Mulberry elm twilight

The first time Sang Jingyu saw Shen Mu's illness was on the way back after sending the little boy to him.

Since the little boy couldn't run far by himself, they didn't need to drive to send him back. It's just that Shen Mu knew that he had been out for a long time today.Sure enough, at the moment when he just sent the little boy home, the pain in Shen Mu's head began to emerge.Sang Jingyu didn't notice it at first, but later he realized that Shen Mu's footsteps had slowed down, and his breathing seemed to be labored. He was startled and quickly supported Shen Mu, but felt that he was trying to hold back the trembling. Then he heard Shen Mu take a deep breath before saying: "Help me go a little further, don't let that child see it."

They were still in the residential area at the moment, and the high-rise buildings had a wide view. Sang Jingyu supported Shen Mu, but soon felt that Shen Mu could no longer hold on.He remembered that there was a small forest nearby when he walked over just now, the location was just enough to avoid the building where the little boy lived, so he helped the man to walk in that direction.But before he reached Shen Mu, he seemed to be falling down and couldn't stand anymore. Sang Jingyu was anxious, and quickly picked him up.Shen Mu is very light, even lighter than he imagined. When he hugged him, he felt that his bones were so thin that he could knock people everywhere. At this moment, his whole body was shaking. Sang Jingyu looked down at him and saw him Already drenched in cold sweat, his temples were drenched.

Sang Jingyu's heart suddenly tightened. In the past, when he saw Shen Mu in pain, he felt it was an eyesore at most, but now he just wanted to pass all the pain on to himself. It turns out that falling in love with someone is such a thing, ridiculous He actually waited until he missed it before falling in love.Sang Jingyu didn't know what to do, so he could only hug him tightly.Shen Mu's eyes were dim, and he could hardly distinguish anything from the pain, even breathing was extremely laborious.He is used to gritting his teeth desperately, curling himself up tightly, and then grabbing something with his fingers until his strength is exhausted and he can no longer hold on.

I don't know how long it took, but it was so long that Sang Jingyu felt that Shen Mu was almost silent, and his body no longer trembled, but the clothes on Shen Mu's body were already soaked in sweat, if it wasn't for Shen Mu's pain just now, he really didn't dare to move casually He, I'm afraid he has to send Shen Mu to the hospital a long time ago.It's just that he didn't dare to send Shen Mu to the hospital easily, because before finding Shen Mu, he had already understood the treatment method Shen Mu chose for himself. Since Shen Mu didn't like staying in the hospital, he certainly couldn't disobey Shen Mu. wishes.

"Shen Mu, Shen Mu?" Sang Jingyu called very softly, afraid of disturbing him, even more afraid that he would actually faint from the pain.After a while, Shen Mu responded very lightly.Sang Jingyu was afraid that he would be sweated and caught cold by the wind, so he kept holding him and didn't let go. When he lowered his head, he could see that Shen Mu's eyes were still tightly closed, and Shen Mu's face was so white that it was almost transparent. Sang Jingyu's heart trembled again.

When Shen Mu fell ill, his mind was blank, as if he couldn't think of anything, but he didn't want to think about anything.

If Shen Mu leaves here...

Sang Jingyu didn't dare to think about anything. It was this man who had been chasing him for ten years. Although he was repeatedly rejected by him, his ghost always lingered. For ten years, more than 600 days and nights, he didn't know Shen Mu How did he persevere, and what is worthy of Shen Mu's persistence, but now, not only will he never get back this sincerity, but even this person may... have to...

What can he blame now?Is it too late to blame "love" for this kind of thing?Without Shen Mu's ten years of hard work, he would not be able to exchange for the love he has now. He is as sincere as a stone, but it's okay, if he hurts someone, he hurts himself, even if he has missed it, it's better than completely. Live up to.It took Shen Mu ten years, or 13 years, and he, Sang Jingyu, will pay back one by one from now on, and he will pay back double, whether he is here or...not here.

The wind was a bit chilly, and Sang Jingyu himself had a fever, and his body temperature was so high that he didn't know whether hugging Shen Mu like this was keeping him warm or hurting him, but Sang Jingyu could only guard him like this at this time, there was no better way.

After a long time, Shen Mu finally moved a little.

"Shen Mu?" Sang Jingyu came back to his senses.

"Sang Jingyu...you regret it now...it's still too late." Shen Mu's voice was hoarse, and his voice was weak, but what he said surprised Sang Jingyu for a moment.

"Shen Mu, you..." Sang Jingyu felt as if his chest had been hit by a sap, and he could hardly breathe due to the pain.He closed his eyes, adjusted his breathing, and after a while he could calmly say in a low voice: "Shen Mu, I am no longer who I used to be, and now I finally understand what love is like, so just look at you like this." I will feel pain, but I won't regret it, and I don't want to prove anything to you, I just... can't leave..." After speaking, he couldn't continue, his voice was a little choked.

Hearing this, Shen Mu didn't say a word for a long while, it was because Sang Jingyu fell in love with him suddenly now, he felt that it might be good for Sang Jingyu to leave, otherwise, seeing him sick every day, when he didn't love him I can still turn a blind eye, but if I really fall in love now, how can I bear to see the pain of the person I love?

He suddenly felt Sang Jingyu kiss his forehead, and then said with a sigh: "Shen Mu, when you say that, where do you put yourself? You are always like this, before... I couldn't help you in the past. Whatever you do, I always hope that I can still do some things in time, in short, you once loved me like that, at least I can't...I can't make you feel regret..." He struggled to utter the last sentence, biting the words They were all trembling, and felt like they were suffocating for a moment. It was because he woke up too late, and he did regret it, but as long as he thought of Shen Mu's regret for falling in love with him, then he……

Shen Mu slightly opened his eyes. At this moment, there was a fog in front of him, but he still tried to turn in Sang Jingyu's direction, and then said: "Sang Jingyu, I don't regret this matter." He paused, He said again: "Although I have given up long ago, I have never regretted it." These are his sincere words, he will not easily deny the ten years he fell in love with, no matter how Sang Jingyu pushes him away, and he does not care about the person he loves Is it just Sang Jingyu's superficiality? Because of the facts, even he himself does not allow to use the word "regret" to look at everything in those ten years.

His words made Sang Jingyu bow his head deeply suddenly, Shen Mu felt Sang Jingyu's forehead against his own, his breath was burning hot as if it was about to burn, but his face was Suddenly there was a warm liquid, drop by drop, dripping down continuously.

Sang Jingyu didn't speak again, he seemed to be unable to utter a complete sentence, and he didn't know what else to say to express the emotions surging out of his heart like waves.Only Shen Mu's sentence, he knew enough.If Shen Mu doesn't regret it, then how can he hurt him even the slightest bit.The current him cherishes the ten years when Shen Mu loved him so much, even though he was 13 years late, but fortunately Shen Mu is still alive now, he finally found him again.

"Shen Mu..."

Sang Jingyu's voice sounded a bit depressed, but he still couldn't help calling out the name "Shen Mu" again.He knew that he was crying again, he had never shed so many tears in his life like today, he couldn't tell whether it was because of excitement or pain, but he knew that Shen Mu couldn't be aware that he was suffering from pain, Because at this moment, no matter how painful he is, he must stay by Shen Mu's side, so it's better to let him see his happy side.Now he finally understood why Shen Mu was still smiling before leaving even though he was in pain. He thought that since Shen Mu could do it, he should try his best to do it for him.

The wind picked up again, but Sang Jingyu still hugged Shen Mu, maintaining the same posture without moving.Shen Mu blinked his eyes slightly, finally he could see again slowly.

"Sang Jingyu..." He leaned against Sang Jingyu's arms, and Sang Jingyu buried his head in the socket of his shoulders and never raised it again.

Shen Mu reached out and patted Sang Jingyu's hand wrapped around his waist.

Due to Shen Mu's movements, Sang Jingyu immediately raised his head and asked him, "How are you?"

"It's much better." Shen Mu replied, "Go back quickly, we all need to rest." He tried to stand up while speaking, Sang Jingyu helped him up, let go of his hands, and then took off his clothes The coat shone on Shen Mu's body, and asked him: "Can I go?"

Shen Mu nodded, but did not refuse Sang Jingyu's care.He was sweating all over, and it was naturally colder when he was blown by the wind, but he was also worried about Sang Jingyu's situation, but it's superfluous to say anything now, it's better to go back early, although it's not far from his home, it still takes nearly 15 minutes time.Sang Jingyu kept walking behind Shen Mu, as if worried that Shen Mu would fall down at any time, he deliberately took a step away.

Shen Mu was indeed still a little weak, he was just trying his best to persevere, and when he arrived at the residence, he said to Sang Jingyu: "The bed is a bit small, you just need to lie down for a while, I also need to lie down for a while, I will be fine in a while."

"It doesn't matter, I..." Sang Jingyu was about to say that he could sit anywhere, but when he entered the room, he found that there was only one bed, but another table, but there was no sofa and only a small stool , there is no other place to lie down, not even the ground is enough for him to lie down, so he didn't say any more.

Shen Mu just took off Sang Jingyu's windbreaker and went to bed with it. He reserved half of the space for Sang Jingyu, including the quilt on his body.He couldn't support himself, so naturally he didn't care if Sang Jingyu would dislike the things he used.But how could Sang Jingyu dislike him?He just felt that such an opportunity was too precious, as if in a dream.He went to bed as promised, covered Shen Mu carefully, and then lay down.Even if he couldn't bear to sleep, he knew that he couldn't do without rest now.His body was burning badly, and his head was hurting badly, he didn't dare to get too close to Shen Mu, for fear of hurting Shen Mu, then he closed his eyes and fell into a coma.