Mulberry elm twilight

When Sang Jingyu really saw Shen Mu, his heart suddenly surged like a stormy sea, and then he really felt at ease, but his mind was blank, and he couldn't say a word.

The laughter of the children not far away disappeared somewhere, and he couldn't hear anything for a while.Although the appearance of the person in sight is not as it was in the impression, it is thin and pale.In addition, that person seemed to be shrouded in more tenacity and gentleness, and he was not as weak as Sang Jingyu had expected.Shen Mu never showed a weak expression in front of him, no matter how much he was hurt, most of what he left for himself was a smile.

Sitting on the chair, Shen Mu only felt drenched in cold sweat, but at this moment his whole body finally returned to his senses. It was at this moment that he heard footsteps outside the door, as if the door had been gently pushed open, but at this moment he heard Not too careful, and there is no way to tell whether it is an adult or a child.The other party seemed to have not left, but stopped at the door.Shen Mu thought that Yuanyuan, who was the most clingy to him, had come and refused to leave, so he opened his eyes slightly, but there was still darkness and fog in front of him, he listened for a while, then turned his face to the direction of the door, smiled and said : "Is it Yuanyuan? Wait for a while, uncle will come to play with you after he rests."

This was the smile Sang Jingyu was familiar with, and the sweaty and pale appearance reminded him that he had seen it once before.That time was a day when Shen Mu, a freshman, found out about the university he was studying in. He couldn't bear it anymore, but Shen Mu suddenly confessed to him. Shen Mu said that he liked him from the first time we met, that's why Desperate.Shen Mu said that he had been trying hard to be his friend during the three years in high school, but failed.Shen Mu also said that he didn't expect that he would deliberately avoid the university and come to such a far place.Shen Mu asked him if he had a chance?Sang Jingyu clearly remembered the displeasure and disgust that surged in his heart when he heard these words.In fact, he has always known that Shen Mu has such hidden thoughts towards him, and he always shows bored emotions. He thought that Shen Mu would retreat in spite of difficulties, at least he has understood that his boredom stems from not liking him. , did not expect that Shen Mu would confess his love to himself in such a serious manner, and Sang Jingyu couldn't help being angry and speechless for a moment, and it was even more difficult to hide his sneer.He told Shen Mu that he was not gay, and he was even more unwilling to be liked by a gay like this.

Sang Jingyu categorically rejected Shen Mu, and repeatedly emphasized that Shen Mu should not appear in front of him again, otherwise he would hit him every time he saw him, and he left without looking back after saying this.

Unexpectedly, a week later, Shen Mu reappeared without giving up.He was hiding and hiding, as if he just wanted to see him from a distance. His figure was spotted by the companion beside Sang Jingyu. Sang Jingyu wanted to beat him up angrily, but was joked by his companion Since someone delivered it to your door, why not try it.You can't mess around with girls, but you don't need to be so careful with boys.

Sang Jingyu originally wanted to say that he didn't have this kind of interest, but after all, he was young and vigorous, so after thinking about it, he took Shen Mu to the hotel.Anyway, it was Shen Mu who said he liked him, and he came to provoke her, Sang Jingyu convinced himself so, and he could take this opportunity to refuse more thoroughly.

From Shen Mu's point of view, this seemed to be a chance that Sang Jingyu was finally willing to give him, and it was even more tentative. Maybe it was Sang Jingyu who wanted to try to see how determined he was to say that he liked him. So Shen Mu can almost be said to have no reservations.Compared to his unreserved, Sang Jingyu only cared about his own pleasure, and didn't care how much pain Shen Mu would have, and he didn't want to be honest with Shen Mu, and they didn't even take off their clothes. .

Afterwards, he lay lazily on the big bed, looking at Shen Mu who was struggling to come out of the bathroom, he remembered looking at Shen Mu with a slight sarcasm and saying: "Men used to feel this way, now I know, I I still like to do it with women."

After these words, the remaining blood on Shen Mu's face quickly faded away, a flash of pain seemed to flash in his eyes, he opened his mouth, as if he wanted to ask something, but he knew clearly that he would probably take it upon himself if he asked at this time It was humiliating, so he pursed his lips, tried to straighten his back without turning his head, and kept his walking posture normal.Sang Jingyu just watched him walk to the door step by step.Shen Mu opened the door, and when he turned his head while holding the door frame, he was covered in cold sweat and infinitely pale. He showed a faint smile and said, "Then, I'll go first." He never forgot to say hello when he left, He was very polite, but from the fact that he didn't remember taking his coat away, he could tell how depressed and terrible he was. But at that time, Sang Jingyu only felt happy, and sure enough, Shen Mu didn't show up again for half a year after that time. .

After Shen Mu made his voice, he didn't get a response for a while. He was puzzled and said: "It's not Yuanyuan, is that a guest? If you're looking for the dean, you have to go forward a corridor." He said so, holding back He stood up slowly while leaning on the handrail, but he still couldn't let go of the hand holding the handrail after standing up. He faced the direction of the door, the black mist gradually dissipated, and his vision became hazy.

This was originally an orphanage, and the children were all very eccentric, and they would never go wrong, and only the guests sometimes found the wrong place.

Sang Jingyu just looked at Shen Mu like this, and saw his obviously dazed and unfocused eyes.He was close at hand, but he couldn't see himself. If he hadn't suddenly let go of the armrest and wanted to move forward to prevent him from falling, Sang Jingyu didn't know how long he would have been silent like this.

"Be careful."

He couldn't help saying something.

Shen Mu suddenly stopped, the silhouette in front of him was hazy, but the voice was clear and recognizable.

However, surprise is inevitable.

Shen Mu didn't move, the outline in front of her eyes became more and more clear.

Sang Jingyu was wrapped in a black windbreaker and stood in front of the door, but the expression on his face made Shen Mu feel a little strange.He had never seen such worry and worry on Sang Jingyu's face, and he didn't know who this worry and worry was for at the moment, maybe there was someone he was looking for in the orphanage.His behavior just now should be a little abnormal, but based on previous experience, Shen Mu guessed that Sang Jingyu would not notice, so he sat down as nonchalantly as possible. Although his eyesight had recovered, he still didn't have much strength in his body, and he was afraid of standing still. Jiulu sinks.Now that things have happened, he doesn't want Sang Jingyu to know that he is seriously ill.

"Oh, it's you. Are you here to find the dean? Her office is in the corridor next door, the innermost one." Shen Mu said so, and raised his finger to point in the direction. let go.

Sang Jingyu also found that Shen Mu could see again. He had gone to see Shen Mu's attending physician before, and he also knew that the doctor was in charge of brain tumors. He didn't ask about Shen Mu's condition, but went to find out on his own. As for the condition of the brain tumor patients, seeing Shen Mu just now, the pain must have flared up again, but after half a year, Shen Mu's mental condition is better than those of the patients receiving chemotherapy he saw in the hospital, which on the contrary makes him feel better. Sang Jingyu relaxed slightly, and secretly let out a breath.

Sang Jingyu stared at Shen Mu intently, standing there neither speaking nor moving, Shen Mu managed to pull himself together and said, "What's the matter, are you a little surprised to see me? Actually, I was also surprised, I didn't expect to be here See you here." He said as if he was afraid that Sang Jingyu might misunderstand something, and then said: "But I didn't arrange anything this time, so you can rest assured."

Sang Jingyu naturally knew why Shen Mu reassured him, it was to reassure himself that he would never pester him like before.But hearing such a sentence, Sang Jingyu couldn't help but clenched his fists.He hated himself a little, now looking at Shen Mu, he realized how much he had been hurt by what he had done in the past ten years, but if he hadn't reversed his position, and had searched for Shen Mu for half a year, he would never have will be aware of this.

Although it is not that whoever likes me, I have to like the other person, but for the person who likes me, there should be a better and gentler way to refuse, but I have used the most hurtful way, only this Sang Jingyu Hardest to forgive yourself.What's more, looking back now, looking back at Shen Mu's sincerity towards him, apart from being hard to forgive, it is also deeply regretful.This person's sincerity has been ignored and abandoned by him, but now he wants to get it back, regardless of his selfishness and cheekiness in this matter, I am afraid that apart from himself, everyone else including Shen Mu Neither will believe it.

He was silent, not knowing how to speak, more because he knew that he was not qualified to speak.

Sang Jingyu kept silent, and Shen Mu was also very helpless, so he could only try to find another topic: "You should be fine recently?"

It's just that after saying this sentence, I don't know what to say. I could talk about myself, but I can't talk about my situation, and after many years, he would never talk about himself in front of Sang Jingyu. Anyway, Sang Jingyu I have never been interested in listening to it, but if it comes to anything about Sang Jingyu, it can't be too much, but fortunately, he hasn't paid attention to Sang Jingyu's movements for more than three years, but he doesn't even know where to ask. asked.

That's all very well, and should always reassure the man.Shen Mu thought so.