Domestic dog

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Ji Shu had no class on Wednesday afternoon, which was originally the time for him to make an appointment to see a psychiatrist.

He was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. For a long time, he couldn't control himself. His emotions were like a small boat in the waves, erratic and might be submerged at any time.The life he once dreamed of became bleak and disintegrated in front of him, until finally he didn't even want to take a look at it.

But this disease is not so simple, in this low state, several times, he was pulled out by another kind of emotion that he suddenly raised, and his soul seemed to be stuffed into another skin.He became hyperactive, and seemed to have endless energy all day long, communicating with people, doing outdoor sports, and bruising himself from bumps and bumps.

Lying on the bed in the middle of the night, his heart seemed to burst through his throat, his breathing was short, and he stared at the sky without feeling sleepy.

Later, this emotion gradually got out of control. He felt as if scalding hot water had been poured over his scalp all day long, and his whole body ached.He can spend the whole day crying, or he can wander around all day, visiting every corner of this strange city.His resentment was hoarded in his heart, and there seemed to be two people pulling in his body, the good one and the bad one, the depressed and irritable one, but why did these two people love Ji Yuedong so much.

When Ji Yuedong came to Beijing, Ji Shu's condition was actually not good at that time. There was a period of emotional control, and after the calm, he fell into a period of time to torture each other with himself.He was prepared, but Ji Yuedong appeared.

Ji Shu didn't want Ji Yuedong to know this. During those days, he secretly hid all his medicines. He pushed to the psychiatrist for treatment, pretended to be a normal person, and stayed in bed all day long. Beside Ji Yuedong, he looked at this man greedily.

He was on and off, his mind was wandering, broken into two.

Want to reconcile, but don't want to, one second is as docile as a small animal, and the next second is like a trapped animal because of anger.

Maybe the bad one won in the end. He lied to Ji Yuedong that he would go to Europe with Lu Xiao, and then returned to Guangdong by himself.

People's exhaustion has accumulated to a certain extent, and it seems that a single feather can crush it

He was just jostled lightly, like someone pushing and shoving after school one day, and he could have walked away slowly, but this time he didn't.He didn't want to stand still at all, his body shook a few times, and then fell to the ground.

He lay on the zebra crossing, the headlights of several cars flashed, the horns blared uninterruptedly, the crowd surrounded him, and the black night was swallowed up.

He lay on the ground crying, crying out of breath.

He knew he was sick, had a serious illness.

In the ward, Ji Yuedong listened to Ji Shu's quiet statement, closed and opened his eyes, forbearing and restrained.

He held the group of fragile crystals carefully, lowered his head, forehead to forehead, the tips of his noses touched each other, rubbing against each other lightly.

Ji Yuedong said to him: "I will never leave you alone again."

Ji Shu lay in tears, his breathing gradually calmed down, he seemed to be asleep, but his hands were tightly clutching Ji Yuedong's sleeve.Ji Yuedong kept holding him still for a long time, until half of his arm was numb, and when he moved a little, his sleeves were immediately pulled tight.Ji Shu seemed to be awakened from a nightmare, and looked at Ji Yuedong with wide eyes, with a weak voice, he said, "Are you leaving again?"

Ji Yuedong held his hand backhand, fingers interlaced, and he whispered, "I won't go."

He changed his posture, hugged Ji Shu's shoulders, lowered his head and leaned into Ji Shu's ear and asked him, "Do you want some water?"

Ji Shu shook his head and nodded again, Ji Yuedong smiled and asked him if he wanted it, and Ji Shu said yes.

Ji Yuedong handed the water glass to his mouth, Ji Shu sipped it, and Ji Yuedong asked again, "Are you hungry, do you want something to eat?"

Ji Shu had consumed too much emotion just now, and now he relaxed, his expression tired, and he whispered: "I want to sleep for a while."

This night was extraordinarily long, Ji Yuedong pulled Ji Shu into his future again, and reshuffled the originally established plan.

Then he thought all night about his future with Ji Shu.

Ji Shu hasn't slept so deeply for a long time. When he woke up, his eyes were very watery. He stretched out his hands to rub them, his wrists were pulled away, and a wet towel soaked in water wiped his eyes.He opened his eyes and looked at Ji Yuedong in a daze. After a few seconds, he pulled up the quilt and slowly shrank in like a little snail.

Ji Yuedong smiled, and he said, "What are you hiding from?"

Ji Shu didn't speak, his head in the quilt moved, Ji Yuedong pulled his quilt, but didn't.

Ji Shu hid himself under the quilt, but his thoughts slipped outside.Ji Yuedong said a few words, but he didn't respond, and then he heard a deep laugh, and the air around him was gone, he was stunned for a moment, and immediately poked his head out, his eyes were exposed, and his gaze fell into Ji Yuedong's eyes. Dong Xiaohua's eyes.

Under the thin morning light, Ji Yuedong's face seemed to be shrouded in light, Ji Shu heard him say: "Get up, I'll take you home."

There was a creeper on the outer wall of the old house that hadn't been lived in for a long time. Ji Shu got out of the car, stood in front of a large greenery, and looked up.Ji Yuedong walked up to him and raised his head together with Ji Shu. He said, "I don't come here often, and I don't care much about it. I'll send someone to get rid of it tomorrow."

"No need." Ji Shu paused, "I really like it."

He pushed open the door, and the house had been cleaned, almost the same as before. Ji Shu walked around the house, as if looking for something.Ji Yuedong stood at the window, from here he could see the small trees in the yard.

Ji Shu came down from upstairs, holding the toy that he bought for Dordo in his hand, he blinked and asked, "Is Dordo still in Zheng Yuan's place?"

Ji Yuedong shook his head, pointed out the window, and said to Ji Shu, "Dordo is outside, under that little tree."

Ji Shu walked to the window and didn't dare to go out. He lay on the glass and stared blankly.

Standing behind him, Ji Yuedong saw his trembling shoulders. After a long time, he heard him say: "I should come and see it. You told me that when you brought Dordo back, I You should see it."

Ji Yuedong hugged him from behind, kissed the top of his hair, and he whispered: "You like it so much, it knows it. In the next life, it will still find you and be your little rabbit."

Ji Shu shook his head, "No, I don't want it to be my rabbit. If there is a next life, let Dordo become a human being."

After Ji Shu was picked up by Ji Yuedong, his mental condition improved a lot.Ji Yuedong contacted Ji Shu's psychologist, and with Ji Shu's permission, he learned about Ji Shu's situation.The recurrence rate of bipolar disorder is very high. This time, Ji Shu relapsed after stopping the drug. Ji Yuedong followed the doctor's instructions and made a daily promise of the medicine that Ji Shu would take, and reminded Ji Shu to take it regularly.

He put almost all his energy on Ji Shu, but Ji Shu, who was sick, was sometimes different from what he thought.

He is very quiet most of the time, and he doesn't like to talk much more than before. When he is alone, his face is very cold. When Ji Yuedong talks to him, he will only roll his eyelids.He likes watching movies very much. During the day, he pulls Ji Yuedong to curl up on the sofa, and the two of them are next to each other. From the beginning to the end of the movie, probably because of the medicine, he has been unable to concentrate. Not once The movie is complete.

This is why, his learning efficiency in the medical university has always been very low.He hated himself for being sick, and resented those medicines, but there was nothing he could do. If he wanted to live a good life, he had to do so.

At the end of a movie, Ji Shu lay on Ji Yuedong's body. He slept for about half an hour, and after waking up, he was groggy for a long time.Ji Yuedong gently stroked the back of his head and asked him, "Are you hungry?"

Ji Shu nodded, and he said, "I want to eat dumplings, the dumplings you made."

"There are no dumplings at home, so I'll go out and buy them."

Ji Shu responded, and Ji Yuedong said to him: "Then you stay at home, I will be back soon."

"it is good."

There is no supermarket nearby, so Ji Yuedong drove for 10 minutes, went to the supermarket to buy some boxes of quick-frozen dumplings, and some sweets.There was a traffic jam on the way back, and when I got home more than half an hour later than expected, Ji Shu was still sitting on the sofa, changing channels with the remote control.

Ji Yuedong was carrying two bags of dumplings. When Ji Shu saw him, his eyelids slightly opened and he didn't say a word.

Ji Yuedong knew that he was upset, so he walked up to Ji Shu, knelt down and said to Ji Shu, "Sorry, I was stuck in traffic when I came back, so I was late."

"I thought you were gone again."

"I'm not leaving." Ji Yuedong shook his hand, "I'll cook dumplings for you."

It took about an hour to go back and forth. The dumplings I bought were put into the pot, and they were boiled and taken out, steaming hot.Ji Yuedong walked up to Ji Shu with the dumplings, Ji Shu took a look, turned his head away, and said, "I don't want to eat it."

Ji Yuedong was stunned for a moment, Ji Shu pushed him away with a sullen face, and walked upstairs.

The bottom of the plate containing the dumplings burned his palms, and Ji Yuedong thought of what the psychiatrist had told him that most patients with bipolar disorder were emotionally unstable and irritable.He was prepared in his heart, but when he really met, his heart still felt as if he had been kicked, and the pain made him speechless.

Ji Shu sat in the room in a daze, Ji Yuedong warmed a glass of milk and went upstairs, the door of the room was ajar.He knocked on the door lightly, but Ji Shu didn't make a sound. Ji Yuedong opened the door and went in, and saw Ji Shu sitting on the bay window.

He sat down with the cup, put one hand around Ji Shu's shoulder, leaned over and asked in a low voice, "What's the matter, are you unhappy?"

Ji Shu didn't want to talk, Ji Yuedong didn't ask anymore, and handed the milk to Ji Shu, "Drink some milk?"

"I don't want to drink."

"Aren't you hungry?" Ji Yuedong didn't let go of his hands in the air, and he said softly, "You didn't eat much today."

"I've said it all, I don't want to eat it." Ji Shu pushed his hand away, the milk spilled from the cup and splashed on Ji Yuedong's clothes.

The atmosphere was stagnant, Ji Shu stared at the milk stain, his eyelashes trembling.When Ji Yuedong stood up, Ji Shu suddenly grabbed his sleeve, he regained his composure, and said anxiously, "I'm sorry."

Ji Yuedong pulled his hand away, and then clasped his fingers tightly. He lowered his voice, shook his head and said, "It's okay, I'll go change clothes first."

When he came back after changing his clothes, there was an empty cup on the small table by the bay window, and Ji Shu's mouth was frothed with milk.

Ji Yuedong walked up to him, picked up the empty cup and shook it in front of his eyes, Ji Shu raised his head and reached out to him.Ji Yuedong hugged him into his arms, and Ji Shu leaned over, listening to the familiar heartbeat, he said softly, "I'm sorry."

"You apologized just now."

"I want to talk to you again."

"It's okay, it's okay." Ji Yuedong comforted in a low voice.

Ji Shu lowered his head, put his arms around Ji Yuedong's neck, and leaned against his body, he wrinkled his nose, his voice was wrinkled, crying tiredly, and said: "Have I gone bad? "

"No, you..."

Before Ji Yuedong finished speaking, Ji Shu leaned forward, his warm breath fell on the side of Ji Yuedong's neck, his lips brushed across the skin, Ji Yuedong took a breath, and heard him say: "I I lost my temper with you for no reason just now."

"it does not matter."

"Are you angry? After driving for so long, the dumplings were cooked, but I said no."

"Don't be angry, how could I be angry with you."

"But I'm angry, I can't control myself, I spilled all your warm milk." Ji Shu's arms tightened, and he said, "I don't want to hurt you."

Ji Yuedong put his hand on his back, like running along the back of a kitten, and he said to Ji Shu, "It's okay, Xiao Shu, I will accept all your emotions. Don't feel any burden, you are sick, now let me love you, okay?"

Ji Shu refused to answer, Ji Yuedong sighed, picked him up, put it next to his ear, and said in a low voice: "You are really hard to chase."