Mulberry elm twilight

In my impression, Sang Jingyu has always been glamorous, and her every gesture attracts the attention of others.He is the focus of everyone's attention. When he was acting, he could almost be said to be radiant, but later he restrained himself a little. After all, if he is not free even in his private life, then he is not Sang Jingyu. bound.For so many years, Shen Mu may not know about other things about Sang Jingyu, but she knows this one very well.

Shen Mu blinked through the glass window, because the Sang Jingyu who suddenly came into view was not the one he remembered.His face is still incomparably upright, his eyes are as black as the far-reaching night sky, his figure is tall and straight, wrapped in a windbreaker to look even more slender, but at this moment his face is extremely pale, Shen Mu feels that his own is better than him A little bit, his beautiful thin lips were almost bloodless, Shen Mu was shocked when he took off his sunglasses just now, because there were deep dark circles under his eyes, it seemed that he hadn't slept well for several days and nights Last sleep.

Sang Jingyu took off his sunglasses unconsciously after seeing Shen Mu, but as soon as he took them off, he realized that he was not in a good condition at the moment, but anyway, since he found Shen Mu, he couldn't let Shen Mu leave easily.So he rushed into the coffee shop almost without stopping for a moment, not giving Shen Mu time to react.

In the blink of Shen Mu's eyes again, the man had already sat down in front of him, he seemed to try his best to smile at himself, and greeted him: "Shen Mu, I finally saw you." However, he did not successfully conceal it. , because his voice trembled slightly, and his voice sounded hoarse.

"What's wrong with you?" Shen Mu couldn't help asking.

Sang Jingyu shook his head quickly and said, "No, it's nothing, I'm here to talk to you."

He didn't say a word about the last time Shen Mu put pigeons on him, as if he just met again, and then he wanted to talk to Shen Mu.

Shen Mu would be a little surprised, let's not talk about what to talk about first, just that Sang Jingyu came to find him so suddenly is enough to make him extremely surprised.

So he asked, "How did you find me?"

Sang Jingyu was suddenly speechless, and after a while, he seemed to be discussing with him and said: "I can, can I tell you later?"

after?

Shen Mu never thought there was a future, but Sang Jingyu didn't want to talk about it, so he didn't ask any more questions.

"Then, what do you want to talk to me about?" Shen Mu asked.

Sang Jingyu moved her dry lips, and said after a while, "I, I want to be with you, can you stop running away?"

Shen Mu froze for a moment, he was almost speechless, and felt as if he had heard a joke, but Sang Jingyu's expression didn't look like he was lying, Shen Mu couldn't help frowning and staring at him for a while, Then he said, "What's wrong with you? Are you really Sang Jingyu?"

When Shen Mu asked, Sang Jingyu couldn't stop smiling wryly. He could only nod his head and said, "I'm Sang Jingyu, and I know you're Shen Mu. I don't have any problems, and my head is very clear, but..." He paused, and then said: "I know it may be too late now, you won't believe what I say, but Shen Mu, I still want to tell you, I really want to be with you, can you give I take one chance, one chance."

The position was suddenly reversed, Shen Mu only felt a little confused, he seemed to see his former self saying this to Sang Jingyu in a trance, stubbornly appearing in front of Sang Jingyu time and time again, asking Sang Jingyu if he had a chance .

"I don't think it's necessary." Shen Mu rejected Sang Jingyu almost without thinking about it.Sang Jingyu seemed to have expected it a long time ago, he lowered his eyes knowingly, and clenched his hands under the table tightly, as if he was still thinking about saying something.Shen Mu really didn't expect that Sang Jingyu would suddenly make such a weird request. If it were him in the past, he might be so happy that it doesn't matter if he dies the next moment, but now he is already facing death and has experienced infinite He was in a cycle of disappointment, and he had lost even the strength to be happy.The passion at that time had long been burned to ashes, and Ren Sang Jingyu would not have much fluctuation in what he said.

Sang Jingyu took a deep breath, raised his face again and said, "Shen Mu, I love you, I'm in love with you, it's true."

He looked at himself fixedly, that kind of affectionate Shen Mu had only seen when he was acting, but at this moment, Shen Mu felt as if he had heard a joke, an extremely funny joke.

"Sang Jingyu, do you know what you're talking about?" Facing Sang Jingyu's seriousness, Shen Mu couldn't help wondering whether his head was broken again.

Sang Jingyu knew that Shen Mu would not believe it no matter what he said, he put his hands on his forehead, and said word by word: "I know everything, I already know where you went in those three years, and what disease you got , I also know that you may not love me anymore, but I don't ask you to love me, I just want you to give me a chance, let me be with you, at least someone to take care of you, when you recover from illness, I'll just leave, okay?"

Sang Jingyu's words almost seemed to be pleading, Shen Mu was really surprised this time, and he also began to believe that Sang Jingyu was not joking with him, he seemed to be sincerely asking himself to be with him Together, and the reason is to take care of him, he even said that he doesn't need him to love him, what kind of logic is this?

"Why do I have to ask you to take care of me? Since you know about my condition, you shouldn't have come to see me." Shen Mu couldn't help but said.

"I'm sorry." Sang Jingyu didn't know what to say anymore. His heart fell to the bottom following Shen Mu's words. He thought to himself that he seemed to have received retribution. Rejection is such a sad thing.

Shen Mu looked at Sang Jingyu's gloomy face, and suddenly saw himself in him again. What's the difference between him rejecting Sang Jingyu like this and Sang Jingyu rejecting him before?And Sang Jingyu suddenly made a 360-degree turn and said that he fell in love with him. Wasn't it caused by what he had cultivated over the past ten years?

Shen Mu stared blankly at Sang Jingyu, although he had long lost any excitement towards Sang Jingyu's confession, but seeing Sang Jingyu like this, he couldn't bear it, as if he was dissatisfied with his former self. have the heart.

"Are you sympathizing with me?" Suddenly, Shen Mu asked.

"Of course not." Sang Jingyu shook his head immediately: "I would not make such a request out of sympathy, you know, when I realized that you might disappear forever, I suddenly panicked, to be honest, the past three years I didn't think of you when I came down. I only know that there is a person who will still love me even though he didn't appear in front of me. I don't know why. I can't stand your condition anymore, because I know that you may never love me anymore because of this, I can't bear this kind of thing to happen, so I have been looking for you for half a year, and finally let me find you, I know It’s really too selfish to say this, and I only know now that I need your love, but if it’s too late, then, can it be replaced by me loving you like you did before? I thought you used it for ten years Time, let me spend ten years... Oh, no, you definitely won't want it, so as long as you want, as long as you give me a chance, Shen Mu, I'm sorry... I don't know what I'm talking about anymore It's..."

Sang Jingyu lowered his head and put his hands on his forehead. He felt the scorching temperature on his forehead, and his head was drowsy but throbbed with pain. He knew that his words had begun to become a little confused. Although he had come to his senses Why did I fall in love with him, but I couldn't express such feelings clearly in words.

Shen Mu was speechless for a moment, he realized that this was indeed the cause he planted, and Sang Jingyu suffered the painful result, obviously the cause he planted was also painful.

After being silent for a long while, Shen Mu replied: "I know, I promise you."

Shen Mu decided to give Sang Jingyu a chance, because he was not Sang Jingyu, and he couldn't be as ruthless as him or even use cruel means to refuse, and he was not afraid of Sang Jingyu cheating him again, anyway, he was dying soon.In fact, I'm afraid Sang Jingyu would not joke about such a thing.As for the last reason, because this is his sin, he must pay for it himself.He doesn't care about giving the rest of the time to Sang Jingyu, because he has spent a whole ten years loving one person, and it is impossible to love another person with the same effort.For Sang Jingyu, although he doesn't have the strength to talk about love, but he is Sang Jingyu after all, and the person who makes Sang Jingyu feel pain is just himself. He has tasted this kind of pain a lot, and he will die soon without any need In addition, this pain will be added to Sang Jingyu's body.And Sang Jingyu is right, he needs someone to take care of him, since Sang Jingyu is willing, there is no need for him to shirk.In addition, Sang Jingyu said that he had been looking for him for half a year before, but this time it was only ten days before the meeting in the orphanage. Sang Jingyu is really powerful. Shen Mu felt that maybe he would be found by Sang Jingyu if he left again. Know how he does it.

Sang Jingyu didn't react to Shen Mu's words for a long time. When he heard Shen Mu's words clearly, he was stunned. He raised his eyes and looked at Shen Mu blankly, as if he didn't believe Shen Mu just now It's like talking to yourself.

"You promised? You really promised me that you would be with me?" Sang Jingyu asked.

"Well, I agreed." Compared to Sang Jingyu's surprise, Shen Mu was very calm, and he even said plainly: "You are right, I need someone to take care of me. If you regret it at that time, look at it before you leave. If my condition is not good, please help me find a nurse."

He really didn't care if Sang Jingyu took care of him or not, but Sang Jingyu felt a pain in his heart because of his words, and he quickly said: "No, now I know that you won't believe what I say, I I think time will tell everything, since you are willing to give me this chance, then I will never let it go." He promised.

Shen Mu didn't say anything more, he really had no reason to believe that Sang Jingyu did everything based on his own preferences, what he said he liked today, might not like it tomorrow, and if he said he loved him today, he might still love him a month later .Now Shen Mu doesn't care as much about love or not as before.And what Sang Jingyu said is right, time will tell everything, no matter what you say at this moment, it is useless.