Don't understand

It took only one night for Guan Xiao to compose the music in one go. The tears flowing in his heart formed a sad river and dizzy at the tip of Guan Xiao's pen. Dust, Guan Xiao lightly tapped a few empty keys on the table with his fingers, and it took him a long time to open his eyes, filled with horror.

Guan Xiao went to find Xu Zhixing with the tune, just in time that Xu Zhixing was filming an important scene.

Under the makeup of special effects, Chen Qian in the camera is described as haggard and thin, and he is so downcast that Guan Xiao can hardly recognize him. He is wearing a dark gray coat and huddled in a corner, and the whole person looks gloomy. In Chen Gan's eyes There was a crazy and weird light, as if he had seen something extremely funny, and his smiling face was distorted.Seeing Chen Gan pick up the knife and slash at his wrist, Guan Xiao took a deep breath, suppressed the scream, and his hands were sweating profusely.

"CUT!" Xu Zhixing frowned tightly, motioned Liu Yu to go up and have a look, then turned around and said, "Little Guan is here."

Guan Xiao nodded, and looked in Chen Gan's direction from the corner of the eye. As soon as Xu Zhixing called to stop, Liu Yu ran up to block his sight in a panic, only half of Liu Yu's anxious face and Chen Ganxu squatting down could be seen. The outline of the clothes, the weird feeling of uneasiness in my heart is more obvious at the moment.

Some of the people on the set were familiar with Guan Xiao, and when they saw Guan Xiao coming to visit the set, they were overjoyed and came forward to chat. Guan Xiao smiled and chatted with them, but he was worried about Chen Qian.

"How about it, do you want to take medicine?" Liu Yu looked at Chen Qian nervously.

Chen Gan slowly showed a bitter smile, stared blankly at the concrete floor in front of him, and said softly, "No, I saw him coming."

"You can do this? He's talking to Director Xu. He can't see it. Take the medicine first." Liu Yu took out the medicine bottle in his trouser pocket, unscrewed it, poured out a pill in the palm of his hand, and handed it to Chen Gan.

Chen Gan broke out in cold sweat, took it with trembling hands, and swallowed the water in Liu Yu's hand.

Seeing Guan Xiao approaching after a while, Chen Qian stood up, smiled and waved to Guan Xiao, "Come to visit the class?"

"Well, are you uncomfortable?" Guan Xiao worriedly looked at Chen Gan's face.

"No, it's just that the emotional ups and downs are too intense and a little dehydrated," Chen Gan explained with a smile.

"Pay attention to your body, you'll be fine after surgery, if you're dehydrated, drink some light salt water next time, so that you can replenish it faster," Guan Xiao was still worried, and hurriedly urged.

"I see, go sit with me, are you okay today?" Chen Qian took Guan Xiao's hand, seeing that Guan Xiao did not refuse, his eyes lit up.

"I'm here to deliver the song. I wrote it last night. I'll show it to Director Xu. You can listen to it if you have time, so you can give me some advice." Guan Xiao's ears were a little red, but fortunately, Old Xu's crew had strict rules. Not a single reporter was allowed in.

"It must be very nice," Chen Gan leaned close to Guan Xiao's ear, and affirmed softly.

The next scene started shooting immediately. Huo Wenduan held the old frayed group photo in his wallet and smiled like an ignorant child. He cherished his lover's hair with his hands, showing a satisfied expression.When Chen Gan performed like this, Guan Xiao's fingers were sore and numb, which was a side effect of the dull pain. He kept imagining the possible situation of Chen Gan when he left, until his lips were almost bitten.

Guan Xiao originally wanted to go back after sending the song to a class, but Chen Qian asked him to stay, saying that they would have a meal together after the filming. Looking at Chen Ganyan from the side.

After the filming ended, Chen Qian asked Liu Yu to go first, and drove Guan Xiao to the "Jiu Ji Old House" to drink soup.Jiuji’s herbal soup is very famous. The traditional Chinese medicine soup is delicious and nourishing. It tastes very delicious without any bitterness of medicine. Guan Xiao used to like this soup.In addition to the health-preserving soup, the Hong Kong-style side dishes here are also good. Most of them are light and refreshing dishes. Chen Gan has just had an operation on his stomach, so he dare not choose spicy restaurants.

Chen Gan parked the car in the underground garage, and got into the elevator with Guan Xiao.

Chen Gan reserved a private room in advance. After the two sat down, Chen Gan asked the waiter to serve the food. The room shrouded in warm yellow light had a warm and comfortable atmosphere. Looking down from the large floor-to-ceiling windows, it was facing the bustling traffic. It is the dim night and the lights of thousands of houses.

Chen Gan ordered a steamed sea bass that Guan Xiao liked very much. When the waiter served the dish, Chen Gan caught a glimpse of Guan Xiaoshui's bright eyes, staring straight at the fish-shaped white bone china plate.

"Drink some soup first," Chen Gan smiled and raised a bowl to Guan Xiao, who took it lightly and took a small sip.

Chen Gan picked up the chopsticks, picked a large piece of fat fish maw, put it in an empty bowl, and picked it carefully. Chen Gan was very skillful in his movements, and it seemed that he did this often.Chen Gan gently pushed the thorny fish bowl in front of Guan Xiao, and said softly, "Eat it, there are no thorns."

Guan Xiao was stuck in his throat, fine and dense pain came up, and the hand holding the bowl unconsciously exerted strength, Guan Xiao looked up to see Chen Gan, seeing Chen Gan picking up vegetables for himself indifferently, he felt unspeakably uncomfortable.

Chen Gan didn't say much, as if there was no gap between them for two years, but they had been eating together like this without interruption, and this time was just the most common dinner among thousands of times.

During the dinner, the two just ate in silence, but Guan Xiao didn't feel uncomfortable, even if he didn't say a word around Chen Gan, he wouldn't put pressure on him, because he had always been so gentle to him.

"Do you want to listen to the song?" Guan Xiao finished eating, his stomach was warm and his heart was soft.

"It's too bad to listen to here, go home and listen to it," Chen Qian suggested while looking at Guan Xiao with a smile.

Guan Xiao pursed his lips and remained silent, his cheeks turned suspiciously red.

Chen Gan chuckled, "What are you afraid of, I won't do anything to you."

Guan Xiao's heart sank, and he raised his eyes to see that Chen Qian was smiling no differently than usual, so he hurriedly explained, "It's not because I'm afraid of this, but... I'm afraid of inconvenience."

"Is it inconvenient for a friend to be a guest at home," Chen Qian still smiled.

Guan Xiaoyue felt colder when he heard this, and looked at Chen Qian in disbelief, not knowing how to get out of this paradox for a while, Chen Gan laid a cobweb of dilemma for himself in just one meal.If it is a friend, then what Chen Gan said is reasonable, and he is generous, but the key is that he really thinks that he and Chen Gan are just friends. Does Chen Gan mean to draw a line with himself or to test his reaction?If they are not simple friends, then being in the same room with awkward identities, coupled with his difficulty in controlling his feelings for Chen Gan, will inevitably unravel the past two years, and then the knot in their hearts will be untied .

The emotion in Chen Gan's eyes was getting colder and colder, and Guan Xiao's reaction could be seen in full view, and he couldn't help but feel a chill in his heart.

When are you going to ask, if I don't force you.

How long do you have to hesitate before you will fully trust me and yourself.

What are you afraid of? Didn't I say that, as long as you ask, I will not let you down.

So what are you still worried about.

Guan Xiao fixed his panic, stared at Chen Gan, and said, "Another day."

Chen Gan squinted his eyes, and the support of hope in his heart collapsed in an instant, raising a cloud of sad dust. He remained calm on the surface, but nodded slightly noncommittal.

At the end of a meal, I felt disheartened.

Chen Gan settled the bill and sent Guan Xiao home. There was no conversation on the way back. Chen Gan frowned, grabbed the steering wheel with one hand, and gently rested his hand on his abdomen without showing any traces.

"Is your stomach hurting again?" Guan Xiao worried. Given Chen Gan's current physical condition, it is really worrying to be overloaded with work.

"It's okay," Chen Qian said calmly, looking at the road ahead without moving his eyes.

Arriving at the downstairs of Guan Xiao's apartment, Guan Xiao saw that Chen Gan had nothing else to say, so he took off his seat belt and said goodbye to Chen Gan to get out of the car.

Chen Gan twitched the corners of his mouth and was about to leave when suddenly his stomach convulsed. He turned his head to look at Guan Xiao's back, as if he had returned to the familiar day, the sound of the luggage rollers still squeaked in his ears.

Chen Gan lay on the steering wheel exhaustedly, buried his head in the crook of his arms, and waited for this wave of unbearable pain to pass. His stomach, which had become more and more fragile in the past two years, couldn't bear even a little stimulation and started clamoring.

Suddenly, the car window was knocked twice anxiously. Chen Gan looked up weakly and found Guan Xiao standing outside the car looking at him nervously. Chen Gan pulled down the car window, "What's wrong?"

"Are you feeling unwell? Go up and have a rest," Guan Xiao hurriedly said, looking at Chen Gan's pale complexion in the night.

"...No need, let's do it another day," Chen Gan smiled bleakly, and raised the window of the car as if angry, enduring the pain of rolling in his chest, started the car and drove away, leaving only Guan Xiao in a daze. Stand still.

He is angry, and should I be happy or sad.

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