, piled up into messy hills. He wiped the car glass casually, revealing a window where he could see the inside, and smiled with the corner of his mouth crooked. Speaking of this car? I bought it with borrowed money, and I still owe a lot of debts. I was too young and ignorant at that time, so I should buy a Wuling bun, which is durable and fuel-efficient."

Si Jian should have given up. Li Jian had told him all about it long ago, and he didn't even leave a fig leaf behind. What else could he fantasize about?

This is not cool at all, the old man who is two rounds older than him is not a big brother who responds to everyone at all. He is often threatened with a strike by the migrant workers hired to work in the sponge factory. He is busy with his head and heels all day. A tired, ordinary man.

Ke Sijian felt that he had grown up too much, he couldn't keep up with his preferences, and he couldn't control his heartache towards Li Jian. The strange women who came to visit every now and then made him feel uncomfortable and guilty, so he could only try his best I put my mind on the book, hoping that the busyness and tension can dispel the figure of Li Jian who is all-pervasive.

That was the happiest time in Zhang Xiaoying's life. She didn't have to worry about her son's grades anymore. Thinking that years of hard work were not in vain, Si Jian had already stepped into the threshold of a good university, so he found out in middle age A new hobby, I started to go to square dance after dinner and before going to bed.

As for Si Jian's classmate who has been in the same class for three years, it was only then that he realized the true face of this person. It turned out that this shy and autistic child was actually very irritable, and his direct words and actions made people feel a little bit confused.

The most famous incident happened in the second half of the third year of high school. After chatting with Zhang Xiaoying, she brought back a few gossips, saying that Li Jian and his girlfriend were about to get engaged, and they had already started discussing the bride price. Si Jian heard that there was no change, and went with his backpack as usual. School.

At that time, the English teacher on duty was pregnant and would not walk around in class with a big belly. It is said that she was afraid that the students would get radiation from their mobile phones. Clear hearing, and those who go too far actually sit in the last row and secretly pass the basketball.

The female teacher just opened the door and went out when she was out of breath, panting heavily in the well-ventilated corridor.

The squad leader slapped the table and stood up, held up his glasses and yelled weakly, "Stop arguing! Can you listen to the class carefully?"

The few kids who were used to it were ignored. In the chaos, Si Jian, who was quietly doing the reading questions, corrected the answers, drew a big red cross on the paper, and rummaged through the schoolbag to find the used physical education class. Ping pong paddle.

He went straight to the last row, and slammed the racket at the person who made the most noise. In a flash, the racket hit the baffle of the desk and book pocket, made a loud noise, and then brushed the tip of the person's nose, knocking out A piece of wall ash.

If such a force really hits someone on the forehead, blood will inevitably be seen. No one knows whether Si Jian believes in his aim, or whether he doesn't care whether he will hit someone or not.

As if someone had pressed the pause button, there was a sudden silence in the classroom. When the female teacher heard the sound and opened the door to enter the classroom, she could hear the sound even if a needle fell. Si Jian picked up the basketball on the ground and threw it with his elbow. He walked out of the window and looked at the man expressionlessly, feeling a little sad, "Damn it, bullying pregnant women?"

After being classmates for a few years, Si Jian became a blockbuster, and after that, his reputation among classmates once surpassed Brother Tao, and he is a real ruthless person.

From a certain point of view, Si Jian realized his dream, although it was a spur of the moment fueled by dissatisfaction with Li Jian and resentment that he couldn't ask for.

If everything goes smoothly, Li Jian gets married and has children and starts to change his focus, Si Jian continues to endure the exams and leaves, and after looking for other lovers, the two of them will probably be like a straight line that intersects. As time goes by, it drifts away.

After all, Si Jian is a person with a great sense of justice, no matter how much he likes him, he always disdains to get involved in other people's marriages.

But Xiao He defeated Xiao He, and it was precisely because of this sense of justice that was difficult to discard that Si Jian broke through the boundaries and angrily carved his own label on Li Jian.

That night Si Jian ran downstairs after putting on his shoes and socks, rushed straight to the back seat of the Wrangler, opened the door without looking, and pushed Li Jian into the carriage.

At that time, the overhead light had not yet been extinguished, Li Jian squinted his eyes with powerlessness and frustration, a sudden warmth came from his cold hand, and he was unable to make a sound under the confusion and astonishment. The uninvited invader in front of him Mao Mao opened his mouth, "My mother said, the engagement thing...was pornographic?"