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"Yes...you are right...I am too self-righteous, but...I really...really don't want to manipulate his life, he is so young and dazzling, I...just want him to go. His own path... I don't want to be a hindrance in his life..."

Owen muttered to himself with a choked voice, Ruan Miaomiao seemed to see resentment and blame in front of his eyes again, which made Owen tremble violently all over his body, as cold as winter, everything he wanted should not be like this, right? ?

Since that person didn't want to leave, why did I force him to leave?

Since that person has already left, why do you have to deceive yourself and wait for that person to come back unchanged?

After all, Owen asked himself whether he was too selfish and let go in a pretentious manner, but in fact he wanted to keep Ruan Miaomiao under house arrest within the scope of his control.

But he was dead wrong.

They tortured each other for three years, and those three years of waiting and suffering seemed to have become lost in an instant.

Although Jian Cheng half-understood what he heard, he couldn't bear to see him suffer so much. He stepped forward and hugged Owen's shoulder tightly: "Owen, what happened, can you tell me? I really... don't want to see you Like this."

Owen was startled in his warm arms, the pair of pupils he met when he raised his eyes no longer had the childishness of the past, and the strong embrace made Owen feel the long-lost peace of mind, maybe he didn't really feel it until now, This man has indeed grown up.Owen closed his eyes and nodded, lit another cigarette, and then briefly talked about what happened in the past few years.

Jian Cheng has quite an impression of Ruan Miaomiao, but he can't tell if it's because of Ruan Miaomiao's extraordinary looks, or because of the dispute when he and Owen broke up. Although he only met once, Jian Cheng still remembers him vividly.

But he never expected that so many things happened between the seemingly honest and young boy in his impression and Owen. Perhaps what surprised Jian Cheng even more was that someone as strong as Owen would love someone. Love to such a humble and pitiful point.

After Owen finished speaking, Jian Cheng had a sullen face and did not respond for a long time. Owen took another puff of cigarette and sighed, "I know he hates me for forcing him to go to America, and I have no right to blame him for his betrayal. We've been wrong since the moment we got together..."

"Owen, don't think so, there is nothing wrong with you being together," Jian Cheng looked at Owen seriously, and patted him on the shoulder as if comforting, "The problem between you is that you don't listen too much, and he It’s too little, do you understand what I mean?”

Owen looked at him in a little confusion when he heard the words, but Jian Cheng smiled lightly, and said thoughtfully: "Just like when we were together, Owen, you must not know how much pressure you put on others, yes, you Very mature and thoughtful, this is really attractive, but it does not mean that you have the right to make decisions on behalf of others. During the two years with you, I was very happy but also very tired. After a long time, I I don't even dare to express my opinion in front of you, you always use all kinds of rhetoric to prove how naive and ridiculous I am in your eyes, heh, you never really understand me, and you don't bother to understand me, don't you?"

Yes, I have never really understood this person, and I have never understood Ruan Miaomiao. In fact, he is not unwilling to understand, but they are all so much younger than him. Owen will unconsciously put his life experience Imposed on them, whether it is right or wrong.

Just because of my carelessness, I missed so many sincere feelings. Shen Lixin was like this, Jian Cheng was like this, and Ruan Miaomiao was even more like this. Owen suddenly felt that he had lived for decades in vain. Not a single one knows.

"I'm sorry... It seems that I should have told you earlier," Owen looked up at him, and smiled desolately, "Jian Cheng, thank you, thank you for being willing to tell me this, it made me think a lot."

Jian Cheng also smiled, shook his head and said, "Thank you, we can still be friends, can't we? Let's go, I'll take you to the station."

"No, you'd better go back, don't keep your cousin waiting, I also want to walk alone."

Seeing that he looked tired, Jian Cheng couldn't help but sighed, and then nodded, "Then... well, you can think about it alone, I don't think there is no turning point between you, the key lies in you, Are you still willing to get to know and understand each other again?"

"..."

Owen didn't say a word. If he and Ruan Miaomiao were strangers, he would of course be willing to have a new start like Jian Cheng said, but they were not. The hurt they caused each other was already deeply rooted, and he was also afraid physically and mentally. There is really no information and spare energy to continue to maintain this relationship.

"Owen, listen to my advice," Jian Cheng walked a few steps, then turned around and said, "Don't give up easily, after all...it's not easy for you to start."

After Jian Cheng finished speaking, he left on his own. Owen stood there for a long time looking at his back, not knowing what he was thinking, until he regained his senses, he picked up his steps and turned to leave.

He walked along the road towards the station, the scorching sun above his head made Owen dizzy, Jian Cheng's words made him recall the past, every time he matured, he had to experience the roasting of white degrees Celsius, always He loves to laugh at other people's childishness, but it also reflects his own misfortune.

When approaching the station, he saw a few people waiting for the bus in front of him. The traffic here was not as dense as in the city center. Owen was not in a hurry. He just took a deep breath and just calmed down his restless mood when he suddenly heard There was a roar behind him, and when he turned his head, he saw a red sports car galloping towards the empty road. The car was driving so fast that the speed almost exceeded 120 yards per hour, so that Owen didn't even see the appearance of the car clearly, and was caught by the red sports car. The force of the sports car passing by caused him to almost fall over, and the words framed in his hand accidentally fell to the side of the street.

Before Owen came back to his senses and picked up the words, the red sports car that had been soaring into the distance suddenly made a sudden brake. Owen didn't know why, so he was stunned for a moment. After hesitating for a moment, the car didn't even turn its head. Put the reverse gear directly, and retreated at the same astonishing speed.

Seeing that the car was getting closer and closer to him, Owen was at a loss and retreated. Before he had time to react, he saw the car retreating in front of his eyes.

The noise of the brakes was accompanied by a harsh bang, and the car stopped in front of Owen, which also crushed the messy fate on the ground.

Seeing the driver get off the car in a hurry, Owen only glanced at the rough outline of the man, then instinctively turned around and walked away quickly.

Ruan Miaomiao was wearing a white short-sleeved shirt, which seemed to set off his whole body so pale and transparent.

He staggered after the still bleak figure, looking as flustered as a child who couldn't find a home.

"Owen! Don't go... Please don't go..."

Owen was blocked, and when he looked up at the man's clear eyes, Owen realized that he didn't want much.

All he looked at was that he wanted this person to give him a love without regrets.

He wanted to go back to a long time ago like that, but unfortunately the time has come many years later.