dizziness

When standing at the gate of the CDC, Owen still hesitated, and flinched uncontrollably. The white building looked like a execution ground in his eyes.

Owen found that he couldn't do it at all. After living for so many decades, he has not been smooth sailing, and he has experienced all kinds of hardships, but only this time, what he is facing is not a scourge, but just a test report. But it was more difficult than anything he had experienced before.

Owen didn't have the courage, so he could only choose to escape, turned around and walked towards the way he came, but was blocked by Ruan Miaomiao after him.

"You don't want to accompany me anymore?"

Looking dodgingly into Ruan Miaomiao's eyes, Owen clenched his fists, and his body began to tremble again: "I..."

"Since you don't want to accompany me, then I will accompany you," Ruan Miaomiao held Owen's hand, "Let's go."

The hand holding him had no warmth, it was as cold as Owen's, but it seemed so broad and powerful. He was led by Ruan Miaomiao and approached the gate. Along the way, Owen didn't dare to look up, but just stared at the clasped hands of the two, Even the fingertips were shaking each other. Owen could feel that Ruan Miaomiao was nervous and scared, but he never stopped.

Even though he was only a teenager, he was so strong that Owen couldn't help but feel sad, and his eyes were red again.

After the blood was drawn, the test results would not come out until three days later.

Back home, Owen sat on the sofa in a daze, motionless. The three days were actually very short, but the feeling of waiting was extremely tormenting. Waves of stress and anxiety tormented the spirit and body. Owen Three days added up to fall asleep time is not more than time.

Ruan Miaomiao asked for leave from the school, and also talked to Lin Zifeng on the phone, but said that Owen had a bad cold and no one was taking care of him, so he would stay with him for a few days.

After cleaning up the mess in the house, Ruan Miaomiao sat next to Owen and hugged his shoulders, Owen couldn't help shaking.

"Aren't you hungry, I'll get you a bowl of noodles."

Looking up at Ruan Miaomiao, Owen didn't answer, but just fell into Ruan Miaomiao's arms. He felt that he couldn't hold on anymore, really couldn't hold on.

"Aren't you afraid?" Owen asked hoarsely.

Ruan Miaomiao nodded: "I'm afraid, why not, but my mother said that even if it's a big deal, you have to eat."

Owen took a deep breath, and always felt that the smell of this kid was very reassuring. He had never been so vulnerable, and now he just wanted to find someone to rely on, but the temperature in Ruan Miaomiao's arms made him feel just right, and Owen tugged helplessly. The corner of his mouth moved, revealing a bitter smile.

"You really listened to your mother."

"Well, my mother is an amazing woman. She brought me up by herself and never complained. It wasn't until she met my father that she had a good life for a few days, but when I was 12 years old, she was checked out. Stomach cancer, it didn't take long to go away, but luckily my dad..."

Ruan Miaomiao stopped suddenly when he said this, and Owen looked up at him with a melancholy face, knowing that Ruan Miaomiao remembered his fruitless love affair with his stepfather again, Owen couldn't tell what it was like in his heart.

"When...when did you fall in love with your dad?"

"I don't know either," Ruan Miaomiao shook her head and sighed, "Probably after knowing that men can have sex with men, I saw my dad have that kind of impulse, and I would think about him every night. Scared and couldn't accept that I thought about my dad so I ran away from home and hid at my friend's house and did a lot of research and found out I might be gay and then I went to a bar to see if I was right about someone else It’s okay for my man, not just for my dad, but it still doesn’t seem to work in the end…”

Owen listened, he understood Ruan Miaomiao's confusion, because when he found out that he liked men, he was also afraid, and looked for various methods to verify it. Owen seemed to suddenly feel that it was not so shameful for him to be regarded as Lin Zifeng by Ruan Miaomiao , but a deep helplessness.

"At the bar that day, if I hadn't gone to strike up a conversation with you, maybe so many things wouldn't have happened."

Ruan Miaomiao chuckled, "Even if we didn't meet at the bar that day, my dad will ask you to teach me soon."

That's right, I will still meet this child, and I will still fall in love with him. I really lost to Xiao Ruohan's crow's mouth. It is not false to say that it is a predestined fate.

"Why did you want to open a room with me that day?" Owen looked at Ruan Miaomiao's pure face. In fact, he wanted to ask this question a long time ago. "My friend has also observed you for a long time. He said that several people came to you, but you ignored it. , why did you choose me?"

"Hmm... Maybe it's because you smell paint on your body. I think you can paint, so you shouldn't be a bad person." Ruan Miaomiao got up, looked at Owen, and walked towards the kitchen. Go ahead and have a bowl of noodles, you have to eat as much as you want.”

"Miaomiao."

Owen stood up and called him to stop, hesitating for a long time before saying: "If the test report comes out, you are infected...Will you hate me?"

Ruan Miaomiao didn't speak, but just looked at him calmly.

Owen was a little at a loss, and after a while, he said in a panic: "You will hate me...you will hate me, right? After all, if I didn't force you that night, I would..."

"I wasn't forced by you," Ruan Miaomiao lowered her head, unable to see her expression clearly, but her voice trembled a little, "You also said that later... I also have problems. I can't control it. If it really becomes like that, I won't hate you... what about you? Will you hate me?"

Owen was startled. He even wondered if Ruan Miaomiao knew that it was because of him that he indulged in this situation.

Seeing that Owen was silent, Ruan Miaomiao said again: "The thing about that painting...can you forgive me?"

Hearing this, Owen couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief. Unexpectedly, he was still brooding over this matter. Owen walked over and rubbed his hair, and said with a smile: "Fool, how can such a small matter be compared with a matter of human life, Don't tell me I've forgotten."

Ruan Miaomiao looked at him, nodded honestly, and stopped talking, just turned and walked into the kitchen.

Owen leaned against the door and looked at Ruan Miaomiao. Although the expression on his face was a little tired, he still looked like an angel. Owen even felt for a while that as long as Ruan Miaomiao was safe and sound, it didn't matter if he got infected, because this The child still has such a beautiful and good life to go.

It is the most difficult time at night. Horror information about 100% mortality and pictures of AIDS patients keep appearing in front of Owen’s eyes. He never knew that death could be so terrible. Ruan Miaomiao would come and hug him when he heard it, which is a bit funny to say, when the two lay together for the first time, Ruan Miaomiao stuck to Owen like a wounded child, but now, Owen even Not even a child, like a baby trembling in Ruan Miaomiao's arms.

The morning of the third day finally came. Ruan Miaomiao came back from buying some soy milk and fried dough sticks. Owen only took a bite or two before sitting aside and smoking.

Today is like a trial day for them, the result is very simple, either die or live.

Ruan Miaomiao took the cigarette in Owen's hand and pressed it into the ashtray. Without saying a word, she took Owen's hand and rushed out the door. Until the two came to the CDC again, Ruan Miaomiao still held his hand tightly. .

Sitting in the place where the test papers were taken, and waiting for a long time, Owen seemed to hear someone calling their names in the room, and Owen suddenly came back to his senses, and grabbed Ruan Miaomiao's hand even tighter.

"Would you like me to get it for you?"

Owen looked at him, but finally shook his head. He knew he had to face it, and this child had been strong for him for too long.

The two walked into the room, and the staff handed the test sheets to them respectively.

Ruan Miaomiao didn't quite know what the parameters on paper meant, but he learned online that as long as the result was negative, it meant he was not infected.

Ruan Miaomiao's several test results all showed negative.

I am not infected!That means... Ruan Miaomiao's first reaction was to turn to look at Owen, but Owen had already turned around and ran out the door holding the test sheet.

Ruan Miaomiao hurriedly chased him out until he saw Owen facing the wall, his body shaking constantly, until he reached the corner of the wall outside the gate of the CDC.

"Teacher O..."

Not seeing Owen's expression made Ruan Miaomiao feel uneasy. When he walked in, he found that Owen's face was covered with tears. Ruan Miaomiao hurriedly took a look at the test sheet in his hand.

Like his, all are feminine.

None of them were infected with AIDS.

He was not infected with any sexually transmitted diseases.

Ruan Miaomiao's eyes burst into brilliance in an instant, and she held Owen's shoulders and said excitedly: "Great! Teacher Ou, we are all fine! Did you see that we are not infected! It's great!"

Owen kept hiding in the corner, crying even harder. He didn't want Ruan Miaomiao to see him in such a mess. Owen had no experience in crying. Even if he was emotionally hurt, he just hid somewhere else Secret tears, never seen.

He used to be such a strong and proud person, but now he has become so fragile and pitiful.

"Teacher Ou, don't be like this, you should be happy... We are all fine! We will not die!"

Owen was so choked up that he couldn't say a word, he could only nod vigorously, threw himself on Ruan Miaomiao's body and hugged him tightly.

"I'm fine...you're fine...you still have...a very good life..."

Listening to Owen's strenuous pronunciation, Ruan Miaomiao hugged his body back and nodded slightly: "Well, you too."

Ruan Miaomiao also cried before the last word was left.

The sun was shining that day. Although it couldn't shine into the corner, the bodies of the two hugging each other became warm.

Perhaps only those who have experienced it will understand that the tears of joy of regaining a new life turned out to be such a happy thing.