Mulberry elm twilight

This night, Sang Jingyu lay down next to Shen Mu after taking a shower as usual.Shen Mu always goes to bed one step earlier than him.In fact, as early as half a year ago, after Shen Mu had no more headaches at night, Sang Jingyu and Shen Mu slept separately, but when Shen Mu found out that Sang Jingyu's insomnia was too serious, he let him sleep next to her.He knew that Sang Jingyu's insomnia came from himself.Since Sang Jingyu lived with him and began to take care of him, the quality of sleep has gradually declined. Now his symptoms have not worsened, but Sang Jingyu has suffered from neurasthenia.This was also confirmed by the examination that Shen Mu specially asked Sang Jingyu to do when he went to the hospital for a review last time, but they all knew the cause of the disease, and Shen Mu's condition was indeed improving, which would naturally drive Sang Jingyu to recover slowly. It's a matter of time.Shen Mu knew that Sang Jingyu would feel uneasy when she couldn't see her when she slept alone, so she insisted on letting Sang Jingyu sleep with her. Even if Sang Jingyu would still wake up in the middle of the night, once she could see herself, she would feel at ease again. Falling asleep again is better than tossing and turning alone and never being able to fall asleep again.

"In the past two years, it's good to have you."

After turning off the lights, Shen Mu suddenly said this to Sang Jingyu.

Sang Jingyu was startled when he heard this, and said "Yes", without saying much. He didn't know what Shen Mu meant, but he vaguely felt that he understood what he meant, and he would never forget his promise. To be able to get better, he must give Shen Mu a free life, let Shen Mu love again, instead of being tied to him.

"You don't have to worry about Li Chen, I've made it clear to him, I won't promise him." Shen Mu said again.

"Well." Sang Jingyu kept his back to Shen Mu, he knew that Shen Mu would definitely do this, otherwise he wouldn't be Shen Mu, but Sang Jingyu didn't want Shen Mu to always think for others, even if it was "others" Just myself.He hoped that Shen Mu could feel love again and not be bound by everything in the past.He used to be stingy with giving to Shen Mu, but if Shen Mu could get it from others, he would be willing to leave.Because after two years, he knew that he and Shen Mu could only be like this at most, so why not give up the position beside Shen Mu to someone who is more suitable for Shen Mu?Even though he would be reluctant to do so, and feel heartbroken, but since the moment he fell in love with Shen Mu, he has vowed in his heart to make Shen Mu happy, no matter whether he will fall in love with himself again in the end, He even hoped to help Shen Mu find a different love, so as not to never get a response like back then.

Shen Mu didn't know what Sang Jingyu was thinking at the moment, he would have said this to Sang Jingyu originally, just because he was afraid that Sang Jingyu would think too much.In the past two years, he has already seen clearly Sang Jingyu's love for him, and he will never be entangled in the past again.But even so, he still didn't take the next step. Shen Mu himself didn't know why. When he was young, he had longed to hug Sang Jingyu tightly, but after a long time, this desire was gone. Then it subsided, it seemed that love was one thing, and physical needs were another, as if he and Sang Jingyu had been getting along like this, and they would not feel that it was not enough.Although he didn't know what Sang Jingyu was thinking about this matter, he knew that Sang Jingyu had been firmly guarding the boundaries, and Shen Mu felt that such peace was precious, so he never mentioned it.After all, in getting along with Sang Jingyu, he used to be centered on Sang Jingyu everywhere, but now Sang Jingyu thinks for himself everywhere. He doesn't want to take this kind of heart for granted, and often feels for Sang Jingyu Thinking about it, but in this matter, he didn't deliberately force himself to think about Sang Jingyu. He was willing to let Sang Jingyu lie by his side, which was already his future life and relationship with them. An attitude that couldn't be more clear.

Sometimes Shen Mu also wondered if he would be like this because he still cares about those ten years, but now he is no longer the Shen Mu who only wants to be with Sang Jingyu, maybe Sang Jingyu is He was jealous of him and couldn't say a lot, but that was only Sang Jingyu's business, and it was no longer within the scope of his entanglement.It seems that after ten years of hopeless love and the hurdle of death, his temperament has completely changed. He is willing to let Sang Jingyu stay by his side, not because he loves him as much as before, but because It was because he wanted to fulfill Sang Jingyu's love, and he himself did not reject it, so he could accept it calmly.Relatively speaking, it is very difficult for him to accept Li Chen, because he knows that it is absolutely impossible for him to fall into that kind of affection again.

Sang Jingyu was able to understand Shen Mu more or less, but it was impossible to fully understand Shen Mu's thoughts, and he still held the hope that Shen Mu could get love again, which made him not reject Li Chen in the end. He knew Li Chen's purpose for the interview, and he was actually hesitant because of this, he was hesitant to leave Shen Mu, so he had actually been procrastinating, so that it dragged on for half a year.

But a few days ago, Shen Mu had made it so clear to him that Sang Jingyu finally knew the consequence of holding on to it, which would be that Shen Mu would miss it again. He couldn't help but feel guilty for his selfishness. I feel that I have a set of thoughts in my heart, but I have been slow to put it into action. Fundamentally speaking, I am still thinking about myself, but never really thinking about Shen Mu.Shen Mu has kept silent, isn't it because she has been procrastinating and refusing to leave?Shen Mu will only let herself hurt his heart, never really make him sad, it has been like this from the beginning, so no matter how reluctant or difficult, he should do this for Shen Mu.

Li Chen invited Sang Jingyu to the coffee shop under the company building he ran, as if he wanted to deliberately show his worth, but he didn't care about these Sang Jingyu, he saw a lot of rich people, he What I want to see is Li Chen's heart for Shen Mu.After half a year, he has seen Li Chen's patience, but whether he is suitable with Shen Mu or not will only be known after they get along, but before they get along, he must leave first to facilitate this step.

After sitting down, Li Chen ordered a cup of coffee for Sang Jingyu, and then cut to the chase: "You should know why I asked you out, Mr. Sang."

"I know, that's why I came to the appointment." Sang Jingyu said.

As if he didn't expect him to say that, Li Chen couldn't help saying "oh", and said, "What does Mr. Sang mean by this sentence?"

"You want to pursue Shen Mu, I know very well, and I am willing to move out of that house as you wish, but I have one condition." Sang Jingyu said.

Li Chen was not surprised by this sentence, he quickly asked, "What conditions?"

"Let Shen Mu make the decision, you absolutely cannot force him to accept you, and you can't tell him about our meeting this time, I believe you are a gentleman, it may be redundant for me to say this, but since I don't want Shen Mu to be hurt , I need to hear your answer today." Sang Jingyu stared at Li Chen and said.

Li Chen looked straight back at Sang Jingyu, suddenly laughed and said, "You really love him very much, I guessed right."

"Yes, but I also don't want him to continue accommodating me, so I made this decision. You have to know that I am not giving you a chance, I just want to give him a chance." Sang Jingyu said expressionlessly.

"I see. I understand. I promise you that as long as you quit, I believe I will be able to pursue him." Li Chen said with certainty.

Sang Jingyu felt a pain in his heart, and his expression remained unchanged: "That's good. Also, last time you wanted to borrow something about the kitchen, I must tell you the truth. The dishes you cook are really not suitable for Shen Mu. He has a stomachache It's great, it's better to be light, so you have to consider him more when it comes to eating."

Li Chen's concern for Shen Mu made him not happy to hear these words from Sang Jingyu's mouth, but he still listened carefully. He nodded and said, "I see, you don't need to order the rest, I will Get to know him better in the following process, let him get used to my existence as he is used to yours, Mr. Sang, you don’t have to worry about it.”

"Yeah." Sang Jingyu nodded, then picked up the coffee cup and drank the coffee in it in one gulp, then got up and said: "Then don't bother, I will leave within this week with an excuse, but it is not convenient for me to move out immediately , it will make him suspicious, and I don't think you want him to know that you approached me for this."

"I agree." Li Chen said, having reached a consensus with Sang Jingyu for the first time.