Mulberry elm twilight

Sang Jingyu left silently.When he left the coffee shop, he didn't know where to go. It took him a long time to realize that he was using the excuse of going to the supermarket to meet people, so he turned around and got off the building to pick up the car.He even forgot that he was driving out for a while, and then he wandered around the supermarket in a daze, not knowing what to buy to go back.

Such a state is bound to be seen through by Shen Mu. In the end, Sang Jingyu didn't go home or even make a phone call. Instead, he sent a text message to Shen Mu, asking him to cook for himself, saying that he suddenly received a call from home and had to Hurry up and go back.

God knows whether Shen Mu will believe this excuse, the family has never received any calls in the past two years, and in fact Sang Jingyu's parents have been abroad.Although their relationship with Sang Jingyu is deep, they have never interfered with his affairs too much. Whether he has a family or not, whether he likes the opposite sex or the same sex, their Sang family has always upheld the principle of letting children be free Develop a style, because everyone has their own life.Even their own children are independent entities, and they are never tied down by their children and live freely abroad.

However, after Sang Jingyu finished sending text messages to Shen Mu, he couldn't help but make an international phone call back. He suddenly wanted to hear the voices of his parents and greet them.

"Didn't you say you want to take care of someone? Why do you have time to call?" When his mother's overly bright voice reached his ears, Sang Jingyu's depressed mood seemed to be aroused by her, and he tried his best to calm down. The spirit came: "It's almost over, so I came to greet you and see if you are free. How many months will you accept me?"

After all, she is a mother, and Sang Jingyu could hear several layers of meaning in just a few words, so she immediately invited: "Then come here, son, mom will cook something delicious for you."

Sang Jingyu squatted down when he heard this sentence. He tried his best to control his voice, not to let out a choked sob, and said as calmly as possible: "Okay, in a few days, I will contact you before I come back."

In just one phone call, Sang Jingyu knew that it was impossible for him to go back.No matter what, he had to adjust his mood before going back to see his parents.He never liked to show his weak side in front of others, even his parents were the same, but Shen Mu became the only exception.The reason why he was able to accompany Shen Mu for more than two years was probably because of his weak side back then.In fact, this was enough, at least the fear and despair he felt when he first learned that Shen Mu was going to die more than two years ago no longer existed, so why would he be sad?Knowing that Shen Mu can continue to live and live with him in this world, it is already something to be thankful for.

In order to make this excuse look more realistic, Sang Jingyu deliberately went back to get his passport and some belongings after Shen Mu's bedtime that night.It's just that when he took the key to open the door, Sang Jingyu felt his heart trembled violently, his hands were covered with cold sweat, and he didn't know if it was because he had deceived Shen Mu, Sang Jingyu didn't even know whether it was right or wrong to do so. , it's just that he felt that he must take this step first, otherwise, he would be burdened with guilt in the face of Shen Mu.In the end, he still made this decision for himself, but he still chose to start by himself when he couldn't feel at ease no matter whether he did it or not, and he was willing to bear the consequences whether it was right or wrong.But even if he thought about it in his heart, Sang Jingyu still found it unbearable when he really wanted to leave this house, but so what, compared to Shen Mu, his unbearable degree is probably nothing.

After finally opening the door and entering the house, Sang Jingyu tiptoed into the bedroom.In fact, he had sorted out his belongings a long time ago, after Shen Mu's review last time, but he hadn't made up his mind, and now, he finally made up his mind.He didn't look at Shen Mu who was lying on the bed, and walked to the cabinet by the light on in the corridor outside the room.

"Are you back? What's the matter, what happened?" Shen Mu's low voice came from behind.

Sang Jingyu was startled suddenly, his heart beat wildly, he tried his best not to turn his head to look at Shen Mu, but opened the door of the cupboard, pretending to be calm and said: "It's nothing serious, but you can't go and have a look." , you continue to sleep, don't worry about me."

After a moment of silence, Shen Mu said again: "How long are you going?"

"I'm not sure, I haven't been back for more than two years, maybe I will stay for a while." Sang Jingyu took out his luggage, and then turned to Shen Mu. Fortunately, the light was dim, and he was a little thankful that the expression on his face should not be Being seen clearly: "You are alone, take care of yourself."

"Well, don't worry." Shen Mu agreed, "You have to be careful yourself."

"Then I'll go first." Sang Jingyu said, and crossed the bed again, but heard another sentence from Shen Mu behind him: "I'll wait for you to come back."

Sang Jingyu paused by the door, forced a "huh" and turned off the lights in the corridor.

Shen Mu heard the sound of Sang Jingyu locking the door in the dark, couldn't help sighing softly, and then closed his eyes again.

Three days later, Shen Mu received an invitation from Li Chen.He picked a recent work as a gift and went to Li Chen's house in the evening.

When inviting Shen Mu, Li Chen deliberately ignored Sang Jingyu. He received the news of Sang Jingyu's departure yesterday, and he couldn't wait to start his action.And Shen Mu also pretended not to know, and seemed to have deliberately ignored Sang Jingyu's existence, chatting casually with Li Chen on irrelevant topics when he entered the door, and handed him the gift.After Li Chen accepted it happily, he invited Shen Mu to the living room.

"Are you hungry? Sit down first, there are two dishes that will be ready soon." Li Chen made a cup of tea for Shen Mu before turning to the kitchen. While drinking tea, Shen Mu was thinking Looking at the call from Sang Jingyu that he received yesterday, Sang Jingyu's voice on the phone sounded very calm, and he said this to himself:

"Shen Mu, I'm sorry for deceiving you. It's not because of you that I decided to leave. Since the day we met, I've been hurting you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to make up for all this, but what I lost can never be made up for again. , all I can do is this, I hope you can get the most complete love, these two years, I know that person can no longer be me, no matter what, please forgive me."