dizziness

As soon as Owen got into the car, no one in the room dared to greet him with that stinky face.

There were not many people in the car, almost all of them were Owen's juniors, but all of them could be regarded as the living signs of the school. There are too many young and promising people now, and Owen usually doesn't want to be with them, so he chose the last row to rely on. Sit down by the window.

The car finally started off smoothly. The road was not bumpy, but it was rickety, which really made people fall asleep.

Owen closed his eyes, he was so sleepy but he didn't dare to sleep, he was afraid that he would dream of the scene of Ruan Miaomiao throwing away his drawing board and chasing after him. He had tortured himself with those memories last night, and he was really worried that he would desperately call the driver to stop and let him go back .

After all, this was not on the bus back then. If he really did this, no one would dare to stop him.

But Owen is a mature person, he doesn't allow himself to do such childish things.

More likely, this kind of love has used up all his passion, and Ruan Miaomiao is probably the same as himself.

He was terrified at the thought.

The older a person is, the more things he cares about, such as age, job, income, job title, health... plus Ruan Miaomiao, Owen's life is filled to the brim, and he doesn't even have a chance to take a breath. As the saying goes, there is a time when flowers last, and there are endless meals, but he is just a mortal.

Over the past few days, although Ruan Miaomiao was not deliberately trying to please him, he was always careful. That person had a mental illness, and Owen didn't dare to provoke him, let alone provoke him. The big quarrel yesterday, maybe It's more Owen venting his anger on himself.

No matter how much you love that person, you still can't completely abandon your innate temper, and you are even more angry that you may not love that person enough, so you are so aggressive.

When I opened my eyes again, it was raining continuously outside the car window, and it was probably far away from City C. The car stopped several stops along the way, and people got off one after another. They were going to support education in different counties.

Owen was not young, and he was originally assigned to a county that was a little closer, but after a mischief in the morning, he was temporarily transferred to the farthest county.

Knowing this earlier, why did Owen regret it in the first place.

But if you think about it carefully, there is nothing to be upset about. As long as it is a supporting education, the conditions are not all the same, and the distance is not so important.

But it turned out that he was still too naive.

When we got off the car, it was still raining, and there was no tendency for it to get bigger and bigger, but the drizzle was the most annoying thing, and it was better to just let it go.

The secretary of County Y who came to receive Owen, a kind-hearted little old man, said to Owen with a smile that their place was called Rain City in history, and it rains for several weeks in this season every year. It's not very convenient. Those who go up and down the mountain should be extra careful. They also repeatedly told Owen that he came from a big city and was not familiar with the terrain here. After going up the mountain this time, don't come down to avoid any accidents.

It was indeed true. After another drive, the mountain road was particularly rugged and harder than all the mountain roads Owen had traveled. Coupled with the rain and slippery road, the two of them arrived at their destination after several hours of trekking.

The secretary pointed forward and said that it was the school.

That's school?Owen couldn't believe his eyes. The dilapidated earth tile house felt a little crumbling under the mild wind and rain.

After entering, Owen was even more surprised. There was no playground, no kitchen, no dormitory, just a bungalow. The only eye-catching thing was the old five-star red flag propped up by bamboo poles at the door.

The room leaked rain everywhere, and the wind leaked from all sides. There were five students and a young female teacher named Yang Hui. There were only six of them. The front half of the one-story house was used as a classroom, and the back half was used as a place to sleep. There was no desk in the classroom. The children could only sit on the ground and use the small benches as their desks. The rain in the room has been covered with plastic sheets, and the rain has delayed many of their classes.

There was no bed in the sleeping place, and everyone had shared beds, because Owen was a guest anyway, and he took a large piece of rag from no one knew where, and surrounded his bed, which was regarded as a cubicle.

In contrast, the place where I supported teaching last time was completely heaven.

Owen asked the county secretary, although County Y is small, but the conditions are acceptable, why not build schools in this mountainous area better.

The secretary shook his head and sighed that if he wanted to change this place, he had to pave the way first. The county party committee applied to the higher authorities every year, and the funds approved were not much. In addition, the upper echelons of the provincial government were greedy, so very little money actually went to them. , there is nothing you can do.

Owen didn't ask any further. Everyone knows this kind of thing, and the greed is not limited to the provincial and municipal levels.

Supporting education is nothing but a superficial matter. The school relies on this to earn performance from the Education Committee, and Owen relies on this evaluation title. Who would really care about the suffering of these children? In the end, people are still selfish.

The children gathered around Owen, looked at the city people curiously, and looked into their pure eyes. Owen said nothing, not introspection, but thinking about what kind of shit the so-called human nature is.

A pot of porridge was cooked on the gas stove, and Yang Hui warmly greeted Owen to eat a bowl. Owen politely said that he had already eaten it when he came here, but in fact he really had no appetite. Seeing such a scene, if he still has an appetite, then It's just too inhuman.

I took out the snacks I brought from the box and distributed them to the children. Everyone was very happy. I asked Owen if people in big cities had such delicious food every meal. Owen couldn’t answer, and suddenly felt that he had grown The place turned brutal.

When everything was settled, Owen sat on his bed, and the first thing he did was to look at his mobile phone. Because of the rain, Owen protected it very well along the way.

When the screen was turned on, there were no text messages. Owen was very depressed and depressed for a while, then the phone rang, and two text messages came in a row, both from Ruan Miaomiao.

As expected, this person still cares about himself. He opened it happily and found that one was sent two hours ago, and the other was even more exaggerated three hours ago. Looking at the signal of the mobile phone, there is only half a bar, which is probably because the signal along the way is too bad. , and it was received at this time.

Ruan Miaomiao's text messages were always concise. The first message asked him if he arrived safely, and the second message may be that he did not wait for a reply and asked again.

Owen became anxious when he saw it, as if he couldn't reach Ruan Miaomiao, he called the phone number regardless of whether the signal was good or not.

It was a blessing in heaven. After several unsuccessful calls, I finally made a difficult call, and the other end answered the phone quickly.

The signal was very noisy, and only Ruan Miaomiao's intermittent voice could be heard: "Owen... Zizi... how are you... over there... Zizi... right..."

Owen couldn't hear clearly, so he could only roughly guess what it meant, and raised his volume for fear that he couldn't hear: "I'm fine! The signal here is not good, I only received the text message! Don't worry!"

"... Hey... Owen... I... Zizi... Don't... Zizi..."

"Miaomiao! Can you hear me?! Miaomiao!"

"...Zizizi..."

Fuck, this broken signal, Owen scolded his mother in his heart, and the other end of the phone turned into white noise, so he had no choice but to hang up the phone.

At this time, Yang Hui poked his head in and said innocently, "Call your wife?"

Owen nodded at her awkwardly and smiled.

"There is no connection here, the signal has not been fully covered yet, it may take a few years, we can call the nearby village branch, with your footsteps, the nearest round trip will take a whole day, the second class My baby's home is in that village, let him take you there tomorrow."

"Oh, no need," Owen refused charitably, "It's too dangerous for a child to walk on the mountain road in this rainy day. It's not a big deal anyway. Let's talk about it after the rainy season is over."

Yang Hui is a cheerful girl, and said with a smile: "That's fine, then when you want to go, just say, don't be polite to us, these children walk on the mountain road like little monkeys, they are very agile! If it’s not as good as it, then you should take a good rest first.”

After Owen thanked him, he lay on the bed alone and fiddled with his cell phone. If he couldn't get through, at least he had to send a text message, which was also a thought for himself.

It was already midnight when Ruan Miaomiao received this message from Owen, and she was sitting alone at home, looking very pitiful, and finally realized that during the three years when he left, Owen guarded this house full of memories alone , How lonely it is, every time I see something, I can see things and think about others, and I can't control it.

"I arrived at school safely. It's the rainy season here. It will rain for several weeks, but don't worry. I will take care of myself. You should also pay attention to your health. I have a bad temper. You know it. Don't worry about it. I’m angry about what happened yesterday, I’ll call you in the village when the rain stops.”

Ruan Miaomiao looked at it several times, she was not angry, but when she saw the back of Owen leaving, she was gone.

He knew Owen well, and he also understood his intentions. He let himself go out to get in touch with this world, just to make his future life safe and smooth.

But it takes a long time.

It's like I still can't forget how madly I drove my car to kill Shen Lixin's son, that's why I saw that child in danger yesterday and rescued him because he wanted to atone for his sin.

Ruan Miaomiao thought that Owen could understand, but when he heard those cruel words from him, she was really going crazy with anger.

It's not that Ruan Miaomiao doesn't know what's good or bad for Owen to put down the steps for him like that, but it's just that Owen suddenly involved Mu Sen, leaving him at a loss as to how to deal with it.

Ruan Miaomiao couldn't be completely indifferent to Mu Sen, just like Owen couldn't be a stranger to Shen Lixin. He kept silent on weekdays. Once conflicts arose, it would be too painful to turn over old scores and attack each other.

The two have been together for so long, they are actually learning how to be calm about each other's past, but this often takes more courage and time than learning how to love.

Ruan Miaomiao sent the text message.

Going back and forth like this will waste a lot of time, and sometimes the two of them can only go back and forth four or five times a day, or even less.

But every time Owen received Ruan Miaomiao's text message, he was as happy as a mouse in love. Really, it's not an exaggeration at all.

Ruan Miaomiao said, when he comes back, they will still be the same.

The same good, the same love, the same will occasionally quarrel...

Owen thinks this is life, and because of having each other, he has tasted the ups and downs, and not everyone has the opportunity to have the taste of this.

It was still raining that day, and it seemed to be a bit heavier than the previous few days. The children hadn't been out of the house for a week. Fortunately, there was already a reserve of food, so eating was not a problem.

After the children finished their classes, they couldn't go to the playground for activities, so Owen took them to draw, and Yang Hui followed suit, but the things they drew were not as good as the children's, and everyone laughed at her.

Owen didn't want her to be too embarrassed, so he patiently took her to paint over and over again.

Yang Hui's face was blushing. She was just a girl in her twenties. She came here to teach after studying a junior college in the county. Even at my age, it is inevitable that my heart will throb.

She knew that Owen was much older than herself, and probably about the same age as her father, but the more mature a man was, the more girls would like him the most. Yang Hui felt that Owen's eyes were as beautiful as a story, and she thought to herself The person he loves must be very, very beautiful, otherwise how can he conquer such an attractive man?

Yang Hui was imagining what kind of beauty that would be, when Owen's cell phone rang.

I took a picture with everyone yesterday and sent it to Ruan Miaomiao. Maybe because the picture is a bit big, I didn’t receive a reply until today.

Ruan Miaomiao said in the text message that the children are very cute and the teacher is also very beautiful, but Owen seems to have lost some weight, and he said a few words of gentle care. He also said that the weather forecast said that County Y would continue to rain for a long time, so Owen must be careful.

Owen was completely immersed in joy, and replied to the text message, but he didn't take Ruan Miaomiao's advice to heart.

But that's how it often happens.

The rain is getting heavier every day, the house is leaking, and the water on the ground has reached the ankle.

Owen asked Yang Hui, is it like this every year here?

Yang Hui shook her head and said that she grew up here, and there were times when it rained continuously for a month or two, but she had never seen such a heavy rain, and it was really frightening.

Owen swept the water outside, but it didn't have much effect. Looking at the dark clouds, he became somewhat worried.

If the rain continues like this, I'm afraid the situation is really not optimistic.

Owen suggested that we should simply take the children to a nearby village to avoid them. Staying here is not an option.

Yang Hui said no, it was too dangerous. Walking on the mountain road in such a heavy rain was equivalent to death. We could only see the situation. If the rain didn’t stop, the village would send people to pick them up. Those people had tools, so they would be safer.

Owen had no choice but to let it go, thinking that the rain was strange, and he was afraid that it would calm down after a while, and he didn't dare to reveal anything to Ruan Miaomiao when sending text messages, because he was afraid that he would be worried.

Unexpectedly, this text message was the last one Ruan Miaomiao received. In the next three days, no matter how he replied or called, there was no news from Owen.

All the TV stations on the TV began to broadcast a series of shocking news simultaneously as if they had been infected with a virus.

This battle reminded Ruan Miaomiao of the Wenchuan Earthquake in 08.

... Our reporter has rushed to the site of the disaster overnight. According to geological experts, the large-scale landslide in County Y is the most serious in the history of the country. According to statistics, 5000 people have been killed and 800 people have died. The data is still available. Continuously increasing...

Seeing the mountains turned into flat ground on TV, Ruan Miaomiao's heart suddenly became empty, and Owen's last message was still displayed on the screen of the phone.

"The rain should stop soon, and I will be able to hear your voice by then. If I knew it earlier, I should have recorded a piece of your voice to take away. What would you say?"

Ruan Miaomiao recorded a lot of voices and sent them to him, saying that she loves him very much, but the reply was that the message could not be delivered.