dizziness

Owen didn't know what happened to Ruan Miaomiao in the past few days, but from his haggard face and the stubble on his cheeks, he could vaguely tell that this person might not be doing well either. Urgent, not only the button of the shirt is misplaced, but even wearing a pair of simple plastic slippers on the feet. In Owen's impression, this person has always been so clean and tidy. Charming and energetic, she has never been so embarrassed as she is now.

Perhaps in Ruan Miaomiao's eyes, Owen wasn't much better, but in just a week, the white hair in his hair seemed to have increased a bit, and he looked grey, and his stature was not as straight as before. When Ruan Miaomiao passed by him, she almost didn't recognize him.

"Owen..."

Ruan Miaomiao's pupils trembled violently, and she slowly raised her hand to caress his cheek, but Owen avoided it slightly.

"You... why are you still looking for me, we have already..."

Owen's voice choked up slightly, and Ruan Miaomiao hugged him tightly before he finished speaking: "No...no, please don't say anything, don't say anything, okay..."

In the dazzling sunlight and the hot embrace, Owen seemed unable to feel the slightest temperature except for the suffocating dizziness. Hearing the familiar childish tone of the man, it reminded Owen several times of the rainy season that year, when Ruan Miaomiao was so big for the first time. Calling his name, his bleak figure was submerged in the rain, and the courage he had when he was determined to turn back has long since been exhausted.

Owen resisted the soreness at the tip of his nose, secretly took a deep breath of that person's unique smell, and trembled when he exhaled: "Let go, we are no longer possible."

Ruan Miaomiao was taken aback, as if she had lost her breathing instinct for an instant, she straightened up slowly, and looked at the person in front of her in disbelief.

"What did you say..." Seeing that Owen was silent, with a painful but firm face, Ruan Miaomiao probably understood the meaning of his words, and couldn't help but gasped, and cold sweat the size of beans broke out on his forehead. Holding Owen's shoulders nervously, he could no longer restrain himself and said in a panic, "What do you mean we are impossible? I... I... No, it's you... You are still angry, so you said that on purpose right?"

Owen shook his head with his head down, please take away his hand and said: "Miaomiao, don't be like this, I'm not angry, really, I'm sober, let it end between us..."

"Why do you still say that when you're not angry!" Ruan Miaomiao roared excitedly, followed Owen's sight in a panic the next second, trying to restrain his anxiety and said, "Okay... listen to me, Owen, I know I Hurt you, Mu Sen's matter, and Xiao Jia's matter... It's all my fault! I really didn't mean to bump into Xiao Jia! I, I just!...Yes...I'm jealous of you smiling at him , be nice to him, it will remind me of us before! I don’t know why I bumped into it at the time, and I even thought it was just my illusion!”

"..." Owen didn't speak, and couldn't bear to raise his eyes to see the man's appearance at the moment.

Ruan Miaomiao tried harder to explain everything thoroughly, and said at a loss: "And... and Mu Sen! I have problems with his methods. I really want to distance myself from him, but...he Helped me again, I really don't know what to do! I will be very confused when facing him... I can't restrain my body at all..."

"If you can't restrain it, don't restrain it, remember? You're in love with him, aren't you?"

"No! No! I didn't! Owen, can you trust me, he has never surpassed your position in my heart! I am because..."

Ruan Miaomiao stopped her mouth suddenly, she didn't know what she thought of, and her face was tormented hard to say.

Maybe the so-called growth means that there are more and more secrets in my heart, and I can no longer share them with anyone.

Seeing him like this, Owen was unable to continue to question him. He just raised his eyes and looked at him calmly, and sighed softly: "Since you can't continue, just listen to me, Miaomiao, you are not wrong, no matter you It's not wrong to fall in love with Musen or not, it's me... I was wrong, you are right, I shouldn't force you to go to a place you don't want to go, I'm afraid that if you don't do this, you will blame me in the future, Hate me, I don't have the courage to be responsible for your life, and I also don't want to be your responsibility."

"I never asked you to be responsible! You were never my responsibility!"

"But love itself is mutual responsibility! Do you understand?!"

Owen frowned, staring at him closely, Ruan Miaomiao was stunned for a moment, as if Owen could always talk about problems he had never touched, which made his thinking suddenly broken.

"I..." Ruan Miaomiao shook her head stupidly, and said anxiously, "but I... am not with you because of responsibility, I... am... because I love you... Owen, I love you, so I want to be with you." with you forever."

Yes, the life in this population may only be given to him temporarily for the rest of his life.

Owen swallowed his sore throat and said, "Maybe, we made the wrong choice at the beginning. You have changed, and I have changed too. Do you... still know me in those photos? And where are you... everything Has it all changed, Miaomiao, as I said before, I may just be a short passer in your life, your life is still so long, I can’t give you much, just like you can’t give me, Or maybe... what we want are different things at all, you should know better than me that Mu Sen is the one who suits you."

"Musen, Musen, Musen! Why do you keep mentioning him! It's a matter between the two of us now, it has nothing to do with him!" Ruan Miaomiao roared violently, staring at Owen fiercely, the veins on his forehead also In the beating, "Owen, why do you always like to make all kinds of conclusions for me?! What's wrong with you? If you are, why can't Musen be! Who is the right person? It's up to me It's up to you to decide! Not you!"

"Yes! This is your right! But must your right be based on being cruel to me?! Ruan Miaomiao, you are too cold!"

Owen took a deep look at Ruan Miaomiao, passed by his side, and resolutely walked away. Perhaps this so-called cruelty was not caused by those sick behaviors and words, but the torture and devastation bit by bit. The original fresh love gradually withered and ugly.

"You are right! I am indeed cold by nature, but you have never understood me!"

Ruan Miaomiao yelled at Owen's back. He admitted that he was never good at expressing emotions, let alone pandering deliberately. If he hadn't met Owen, he wouldn't even know what was impulsive, what was angry, and what was involuntary. It is so pure and quiet, his cold nature is not really indifferent, but helpless, the root cause of becoming out of control, or because he cares too much.

Seeing that the man was still walking away, Ruan Miaomiao staggered to catch up in a panic and firmly blocked the way. Owen hung his head, his arms hurt from being grabbed, his breathing was deliberately weakened, and his vision was already blurred.

"Owen, Owen...I'm not complaining, I know about Musen, and my...what I have done has hurt you a lot, but you still love me, don't you? Don't expect too much You will forgive me, but please... I beg you, don't leave me, okay?" Ruan Miaomiao's eyes were full of sincerity, and she said cautiously, holding Owen's cold hand, kissing the one between his fingers over and over again Ring, choking with pain, said, "Think about our past, Owen, think about our past, when we met in that bar, you still asked me why I chose this name, and you taught me to draw... Do you think you Infected with AIDS... yes, yes... and you went to the countryside to support education, I came to see you, you ran a long way to see me, and we had a big fight in the end, don't you remember all this Is it... and... and..."

Ruan Miaomiao was anxiously trying to remember, but her mind was in a mess and she was so flustered that she couldn't calm down. Owen looked up at his haggard face, feeling sore in his heart, and sighed softly: "Miaomiao...don't say it..."

"No, no... there must be more, you let me think about it... there must be more... there are still..."

"And you skipped a lot of classes just to listen to my class. You sit in the first row every time, making me want to be lazy." Owen said and laughed, but tears also flowed down, he I really can't bear to see Ruan Miaomiao in such a distressed and pitiful state, "And that rainy day you called my name for the first time, but because you wanted to turn around and look for you, you were fined by the police, and you wanted me to quit smoking, Even my salary card was confiscated, and I was obviously sarcastic about the looseness of my stomach, but I kept saying that no matter what I become, you will like me..."

"Owen..."

Ruan Miaomiao couldn't help but her eyes turned red, but her eyes showed joy. He felt that this person still remembered, did they...

Owen took a deep breath with a wry smile, and took his hand out of Ruan Miaomiao's palm, staring at the ordinary but addictive ring in a daze, with tears dripping down on it.

"And on my birthday, you said you bought the ring a bit smaller on purpose, so you didn't want me to take it off again," Owen caressed carefully, and his smile gradually became pale and tired, " Yeah... we have so many memories, don’t we, enough, Miaomiao, this is really enough for me.”

After all, Owen took the ring again. Just like what Ruan Miaomiao said at the beginning, the size of the ring was not suitable. The pain was unbearable, and even layers of flesh were scraped, and the ring was finally pulled out in the blood.

Ruan Miaomiao was so shocked by his series of actions that she almost froze in place. Owen wiped the blood-stained ring, took Ruan Miaomiao's trembling hand, and put it in his palm.

"Goodbye, Ruan Miaomiao."

If goodbye can really be goodbye, who would want to look back on the past.

Owen has no regrets about his courage at the beginning, at least it made him love for a whole past.