dizziness

"What do you mean by that? What do you mean I am enough..."

Before Owen finished speaking, Ruan Miaomiao stood up abruptly, took off her sunglasses and threw them aside. Under the twilight, those eyes were a little colder than Owen imagined.

"I mean..." Frowning, Ruan Miaomiao looked up at Owen, but stopped, and sighed helplessly. It was obvious that he didn't want to quarrel, so he sat down slowly, shook his head and said, "It's nothing, I... just want to be alone for a while."

Ruan Miaomiao took off her hat and rested her forehead a little anxiously. Owen knew that this person was sensitive by nature, and even turned his sensitivity into a kind of self-torture. How could Owen bear to let him stay alone like this.

"You can say what you want," Owen stroked Ruan Miaomiao's head and hugged him tightly, "You know, I'm most afraid that you won't say anything, no matter what others think, you will always be in my heart That Ruan Miaomiao who fell in love at first sight."

Hearing this, Ruan Miaomiao's body suddenly trembled, and when she looked at Owen, her eyes shook violently. The aura seemed to be repulsive, and she broke away from Owen's embrace in the blink of an eye.

"Owen, can you stop coaxing me like a child!" Ruan Miaomiao shouted out of control, casting a sharp glance at Owen, "Also... the former Ruan Miaomiao died in that car accident , no one will fall in love with this Ruan Miaomiao at first sight, including you, and neither will he!"

"..."

Perhaps what shocked Owen at the moment was not Ruan Miaomiao's vented anger, but rather the fact that Ruan Miaomiao compared himself with others in this way.

"Why...why do you always make me do things I don't want to do..."

"What do you mean you don't want to do?" Owen's tone became cold for a moment, staring at him for a moment, "Do you mean I let you go out? If you really don't want to go, you can say it, I don't will force you to..."

"Yes! You won't force me! But you clearly know that there is no way for me to refuse you!"

Yes, falling in love sometimes involves not only fulfillment, but also patience and compromise.

Maybe it's because the love is too deep and intimate, and rejection has become the most difficult thing.

Ruan Miaomiao's tone of accusation made Owen feel unreasonable, and even annoyed at this person's fragility. Everything had just begun. If he gave up just because of those people's eyes, what would happen to this person's future.

Owen took a deep breath, tried his best to restrain his emotions and said: "Ruan Miaomiao, I don't want to argue with you, I think you are the same, but you have to understand, if you don't go out for a year or two years, can you spend your whole life with me? Is it isolated from the world?"

"So, you're doing it for me again, right? It's like forcing me to go to America back then! Don't act like a teacher to educate me when this happens!"

"..."

Owen couldn't help shaking his body and took a step back. His eyes flickered, and he didn't know whether he was thinking of the past or Ruan Miaomiao's aggressive appearance, which made him almost suffocate.

Owen knew that his strength would no longer have any effect on this person, and if he argued, it would be a lose-lose outcome for both sides. Facing Ruan Miaomiao, he really had no other choice but to compromise again and again.

This love is too hard, and it is not easy to have everything now. Owen is grateful and more contented.

"Let's... calm down, maybe what I said...is not accurate," Owen gritted his teeth secretly, clenched his fists, probably only Ruan Miaomiao in this world can make him make such a concession, Owen swallowed his throat, "I just I want to say... Isn't it good that we go out together? You are also very happy, aren't you..."

"Are you okay?! Are you happy?! Do you really think so?!"

Ruan Miaomiao interrupted him, frowned and stared at Owen's panicked face, Ruan Miaomiao said sharply: "Owen, have you ever thought about my feelings! I am surrounded by people like a monster, you really think I will be fine, very Are you happy?! Then you are too cruel!"

"Cruel...you say I'm cruel?" Owen sneered weakly, and then he really looked at Ruan Miaomiao ruthlessly. Have you ever thought about how you feel, did I let those people come to watch you?! If you didn’t save that child, there wouldn’t be these shitty things!”

Ruan Miaomiao was so angry that her breathing became unsteady, and she said with red eyes, "You mean I asked for everything? Right?"

"I only know that everything is fine and smooth for us! If it wasn't for that kid..." Owen paced back and forth anxiously, feeling so aggrieved that he almost lost his sanity. He paused for a moment, and finally He still roared explosively, "What the hell is that kid doing to you! What a fucking hero are you! If he wants to die, let him die! There are so many people around, it's never your turn to meddle in other people's business !"

"..."

Ruan Miaomiao remained silent, for a moment he felt that the person in front of him was so strange. In his own impression, Owen Wen shouldn't be like this, let alone say such indifferent and cruel words.

In fact, Owen also felt that he had said too much, but he just couldn't control it. Today should have been the most perfect day for him. Owen just didn't understand how it became like this, so he could only use it to vent Feeling wronged.

"Why did I go to save that child? Others don't understand, don't you?" Ruan Miaomiao sighed, looked at him with some disappointment, and said calmly, "Owen, you really never understood me."

After Ruan Miaomiao finished speaking, she passed beside Owen and walked towards the room.

But at this moment, Owen doesn't have the rationality to think about the meaning of Ruan Miaomiao's words, catching that pair of eyes that are completely disappointed in himself, and that sentence that he has never understood are enough to instantly ignite his anger.

Owen's character is irritable from the bottom of his heart. Falling in love with Ruan Miaomiao does not mean that he can be reborn. Tolerance and tolerance for this person is Owen's deboning again and again. Yes, he has no regrets, but not without any complaints.

He couldn't stand this person's misunderstanding, just like Ruan Miaomiao couldn't stand his dominance.

"Please explain clearly to me, what do you mean I have never understood you? Then what counts as understanding you?!" Owen stopped Ruan Miaomiao's way, stared at him coldly, and even completely ignored Ruan Miaomiao's displeasure at the moment , Owen is like this, once he is really angry, he looks like he doesn't recognize his relatives, and even every word he utters is like a knife to death, "What do you mean?! What do you want to understand? Anything Accommodate you? Do whatever you want?! Whether you are good or bad or dead or alive? Ruan Miaomiao, you figure it out! I love you! I'm not fucking afraid of you!"

Ruan Miaomiao simply felt that Owen in front of him was extremely absurd. They hadn't had a big fight for a long time, and Ruan Miaomiao even forgot how to deal with it. He didn't want to quarrel, he just wanted to leave, wouldn't it be good to let everyone calm down?But Owen aggressively blocked his way again and again, Ruan Miaomiao couldn't bear it anymore and said: "Owen! Are you crazy! Do you want to quarrel so much!"

"I want to quarrel?! You don't look at your own virtue! Isn't it disfigured? If all the disfigured people in the world are like you, they will be invisible! I can't see it! I can't say it! Do you want to live that day? Yes?! Yes! I don’t know you! Who do you think can achieve the inexplicable understanding you want?! That Musen?! If that’s the case, then why the hell are you coming back to make yourself like this !"

"..."

Ruan Miaomiao froze all over suddenly, and stared fiercely at Owen for a long time without saying a word.

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Owen regretted it. The word Mu Sen was a taboo between them, just like Shen Lixin back then.

But Ruan Miaomiao is not the only one who is sensitive, Owen is also sensitive, and it is not only Ruan Miaomiao who has heart problems, Owen has some demons.

The scar that had finally healed was lifted just like that, and both of them were bleeding, so who could comfort each other.

"No...it's not...Miaomiao...I didn't mean that..."

Owen shook his head, his voice trembling, before he could get close to Ruan Miaomiao, he pushed him away forcefully.

"Miaomiao! Listen to me!" Owen chased Ruan Miaomiao all the way in panic, "Listen to me, I really..."

Before Owen finished speaking, Ruan Miaomiao slammed the door of the room shut. Owen stood outside the door, but he didn't have the courage to open the door. This time he was really scared because he knew he had gotten into trouble.

There was no sound from Ruan Miaomiao in the room. Sitting in the living room, Owen could imagine how angry that person would be.

As time passed by, Owen, a big man, with a mournful face, slapped his stinky mouth several times. When it came to the critical moment, he knew that the old problem of spraying feces hadn't changed at all. He thought his edges and corners had already disappeared. It was smoothed out for Ruan Miaomiao, but now it seems that it has gotten worse.

Seeing that it was late at night, Owen thought about it, so he walked to the door of the room, listened for a while, and called Ruan Miaomiao's name softly a few times, seeing that there was no response, he tiptoed to open the room Door.

Ruan Miaomiao was lying on the bed, her eyes were as big as copper bells, she had no expression at all, and her face was so ugly that she heard Owen approaching and ignored her, staring at the ceiling motionlessly.

Owen struggled restlessly for a long time before he climbed onto the bed carefully, as if he was afraid of being kicked off by that person, every movement was frightened, and he moved closer to Ruan Miaomiao.

Fortunately, Ruan Miaomiao didn't respond, Owen heaved a sigh of relief, put his arms around his neck, and rubbed his cheek against Ruan Miaomiao's shoulder back and forth.

"I'm sorry..." The voice was like that of a cat, and the upside-down posture at first disappeared instantly, "You are right, I am indeed crazy..."

"..."

Ruan Miaomiao still didn't respond, Owen hugged him a little more uneasy, and said sullenly: "You just think I'm crazy, and I'm fine with everything... I shouldn't mention his name, forgive me... "

Owen's steps really gave Ruan Miaomiao enough face. He loved this person so much that he didn't need any dignity and pride. Owen dared not believe that those nonsense words came from his own mouth, or he was bewitched. Otherwise, that bastard just now must not be me...

Ruan Miaomiao swallowed her throat, did not speak, took Owen's hand away and turned over, leaving him with a cold back of the head.

Owen has experienced this person's stubborn temper. Even if Owen is wrong in every way, but now he has subdued and apologized. How else can he be satisfied?

Owen has lived such a long time, except for Ruan Miaomiao, he has never been so accommodating to anyone.

The more I think about it, the more I feel bad, my nose is sour and my eyes are red because of the grievance, and I immediately turned over in a fit of anger.

The two of them faced each other back to back and neither of them fell asleep, so they passed the whole night in a stalemate.

In the early morning of the second day, it was almost time for the school to leave, and the relationship between the two had not been eased. The school called several times to urge Owen, saying that the whole car was waiting for him.

Seeing that Ruan Miaomiao's posture remained unchanged throughout the night, as if he would not say goodbye even if he wanted to leave, Owen even stayed on the bed and refused to get up, to see who was more stubborn than the other.

What kind of crap to support education, he won't go!So what!Do you still dare to escort him?

But it turns out that he was wrong. The school attaches great importance to this teaching support. It is a task assigned by the Department of Education. Owen is not only old, but also has old qualifications. The school does not send him to whom to earn performance. The effect of the second teaching support is good, and the whole school can be upgraded. How can I allow Owen, this rat shit, to spoil a pot of soup.

As soon as the principal gave an order, the car drove to the downstairs of Owen's community. When the principal called, he would scold him a lot. As long as Owen dared to say no, he wouldn't even be a full professor, not even an associate professor, and his job might not be guaranteed.

I have spent most of my life in this school, not to mention how much money I earn, at least I want to be safe and secure, he is not young anymore, where else can he go if he leaves here?The headmaster's threat is like a wake-up call, even a sensible person can figure it out.

Besides, it's not bad for both of them to calm down for a while. If they are too close, they will ignore each other's feelings after a long time.

When Owen took his luggage and left, he actually had no grievances or anger in his heart. Of course, it was his own fault, so he really had no right to complain.

He only thought that when he came back, the relationship between the two of them could be restored.

Hearing the sound of closing the door, Ruan Miaomiao sat up from the bed, rushed to the window with her shoes on, watched Owen get into the car, and then sighed slowly.

He didn't know where his toughness came from, maybe it was infected by Owen, and when he looked at himself now, he would think of Owen in the past.

Really, if you fall in love with someone for too long and deeply, you will subtly live like that person.