Mulberry elm twilight

When Sang Jingyu woke up slowly, it was already dark, and a small lamp was on by the bedside, and he could vaguely see an unfamiliar room, but his head was still in a daze, and he couldn't remember where he was for a while.

Suddenly, the memory before falling asleep came back, he turned his head but couldn't see the people around him, he couldn't help sitting up suddenly, but he felt very dizzy, his forehead was still hot, but he couldn't care so much, all he had left in his heart was Next thought: Shen Mu is not here!

Sang Jingyu endured the ache all over his body caused by the fever and was about to get out of bed. Just as he lowered his head to put on his shoes, Shen Mu came out of the kitchen.

"You're awake, don't rush to get up, I cooked porridge, you drink a bowl first, and then take your medicine." Shen Mu's usual calm and indifferent voice came, and Sang Jingyu raised his head suddenly.

It's Shen Mu.

Sang Jingyu was stunned for a moment, watching Shen Mu without saying a word.

Shen Mu ignored him, and put the porridge on the table, he took a bowl, Sang Jingyu took a bowl, then pulled the table closer, and sat down beside the bed.

Sang Jingyu looked at Shen Mu beside him, and then at the steaming porridge on the table, his mood was surging for a moment.

Shen Mu ate a few mouthfuls by herself, but seeing that the people around her didn't react at all, she turned her head away.

Sang Jingyu's eyes were hazy for a long time, and she couldn't see clearly.

"Eat quickly."

"Hmm." Sang Jingyu still didn't pick up the spoon, but raised his hand to cover his eyes: "Sorry, I don't know what's wrong." He said hoarsely.

Maybe it's because of his illness, or maybe it's because he never thought that Shen Mu would treat him like this, until now, he just feels that every bit of it he touched casually in the past made him feel more comfortable. He hates himself and loves Shen Mu more, and then there is overwhelming self-blame and regret.

Shen Mu didn't speak, and didn't look at him anymore, while Sang Jingyu calmed down as soon as possible, and then asked in a low voice, "How are you?"

He didn't forget Shen Mu's appearance during the day, he couldn't do anything, he couldn't help anything, only at a loss what to do.

"It's all right." Shen Mu said, and then said to Sang Jingyu: "Drink while it's hot, you have a bad fever, do you want to go to the hospital?"

Sang Jingyu shook her head, and suddenly asked Shen Mu: "Will my presence affect your illness?"

"I don't know, probably not." After more than half a year, Shen Mu didn't feel that his condition had deteriorated, and in fact the pain was still the same.On the one hand, he pays great attention to his diet, and on the other hand, he constantly adjusts his emotions. In the past, Sang Jingyu was also on the one hand, but now he is calm when it comes to Sang Jingyu's appearance or sudden love. It has to be said that this is an epiphany brought about by this illness.If he didn't know that death was not far away, he would probably continue to be in pain.Unexpectedly, the position is reversed now. Sang Jingyu's mood is obviously not stable since he appeared.

"Did you think I left again just now?"

When Shen Mu asked this, Sang Jingyu could only acquiesce.

"If you keep thinking wildly, you won't get better. But this place is too small, it's still not suitable for two people to live in." Shen Mu said.

Shen Mu's words stunned Sang Jingyu.

"You...would you like me to stay with you?" Sang Jingyu asked cautiously.

Shen Mu looked at him: "Didn't I promise you during the day?" Seeing that Sang Jingyu's eyes were turning red again, he couldn't help but sighed and said, "Do you not want to believe me, or don't dare to believe me?" trust yourself?"

Sang Jingyu lowered his eyes, what Shen Mu said was that he didn't want to believe in Shen Mu, but that he no longer had confidence in himself, because he couldn't offer anything to keep Shen Mu, even his heart was already broken. It's useless, if Shen Mu is willing to stay, isn't it... isn't it...

"Sang Jingyu, listen to me, I, Shen Mu, have never loved anyone other than you in my whole life, so no matter how much affection I have for you now, you are still different from others. The previous time I left without saying goodbye because I didn’t want you to know about my illness. Since I promised to let go, I wanted to do it as thoroughly as possible. I didn’t know how long I could live, but I didn’t expect you to know, and I still said that, seeing you like this reminds me of my former self. In any case, you will become like this, and I am also responsible, so if I can fulfill your wish before I die, it is not a bad thing Good thing, but you have to understand that I am afraid that I will never be able to return to the old me, and my current situation does not allow such intense feelings to exist. This may also be related to my age. Now I just hope to live in peace. During the day I It’s true that if you regret it, it’s still too late. You’ve seen my situation. It’s not the original intention of me to promise you to stay. But if you have already made a decision, I I won't lie to you again, the matter of feelings is your love and my wish, I don't regret the fact that I loved you, you don't have to always worry about it." Shen Mu looked at Sang Jingyu, very calmly said to himself He said what he wanted in his heart, although he didn't know how much Sang Jingyu could listen to, but since Shen Mu agreed, he would not regret it.

Sang Jingyu listened quietly, then raised her eyes to look at Shen Mu.Shen Mu has indeed become different from before, in the past Shen Mu's eyes were always burning with fiery emotion, although he was always trying to hide it, he could easily find it.But now there is only peace in his eyes, without causing any waves, as if everything has been burnt out, and he can't look at love or love very lightly.Sang Jingyu couldn't understand more than that, comparing those with death is actually not a big deal.

"Well, I understand what you said." Sang Jingyu lowered his head and looked at the bowl of thickly cooked porridge. The fog seemed to make his eyes hazy. He said in a low voice: "I don't expect anything else. I just want to be with you, and I will never destroy the peace you want."

As long as Shen Mu is willing to give him the chance to stay, he really doesn't want anything extravagantly.

Shen Mu didn't say anything about it, he just pushed the porridge in front of Sang Jingyu forward again, and said, "Eat quickly."

Sang Jingyu and Shen Mu changed positions that night.Since it was agreed to be two people together, Shen Mu's place is not suitable for the two patients to continue to sleep for another night, sleep is very important to them.So Sang Jingyu immediately took Shen Mu to the hotel where he was temporarily staying.In any case, the hotel has complete facilities, and Sang Jingyu booked a suite with everything in it.

Shen Mu only took the clothes with her first.Sang Jingyu took antipyretics and it was inconvenient to drive, so they took a taxi to the hotel.About an hour later, Sang Jingyu waited for Shen Mu to go to bed before he finally fell asleep. However, even if the lights were turned off, Sang Jingyu didn't dare to close his eyes for a while. He always felt that if he closed them, , when he opened his eyes again, Shen Mu would disappear again.

Shen Mu... Shen Mu...

Once upon a time, I would have such a day of worrying about gains and losses.Ever since he was a child, he has always wanted what he has, but now he finally knows what the most precious thing in this world is. No matter how many other things he has, they are no match for this one.However, he missed too much, and Shen Mu's sincerity was ignored by him for a whole ten years.He thought back on his ten years, whether it was being an actor or director or simply designing jewelry, he thought he liked it, but he didn't realize that it was not until after he did it. He brings a rich life, but behind this abundance, he always feels that there is still something missing, and in the end there is only boredom.At that time, he didn't realize what was missing. It wasn't until now that he realized that what was missing was people who were willing to share this abundance with him.

He used to think that a person could come and go freely and freely, but as he grew older, he found that he wanted to grasp something else, which was not just superficial or something that money could give.Until today, he suddenly realized that it was a feeling, a feeling that he couldn't let go, could fill his heart all the time, without any gap.

Although Shen Mu felt tired physically, he didn't feel sleepy after taking a short nap in the afternoon. He and Sang Jingyu were lying on a small bed at that time, but now it is a rather wide bed, so that both of them can sleep well. When I woke up, the quilt was specially separated from the two beds.Shen Mu felt a hollow behind him, and after a while there was no movement, he turned over lightly, unexpectedly meeting Sang Jingyu's eyes.

In the darkness, Sang Jingyu's eyes also looked deeper and deeper, there was only a tiny cluster of light inside, and that cluster of light stared at him closely, appearing extremely cautious.

Shen Mu was taken aback for a moment, but Sang Jingyu hurriedly closed his eyes in shock, and then heard Shen Mu's voice: "Don't worry, I will definitely be there when you open your eyes tomorrow. Believe me."

It took a while for Sang Jingyu to say "Yes", Shen Mu simply looked at Sang Jingyu, so that he would not open his eyes and refuse to sleep, but this puzzled him for a while, he never thought of it, it was only a short day Everything has changed, but no matter how it changes, he always hopes that Sang Jingyu will be fine.After all, he had pursued this person hard for ten years. If he hadn't been unwilling to force Sang Jingyu, maybe he would have done such a stupid thing as kidnapping.At that time, he loved Sang Jingyu so much that he wished to tie him by his side for the rest of his life.

As a result, it was too late.But when he was about to lose everything, this person appeared again. It can only be said that the world is unpredictable, and I am afraid that Sang Jingyu himself would not have imagined it would be like this.

When Sang Jingyu woke up, Shen Mu didn't break his promise, he sat on the chair beside the bed, holding a book in his hand.

Sang Jingyu looked at Shen Mu blankly, Shen Mu's drooping side face looked quite calm.In the past, under Shen Mu's calm appearance, she always suppressed a little pain and endured the outburst of emotion. Now all this is slowly fading with the passage of time. On the one hand, Sang Jingyu feels that this is really true for Shen Mu now. It's a good thing, but on the other hand, it's hard to hide the heartache. It's just that the heartache is self-inflicted, and it doesn't matter if you don't want to.

"Shen Mu..." He couldn't help calling out this name. For half a year, he had engraved this name into the bottom of his heart. jumped.

When Shen Mu heard the voice, she turned her head and said with a gentle smile, "You're awake, I ordered porridge, it's warming up in the kitchen, you go wash up first, we'll have porridge later."

"Okay." Sang Jingyu nodded obediently, and Shen Mu turned his attention back to the book.

Sang Jingyu looked at such a peaceful Shen Mu for a moment, and his heart gradually calmed down. Even though everything seemed to be too late, this person was still by his side.As long as he's still here, it's not too late.