Mulberry elm twilight

Shen Mu's condition is fairly stable recently, so she wanted to go home. Sang Jingyu naturally picked them up all the way. In order to be closer to their parents' home, they didn't leave their original city. Shen Mu didn't dare to stay longer for fear of being exposed. Stayed for one night, but even if it was only for one night, Sang Jingyu didn't plan to stay away, but chose to stay in a nearby hotel for one night, but he didn't tell Shen Mu that Shen Mu didn't know it at first, and happened to see it when he was walking at night. It was only when Sang Jingyu's car was outside the community that he vaguely guessed what was going on, so he called Sang Jingyu immediately and asked, and it turned out to be the case.

"It's okay, tell me when you're leaving tomorrow, and I'll come over, if you want to stay a few days longer, just in case..." Shen Mu knew it after halfway through Sang Jingyu's words, he thought about it Want to say: "You come to my house tomorrow, don't live outside."

The other side of the phone didn't say anything for a moment, and after a while, Sang Jingyu came to ask cautiously: "Is it okay?"

"There's nothing wrong with it." Shen Mu said.

The next day, Sang Jingyu knew what Shen Mu meant by "nothing is wrong".

"Dad, Mom, he is Sang Jingyu." Shen Mu introduced.

Although this kind of introduction is very common, it also made Sang Jingyu stunned. The main reason is that the eyes of Shen Mu's parents looked at him too strangely. At this time, Yu realized belatedly, looking at him like this, Shen Mu should have come out of the closet, and it was by no means a recent event.

"Xiao Sang, come, come in and have a seat." In any case, the visitor was a guest, and Shen's mother secretly pushed her wife, telling him to be careful.

Shen Mu took clean slippers and put them in front of Sang Jingyu. Sang Jingyu had already changed his shoes and entered the gate of Shen's house before he recovered.

As soon as he entered the door, before he had time to take out the gifts he bought on the spot, Shen Mu dragged him upstairs first, and before going upstairs, he specifically told his mother that there was no need to prepare more rooms, which couldn't be more obvious.

Sang Jingyu didn't realize it until he sat down on the bed.

Shen Mu explained to Sang Jingyu that when she was in college, she confessed her sexual orientation to her parents, and there was a period when she had a hard time with her family, but now all of this has passed, and her parents have accepted it, but now she Once sick, I'm afraid it will be another blow to the two elders. In short, hide it if you can, and wait until you really can't hide it.

Shen Mu was a little helpless. When he said these words, he actually regretted coming out in college. No one's parents could bear such blows one after another. Sang Jingyu didn't know how to comfort him. I can only say: "Otherwise, you can stay for a while, it will be better with me here."

Shen Mu nodded for a long time: "I think so too, and I can only do this first." After a moment of silence, he said "Sorry" to Sang Jingyu, Sang Jingyu shook his head with a wry smile, looked at Shen Mu and said: "It's nothing, I can't ask for more."

Shen Mu was taken aback for a moment, but didn't know what to say, Sang Jingyu couldn't help feeling a little sour, and stopped talking for a while.

But before the two of them could say anything else, Shen Mu's head began to ache again. Sang Jingyu was used to guarding him when he had a headache. He would hold Shen Mu's hand tightly, and it didn't matter if it hurt. , because it was obviously less than one ten-thousandth of Shen Mu's pain.

Only at this time can he be free from scruples, but he would rather Shen Mu get better than suffer like this again. He said that he would leave when Shen Mu recovered from his illness. He was really praying in this way. All right, nothing else matters.

When Shen Mu finally struggled out of the pain and felt that he was held in Sang Jingyu's arms again, he struggled lightly, and Sang Jingyu also realized that he should be better, so he let go of him and let him He lay down by himself, pulled over the quilt beside him to cover him, and he sat on the side. After an unknown amount of time, Shen Mu heard footsteps outside the door in a daze, and he wanted to open his mouth but was half asleep. The whispering voice seemed to belong to Sang Jingyu, and then everything became quiet for a long time, when Shen Mu realized that he had already slept, and opened his eyes to find that Sang Jingyu was still by his side.

"Is it better?"

As soon as Shen Mu opened his eyes, Sang Jingyu asked him in a low voice. As he asked, he unconsciously stretched out his hand and gently brushed away the sweat-soaked hair on Shen Mu's forehead. Go, his body has long been soaked in sweat, Sang Jingyu said very habitually: "I'll help you put the bath water." He was about to turn around after speaking, but was pulled back by Shen Mu, Shen Mu shook his head and said: "Wipe Personally, taking a bath is too noisy, let’s talk about it at night.”

"Yeah." Sang Jingyu knew that the current situation was special, so he just wanted to do this: "Then I'll pour water first."

When Shen Mu got up to wipe himself and change his clothes, Shen's mother had already come up to urge them to have lunch.

Shen Mu was a little surprised at the dinner table, because his parents seemed to have become familiar with Sang Jingyu suddenly, it should have been around the time when he fell ill, he looked at Sang Jingyu, Sang Jingyu smiled and said: "Just now I came down to help my aunt wash the dishes, and my aunt asked me what we usually eat, and I said I don’t know much, but your cooking is delicious.”

Shen Mu was dumbfounded after hearing this, and seeing that Sang Jingyu said it naturally, as if they were really living together like a couple, she smiled as a tacit consent, and Sang Jingyu suddenly said: "So Auntie will ask you after dinner later. Show me the picture."

Regarding this, Shen Mu didn't say anything.Since agreeing to live with Sang Jingyu, he can almost always feel that Sang Jingyu is different from the past. Sang Jingyu used to be indifferent to everything about him, but now he is so meticulous that it often makes him feel a little bit different. Sometimes he seems to feel that he has lived with Sang Jingyu for so long, and sometimes he wonders if this person is Sang Jingyu. a person...

Most of the time, Shen Mu couldn't refuse Sang Jingyu ruthlessly, and he felt that there was no need for him to refuse anything anymore. He even regarded Sang Jingyu's kindness to him as a belated harvest after his own sacrifices. , and fortunately his heart had already calmed down a lot, in fact, Shen Mu also felt that the pain he had experienced had gradually faded with the passage of time.People are like this, many obsessions and delusions will always lose to time.In the face of time, some persistence looks like a joke, while some persistence has achieved results.No one knows what will happen until the end.Now Shen Mu doesn't look forward to it, he has nothing to look forward to, what he gets is his, and it's nothing more than that if he doesn't get it.

When Sang Jingyu was looking at the photos, Shen Mu helped his mother wash the dishes, and in the kitchen, her mother asked him in a low voice: "Is he the same person from back then?"

Shen Mu nodded, but said in a low voice: "Mom, I'm sorry."

The mother couldn't help but hold his wrist, which became thinner and thinner somehow, and only the bones remained. She reprimanded: "What are you talking about!"

As a mother, it is good for the child to be happy. She knew that life was not easy for Shen Mu a few years ago. He had a person he liked but never said it. At first it was because of his gender. I like it, but others don't like it.Until now, although she, as a mother, still doesn't understand that although that person was brought home by her own child, there still seems to be something missing between the two.Shen Mu didn't talk about it, she didn't ask about it, she knew that the lesser ones were related to the years and the changes of people.It can be seen that he was still the original person, and she couldn't help feeling a little sigh and a little bit of embarrassment.She felt that her children sometimes grew up too fast for her to be prepared for.

"You are happy, your father and I can rest assured." Shen Mu heard her mother say this.

"Ah."

Shen Mu couldn't say any more, he lowered his head, knowing his mother's kind expression without looking.He thought he was happy, having parents who loved and indulged him so much, and Sang Jingyu who turned back suddenly.In fact, no matter how peaceful it is, after all, only three and a half years have passed, how can it compare to the ten years that were once unforgettable and mixed with long pain.If Sang Jingyu didn't come back to look for him in the end and take care of him like this, then Shen Mu knew that he must have had a trace of regret before he died.But now, the regret has been filled. Although the word "consummation" cannot be said, it is still on Sang Jingyu, and there are not so many regrets.

He walked out of the kitchen and saw Sang Jingyu sitting in the living room looking through the photo album silently.

Sang Jingyu's side face was still as he remembered it, hard without a trace of softness, with sharp edges and corners, and the outline was as straight as a knife chiseled out, but his slightly dazed expression with downcast eyes was something Shen Mu had never seen before. Yes, there is a faint trace of fragility in it, the fragility that Sang Jingyu occasionally reveals, and the way he tries to cover up this fragility, will always inadvertently make Shen Mu's heart beat.For Sang Jingyu, he has been trying hard to learn to let go, but before he let go completely, Sang Jingyu reappeared in front of him, with a completely different low profile, which made Shen Mu unconsciously Great, he didn't want his heart to be involved again because of Sang Jingyu, but he also knew that the moment he promised Sang Jingyu, such a situation would never be avoided.