【Norley】Ultramarine Deep White

Playing the eternal farewell carelessly with a whiteness untainted by sorrow.

20

During the 24 seasons that repeat, Ray never dared to imagine a world without Norman.

Life is meaningful. Only when alive will flowers bloom, dew will fall, and encounters will happen. He is far more aware of the weight of this meaning than anyone else. Let him know that he stumbled, but he couldn't help being the strangler he hated most.

For thousands of years, humans and ghosts have been in a position of hatred and revenge. There is no unilateral complete destruction. The rebel army led by Geelong is probably just an information source used by the nobles. If they know the human plan, there will be no There is only a war between humans and ghosts in the civil war.He had to cut off all the burdens and biases with his own hands, and reconcile them with the thoughts of the other two, or it would never end.

Prepared a small amount of Crotontiglium powder, glue, gauze, and bandages. Lei sat in the infirmary facing Moon Shadow for a long time. At this time, he stroked his abdomen with both hands and felt the weak signal sent to him by the connected flesh and blood. Only then did he understand what Isabella had done to him. What you do, what you say, what you think, every word and every expression is so profound, the out-of-tune song is just a mourning song for those who cannot give happiness to the wrong people.

"Sorry, forgive everything I did today."

Pour the powder into the water glass, Lei's tone was very soft, but his face was as calm as ever, suddenly there was a hasty sound of turning the keyhole from behind, the door was pushed open creakingly, he turned his head back without any surprise, Sure enough, it was the serious Vincent, and Chaji, "Boss is looking for you."

"Tell him I have something to do and I don't have time to see him tonight."

Ray knew that Norman would definitely send someone to find him, so he calmly picked up the water glass.As if knowing what he would say, Vincent silently retreated into the darkness, revealing Norman's figure.

"It's okay, I'm here to find Ray."

"Tch..." Seeing the person coming, Lei turned his head abruptly, unwilling to face Norman.

Norman walked up to Lei's side at a leisurely pace, then snatched Lei's water glass with a smile, and drank it in one gulp. He didn't say anything, and there was no need to say anything. Knowing about the two, Vincent still closed the door intimately, leaving Norman and Ray alone.

"Lei, don't you have something to say to me?" Norman leaned in front of Lei, the two of them were almost face to face, and the distance between their breathing and lingering breath was only a few centimeters. Lei was used to this kind of offensive psychological method. Without even blinking, "Sorry, I have nothing to say to you now."

The coldest time in winter has passed, and the two of them confronted each other in icy silence for a long time. Norman went around and hugged Lei. The illusory intimacy made Lei stiffen, but he didn't push away, but let the warm palm wreak havoc on his abdomen. , He believes that Norman has this right, the right to know and touch.

As for life and death, it is up to him to decide.

"He really exists." Norman seemed to be asking questions, and Lei Wei sighed inaudibly, "Otherwise."

"Should it be two months?"

"You..." Ray wanted to ask Norman how he knew, but he realized that since the combination of sensibility gave birth to results, there is no possibility for Norman to be ignorant, and at worst, he might be the instigator of it intentionally.His heart sank, and he clenched his fists, "Don't tell me, you did it on purpose."

"No." Norman denied, and then nodded and touched Lei's shoulder, "But I have thought about the possibility of accidents, both men and women are named Ivan, and if Emma and Dong are his godmothers and godfathers, his physical strength will definitely be good .”

"Accidental..."

"It was an accident."

Lei felt inexplicably irritated, saying that there was nothing wrong with the accident, but he didn't like how Norman recognized their child. No, maybe he was the only one who thought it was their child, because it was just an "accident" of rational decline, not with Anticipation and love come, so it's better to treat it as a damn accident.

He was wrong, and he never did it right from beginning to end.

"Norman, I don't want to pour cold water on you, but are you expecting me to be born?"

"Ray thinks I shouldn't expect it?"

"I'm not going to have kids and I don't like having surprises."

"No problem, we'll have a happy family, trust me."

Potential dangers, real accidents, they are besieged on all sides, happiness?family?

"Happy family? Stop kidding Norman, I can't laugh."

Lei coldly pushed away the close body temperature, as if he had made up his mind.Putting away his easy-going smile, Norman held Lei back, and said in a somewhat disorganized way, "I don't understand, maybe I should, but I don't understand what Lei wants. In fact, Lei doesn't want anything. It's me who is doing it." Extra thing, isn't it?"

"What exactly do I want?" Feeling amused, Lei showed a funny expression, then picked up Norman's collar, and said word by word, "I just want you to live, and then, don't interfere with how I deal with the accident."

Biting the hidden annoyance, he picked up the gauze and bandages, left Norman behind, and rushed out without looking back.

For the second time, Norman realized the distance between Ray and himself, so far from heart to heart, separated by an insurmountable chest wall and mask, clearly he was making a promise to bear the usual responsibility for life accidents, and he wanted to give Ray It is a limited whole life, which is not very different from asking him to live, but Lei disagrees.

Because even if he didn't like it, Ray never once thought that this life was an accident, but he couldn't help it, shouldn't and couldn't be born. Norman's reference made him unable to maintain a proper calmness, and it made him more It is clear that accidents must be dealt with.

——There can be no more hesitation.

"Ray!" The footsteps of two teenagers echoed in the empty corridor in the dark night, "Where are you going?"

Ray didn't even look at Norman, but walked forward, "You know what I'm going to do."

Norman frowned, "Do you hate him that much?"

"Growing up, I have only hated myself."

"I don't want you to do that."

"This is my own business, he is in my body, it has nothing to do with you."

"Don't kid yourself, Ray, you know he's our kid."

"...Who is the one who is deceiving himself?!" After saying that, Lei stopped, and he stared at Norman seriously, his expression was confused by the shadows in the depths of the night, "The person who vowed at noon to bless Emma and me It's you and no one else, Norman. I hope you will do what you say, and don't go back on your word because of an accident."

Unexpectedly, Lei actually cared about his reply at noon. Norman held Lei's wrist tightly, "So you really want to start a family with Emma? Emma knows, you are pregnant."

"You want to form a family with me just because you know it." Because Emma wants to work hard to give happiness and smile to a life that does not belong to her and should not be given responsibility by her, Ray added, "There is no other reason."

"Do you know it's our child? I don't know." Norman narrowed his eyes firmly, and Lei was stunned for a moment, then took a few steps back cautiously, and distanced himself from Norman, "So what if you don't know, what do you want to do... ..."

The two walked around in the corridor, and Norman returned the original words to Lei, "You know what I'm going to do."

"It's ridiculous, do you really want me to be born, by any means?"

"We can't give up, Ray."

"Don't give up, then what? What can you give him? Can you give him a coming-of-age ceremony or teach him how to beat me in chess?!" Lei couldn't restrain his emotions, and spent two months regretting, hesitating, and contradicting All the emotions of self-blame erupted, and the questioning Norman was speechless, so he slowed down, "I didn't have a reason for being born. According to what you said, he was just an accident and a mistake."

"No Lei, my accident didn't mean that..."

"How interesting can an accident be? I don't want to argue with you. I'm tired and I want to rest."

Ray returned to the room quietly, and Norman followed him every step of the way, as if he was afraid of what he would do. He ignored Norman's gaze and lay down to sleep. Norman stood by the bed and looked at him with a complicated expression.After the overheated mood cooled down, he looked at the ceiling and said, "I don't mind you sleeping next to me."

"I'm not sleepy." Norman shook his head expressionlessly.

"Then you go out." Seeing Lei's eviction order, Norman laughed, "You won't do anything else tonight, will you?"

"You can hold me so tight that I can't do anything."

Norman, who went to bed at four o'clock in the morning, got up at six o'clock, and was busy from seven o'clock until late at night, just compromised.

Next to him was Norman, who might be pretending to be asleep, and Ray quietly tied Norman's hands with bandages. Fortunately, Norman seemed to be overworked, and he was really sleeping. He locked the window and put it in the keyhole. Filled with glue, he took his packed suitcase and carefully slipped out of the room.

Norman cared too much about their child, who was born like a ticking time bomb, so he made a half-pick and miscalculated, that is, he wanted an abortion. Half a month ago was the best time. The reason why he waited until today was just Wanting to use the child to play tricks, so that Norman can focus on him and have no time to think about Emma's affairs, he has already agreed with Emma to act tonight in the afternoon.

Before saying goodbye to the unexpected, he will leave Norman's world first.

to be continued