Mulberry elm twilight

There are not many photos of Shen Mu.It should be said that there were more of them when I was young, and then gradually became less, and I haven't seen one at all in recent years.The last photo was taken when he graduated from university. He was wearing a bachelor's uniform and holding his graduation certificate, standing indifferently in front of the camera. Although he was looking at the camera, he seemed to be looking at nothing.Such twilight made Sang Jingyu's heart freeze suddenly.

That was after Shen Mu had been hurt by him again and again, what kind of tired heart was hidden behind his always smiling face to himself?Sang Jingyu couldn't imagine, and didn't dare to think about it, but the Shen Mu who laughed the happiest in the album was long before he knew him.Sang Jingyu looked at him and hated him a little bit. Before meeting him, Shen Mu's wanton laughter disappeared without a trace before he knew it.All of this now seems to have been taken away by him.

After the age of 16, Shen Mu seemed thoughtful even when she smiled lightly, but now she rarely even smiled.

Sang Jingyu lowered her head, and couldn't help stroking Shen Mu in the photo.That was Shen Mu who was once young, smiling so openly, so energetic, in fact, Shen Mu was like this when we first met, he was not only full of vigor, but also not afraid of death, saying that he was a "hero saving the beauty"... Sang Jingyu Thinking of this, he couldn't help feeling startled. At that time, Shen Mu was the one who didn't care about it at the time, but now that he thought about it, his heart was beating non-stop. Sang Jingyu didn't know whether to cry or cry. He should smile bitterly, he doesn't know if it's God playing tricks on Shen Mu or him, why did he fall in love only at this time, not earlier?

Flipping through the pages, Sang Jingyu saw that there seemed to be two photos stuffed in a folder in the photo album. He thought about taking it out and putting it in the empty space at the back, so he took it out, but in an instant, Sang Jingyu was shocked. I was stunned, it was actually a photo of him and Shen Mu together, if he hadn't seen the photo, he would not have remembered it, it should have been taken casually by his mother in front of his house, Shen Mu in the photo had an expression on his face. Smiling, staring at his own direction, while being looked at by him, his face was expressionless, and there was a hint of impatience at the corners of his mouth. This was really the best portrayal of them at that time.Sang Jingyu didn't know why this photo was in Shen Mu's hands, but it was obviously treasured by him for many years, and he was reluctant to throw it away in the end, but he probably didn't want to see it again, so he sandwiched it behind other photos .

Sang Jingyu stared blankly at this group photo, and finally realized that what was lost would never come back, and he might never see Shen Mu's sunny smile again.

His love and Shen Mu's love have been missed for a full 13 years. Now looking back at Shen Mu in the photo, he thinks this should be God's punishment for him. He doesn't know how to redeem all this. He even Not even qualified to suffer.Sang Jingyu lowered his eyes, he looked at these Shen Mu that he felt both familiar and unfamiliar to him with some nostalgia, and wanted to remember all the Shen Mu he missed in his heart, but in fact, he could really remember too little .This photo album looks thick, but only a small part of Shen Mu is recorded in it. Too many of Shen Mu that he missed have disappeared into the past with the passage of time.

Sang Jingyu took a deep breath, and he tried his best to clear up the unbearable sadness that suddenly flooded his heart. He knew that he didn't have such a position at all, but he couldn't control his emotions. He always thought that nothing in this world was difficult My own, but now Sang Jingyu finds powerlessly that everything is powerless in the face of death. No amount of love can match the time left. Love comes too late, but it happens so without warning The earth came, rushed into his heart all at once, without leaving any room, and then he was about to lose it soon... Thinking of this, Sang Jingyu immediately closed the album, closed his eyes tightly, The pain spread and invaded, as if to overwhelm him, but he had no choice but to hold back and wait for death.

After a while, Sang Jingyu let out a sigh of relief. He opened his eyes again and slowly regained his composure. He knew that the only thing he could do now was to stay by Shen Mu's side. Apart from that, he had already done everything else. No, even the pain must be well hidden, so that it cannot be discovered by Shen Mu.

When he turned his head, he saw Shen Mu walking out of the kitchen, so he handed the photo album to Shen Mu and asked, "Aunt and Uncle, are they going to take a nap?"

"Well, they're going to take a nap." Shen Mu took the photo album and answered him.

"Then you can sleep for a while too." Sang Jingyu looked at him and said.

"I just fell asleep, and I'm not too sleepy now." Shen Mu said.

"Then let's take a rest. When uncle and aunt wake up, I'll make tea for you." Sang Jingyu laughed.

"Alright." Originally at home, Shen Mu was going to take a nap, so he went upstairs and suddenly turned to look at Sang Jingyu who was still sitting on the sofa. Sang Jingyu looked up and smiled at him as if he had caught his gaze. He smiled and said: "I'll use my phone for a while." As he said this, the phone was not in his hands at all, Shen Mu didn't say anything, but said: "If you want to be sleepy, sleep for a while."

"Okay." Sang Jingyu watched Shen Mu go upstairs, and then lowered his head again. The many emotions that had arisen from seeing those photos just now had not been digested for a while.Sang Jingyu sat on the sofa for a long time before realizing that he said he wanted to check his mobile phone, and then found that the mobile phone was not with him. He was stunned and remembered that it must have landed in Shen Mu's room upstairs. He wanted to go upstairs to get it. He felt that he would be exposed by Shen Mu, but then he thought that Shen Mu would not pay attention to these things, so he smiled wryly, and went upstairs anyway.

Sure enough, Shen Mu was lying on the bed with his back to the door and fell asleep. The mobile phone was beside the bed. I'm afraid Shen Mu had seen it long ago. Sang Jingyu took the mobile phone and stood by the bed and stared at Shen Mu for a moment. Tiptoed away.He was afraid that if he stood for a while longer, he could not help but want to approach Shen Mu, and then hug his thin and painful back tightly.But in the end, he has no such qualifications and can only leave.

Shen Mu didn't fall asleep, he heard movement, but didn't open his eyes either.He knew that Sang Jingyu was watching him, but he didn't want to give Sang Jingyu any hope.He and Sang Jingyu, this is good, just now he caught a glimpse of Sang Jingyu but pretended to be indifferent, he also made a decision not to give Sang Jingyu hope, lest when he really leaves, let him go As for himself, he has already gotten used to it anyway, even though Sang Jingyu is telling himself that he loves him with his actions, and he can't get used to it for a while, but Shen Mu knows that if this continues, then he will be in the future. With this belated love to leave this world.There is nothing wrong with this, because in this way, he and Sang Jingyu will be cleared up, and in the end, no one owes anyone else, which is very good.