I Rely on Kisses to Clear Survival Games

In the middle of the night in the hospital, everything was silent. The boy's ward was dark and gloomy, with only the bright moonlight shining on the ground through the windows, casting a faint silvery white color.

"Well……"

The boy let out a soft groan, his eyes were wet and full of water vapor.He sat on Xie Yuanhuai's lap, wrapped his arms around the back of the other's neck, and passively endured the overly eager deep kiss.

Xie Yuanhuai looked cold, but when he kissed the boy, he seemed to want to eat him up, and the kiss was very deep.He put his arms around the boy's waist, brought him down, turned over and pressed him on top, pressed him on the bed and kissed him for a long time, until the boy began to struggle weakly, and then slowly let him go.

"Huh, huh..."

The young man's face was flushed, his lips were stained with water from the kiss, and he lay softly on the bed and gasped for breath.

Xie Yuanhuai's eyes dimmed, and he leaned over to kiss him lightly again, causing the young man to flinch, blushing and nudging his shoulder, and said in a low voice: "Please, don't... I can't take it anymore..."

"Don't Xiao Chu like it?" The handsome man asked hoarsely, "If you don't want to, I won't touch you like this in the future."

"Do not……"

Hearing what he said, the boy couldn't help tugging at the hem of his clothes, his voice was as soft as melted honey, and his expression was extremely shy: "It's not that I don't like it..."

"good."

Xie Yuanhuai kissed his face, slightly raised the corners of his lips, and a faint smile spread.

When he laughed, it was as if the ice and snow had melted. He was so beautiful that the young man was stunned. After recovering, he found that he had been pressed and kissed again. Oh, brother Yuanhuai always hooked him like this, but he Can't refuse every time...

……

"That way you won't be afraid, will you?"

Xie Yuanhuai hugged the young man who was so weak after being kissed, and gently touched the young man's red ears with his cold fingers, and then placed a soft kiss on his forehead.

"But……"

The boy murmured with a flushed face.

He obviously just wanted Brother Yuanhuai to accompany him, as long as he was here, he would not be afraid... His intentions were very simple, but Brother Yuanhuai always, always...

But he didn't continue talking, because he knew that if he wanted to refute, brother Yuan Huai would definitely ask him if he didn't like a certain kind of words.

He can't say that he doesn't like it, in fact, he still likes kissing brother Yuanhuai very much, but he doesn't want it to be so intense all the time.

What's more, he didn't want to reject Brother Yuan Huai. He worked so hard to come to accompany him in the middle of the night because he said he heard the ghost stories told by the nurse sister during the day, and he was so afraid that he couldn't sleep at night.

But he remembered that elder brother Yuan Huai was hospitalized because of a heart attack, so if he didn't sleep at night and came to accompany him, is his health really all right...?

Thinking of this, the young man couldn't help but feel worried, and confided his worries to Xie Yuanhuai.

"It doesn't matter." Xie Yuanhuai stroked his soft hair and said, "I won't force myself, you don't have to worry."

"Really? That's fine..."

The boy blinked, and asked curiously: "Brother Yuanhuai, you came from your ward to my place, wouldn't you be afraid along the way?"

He thought of the ghost stories the nurses told during the day, such as the ogres in the sewer, the red corpse of the woman in the mortuary, and couldn't help but shrink back when he looked at the door, as if in the next second, there would be something behind the dark door Something came over, stretched out a pair of bloody hands, and gently pushed the door open...

He couldn't help shrinking into Xie Yuanhuai's arms again.

"No." Xie Yuanhuai's tone was cold, "These things don't exist in the hospital."

"It would be great if that's the case." The young man muttered, "Brother Yuan Huai, do you think there are really ghosts in this world?"

"..."

Xie Yuanhuai's movements froze slightly.

"What does Xiaochu think?"

"I don't know...I hope it's better not to, I'm afraid."

Xie Yuanhuai was silent for a moment, then said: "You can't accept the existence of ghosts?"

"It doesn't seem to be possible." The boy thought for a while, and added, "But it's not necessarily true. After all, I have never seen a ghost, and I don't know how I would react to them."

Xie Yuanhuai nodded slightly and didn't say anything more.With his company, the boy was very at ease, gradually fell into sleepiness, and fell into a deep sleep.

Half-dream and half-awake, he faintly felt a hand patting him gently, and that gentle and deep voice whispered in his ear.

"Go to sleep."

The next day the boy woke up slowly and opened his eyes in a daze.

The daylight in the house is just right, it is clean and bright, and the air is warm, but Xie Yuanhuai's figure is no longer there.

……

Holding a pile of snacks, the boy looked excited and jumped for joy. He took the elevator from the eighth floor to the fourth floor. This is the floor where the cardiology patients live.

It has always been Yuanhuai brother who went to his ward to find him, or they met directly in the old place in the courtyard, until now, he has never visited Yuanhuai brother's ward.

Today, the sister nurse gave him some snacks, he thought they were very delicious, and he couldn't wait to share them with Brother Yuan Huai. Well, I just don't know if heart disease patients have any taboos, he should find out first...

The young man got off the elevator and went straight to the nurse's station on the fourth floor. He didn't know Xie Yuanhuai's ward number. Even though he had asked many times, Xie Yuanhuai never told him whether he was hospitalized because of a heart attack or whether the young man was in a rut. Asked later.

"Hello, sister nurse."

The boy's eyes were shining, and he said with a bright smile: "I want to inquire about a patient, his name is Xie Yuanhuai, which ward does he live in?"

"Xie Yuanhuai? I'll check it out for you." The nurse's attitude was very kind, "How do you write his name?"

"Thank you, sister." The young man smiled, "It's thanks to you, far and near, the Huai River."

The nurse opened the registration form in the computer, searched it, showed a look of surprise, shook her head and said to the boy: "Did you remember the name or the floor wrong? We don't have a patient named Xie Yuanhuai here."

"How come..." The boy blinked and said in disbelief, "But his name is Xie Yuanhuai..."

"I searched for the surname 'Xie', but there is no patient with the surname Xie." The nurse said, "Maybe you can go to another floor and ask."

"it is good……"

The young man nodded in frustration, and asked all the first to seventh floors of the inpatient department, and finally even asked the eighth floor where he lived, but there was indeed no patient named "Xie Yuanhuai", not even a name with a similar pronunciation. .

"Could it be that brother Yuanhuai said a fake name?"

He was very confused, no matter how he thought about it, he couldn't understand: "But why did brother Yuanhuai want to lie to me, it doesn't make sense..."

"What does he look like?"

The nurse on the eighth floor was familiar with him and was more enthusiastic. Hearing this, he asked with concern, "Tell me, and I'll help you find out later."

"He is very good-looking, tall and thin, with very fair skin. He must be the prettiest person in the hospital."

The boy said firmly, then suddenly thought of something, patted his head and said.

"By the way, the hospital gown that Brother Yuanhuai wears is very special. His is white." He looked down at his light blue hospital gown, "The style is also different. The hospital logo on his gown is On the right, not on the left."

"Huh...?" The nurse was very surprised, "The hospital gown you mentioned was a style several years ago, and it has been discontinued a long time ago. Now all the patients are wearing your kind of clothes, how could anyone wear them? What about those clothes?"

She found it very strange that an older nurse happened to pass by at this time, she stopped him, told the story, and then asked.

"...so do patients still wear old-fashioned hospital gowns?"

The older nurse's expression changed slightly, and she asked the boy: "You said the person you are looking for is Xie Yuanhuai?"

"Yes..." The young man was a little depressed, "but it may be a pseudonym."

"...I don't know who the person you are looking for is, but the hospital did have a patient named 'Xie Yuanhuai' who suffered from congenital heart disease."

The older nurse looked complicated.

"I used to take care of him, but that was years ago."

"He's been dead for a long time now."

"..."

The boy's face turned pale.

He looked past the nurse and saw a pure white figure appearing at the entrance of the corridor.

The young and handsome man was watching him with complicated eyes.

The young man suddenly remembered the cold temperature on the man's body, the people around him turning a blind eye to him, appearing quietly in the middle of the night, and all kinds of strange behaviors——

His pupils shrank suddenly.

...is a ghost.

His brother Yuanhuai is a ghost.

"Xiao Chu..."

Xie Yuanhuai murmured the young man's name, as if he wanted to go there, but the young man backed up a few steps with a pale face, turned around suddenly, and ran away in a hurry.

"..."

Xie Yuanhuai lowered his eyes and stood quietly on the spot without moving for a long time.

……

In the dead of night, the ward was quiet. The boy was lying on the hospital bed staring at the ceiling, not feeling sleepy at all.

Brother Yuanhuai didn't come to look for him today either.

He is gone.

The boy's eyes gradually became sour, and tears dripped down his cheeks and into the pillow.

A few days ago, when he suddenly realized that brother Yuanhuai was a ghost, he was very frightened and couldn't help running away, but after that, he immediately regretted that although brother Yuanhuai was a ghost, he had never done any harm On the contrary, he should be very careful with his actions, so gentle brother Yuan Huai, what does it matter if he is a human or a ghost?

But his actions must have hurt Brother Yuan Huai, since that day, he has never appeared again.

What should he do... How should he get brother Yuanhuai back...

The boy buried his face in the pillow, his shoulders trembled slightly, and there was a light choking sound.

"Heh, heh heh... heh heh..."

At this moment, he suddenly heard a strange sound coming from the bathroom of the ward.

What kind of voice was that, could it be Brother Yuanhuai coming?But it's nothing like...

The young man felt apprehensive, put on his slippers, turned on the bedside lamp, quietly walked to the door of the bathroom, lay on the door panel and listened to the movement inside.

"Heh, heh..."

The weird movement continued, when suddenly the switch of the toilet was pressed, there was a "wow" inside, and there was the sound of flushing water.

This can't be Brother Yuanhuai!

The boy's face turned pale, and he suddenly remembered the ghost story of "the ogre in the sewer". He couldn't stay in the house any longer, so he immediately opened the door and rushed into the corridor.

It's scary...Ghosts are real, and ogres are very likely to exist too!

Standing in the corridor, he was shaking all over, his hands and feet were cold, and he didn't know what to do.The little nurse on duty at the nurse's station saw him walk out of the room, looked puzzled, and asked softly, "Zhichu, why did you come out? What's the matter?"

"I……"

The boy opened his mouth, not knowing how he could convince her that he just saw a ghost, but at this moment, he suddenly saw a bright red figure appearing at the end of the corridor.

It was a young woman with disheveled hair. Her complexion was pale and slightly rotted. She was wearing a blood-red skirt. She was slowly raising her head and looking at him stiffly.

It's the female corpse in red... There's a ghost!There are really ghosts in the hospital, and those legends are true!

"Sister, there is a ghost, run!"

The boy was so scared that his face turned pale. He grabbed the little nurse's hand and was about to run away. At this time, the elevator in the hospital was out of service and he couldn't take it, so he dragged the little nurse and ran to the stairwell in a panic.

"Zhichu? Huh?"

The little nurse looked back, and it was clear that there was nothing there.She thought of the teenager's hallucinations, and her heart skipped a beat. She felt that his symptoms had flared up, so she held him back and spoke as softly as possible.

"Don't be afraid, there are no ghosts in the hospital. You see, I have been on night shift for several years, and I am fine. So there are really no ghosts. Take some medicine and go to sleep at ease."

"not real……"

The young man's tone was extremely flustered. Seeing that she didn't listen, he had no choice but to pull her sleeves and walk down the stairs, but he didn't notice his footsteps. He stepped on empty space and fell backwards.

The nurse screamed: "Zhichu!"

"Bam—"

……

"Fortunately, Zhichu's injury is not serious."

Dr. Luo gently supported the boy's head, carefully looked at it, took the CT scan of the brain and looked at it for a long time, shook his head, and said.

"However, because of the impact on the head, in a short period of time, his consciousness will be slightly confused, and he will be even more unable to distinguish the difference between reality and fantasy. This requires us to guide him slowly and help him recover."

The pretty woman nodded, and looked at the boy sitting on the bed, with a trace of worry in her eyes: "My child...will he get better?"

"Please rest assured." Dr. Luo nodded, "We will do our best to cure him."

After exchanging a few words with the boy's mother, Dr. Luo sat on the hospital bed, pressed the boy's shoulder, and said in a serious tone: "Zhichu, do you believe me and your mother?"

"……certainly."

The teenager's reaction was slow for a while, then he nodded, his eyes were very clear: "Of course I believe in you and mom."

"Well, let us tell you that ghosts do not exist in this world, so you don't have to be afraid at all."

Doctor Luo said: "Those ghosts are all imagined by you, including Xie Yuanhuai, who has passed away long ago and is not a real person."

"No..." The young man opened his mouth, and anxiously argued, "Brother Yuanhuai is real..."

"Xiao Chu!"

The woman suddenly stepped forward, with faint tears in her eyes, she held him in her arms palely, and said in an almost pleading tone.

"Please get better soon, okay? Do you know how much my mother worried about you when I heard that you stepped on the empty stairs and fell down... Mom is begging you..."

"...Mom?" The boy hugged by her was stunned.

In his memory, his mother was always busy with work and almost never cared about him. Because of his sexual orientation, she rarely even smiled at him. He always thought that she must dislike him very much.

"You are mother's baby son, how could mother not like you."

As if knowing what was going on in his heart, the woman whispered something, but she was cold by nature, and it was her limit to be able to say such words, so she stopped talking and gently stroked the boy's hair.

"In the future, my mother will change... I will definitely care about you a lot, and so will my father. He loves you very much, and he will come back from abroad to see you soon. So for us, you must get better, okay?"

"……Um!"

The boy's eyes were red, he nodded heavily, and hugged her back tightly.The woman's body trembled, her heart was full of grief and joy, and she couldn't help but shed tears. Doctor Luo who was beside her also smiled when she saw this, with sincere relief in her expression.

……

It's just that in the deepest part of the young man's heart, he still doesn't want to believe that the Xie Yuanhuai he sees is just an illusion.

Obviously that feeling is so real, the man he has hugged and kissed, and he has relied on wholeheartedly, will accompany him to sleep at night, and will also show him a very shallow but beautiful smile...

How could this brother Yuanhuai be just someone he imagined...?

"Brother Yuanhuai..."

Staying alone in the ward, the teenager curled up on the bed, looking thin and slender, with half of his face buried in his arms, only a pair of faintly red eyes were exposed.

"Dr. Luo said that I can't distinguish between fantasy and reality, so now I really don't know whether you are real or not..."

"Please, if you really exist, can you come out to see me? I... I remember that I seemed to make you sad that day. I didn't mean it. Actually, even if you are a ghost, I still like you, please. Come out and see if I'm alright?"

No one answered him.

He sat in the ward for a whole day, until late at night, and did not see that cold figure again.

Maybe Yuanhuai brother hasn't forgiven him yet.

But it is more likely that "Brother Yuanhuai" is really just someone he fantasized unconsciously.

The boy's eyes were a little swollen from crying. He felt extremely uncomfortable, but no matter how sad he was, he realized that he could no longer let himself be immersed in fantasy. His parents were still waiting for him at home, waiting for him to return home. to their side.

"You still haven't shown up..."

He spoke softly, crying a little hoarsely.

"Then... goodbye."

"Brother Yuanhuai."

The boy closed his eyes, buried his face, and shrunk into a small ball, only feeling a little cold on his body.

He couldn't see, just beside him, Xie Yuanhuai stretched out his hand, wanting to touch him, but was shocked to see his hand pass through the boy's body.

He was always by Xiao Chu's side.

But Xiao Chu could no longer see him, and could no longer be touched by him.

……

He lost his little one.

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